beauty seems to be really funny most
of the time and i like dat.
this idea that sends pop
definitions of beauty running
for the hills makes for some
quality distance,
if only one step back.
what if i had any idea who i was
but could see into everybody else
phone home
cheeky cosmic touch m8
gonna think this is too easy
yeah
but not let’s feel this way
without before examining ourselves
for anything fake about it first
parting from the idea that there wasnt anyway
and then parting
cuz that knows so much
that part of me knows so much abt
what do you call it extreme fear of maudlin
i run naked thru the grass
singing abt yesteryear
...There’s a move in social situations I like to call, “around the sun” whereby you wait for the game to end to play music, or wait patiently for one plan of another to say its peace so you can say yours. I like to take it to a more extreme level and say, turn down the fuckin tv, I want to listen to a thing I find beautiful.
SONG ONE : like the earth
1.
Sit back and dream of clouded metaphors
Reveal the schemes that we devised
Back in the day, when ur hands were small
And the WORLD splayed out colorfully
Before our eyes
(chorus)
Take ur thronging bussloads of the living dead
Take all the lifetimes of a million busy heads
Ur sly intellectuals that laugh in the dome
The only place, the only place is in the peaceful tones
Of singing birds perched on ascending wires, like notes
2.
Caught u up past three, sitting on the porch
I woke up from a dream that I immediately forgot
That seems to happen a lot, especially if previously
I torched a dutch and passed the fuck out
But from the ether of my dreams
I heard, from the scope of reality
I heard you shout
(chorus)
3.
The sun and the moon both live in a box
And the box is a square made out of lead
And the square lies motionless in ur head
Like a body on the rocks
Watch the hour tuck away into an evening
A day nestled in afternoon light
From the beginning
In ur mind that made all minds the same
The twilight creeping across ur paper brain
And I can only burn and burn and burn
And I can turn round like the EARTH
And I can be a sphere like the EARTH
And I can stitch up the nations
With fear, like the EARTH
(chorus)
...people who call it a false flag just don’t wanna think it’s their own who bomb, if it can’t be a towelhead.
SONG TEW : the rainbow
The sinister rainbow blinks over the clover
And the dawn is a monster in my brain
I'll take a picture before this song is over
And I’ll fix u in a wheel to keep me sane
Don’t break out the gin for the old lady creepers
Smoke until the blur makes ur head float around
I live in hades, burn my tongue on the heater
When I lick this heaven ill taste yur sound
(chorus)
What Im saying isnt deep
What Im stealing isnt cheap
But I know that if i play it loud and long
That this song in my head will instead
Form a beat
Like a stranger in the rain
Slowly driving me insane
There's a fork in the road
And I dont know whether
Or when, all this shit will come together
In the end
2.
I got a stupid friend who lives in a pause
He takes life from the tiger’s jaws, and prays
That life begins again, after it is over
And the rainbow shines like a dream, in a daze
Ill take u thru the eye of the needle
Ill breathe a testament to ur false gods
Ill tell the truth, and contaminate the evil
And zap u like a lightning rod
(chorus)
3.
Dont you know that the rainbow is the world?
Dont you know that the news is already told?
Im gettin too old to be unfurled
Im seein the rainbow in my mind
Im waking up for the daily grind
Im singing useless things for useful people
The rainbow is not evil, its kind
Dont u know that the color kings rattle like a marble
In a tin can?
And the rainbow eats the darkness like a mother
Without a son?
Dont u know that u can never be a man?
And the rainbow drags across the empty land
And the rainbow drags across the empty land
(chorus)
(chorus)
...the only division is classical and romantic. all else is contributory to these two. postmodern, modern, no. romantic. it all follows the romantic objective. one is ruled by the time at which it occurred, and the other is ruled by the mechanism of breaking from any present time.
SONG THREE : an ending that promises to begin again
1.
A legend sleeps in yur head somewhere
You take yur trembling hands
And grope for mine, like a bum for spare
Change...
You cant explain
This strange perdition that engulfs
Yur position in the sane...
And the trouble of the pulse
That leads a broken synapse
Up into my eccentric brain...
Theres a clot in my neck
And the ruins of time
Keep me from being able to find
A comfortable spot to rest
(chorus)
Im stuck in erasure--a constant exposure
To the elements still provides me with eyes
To see bad karma writhing in my spleen
And I wonder if ill dream
While the whole WORLD is awake
Will I be the manufactured figure,
Will I be fake?
Or will I take these petty abstractions
And roll them up into a ball
And put them in my pocket
Just to feel the reason stall
In my throat...
Is life a puzzle, or a joke?
2.
The life you led one sunny afternoon
Is the life you never led again...
I can appreciate the reasons
For why you did not blend
Like a chameleon in the room
But cant discern the seasons
Of the moon
Yur whispers prosper, loud
Like a passionate apostle
And the lords are proud of ur
Painting on the wall...
That skritter of an evening gone
Is enough to scatter colors
When the sky finally falls,
And the lords are like the brothers
Of what lorded over them...
Take these idols and shatter them...
The racket in my brain is loud
And does not end
And does not end
And does not end, even when the jig is up
Cuz ive gotten fucked by time:
Its an ending that promises
To begin again
(chorus)
...Nobody starts an Apollonian, and only those are Dionysian who have the capacity for restraint needed to confer the Apollonian chariot, tho some die without a revision of the vision etc. some die restraintless
SONG FOUR : chauncey ames and the case of jenny preston
1.
Chauncey loved the flowers
Chauncey loved the trees
Chauncey smelled the wind
And knew that he was free
Chauncey took a cab home
Chauncey felt the air flow
Thru the window
He paid the driver extra
Just for keeping him
From being alone...
Back, once again
To the place that he had left
Long ago
In fact, it had been years and years and years
Since the man had seen walls
Not fortified in concrete...
In fact, it had been years and years and years
Since this man had put to rest
That lying cheat
(chorus)
Chauncey was a killer
That was his disease
Got off on manslaughter:
Fingerprints on a pair keys
Got him twelve years
For offing someone's daughter
Even tho she was eighty three
Cuz no matter how old u are
Everyone
Is a daughter or son
To someone
2.
Now he's out, but he has his fears...
Maybe people will not like him
For his past
It is unclear
Even after all the facts
Had been presented...
Whether Jenny Preston
Was murdered, or just had a bad fall
Onto a bed of broken glass
They found her in the hall
At the head of the stairs, flat on her wrinkled ass
(chorus)
Chauncey was a man of few words
But in the end he was unheard
His eyes were petrified
In delirium
His arms shook
As he held the gun
He took aim
On the good book
Instead of his brains
just to prove a point
His neck is craned
His eyes like coins
That shine their milky matter
On the barrel of a luger
(Chorus)
...doubt any of y'all would live up to the wit/confidence/sardonicism y'all judiciously sculpt for hours on the book of face.
SONG FYVE: my summer home
1.
This is food for thought
Write it down in chalk:
The chimney puffs
From the fire in the fireplace
And erupts in a black plume
And with luck
The old man
Balances a spoon
On his nose
He sits inside a room
As the room grows
Smoking from a pipe
While its raining outside
And the light
Is waning, slowly waning, outside
My fingers and my toes
Are numb to the bone
And I will have my wish
To swim with all the fish
In the sea of my mind
In time ill find
A little spot in the country
Somewhere peaceful and secluded
Ill save up all my money
And hope im not deluded
And hope that I can find a place
Thats nice, a lush spot
For a good price
(Chorus)
Do you feel that I feel you?
Do you feel that you feel me?
The time is right to live again
To let the atoms wiggle
In our spherical galaxy
That seems to have no real end
But the one that we assume
Is reality, and soon
We'll eat up all the doom
2.
Concentrate upon a single understanding
Dont let the sisters on the throne
Rage in the dome
And find out that this trip
Needs more planning to exist
The sky is silver and the universe is green
Ill show you things in this world
That you have never seen
Things that have been waiting
So long to be unfurled
Things for boys and things for girls
Without an explanation
Ill bring the nation together
And hold it by a tether
Show you things for boys
And things for girls
(Chorus)
...for example i would never be able to muster the cognitive stones to say all of this, in order, amongst the company of people, even friends
SONG SIX : notion
#1
im in the middle of this phrase
Stuck between the lines
Bless these simple chains
I'll see what I can find
In my simple mind
To lead to some way out
The drip, drip drip of water
From the trippy rusty spout
Keeps me awake
I'll explain that to ur daughter
The world is fake
The world is miles away:
Chorus:
Put a notion on the river
And see it travel downsteam
Suspended on liquid creature dreams
I sweated thru the fever
And, between the middle of this phrase
Passed all my days in solitude
And grew weaker, as the days
Passed on in solitude
You can call me daft
You can say im frozen
In technicolor time
That im stranded on an island
In the middle of the ocean
But I dont have the spine
To wiggle thru the shaft
And give you back
This simple notion
#2
I gots a paper boat
Lofting on the water
It travels down ur purple throat
And dissolves in the water
I set a fire just to see if it could think
And I questioned the venom
Just to see if it could blink
Nonsense on the edge
Of the bullshit day
Chillin on the ledge, you shape the clay
And drive the screws on down
And drive the screws on down
I thought of you, thought of you
And I felt like a clown
(chorus)
#3
I crawl out, I crawl out
I crawl out of bed
I walk down the hall
To turn the notion into thread
And whisper rumors to the dead
Sometimes I try to talk
And my voice drops
Sometimes the vague paralysis
Defies analysis
And you are left sitting on a chair
In a yellow room
That is a technicolor tomb
Without a door, confined and spare,
I crawl, I crawl
I crawl out of bed
And walk down the hall
And fall and fall and fall
Into the creation of sound
Until I hit the ground
And everything is mother night
And the imperfections in yur eye
Spangle in the strange notion of the twilight
(chorus)
(chorus)
...the broad concept of subjectivity has as much to do with a detailed exegesis of one tenet of it as death itself with the specific way we die
SONG SEVEN : collected and connected
You're a sharp one
You're a dumb one
You got nobody
But the people in yur head
And everybody is connected
But you aint connected to them
Yur a ghost, on the interim
While the fringes die out
You live them out
To the last splinter
Until it is winter
And the trees are all white with snow
And the blue wind blows
Yu spend twenty minutes
Feeling for the lightswitch
In a room made out of figments
That you shovel into a ditch
And bury, along with all yur
Dangerous ambitions
And as you drive away, you feel
The religion
Of yur memories corrupt u
And yu reel
CHORUS.
Cuz everyones connected
Everyones collected
Into the same intangible organism
That lives life in the schism
Of ur teeth
I watch ur lips move
And cannot hear u speak
I pick up on the clues
and watch the pressure leak
Until all of it is used
And nothing much is left
To be abused
Everyones connected by a string
That trembles across the space
Of every living thing
The fractions of my face
illuminate in the light
I shake when i sing
I am a yellow kite
Mangled in a tree
Forgotten by the breeze
I am a thing, wafting in the breeze
But I have begun again, my friend,
Just by following the string
Follow, follow the string
#2
Two days ago the WORLD was made of angles
I opened my eyes to the lost ways
And came upon a shallow swale
The brush and branches tangled
And the rays of the sun, barely
Coming thru the jail
Of the scary fray
Dont you think that yur fellow men
Would like to lend a hand?
And dont you think
That this desert you have crossed
Only gets u more lost
Until u arrive at the brink
Of the sahara, and find
A single, solitary house
Where a mumbling old man
Is confined
(CHORUS)
(CHORUS)
i always dress nice when i have no place to go. otherwise i look like a sweaty coked up hobo. its my chic, paranoid hobo chic. my comportment u say? quirky to the acquaintance, somewhat sad to the friend, an endearing mix of both with a dash of worry to the best friend, and an embarrassment to the significant other. im usually the life of the party bc i bring drugs so people are forced to tolerate my horror of a personality.
rejection is a rare and beautiful flower
my time is spent tending it
my life
wants it to be a gift
i water the flower
it sits next to my bed
it is next to a lamp
littered under the lamp
are dead ladybugs
ladybugs are all over my house
but if i am not meant i am not meant
and i cast my line of poetry here
trying to figure out if it was meant to be there
wonder exactly why what is innumerable
can be rare
and think of lots of things
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anyways, ill say bye now... i hope ure well rested and have a good day!! (wait, i remember what i wanted to ask!! at least i think this is what i wanted to ask? anywys, do u know what u want to do now that ure finished w school? if u dont mind me asking, of course, i understand if u think its a bit personal!) ok, now im done, have a good day!! take care and stay hydrated!! (and now i really did send u a bunch of asks..)
omg i hope u dont mind but ill be answering the stuff from ur last ask here (the one where i… deleted everything) under cut bc itll be 2x longer now
so first !!!!! how i got into kpop!!! it was thanks to my good pal (@.briwoon) boxy! i follow her on twitter and despite her being a day6 stan twt i had her unmuted anyway bc.. after years of being an anime blog on tumblr and seeing all my anime mutuals slowly converting into kpop blogs one by one i was able to filter the kpop out of my brain?? smth like that since back then i wasnt into kpop and i didnt want to unfollow since im mutuals with most of them :-0
another backstory - i was one of those people who never saw themselves getting into kpop? and i think the main reason was bc i thought liking kpop would make u seem lame?? due to the influence from people around me?? but as years went by and as my mutuals changed interests it stopped bothering me and that mindset kind of just? faded away bc who am i to call other people’s happiness bad?? but despite being okay with it i never really made the move to get into any groups lmao that was until i got tired of my interest at that time (seiyuu, japanese voice actors) and my interests would always. not last?? idk so maybe thats why i didnt want to get invested but it happened regardless
anyway usually i wouldnt take notice of her rts but this . this beautiful man with orange hair and minion glasses caught my eye when i was scrolling through my timeline and i was like o worm? oh mu god? hes beautiful? so i slid into her dms and asked her whomst the beautiful man was and she sent me all their mvs after that from congratulations to i smile (the most recent mv at that time, late june) for me to watch :-D now at that time, from what little knowledge i had of kpop.. i understood that groups would be singing and dancing so i was prepared to see some sick moves or smth?? but then. i clicked on miss i smile and my wig flew off? bc… wtf.? they were playing instruments???? and they sounded good ??? so i was like oh my god? a band??????
before day6 i also had (have) a preference for bands and the way their music sounds so i was like?? ready to just. get on board yknow?? i watched how can i say and i saw the lanky noodle wearing glasses and i was like o fuck mu life? i caved and asked boxy for their names and other information and best decision of my life bc.. they really make me happy!!! after that like the day after ? myabe they did a vlive and i was like o shit? what do i do… so i downloaded the vapp and wowie i love it? its my second home…… i watched every vlive they had at that time and i thought that was a lot… (it isnt, compared to mx) and i was just rly content??
(ok i know u asked for kpop and not … day6 or other groups bc im gonna talk abt how i got into mx and astro too bc…… how can i Not.. u can skip this part tho i just wanna ramble abt my loves? ill tell u when u can continue)
that was peak happiness for me at that time.. until… boxy started talking about monsta x in our groupchat (with @.tokayhk) and she would just ramble abt this kihyun fella (who i vaguely knew bc my real life friend likes him and mx and i bought her his pc before along with the guilty clan part 2) so i was like hmm interesting… and honestly? i wasnt going to get into monsta x i really wasnt planning on asking her abt them (since i was scared id lose interest in day6 right after) but then.. she started linking videos and i .. my resolve crumbled down as i heard monsta x yelling and … this beautiful cover (which boxy sent to show us how powerful kihyuns vocals are but i was 2 focused on mister aka minhyukku) and she told us how funny these monsta men are and i was like o h no…………….. eventually one day in late august i asked her to tell me more about these monstas…… aftert that i watched every mxray episode (starting from season 2 bc i dont know 1 comes before 2) and even though i didnt know anyone who was on screen except jooheon i found it really funny and?? it made me laugh so much i love mx?? ya… boxys kind of like my guardian angel?? shes really the reason im living tbh… introducing me to all these lovely people?? thank u miss boxy i love u
now. for the astrosus….. they were a bit different.. because i didnt have boxys help and they were the first group i took interest in solely bymyself so i knew i was in for a wild ride (at first, i couldnt even differentiate brian from sungjin in day6 lmao) after stanning monsta x and day6 i became more?? open to kpop and i started watching unhelpful guides on youtube bc . they were funnie and idk its nice??/ and i stumbled upon the astro one (which wasnt that funny but more helpful than anythng) and i was like. oh worm? the cicada group… bc i watched a short clip of them catching that stupid cicada in their office as it appeared on my tl one day so i clicked on the video ..and after watching that it led me to another video of astro being extra for 6 minutes and those six minutes/????? best six minutes of my life because theyre so fnny and they made me laugh a lot? (combined with the editing from op) so bc they were funnie i decided to look them up and read their profiles/??? i watched their nimdle video and only knew mj bc his tag was the two letters m and j lol but it really made me bust both of my lungs i just?? laughed A Lot
im not sure how i managed to put name to face so quickly but it mightve been bc after the nimdle videos i watched every ddoca and astro play as well as their vlives available bc.. i just inhale the content at godspeed??
for mx and astro i was drawn in by their personalities before their music because they were on more variety shows and had more chances to show dorky they all are which made it way quicker for me to fall for the two groups??? for day6 its a bit sad but the weekly scheduled vlives arent enough for me to tell what kind of people they are (although those r still hilarious) i just wish they would go on more variety shows?? its understandable if they themselves dont want to be on any shows though!!! i love all 3 groups with all my heart :-D
ok if u skipped u can start from here ill be answering the questions now lmao
FIRSTof all,,,,, youre learning how to drive?? thats so cool >:-0 we’re not allowed to learn until we’re like...?? 18?? or 21 idk but not so Soon :-( and its cute u think abt me (or of what to say) but pleaseth stay safe... i hope ur driving lessons go smoothly until u end theM!!! hopefully youll be able to get ur licence :-D
aNDD!!! the thought of drinking warm tea when its cold outside.. is so ?? nice to think about hecc u better drink that tEA and enjoy it !!!! stay warm and comfy miss RM ..... and it even snows there????? thats so cool tbh ?? (i love snow but maybe thats bc it doesnt snow here so i dont know the tru evil of snow but like.... its so.... white and fluffy??) i would ask u 2 take pics and show me but alas...... the time is not right :-( do u know when we’re allowed to expose ourselves?? i forgot rip... but its sometime next month right im excited???? since its near my birthday !!!!!
ok now to answer this ask no i actually have no clue what i want to be after i finish school?? yikEs but last year i (jokingly) said i wanted to be a farmer??? idk if i might actually do that probably not i guess im just freestyling (going with the flow) for now we’ll see where life takes me
and like i said u can ask me anything !!! im fine with it :-) alsooooo please dont ever feel bad about sending too many asks bc its a lovely thing to wake up to and i just?? get rly happy when i see all the asks in my activity :-D!!
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