Sleeve progress Sunday!

Update: Finished Object!

fawk.kk..........

i like it more in this version :-) im glad that they changed it from like. okay im going to be honest guys #Sorry but in the last version ketas death Pissed Me Off . . . mainly because of one line that was basically madelis mocking keta for being stupid and being like "ohhhh it looks like your main goal here was to die after all...!!" and then keta just Agreeing. that was like. the worst line ever. can u stop glorifying ur suicide and like Get a Job....

because keta was ALSO like "i was so dumb and stupid back then too" in the past version THAT MAKES IT WORSE THAT YOUR JUST TRYING TO KILL YORUSELF RN? THIS JUST SUCKS OVERALL? WHY CANT U COME RUN WITH USSSS? mini rant over .

but i like his death lots in 13.5..... ahhhh! i am bad with words but. ohhh how i love you keta. hes so stupid. bro thought emotions were for one day only He Mad!!!! got his heart sealed off but it doesnt even Matter because bro love aelita and his family and his village I know what you are.

he's so freakingggggggggg. god. in another live you wouldve fucking loved raspberry yogurt

me when Sam Puckett from iCarly has Pete and Andy in her locker,,,,,, 

i wonder if there’s something to be said about the fact that wilbur was trapped on a train platform for all that time-  a place where travel should be within reach

for jack and tommy, even ghostbur, the afterlife was a void, empty and without any real structure to it at all, simply existence with some debatably physical aspects (which we can get from the fact that tommy and wilbur played cards). but wilbur’s was arguably the physical embodiment of his mindset when he died. he’s tied to existence, despite at the time being desperate to escape it. moving on seems within reach, like it did on november the 16th, but there’s something else stopping him from quite achieving it

also, while technically there have been 5 (not including ghostbur) canon ‘final’ deaths, ghostbur and glatt are the only ones so far to have an element of themselves manifest in the physical realm, and both claim to experience death in a different way to what jack and tommy briefly witnessed- wilbur has the jubilee line, and schlatt has his gym as their primary ‘location’ after death, almost like their ghost counterparts are still tying them to physicality, and denying them the simple void that those who don’t have ghosts experience

Review of. Courtney Benham Sauvignon Blanc Napa Valley 2019

My roommate HAated it

I had a long day of work so the alcohol is hitting me harder rn I think I'm seriously already intoxicated. I can feel it. Also I only barely ate

Really nice mouthfeel as you sip, very elegant and smooth with no issue, medium bodied wine with only semi dry afterfinish (not very dominant)

Highkey green apple and pear notes I'm not fucking listening to them saying peach. I don't get peach. I get grapefruit. It's got sour notes on it (positive)

Said to pair with teriyaki or thai chicken... following that line I paired with teriyaki shrimp since it was my dinner plans. High agree, very nice complements to the mouthfeel there

I fucking am already drunk somehow ofd 3//4ths a glass . I hsd a long (but nice) day at work and yet somehow I'm already drunkm Im tired. Waver love me he'll take me to bed. don't worry

13.5% Abv

Decided to make a tumblr to motivate myself to lose weight bc my life is not worth living rn and I hate myself c:

I *had* an IG back from when I was BMI 13.5-14.2ish with 5k+ followers. Then I got forced into recovery in September even though I still b/p every so often and restrict and was frequently having vodka for meals so the closest I got was remission... I give up. I hate my weight-restored body and gender dysphoria makes me miserable. Anyways

Height: 5'8

CW: last weight was 118-9 lb (BMI 18) in hospital gown in a psych ward 2 weeks ago, estimating around the same or slightly lower bc I have been trying to lose since then and purging more. I pray I'm not over 120 but my period has stopped and I'm not pregnant so maybe I lost some?

I am literally homeless and can't afford a scale so idk how this will go. I have a tape measure

GW: 105 lb (BMI 16) for now

HW: ~135 lb yikes

LW: 85 lb. Frankly wish I was back there although I hated b/ping for 12 hours straight every two or three days (and 2-3 x on "good" days)😪

I doubt anyone will follow this shit but anyway I will post things related to both my weight loss progress and my poetry in here

If anyone sees this I am not a pro ED person at all, I am just chronic since at least 17 if not much younger and really just trying to deal. I am also a chronic alcoholic but not drinking at the moment (which is made easier bc I am completely broke and live in a shelter) I don't work at the moment due to being in and out of psych wards for the last 1.5 years but I don't get disability and want to start stripping if clubs open anytime soon (fuck Covid)

Aside from all that I enjoy dissociating (lol), taking walks to waste time and burn calories, and writing emo poetry. I like Warrior Cats, rap music, and chain-smoking...how original 🤨

Who knew all you needed was some drugs to break through your insecurities

hello megs i'm here to ask about wips! 1, 2, 7, 16, 17, 27, and 40 if you'd like -hazel

hi hi!! thanks for stopping by i hope you're day has been good so far!

1. what's the last wip you opened? tis the damn season fic!

2. do you name your wip before, after, or during writing? generally most of my fanfic ideas come with a built-in title so usually before, but if they don't then it'll come after, or at least towards the end of one of the drafts.

7. when are you most likely to kill a character? when it makes the most sense narratively i guess? i've got a few major character death wips cooking rn (most of which are cashton for some reason? idk what it is about them but my fic ideas for them are either the most angsty idea you've ever heard of or straight up crack with very little in-between lol) and they're all integral to the plot in one way or another. i try not to write gratuitous deaths (gratuitous injuries? you betcha. but not deaths most of the time) so it tends to be very purposeful.

16. post a plot twist to a wip of your choice, but don’t say what wip it’s in: they do get together, but the first time only one of them's actually in love and the other person thinks of it as just a fling

17. beta or self-proofer? a little bit of both! i have trouble starting conversations especially online, and i still haven't figured out like, at what stage in an internet friendship you can ask them to beta (plus there's the whole 'i have trouble asking for things') so generally i don't, and i've only been able to ask you and bella beta a few things for me

27. hardest wip you've ever written? answered here but another difficult one has been my another place songfic. it's a fwb fic (and will probs be rated m?) and it's very hard for me what with my brand of ace-ness to write a fic that centers around that sort of thing in general, but this one is especially hard bc it's exploring the blurry line btwn romantic moments and moments btwn close friends. it deals a lot with the question of like "if you're truly good friends with someone and also sleeping together what's missing that would make it a romantic relationship besides the internal emotions/thoughts?" which for me is a hard question to answer! i have a complete second draft of it but there's something missing, some deep flaw, and i can't put my finger on it and it's driving me absolutely insane trying to figure it out

40. what should you be writing right now that you’re excited about? tis the damn season songfic!!! it's officially been over a year since i started it (about 13.5 months?) and i am still obsessed with the characters and the world and everything that happens in it and how good it will be if i get it right it's all so !!!!!!!! i just passed 16k on the main doc (i've cut at least 8k over time) and it's still no where close to being done but! i've got high hopes for it i've solved some plot holes and it's *so* juicy i really hope people like it once it's done bc it's probs going to have prequels and sequels and have i mentioned i love this au? bc i really love this au :))

send me wip-hoarder asks!

weeeeeee tw for alcohol mention in tags