I’ll never quite understand the discourse around whether or not Tweek is a part of Craig’s group

He may not appear as frequently as the other members but he still is pretty consistently associated with them, and has been even before he and Craig started dating

Even South Park studios lists him as a part of the group

So last night was Long Island Night, my long-anticipated (not really) cocktail event which was basically just a get-together of some of my med friends. We made cocktails and then mainly just drank a lot of the remaining alcohol and mixers in strange combinations and chilled and chatted. It was nice to see everyone getting along and just like having fun. Most of the party guests decided to crash at my house and so I struggled to find appropriate sleeping places for everyone. Eventually I got Wilson and Stuart on the couches, Kevin on Josh’s blow-up mattress on the floor, Will on the dining room couch and Fenton and Lin took my bed, so I slept on the floor of my room with my bedding and the sofa cushions (Wilson slept on a bare sofa). Everybody used the various cushions around my house and I gave them my bedsheets and empty quilt covers, bunny onesie and blankies to share around and use.

Everybody crashed quick, and Fenton, Lin and I got to have a bit of a gossip in my room with the lights out, like a sleepover. They finally explained how they stopped becoming friends with Alicia and how Quinlan and Angelica broke up and Alicia and Quinlan ended up together, and the whole story sort of made everything that I have seen in that group dynamic make sense. Personally, I was excluded from all that drama because last year dating Hamish kind of made me check out of my med friends, so it was good to feel connected to Fenton and Lin and be in the loop again, even if Quinlan and Alicia’s boring romance is irrelevant to me. It was also nice to hang out with them because I feel they are very normal people, and very nice, we are more natural friends than Kuheli and I for instance, and I think that in terms of people having my back, the people who came to Long Island Night really are my friends in that they will support me if ever I need it in life.

Anyway, the floor was dirty because (shh, don’t tell) it’s yet to be vacuumed ever since like Suzie (the girl who stayed here last) last vacuumed and I’m pretty sure she didn’t, but my room really keeps the heat in and the floor was cold in the morning, so there was that. I also kind of like sleeping in places that is not my bed, a weird side of me finds it sort of exciting so I didn’t really mind, and I couldn’t see an alternative bedding situation anyway. It was the first time all my curtains were closed, and I discovered they don’t keep the light out at all. I was up by 8, because alcohol tends to do that to me, and Will woke up and peeped in, so I went to join him and Kate and Veronica in the dining room.

Kate and Veronica had made pancakes, and so we sat with them while they had breakfast and just chilled and chatted. Lola and Charlie (Veronica’s dogs) are staying over for the week, so they wandered around, like miniature atmosphere boosters. Stuart was the next up, and we all just killed time waiting for everyone to rouse and be ready for brekky. Wilson had left early because he has tutoring in Killara in the morning, and Kevin left soon after for tutoring as well. Fenton was hung over, so Lin was getting him water, so Stuart, Will and I cleaned the living room. The living room wasn’t too trashed, someone had spilled a whole bottle of honey though, so the floor had to be mopped. Lola had left a little widdle on the floor by the dining room, and I don’t know why, but I purposely didn’t clean it up and left it to Veronica to do that because they’re her dogs – I could’ve just mopped it while I was mopping the floor, but I just didn’t – it’s probably just the leftover annoyance about chores from ages ago.

Then we all headed off to brekky (not including my housemates). We went down to Coog, because I thought it would be a beautiful idea to have breakfast by the sea and then head down to the beach. It was a beautiful day, and a beautiful idea, but I did sense a slight uncomfortableness because it was a Sunday morning and Coogee was packed with white people and my med friends were uncomfortable with the beachy vibes and just the white people dominance because the areas they live and places they hang out are generally Asian-dominated. I had forgotten about that, and it reminded me of my conversation with Kevin last night about not really fitting in in the “white” or Asian worlds, so to speak.

Because Coogee was so packed, we stopped at the Courtyard and waited for a table. There was an amazing husky on the chair next to us which was cute. Everyone ordered, and I said I’d shout everyone coffees because I felt bad that the breakfast place was expensive and that I hadn’t had a lot of bedding, so people slept on the floor and stuff. In the end I paid for brekky and said that people could transfer me, but I feel like that won’t be followed up, so I’ve ended up shouting a steep breakfast, but oh well. I added a hazelnut shot to my latte because I was feeling like splurging and had the corn fritters. It was nice to chill and have breakfast, everyone made good conversation and we really got on. Will was a bit quiet, but I accidentally gave him my blue blanky which went to Claudia’s country birthday and picked up a lot of dust for him to sleep in and he was having a pollen allergic reaction (not very bad, but clearly it was making him uncomfortable). I was also reminded of how sheltered he is as a person, because he asked me what a poached egg was, and earlier with Veronica and Kate, he said he’d never licked anything off a butter knife before. Crazy stuff.

Anyway, then we went down to the beach and people/dog-watched for a bit. There was more idle chatter, and there was a man down there being filmed making a chalk artwork promoting recycling your plastic. The actual drawing was a whale with a fish coming out of its spout, so I have no idea how that is relevant, to be perfectly honest. Stuart and I had a little daydream about travelling to Algeria and Spain at the end of the year, but honestly I don’t think it will happen, and I don’t even know if I trust him enough to travel with him, even though from all his adventures in Chile and China I know he’s the sort of person who is able to look after himself travelling. Then Will and Stuart headed home, and Fenton and Lin came back to the house to get their stuff and have a glass of water before also heading. I made them promise we’d catch up again by the end of the next course, because I think that seeing them more often would be good for me, and honestly last night really reminded me how grateful I am that I found them as friends.

Afterwards, I did my usual and had a quick debrief with Kate and then started on some lectures, trying to catch up. I caught up all of Week 1 Oncology, which I think was only one or two lectures anyway, and then caught up some of the last week of Adult Health 1, which I didn’t do because I was doing my assignment. I think it was good to revise themes from Adult Health 1 anyway, because it was a bit of a refresher, I’m forgetting the stuff we did already! After a bit my concentration started to wander, and then Raj messaged me (I don’t want to seem cocky or anything, but I really feel as if he keeps trying to catch up with me) to say he just so happened to have done the Bondi to Coogee walk and was in my area. I really didn’t even want to see him again, but last night Kevin (who met him) was trashing him to Will saying he was cocky and challenging me on why I like him, and Will was loving it and I felt uncomfortable and it made me wonder if I misjudged who Raj is. So, against my better judgment I decided I would meet him at the beach to hang for a little bit to sort of see if he was arrogant and because I felt bad for blowing him off. Also, I stressed how busy I was catching up on lectures (even though that was a bit of a lie, because I don’t really need them done) so I had to get back home, and because it was a daytime thing I didn’t see how he could try stay over or put any moves on or anything.

We had quite a nice walk, though I felt like there was some awkwardness, just because I didn’t really know what his purpose was with wanting to hang out because I had made it clear there was no hooking up on the cards. Anyway, we walked up to the rocks and looked at the baths, and from there down towards Maroubra. It was good to know he’s not arrogant, he just likes showing off a bit, but I feel lots of boys are like that, and we managed to keep good rapport/conversation, it was just a bit more guarded than before. I wonder if he felt that from his side. On the way to Maroubra we saw Kate and Veronica walking Lola. It was a bit stressful running into them with Raj because I didn’t want to give them the wrong impression, but it was all good really, and I reiterated I’d be home soon. We walked on a bit, and talked a bit about OSCEs and med, and he had some interesting stories. I realised that it’s not cockiness, but in terms of how we think we just are not quite on the same wavelength career-wise – Raj said if he didn’t do med he’d do law because it’s so lucrative despite it being shit and I could just tell while listening to him talk about his future that for him it’s more about financial stuff than like passion or clinical stuff, which is more what I’m about (too young and idealistic, I guess). Anyway, he walked with me all the way back to my house and then hovered around, but I don’t know why he’d expect to be let in, because I had explicitly repeatedly said that I had lectures to get back to, but he kept mentioning he had no plans – poor boy. We had an awkward goodbye hug and then he headed off home – all the way to Canterbury. I doubt I’ll see him again, because I’m headed off to Canberra next weekend (I have booked the Greyhound already, I’m so excited to see Bec and Sweta and Lauren and Nirish) and then he’s back off to the UK. Honestly, I’m kind of relieved but I do hope he wants to stay in contact as like a med contact friend. I get the sense we won’t keep in contact though, but I’m not that cut up about it.

Anyway, then Kate and I had a chat about Raj and Will and Kevin and just a general debrief in the kitchen while she defrosted chicken for curry (my fourth curry this week – Kuheli cooked it for curry night, Veronica cooked it the next day, I had curry last night with Stuart and Kuheli and now Kate’s cooking it again) – tikka masala and butter chicken. Lola kept crying which was really irritating, until we realised that it was Veronica and Nicky G standing outside, because Veronica left her phone and key at home and Kate didn’t pick up Nicky G’s call. Nicky G brought cupcakes and came to say hello. He was very friendly as usual, but just came to see Kate – we all lingered around and then the smoke alarm went off, so I went to take it outside and when I came back he was intently talking to Kate just about general things, so I excused myself to the living room. I did hear him invite Kate to dinner on Thursday which made me feel a bit left out, but in the end, he really isn’t my friend and I do feel that he’s not interested in pursuing a closer friendship with me, so I don’t know why being left out bothered me. I think in general I am just upset that I haven’t retained any college friends really, apart from Kate and Veronica. It kind of worries me, makes me think that I must be a weirdo because my friends are all a bit socially awkward and “normal” people like the Baxter kids just don’t want to be my friend. But it’s a stupid little insecurity and honestly, I must get over it. It’s just that I wasn’t in anyone’s face and I wasn’t part of Floor 7 last year.

Kate’s chicken curries were yummy and there was brown rice and broccolini. We have been having yet more chore dramas, because Josh didn’t vacuum last week and so he was supposed to do it this week instead of me, but he lied and said he did it before Long Island Night (when he only did the kitchen) and he had to do the kitchen as well this week because that was his actual chore this week, but he hasn’t done that either, and so I don’t know what’s happening chore-wise, and honestly he has to step up his game. There’s a pile of shit in the corridor to be vacuumed, and I have just no idea who’s going to do it, because technically it’s Veronica’s turn, but Josh didn’t do it, so he should do it, but I also didn’t do it just by being after him and him not doing it. I honestly don’t mind just doing it, same with the dishes that Josh said he’d do after he finished Brooklyn Nine-Nine and then didn’t do, but it’s that principle thing, and the fact that we can’t pick up after each other all the time, we need to set a good routine, so these issues don’t build up. Anyway, Kate and I had our usual complain about it, and then she messaged the group to remind Josh to do the dishes, so he did, and we took out the bin and I washed it. I have no idea how to get him to do/sort out the vacuuming/kitchen issue though, ugh.

Prior to this we watched Bachelor in Paradise live, it’s coming towards the end of the season and there was no Rose Ceremony this episode (there wasn’t going to be one anyway) and all the people who had drama were people didn’t like anyway, so there’s not a lot to be said about it.

We watched a bit of Border Security on the TV and a guy getting a nail pulled out of his finger, because he’d nailed it into his own finger by accident, and then we relocated to Kate’s room to try out the 7Plus website (because Kate’s exhausted all the potential watchable material on both MTV and TenPlay). 7Plus has a lot of shows, but most of them are poor, poor quality. On the flipside, the ads load and are very quick, being pretty much only for Channel 7 anyway. We watched an episode of the UK First Dates and it was funny, I can’t believe some of the characters that were there, they were so incredibly rude. None of the couples ended up together which is sort of a shame. Then it was bedtime, after a long day.

In other news, I am getting fat from eating too much, having too many snacks and drinking alcohol. My face in the mirror today was so round and bloated I felt a bit disgusted at myself, but I’ll get over it, I just must stop snacking so much. It will be easier this week, because this week is less busy at hospital, so I won’t have to stock up on so much food, and I just must be conscious. Anyway, it’s bedtime, I got hardly any sleep last night and I must be at uni by 9 tomorrow, so I don’t know how waking up and all of that is going to go but it’s a fairly easy day, just 2 CMTs.

This was a long recap, but till next time 😊.