i just wanna start off by saying that this isnt a pro mileven rant, not a pro monologue tag, definitly not me saying that i think el and maxs relationship doesnt need more developement or ANYTHING LIKE THAT okay so if u are gonna feel like arguing just know that ill block u bc i really dont feel like arguing abt this

the take that saving max should be enough motivation for el makes me so sad. like obviously she wants to. but shes been thru literal hell and back and shes so exhausted.

can we do a recap? her dad dies. she needs to move away from everything she knows and has been learning to know for the past couple of years. she feels like a weirdo in this new place. she feels like her bf doesnt love her because he doesnt use words to show it and els used to being loved thru words only because thatsthe only way people loved her for most of her life becuase nobody every cared abt her enough to do anything else. now apart from this emotional stuff shes got going on, her already feeling like shit abt herself, this literal kid has once again the pressure to save everyone and everything. she goes back to being the lab subject she so badly fought to stop being, not to mention the man that made her life hell is there, watching it all and she needs to trust him fully. she goes thru seeing and reliving her awful childhood, when even people like her though she was a freak. she trusts henry, shes happy to know hes like her and they understand each other. only to realize hes the cause of all of the bad shit that has happened since she left the lab. but she still blames herself because shes the one who opened the gate in the first place. so basically all of her wounds reopened and her life is going to shit and everyone and everything she loves is in danger. and she now needs to save max. what the fuck is she suppoed to do?? theres this 15 year old girl who feels like and unlovable monster who is the cause of everything and anything bad. and now??? the life of her best friend???? is directly on her hands????

why is it so bad for her to need verbal confirmation that shes loved unconditionally, that shes strong, that she can do this, that shes not a monster? maybe you didnt like the monologue itself. maybe you dont like mileven. whatever. you can not like either. but going as far as saying that it was unecesary for her to recieve those kind of words?

not to point out again, that el has gained her strength from anger so far. this time, her strength is coming from love. shes fighting not out of spite, not out of repressed feelings, but out of love, out of wanting to be a superhero because she feels like living and loving.

idk people disliking that just makes me so sad.