so as late as I am with watching la by night I still want to say something cause I spent the last few weeks binging it and it basically fucked up my sleep schedule (and more lol) anyway as sad as it was to see jasper distancing himself from the coterie, I think it was the healthiest and most reasonable option for him in the long run. nelli and Victor obviously care about him (I love that nelli learned to respect him - wayy more than Victor does - and I'm so happy she's his baron) and after one finishes watching the last episode it's easy to look back at older episodes in season 1 and 2 and see one big happy coterie and wish things were as they once were, but in truth jasper and the others were kinda never fully happy with one another? I might be biased because Victor was my least favorite character throughout most of the series, but I still think Victor, as excellent a ventrue as he is, was kind of..uh, abusive sometimes? to Nelli and jasper in particular. Fiona might have been in over her head and an asshole but she was right when she pointed out that limousine thing to nelli, and we had already seen nelli expressing her displeasure at Victor parading it around and making her use it by pretending that getting rid of it was a waste of a good armored limousine. it belonged to her abuser and he kept it as a reminder nonetheless. plus I really disliked some bits and pieces of his behavior toward jasper, which all came to the surface in the second to last episode in s04 when jasper got so mad and they wouldn't even make him speak a word - not to mention that Victor, even when he accommodates others, is always so.... condescending and I really don't know how jasper never tried to punch him in the face sometimes.

other than this I just wanted to say every single bit of that epilogue destroyed me and x's fate is so so so unfair and I hope he hangs around jasper after he solves his problem. the scenes in the ocean are always so hauntingly beautiful and sad, I still have a roaring headache cause of crying 🥳

lastly, I really don't want to talk about Eva - it's too sad and too shocking and seeing her descend into obsession and thinking there's no redemption for her hurt a lot and idk, I just hope she didn't hang around to see the dawn

I really hope ny by night won't break me as much as labn did (or maybe I do 😩)