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trickarrows-bishop · 10 months

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LIVE BLOG OF ME REACTING TO EPISODE FIVE OF HSMTMTS

was gonna do this for episode four and forgot, kinda wish i did after all of THOSE scenes but anyways episode five lets GOOOOOO

[open with caution, i didn't realise how mentally unprepared i was]

THE WAY EJ WAS ON THE MOTHERFUCKING BANNER MADE ME SCREAM TBH LIKE BROTHER U WANT ME TO CRY FR FR

"richard bowen" "elton john" caswen is upon us (i cant even say im delusional because madlyn deadass nearly happened last episode)

"the musical is going swimmingly" girl u drowning dont lie

BYE NOT THE NEVER-ENDINGLY USED PLOT OF THE IDEA OF THE MUSICAL BEING CANCELLED I CANT GET AWAY FROM THIS FR

i gotta say kourtney repeatedly getting her moment is insane. like im so fucking happy rn over it its insane. like she's going therapy (WOOOOO THERAPY !!) and actually looking at her future !! im so happy for her im fr putting ms girl in my pocket

also when i found out her mom is played by dara's actual mom i screamed (not lying im so dramatic bye)

"lets start with questions!!" "great 'cause i have many" she is me and i am her. i am kourtney greene coded fr

4 JOBS??? EJ'S DAD CAN SUCK A DICK FR IDEC HE IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE MAN

i cant even say i want it made up bc ej said its a breath of fresh air and HE NEEDS THAT AIR FFS

"talking to val" WOHOOOO MENTION OF PAST CHARACTERS INSANE BEHAVIOR FROM THE WRITERS !! INSANE !! (im in delusion that nini will be back)

"you do look good" "thanks. you do look... terrible" real. ricky bowen me coded fr

cant believe we havent had one season where gina can just. have the lead. and no drama. like pls tim i was BEGGING like. at season two.

caitlyn (actress playing quinn the director) is so hilarious to me like i've been following her online for ages and bro its so funny seeing her on hsmtmts and doing exactly what she does in her other videos LMAO

"g force" i'll puke. fuck off.

GINA KINDA GAGGED QUINN THERE ???

LMFAO NOT HER CHANGING HER MIND JUST AT THE IDEA OF WINNING AN AWARD

EJ and ricky's duet lol they hate me. they want me to cry. im eight mins in too. cant wait to cry to this fr

update: crying over this duet what the fuc

can i just say how for certain songs on this soundtrack they've been HITTING or absolutely MISSING ???

this girl harper is GAGGING kourt LMAO "i see you standing here right now !!" SHES SO FUNNY FOR NO REASON

miss jenn is not using siri rn.

CARLOS BB :(

SIRI SHUSH WITH UR BEEPING

trust the process WOHOOOO

why is it thunderstorming JESUS

22 pages U FUCKIN WHAT (never been in a musical idk seems like a lot)

why is she always wearing a cheer outfit its deadass like the character's personality is cheer outfit bro

"3 children" i need to buy a GUN

quinn i was just routing for u babe why u posting such bullshit on instagram. and was that a FILTER?

BIG RED???FHHSDHFADSJGHFKSDJHFASDKJBFSKV

BIGGIE ???dFHAKSDHFAKSJDHGFKASHDG IS THAT MY SON ???? MY SON ???? IS HE ALSO WEARING GLASSES WHAT THE FUCK OF FUCKS

anyways let me actually play the scene LOLZ

HIS FIRST WORDS ARE "ASH YOU LOOK AMAZING" BYE CANT DO THIS WHY WAS I ROUTING FOR MADLYN FFS

YK WHAT? ASHLYN HAS TWO HANDS. YEAH. THAT CAN WORK FOR ME

grandma red's 100th!! everyone cheered fr (i am everyone)

"your last text said you had something important to tell me" no i am not about to witness redlyn break up. nononono.

I KNEW IT

THE FUCKING MOMENT SEB SAID HE CHEATED I CONNECTED THE DOTS I WAS LIKE

"HMMMMM BIG RED JUST CAME OUT AS BI ??? YOU CHEATED ???? IDK ??? MAYBE SEB HELPED OR SOMETHING" LITERALLY SAID THAT SHIT OUT LOUD AND I WAS RIGHT HOLY FUCK OF FUCKS

"surprise!!" boy- i don't have TIME to even unPACK-

"you okay?" "i am GREAT" me when i LIE

HOLD UP

DID HE JUST

DID RICHARD JUST

MENTION NINI???? WHA

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

THIS WASN'T ON MY HSMTMTS SEASON 4 BINGO CARD?!!!!????

yeah im salty about how shit of an exit that was for nini. next question.

"afraid of the truth?" do u want me to try and make this gay or not richard cuz i stg u are giving me some mixed ass signals

nevermind this is really sad and heartbreaking let me shut the fuck up

AND NOW WE GO BACK TO REDLYN OKAYYYY

THE MOVIES??? BIG RED AND SEB AT THE MOVIES ???

all of this is just so out of character for big red and seb like what

like ej was right there tim come ON

"we were at a harry styles movie" not the fucking millennial ass writing coming in NOW

"my bi origin story" how am i supposed to feel rn??? because i don't know how to feel. like. anything. at all.

GIRL YOU BETTER TELL HIM ABOUT VAL OR MADDOX ???

"yeah!!! she was cute!!!" "yes. she was." BAHAHHAHAJHFGDSKJ

"wait..." NOT THAT BEING THE WAY SHE CAME OUT BAHHDSJH

"there were fireworks... literally"

OHHHHH SHES TALKING ABOUT MADDOX TOO UHM

"YOU almost kissed MADDOX" bro idk if ur disgusted or proud pls elaborate

OH HE KNEW FROM THE DOC LMFAO

wait so im just like ??? meant to let go of redlyn ??

"im happy for you" kms where can i get a big red

aLSO I WANT A NAME REVEAL tim PLEASE

just watched redlyn break up. now FUCKING WHAT

"friends, though... right?" YOU BET YOUR ASS KING

"i will apologise to carlos. BUT YOU NEED TO CALL MADDOX" SO REAL THANK YOU BIG RED UR SUCH A KING

ashlyn stop doubting urself like GIRLIE everyone with EYES is down bad please. PLEASE.

WHY AM I WATCHING CARLOS AND MISS JENN HAVE A CRY SESSION ON SOME RANDOM ASS COUCH ???

why is rehearsals starting at 7 in the evening. that would not fucking slide at my school. ( if i ran a school) (not happening)

"FIFTY SIX MINUTES" girl even made me move tf?

KOURTNEY'S SHOES WHAT THE FUCK I NEED THEM RIGHT NOW

oh come on just hearing all of that she HAS to go to lewis

"i just learnt mack and gina are minors" GIRL ??? WHAT DID YOU THINK-

quinn shouting "CUT!!!" louder every time

"which felt like... nine days" WHY AM I LAUGHING

"because we're friends-" bro fuck off idc

GAG HIM G IT DONT MATTER

THINK OF THE MUSICAL GINA.

ricky PROMISED FR HE BETTER BE THERE

"hugs i love that we're doing this now!!" emmy I CANT NOT LOVE YOU

ASHLYN U MAKE THAT PHONE CALL THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU I NEED MADLYN RN

oh fuck i didn't realise that left carlos and big red FUCK

suddenly i DON'T want to be here

carlos can never be fully mad like if i found out someone had kissed my partner im 100% going to jail bc im so pissed off & i've probably killed someone, but why is he saying mf "good day!!" as he stormed off

MADISON FUCK OFF I AM NOT IN THE MOOD

fuck im really gonna have to have madlyn dragged out for me ffs

bro what is this weather on about tho

last time weather was important to plot it was like. keeping nini back in s2 e3 LMAO ???

EJ saying some important shit to ricky and its gonna make me cry again (its not even the finale and i have 17 mins of run time left of this episode FFS)

"im actually hurting them?" "no, you're actually hurting yourself" HOLY FUCK IM TOO VULNERABLE FOR THIS

CASWEN HUG AND IM GONNA RUN WITH IT FR

"stealing my girlfriends" BYE I CANT DO THIS

#hsmtmts #hsmtmts season 4 #hsmtmts season 4 spoilers #will reblog with the second half because i have a few more thougths LMFAO

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kl4us4 · 7 years

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MEET AGAIN (Bellamy Blake x Reader)

Request: could u pls do a bellamy x reader where ur the girl hanging off the cliff at the start of s2 when factory station crashes but u and Bellamy had like a thing on the ark bc same station and like it kinda starts a relationship or smth but like real cute pls bc ur writing is like amazing x

A/N: Aww thanks xoxox

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You’re not sure how long you’ve been at the edge of this cliff for. But you know you don’t have much longer. These are your last moments. There’s no point looking for a way out, you’re stuck here. So you wait, either for your death or a miracle. What’s left of the ground beneath you begins to shake and you whimper in fear. Maybe this is the end for you. Maybe you were never meant to live on Earth.

“Hey!” Someone calls from above, you can barely hear the voice from how loud your heart is, “Up here.” You stay completely still, wondering if the voices you hear from above count as a miracle or a delusion.

Craning your head up, you see figures looking down at you, “Please help me!” You beg, squinting your eyes as you try to see who’s up there. Hopefully they’re not grounders here to kill you.

“Y/N?” The voice calls out. Bellamy’s breath hitches as he looks down at you with wide eyes. He honestly thought he would never see you again.

Murphy speaks up, his eyes cast down on you, “You know her?” He looks to Bellamy, who tries to ignore the look Finn gives him. All Finn wants to do is leave.

“I knew her on the Ark.” Bell replies, stepping away from the edge. You furrow your eyebrows, wondering if you’ll be rescued or left for dead. Finn pulls Bellamy aside and you look down, knowing you can’t hold on any longer.

“We’ll come back for her.” Finn assures Bell, giving him a desperate look.

He shakes his head, “No. We’re getting her now.”

You let out a loud scream as the rocky edge beneath you collapses and you’re left gripping onto the tree beside you. Bellamy rushes to the edge, his eyes land on you, “Y/N, hold on!”

“I can’t.” You shout back as you feel tears begin stinging your eyes. Your chest heaves erratically as you look down. It’s a long and painful way down, “It hurts!”

“Focus on me, on my voice.” Bellamy tells you, hoping you’ll listen to him. He hasn’t seen you in so long and now that he’s finally found you, he doesn’t want to lose you, “I won’t let you fall, okay? You just have to hold on a little longer... for me.”

“Bellamy,” You whine, feeling tears stream down your cheeks, “I don’t know...”

He swallows nervously, looking at how your face is scattered with cuts from the landing. He wishes he could get rid of the pain but he’s too far away. “Yes you can, Y/N. You’re strong. I’m not gonna let you die. I promise.”

A few minutes later, your arms are killing you. They shake, a burning sensation shooting through your right arm so intense you think it might be broken. As a breeze sends chills along your spine, you silently ponder if they’ve left you. You know they’ve thought about it, especially Finn - it’s not like you’re deaf, you heard his reluctant words when Bell had put them to work on making a new rope. Hearing footsteps from above, you look up. He’s there! He’s coming to rescue you. Excitement rushes to your chest, mixing in with the nervousness already present. Bellamy quickly makes his way down, one hand holding the rope another against the edge of the earth. “Just hang on.” He grunts breathlessly, looking down, “I’m nearly there.”

Reaching his hand out, his places it on your lower back. You can’t help but keep your eyes on him, remembering when you two were close. It seems so long ago now. He pulls you closer to him, his eyes glancing between you and the unsettling fall under him. “Thank you.” You tell him, sniffing as you blink the tears away.

He gives you a small smile, happy to be this close to you again, “Don’t thank me yet.” He looks at your hands as you grip onto the tree, “I’ve got you, you can put your arms around me.”

Your eyes widen, “I don’t-”

“Remember on the Ark,” He interrupts you, his voice gentle and reassuring, “At that stupid ball we went to. You wanted to dance with me.” He smiles fondly and it takes your mind off your impending death, “And you somehow convinced me to.”

Nodding, you remember how lovely that night was, “You’re a terrible dancer.”

He chuckles softly, “Well, it’s just like that. Put your arms around me like you did before.” Still not sure, you gulp the dryness in your throat away. You feel the fear inside your chest but you do it anyway. As you wrap your arms around his neck, your bodies swing slightly but he holds you steady. “I got her!” Bell yells to his friends above, “Pull us up!”

“Don’t you worry guys, I won’t drop ya.” Murphy shouts back, grunting as he pulls on the seat belts. Making your way up the side of the cliff, you feel Bell’s hands grip onto your shirt tightly and for some reason it makes you feel a tiny bit better. He was being honest, there’s no way he’s going to let you fall. Hearing loud grunts from above, you’re suddenly dropped a metre down. You yelp as you cling to Bellamy, wondering what happened. When you begin sobbing into his chest, he rubs your back comfortingly.

“Bellamy, you gotta cut her loose!” Finn yells.

“No.” Bellamy shouts back incredulously.

Thinking it over, you speak up, “It’s okay.” You tell him, “I’ll understand if you do it.”

“Y/N, there’s no way in hell I’m leaving you.” He says as your bodies swing left to right, making you feel dizzy. You turn to him, your breath mixing with his, “Just hang on.”

Murphy, Finn, and Monroe continue pulling at the rope with everything they’ve got. Their hands burn and their muscles ache but in no time at all, you can see them. Placing his hand on your lower back, Bellamy guides you up the edge and when you’re on safe land, you sink to the ground. Looking up at the sky, Bell watches you breathe and he smiles, “Now you can thank me.”

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