thinking about ortus in HTN talking about how he failed harrow in her childhood. thinking about ortus as maybe one of the few 9th house adults that could have stepped in to support her and maybe also one of the few that saw the cycle of abuse for what it was - he knew why his father died, and even so he hated his father, was willing to leave the 9th - but in life, he failed her. and like i wonder how old little baby cavalier ortus was when he realized that something in that house was just rotten. and i wonder how lonely it would’ve been all those years, alone with ancient fanatics and 2 abused children ortus was too weak and afraid to save. i mean, until harrow puppeted her parents, he was going to have to marry harrow! and there was nothing he could do! so he retreats further into his poetry. only after death, only when it was too late, only when harrow was grown up did he have the bravery or maybe freedom or maybe distance to finally step forward.