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arcaneyouth · 11 months

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i think i have managed to trick everyone, including myself, into thinking im functional. because i can keep my art schedule really well. but everything else? a fucking disaster. but i sure can make a comic so im normal actually

#first my therapist tells me having a job probably should not be as hard as i think it is #now my parents telling me i dont do enough around the house (they are correct)#i keep finding myself with tasks to do and yelling and screaming about it and theyre the simplest fucking tasks actually #have i really been this dysfunctional the whole time????#have i just convinced myself 1) im normal just cause im on meds 2) i also should not have to do anything ever???#man. i fucking knew my ego would come for me some day.#well. guess its time to rearrange my schedule in my brain so i actually clean things up and help with the house #i cleaned up some trash today and filled up my pillbox. does that count for anything #it wasnt that hard i just didnt. know what else i could even do #maybe i can take over trash duty or something #i also have to consider the job thing some more but hhhnngng. baby steps there. baby steps.#i still have yet to even properly job search.

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