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nerves-nebula · 2 years

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my brother asked why my voice was so deep and I said I’d give him 3 guesses, and he said “You doin the little flip-flop? The little switcheroo?” and it took me like 10 seconds to realize that was his Polite Way of asking if i was transitioning

#nnstuff #trans #transgender #hes so fuckin funny like #hes not the most Well Informed or anything but #hes not intentionally cruel #he really dont gaf lol #so thats nice #hes also the first person to actually comment on it #for a while i thought it just wasnt noticable #cuz my mom and sister didnt say anything about it #my gender is too complex for him to understand but he's literally just like Whatever #hrt

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sonknuxadow · 4 months

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^ guy who has to draw funny hedgehogs or else they will die

#okay i did draw stuff that didnt involve the hedgehog characters i promise i was just picking my favorites/what i thought was the best #from each month and realized i kept picking stuff with sonic and/or shadow in it #so i decided i would make all of them have at least one hedgehog character because the pattern was funny to me #anyway kind of disappointed with how little i drew this year ive been struggling with motivation to do art for a while now #but . i did get at least one or two finished drawings for each month.#and i also managed to do artfight even if i did less art for that than ive done in the past #whihc are still accomplishments i think. considering how ive been feeling #also i didnt get to do one of these last year because my laptop decided to stop working around december #and i did get a new one soon after. but i wasnt able to get access to the stuff on my old one until a little while into the year #and at that point it felt like the moment had passed and it would be awkward to post the art summary thing . so i just didnt #so . yay i get to do it this time #if this picture is making you notice how inconsistent the way i draw werehog sonic is no it isnt

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l48yr1nth · 5 months

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im going to make an emo anime wolf oc hes gonna be soooo edgy and powerful nobody can stop me

#i was watching anime wolf amvs just as a little silly #but it made me realize that whole genre of art REALLY influenced my art when i was younger #it wasnt something that id noticed before but looking back pretty much everything i made #was chasing after that style #dogs and wolves being emotional. simplistic backgrounds. unrealistic proportions and markings #i wish i could find all this stuff easily. i have old sketchbooks but #all of my early digital art is lost to time. either on unsaved ibispaint shit or drawcast/framecast #which shut down! awful awful...#beginning/intermediate artists please im begging you find a good place to save your art in a way that'll last #you might think it cringy or bad but after a while you'll want to look back on it!#i dont remember much of what i thought as a child but i can connect with that little fella by looking at my shitty furry art #that i was so so proud of. and then i wasn't proud of it. and then i was proud again.#total rant soz #labyposting

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tibli · 6 months

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vyvanse isn't enough i need to do speed

#tibtalks #I AM JOKING BTW IF THAT WASNT CLEAR #i just started vyvanse for my adhd and ive def noticed a difference #but its not as prominent as i hoped it would be #i will just have to simulate doing meth by taking my medication exactly as prescribed #and playing breakcore music in the background 😔#i had to do research for this joke btw #i didnt realize speed and meth were the same thing saldkfhasldf #i thought speed was like. lsd or smth. idk man i dont do drugs sdlkfasldkfja #i took a 10mg edible one time while also being on sertraline for depression and shit #not realizing that thc was also an ssri #and i had. a VERY bad time lmao. my friends suggested i do 5mg but i was like no im sure i'll be fine i dont think i'll have a bad trip :)#girl i was fucking HALLUCINATING. thinking i was going into cardiac arrest and the paramedics were doing chest compressions on me and shit.#meanwhile outwardly i was apparently damn near silent and stonefaced for like 2 hours straight so my friends were concerned to say the leas #anyway do not do edibles if you are on an ssri #i learned later that can cause serotonin syndrome and like. ACTUALLY kill you #anyway this has been tibli talks see you next time

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mothmanmalewife · 9 months

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ok thoughts on the rwrb movie real quick even tho no one asked:

it's been a hot minute since I read the book, but the movie kept a lot of the stuff I remember loving about the book

I will definitely be rereading the book in the coming weeks

was it just me or were the visuals like. weirdly off? especially in the first 45 minutes or so? I don't know how to describe it but the lighting felt like a stock photo and picking characters out of a crowd was like a Where's Waldo

in spite of my complaints the visuals did stop bugging me around halfway through the film. towards the end there were some pretty nice shots (I'm not really a film guy tho, my analysis of shot composition is not deep)

some of the character introductions were. bad. I didn't like them. president Clairemont stands out as being exceptionally stilted in her first scene (although she did feel more like a person as the story progressed)

#red white and royal blue #I AM NOT A FILM GUY. THESE ARE MY OPINIONS #but like for real i dont even know how to describe how fucking weird the visuals were for a while there #like in that scene early on where alex and henry are doing a bunch of interviews back to back #the first time they switched the interviewer i legitimately wasnt sure if it was to show passing of time or if the director just thought #i wouldnt notice the actress changing btwn shots #because up to that point it would have been consistent with my experience that an actor could change in the middle of a scene #again tho it did get a lot better #idk solid like 6/10 movie #i would recommend it but not to someone who already has a lot on their watchlist

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everyfandomever · 2 years

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Ugh

#at least i did this thing #had a short sobbing sesh #id forgotten to send my mom a file she needed for work and she got mad #got even more upset when i was like #and then made that feel not only like an excuse but something that isnt like worth it #i have to take wins when i get them so eating when im actually hungry and taking care of others count as doing something for me #she made me feel useless so i stopped what i was doing and went to my room #so i could maybe cry or just sit alone for a while #ending up sobbing and calming down but #not long after my mom came in and asked a random question and then got upset i was crying #like her first respond was to get mad and question what she did to make me cry #and while yes i did start after she said something it doesnt mean im crying bc of her #even tho i was #i guess she didnt think she said anyhing hurtful and i was trying to man her maybe?#and i didnt give her an answer so #she is rage cleaning and am honestly afraid my dad will notice and come yell at me for upseting her #also its been like maybe two years since a serious suicidal thought has come to mind but whoops #everything would be easier for them if i wasnt here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#vex spits out random shit #im so tired tbh

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rainerghost · 1 month

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Google didn't give me any answers to my question (womp womp) sooo...

Question.

What's it called when you start thinking a sentence but then you have to start over because you didn't "think it right"?

#i know that no ones gonna see this but eh #and like. its not that i lost my train of thought #the train of thought is still there #its just that it has to restart its thought journey #i know that this post probably makes 0 sense whatsoever but google isnt giving me answers and im not gonna talk to anyone irl about this #but yeah #vent #would this actually count as a vent post? eh. whatever.#also its been happening for quite a while (im pretty sure) but i started noticing it more often recently so. do with that what you will #also it didnt start off as thoughts. when i first noticed it it was (its kinda hard to explain it) more like #having to do this kinda “clicking” noise with my tounge? and i had to redo it whenever i did it #because my brain decided that i wasnt doing it “correctly”.#maybe the clicking thing isnt related to this but i think it is. also the clicking thing still affects me so. ye.#ALSO ANOTHER THING #usually when it happens its like. to the tune/rythm of a song (no song in particular just whatever song im thinking of at the moment) so ye.#thats weird.#oh and also it happens with blinking sometimes.#no clue if any of the things i said are related but ye. my brain is just very funky i guess.#idk its just kinda annoying whenever it happens.#also i CAN ignore the urges but it just feels kinda? wrong? for some reason?#not wrong as in morally wrong but like. wrong.#long post #actually more like long tags but eh

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chlopieno · 2 months

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vent ahead, sorry

#hey woo look it's missing my ex boyfriend hours!...#i was happy from breaking up for a minute and now im just so sad. i miss him he was my best friend since childhood and now #we havent spoken for month and half so far #it sucks so much i hate it here. i keep hoping hed reach out to me one day. not to date again but just not to pretend were strangers anymore #i wish i could tell him about my work. about dumb things my cat does. about dumb things i do.#i wish i could listen to him telling me whatever as long as its not hurtful. i wish i was better and didnt expect too much.#i wish my self esteem was higher so i wouldnt regret things i did that i was sure were best in the situation we faced.#i wish i were able to be more helpful and supportive. i thought i was and turns out it was received in an opposite way.#i wish i could send him memes or tell jokes or send uquiz links or picrews #i dont know when it all went wrong man i thought everything was good and everything was falling apart while i didnt even notice.#i hate how short it took to end 15 years of being friends. i hate how i cant even relate to his situation because mine is so similar yet #yet it affected us in such different ways. i hate i wasnt able to do more. i hate that he didnt do more.#i hate that im blaming him for things he has no say in. im angry at being helpless and unable to change anything.#i hate that he told me he loved me amd that he wanted to live with me and then broke up with me less than a month later.#i hate that i made him break up with me. i hate that i put so much hope and emotions and work in it and that he told me he cared #but it was me who was ready to go anywhere for him and do anything for him and it wasnt the other way.#i want to say so much and yell and cry and apologise and yell again but at myself this time and bash my head against the wall #i want to know that someone cares about me as much as i care about them. but it wasnt this relationship but he was my best friend #and i wish i could say that i wish we never dated but i dont because i was happy and i hoped we were happy together.#and every time i asked it was okay and fine and good until suddenly it hasnt been for months and i never knew because he never told me #and i know i cant read minds but i wish i was able to tell the signs. i wish i was less selfish. i thought he wanted what i want #but telling stories about living together and setting up furniture or having pets together was what i thought was for us but was for me only #and i didnt even know #i thought wed be friends forever. yes i thought wed live together as partners too but he was my best friend and i lost him and all i can do #is to cry about it.

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arolesbianism · 4 months

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Look deep into my eyes. Olivia probably oversaw the production of all the brain in jar shit in oni. They were 100% a part of the duplicant memory recovery efforts. This doesn't actually matter much but it does 2 Me think of the imagery think abt it I think abt it so hard everyday imagine how sick Olivia brain imagery art would be please I'm so alone in this world

#rat rambles #why must I be so badly artblocked hhhhh #anyways I do wonder what the exact deal with the brains are #wait hold on I just double checked the scientist that was working on the memory project more directly. it was fucking nikola what the fuck #fucking hold on. holy fuck. nikola what the Fuck #he knows. He Knows. what do you mean he fucking knows? and is directly involved?????#holy shit this reframes Everything abt him what the actual fuck #I just thought he was some technician that got in too deep no he apparently also worked directly on the duplicant project #which means he had presumably full fucking preview to the dna stealing and to god knows what other shit #why was he working with the time ribbon later on? like ofc his programing and presumably mechanical skills probably both mattered to #the duplicant memory project but why would he be so active in it if he was a new recruit?#like ok maybe he wasnt we dont technically know but most of the odd ones out are picked out of the crowd in the logs #plus the way ruby talks abt him doesnt make him sound like some senior employee #and now Im thinking abt the nikola dupe description and hm. maybe ruby had a point abt him being a lil evil coded #I dont think hes evil mind you but he is giving me pretty big 'rly ambitious and willing to set aside morals for it' vibes #I have to imagine that jackie must have noticed that and thats why he got dragged in so deep #but in that case olivia. might actually be involved in that process too. Ive been wondering for a while if she was around for the whole #nikola being dragged off by mysterious guys thing and now Im wondering if she might have been Involved in that #not directly Im sure olivia doesnt like being directly involved in the less than ideal treatment of ppl but she clearly has some level of #tolerance for it and given theyre not literally murdering him its entirely possible that this wouldnt actively oppose olivias weird morals #ok sorry this post derailed quickly I had always assumed that the scientist in that log was just some rando I didnt realize it was Him #now I have to wonder if anyone else was involved in any of this #probably not? at least not knowlingly. but given how many of them there are its entirely possible #Ive also kind of been operating under the assumption that dr.holland was vaguely involved but I dont think he like Knew #mostly because Im also operating under the assumption that he wrote the 'they stole our dna' email #but both are just complete guesses with no real ground to stand on #now I do imagine that olivia probably contributed quite a bit to the brain stuff to because she has done her own duplicant experiments #plus it seems like nikola is more of a programmer than a biologist so itd make sense to have a biologist working with him directly #but it easily could be like any biologist so that doesnt necessary implicate olivia for anything #oni posting

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bingobongobonko · 6 months

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hankering need for a menudo right neow, that would help a lot. gotta figure out how to make it, my dad used to, idk how though. he always made it wayyyy too salty, so maybe i can teach myself how. i also kind of miss the farm, its not my farm mind you, but a lot of cool stuff over there. once i found a goat skull in the back, i actually have pieces of the horn because i wouldnt be able to take it back on the trip with me. i forgot how long ago that was, maybe when i was around 18? i hate how bad my memory gets sometimes. im just reminiscing

#fool's monologue #i prolly shouldnt but it was real nice #little stray kittens too #day i realized i wasnt allergic to cats as badly #i picked them up and i carried them around #goats also let me pet them. one of them came up to me and let me #i think abt that a lot cuz i really like goats. theyre sweet #scratching my beard #i swear im experiencing normal behavior i realize i might be coming off as strange out of nowhere with the rambling #im just thinkin yk how it is #oh speaking of which my beards more noticeable now #thought about shaving but figured against it #i dont quite want to just yet #same with my hair #i havent brushed it in a while but ill try tmrw #brushing teeth too #theres a lot of things i keep neglecting cuz i forget but i pick it up here and there #i havent gone outside whatsoever today so thats really bad but i gotta try more. cant be at home in my room all day yk. unhealthy #bad for me n shit #vague shrug. not in a bad mood mind you #just lack thereof. bit uneasy #but thinking about random silly stuff ive seen has helped #or things i notice in my house or funny conversations i have #no exaggeration it keeps you sane #havent even had to draw. usually thats my way of dealing with things but i havent done jackshit and it feels kind of nice #I WILL NEVER DRAW EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!#<- lying #but it is nice to just not draw at all sometimes. i conflate myself with my art too often. i have other things i can do. it doesnt just nee #to be drawing #i have broken my own expectations.... i am just a guy

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dapperrokyuu · 11 months

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I had a dream about Brushbuddy yesterday...

#dee p thoughts #do I tag this? Im not particularly embarrassed or anything its just wacky tho ldafnbdakj #I was in. hyrule (probably because of totk). and at some point I descended from the sky and saw a really sizable brushbuddy. like. width of #a basketball. and it was also like irl textures while everything was totk graphics. looked like a mop ngl. anyways I noticed it because it #swam in the water and then came and out it was SOPPING. shook its hair out of its face making it look poofy and then as it if it slicked #back so I could see its eyes. I was incredibly happy. and then thats all I remember...#but I also have the sense that I was being coerced into hiding a body at some point of the dream ah- brushbuddy wasnt involved in that #thankfully. anyways!

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sapphic-woes · 2 years

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#sorry my mood shifts so easily #but man it sounds like they're just hanging out in the parking lot or something #but like man #suvsusbsjs god i mean i noticed she just wasnt replying to texts but i thought she was just going thru it #i guess maybe i was annoying?#or too depressing?#i mean i get the memo tho #like im so good at being a hermit i can just. ig. stay in my lane #hopefully this is my anxiety talking but #i think i should just. not bother her i wouldn't want to have any issues at least while we live together #yea

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b-00-biez · 1 year

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"Slashers with an S/o who cries when people shout at them"

Warning: cursing and a bit of angst

Characters: Bo Sinclair, Thomas Hewitt, Brahms Heelshire

Bo Sinclair

You and bo have fights but never to the point he yells or shouts at you. This time he was really angry because a victim escaped.

"I TOLD YOU TO WATCH THEM FOR ONE SECOND AND THEY ESCAPED, IT WAS THAT SIMPLE"

You bite your lip refusing to talk back as you lower your head until he is finished.

He sighed and made you look up at him. You were crying, big tears flow from your eyes as you looked at him. Your lips quivering and you looked away.

You both stood there until Bo broke and gave you a hug

It wasnt like those apology hugs your mom made you do to make up with your siblings

It was very sincere and tight

"I'm sorry doll, I don't know what came over me. I'm sorry for raising my voice at you. " he whispered in your ear so soft and gentle.

He sat you both down while you're in his lap as he caresses your back. You both stayed there holding each other in your arms.

He told Lester to find the victim which he did and killed so it was problem solved.

From today on he never raised his voice when he got angry, you both communicated better and you two would make up pretty quickly.

If any of his brothers did the same to yell at you then he would be throwing hands

All in all he learned to be gentle with you which his brothers never ever thought he could do

Thomas Hewitt

Thomas already knew you cried when being shouted at

Hoyt was never really a good tempered person and will degrade your self esteem the chance he gets but you would suck the tears back up and wont let Thomas know what happened.

This time it was something different

"YOU FUCKING WHORE, ALL THE SHIT YOU DID WILL PASS THROUGH TOMMY BUT NOT ME"

You were shivering, Luda mae was not there to save you or beat this bitch and tommy was busy in the basement.

Hoyt raised a hand at you, as you squinted your eyes to brace yourself of the impact you hear..

"Aye tommy i-i was kidding.. hehe.. your little doll there was..AAAAA"

Tommy was standing in between you and hoyt , holding the man's hand back.

Tommy almost choked him to death if it werent for Luda Mae finally getting home.

Your boyfriend kept you in his arms like a baby as he rocks you.

He mumbles and grunts to give encouragement

He wont let anyone of his family yell nor harm you

Brahms Heelshire

You weren't the best of care takers. You always followed the rules so you wont anger Brahms.

But since Malcohlm was running late and you needed the groceries you have no choice but to go to the store

You planned to just have a quick trip so that when you come back Brahms wont even notice. But he did , he saw you walk out that gate.

Brahms is an impatient man, a minute of you gone it's been hours to him. But when you come back.

He stormed screaming at you

"YOU BROKE THE RULES, YOU DARE LEAVE ME ALONE LIKE MY PARENTS?! YOURE HORRIBLE "

You tried to explain yourself with incoherent mumbles as you shake. He towers over you going silent, Hes just looking at you!

You broke down and into a ball

Brahms started to feel bad, at least you came back for him.

He left you alone and slid your favorite snack over to you as he sits on the floor with you

In his childish voice he started to say sorry , patting your head gently

If you're both stuck in this house he might as well treat you better

He hugs you not letting go until you stopped crying

-Just a quick reminder that if you experience this in real life from a spouse its best to leave them, although fights are normal among relationships they shouldnt mistreat you either way💕

#slasher fucker #slasher x you #slashers x reader #slasher imagines #slasher headcanons #brahms heelsire x reader #brahms the boy #brahms x you #bo sinclair #house of wax #slasher fluff #thomas hewitt headcanon #thomas hewitt #bo sinclair headcanons

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