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behindthebrokenframe · 1 year

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[ 23 < cold ]

it wasn’t meant to end up like this. we weren’t meant to.

you promised me different.

though i always knew i would be the fractured in the end. i always knew but still let you take me.

and you took me over.

over and over.

and i let you. i needed you. and i need. still do.

but not like this. not when you look at me with grief in your beautiful eyes. it’s all my fault, i know.

i always wanted to break your heart.

and give you mine.

and you took it. and i washed in your warmth, kept my head above the water. and you held me tight because you always knew i can’t swim.

you used to take me dancing. you were my home. you still are. i crawl to you every time when it hurts too much, and you still open your arms for me. but your fire that always warmed me is now cold, pale and blue.

it doesn’t feel like home any more.

it’s cold, darling. you are here, but you are not with me. you promised me different.

i don’t know where i’m going without you. my guiding light. i’m drowning without your hands to hold me. i’m an arid desert. a november rain. an open window in february. i feel myself so awfully broken. scared. lost. sick.

yes, darling, i’m sick. lovesick. chronically. i caress the anguish aching in my chest, all my yearning. i want you back to heal my jaded heart.

i can’t sleep without your soothing voice comforting me. every time i close my eyes you go away again.

last night i called you in tears. you said you would come. and you did. you sat on the edge of my bed. i pleaded with you to take my hand. you didn’t. but you stayed. i cried. you didn’t say a word. i fell asleep.

in the morning i woke up alone. you were gone.

once you’ve told me you feel like you’re losing me. but i already lost you, my dear.

what are we now?

i can’t feel us any more.

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« drown me one more time

hide inside me tonight

do what you want to do

let’s pretend happy end »

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#led zeppelin #jimbert #pov jimmy #funny how i skipped the whole good part and headed straight into 1977 #so sorry for being a simp for angst and drama #wrote it for my improvised writers month in april and the trope was ‘cold’#i was inspired by the song ‘even though our love is doomed’ by garbage so i strongly advise to listen to it to get a complete picture #my deep female urge to make jimmy sound awfully dramatic and philosophical #also no capital letters we go for aesthetics #royalfiction

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