please look at these texts i got from my dad the day after i had my top surgery. thank you

happy father's day to sisko, the most father man ever

Scared of my dad when he's drunk it's like walking on eggshells trying not to get made fun of for the smallest shit i do

Oh i forgot to mention but. im filtering out all totk spoiler tags bc i dont have it yet and. y'know. lol. so if anyone wants to talk to me abt it please hold off :(. I cant wait to ramble when i do get it tho!!!!

Goodnight for rela now

“can i invite a bunch of my friends” “Um.. we’ll see” aka No you can’t invite your friends to my grad party dad because i hate them?!

IM SO HUNGRY I SHOULD HAVE SAID YES WHEN MY DAD ASKED IF I WANTED TACOS

“I don’t really like talking about my family, so I won’t. But being a dad seems nice for other people? I’m not good with kids, usually, so. All the experience I’ve had with trying to be a father’s come from games, and the kids in Harvest Moon and Stardew Valley don’t age... So, uh, great job if you’ve experienced real fatherhood, I guess.”

tw: father mention, just awful things were said rly.

my father was feeling particularly agitated tonight ig & made this fight break out btwn me & him & to ‘get back at me’ for ‘disrespecting him’ he said that i’m ‘such a grown-up when it comes to making my own decisions but can’t seem to go to the police by myself when i get run over by a car’ (i never wanted to go to the police bc i mean wtf is that gonna do like actually lol). anyway just writing this down so i don’t forget abt it

anyway it’s alright i feel like i should be crying that my own father said sth like that but honestly he’s done & said worse (though fortunately i can’t rmbr) & violence is what i expect of him. i’d be more surprised if he ever decided to be a human being.

all i have to & can do now is self-regulate & not let someone beneath me dictate how my own self should act. not my problem if he can’t do that

death, abuse ment,

every time someone teases kin for being adopted until her breaking point, she looks them straight n the eye, and tells them just why she is one. without going into detail abt either of her parents

“My biological Mother killed my Father directly in front of me for trying to feed me.”

and often times shes told they have no clue what to say next (if they even have anything to say next) all they get is

“No one ever does.”

HEH. father asked earlier if i knew what “that white fuzzy stuff” on the prickly pears in the front yard is. fell RIGHT into my autism trap. spent like 5 minutes just telling him about cochineal

for someone who claims to "hate cats" my dad sure has been interested in the naming and wellbeing of my cat

Memories of when i gave my dad a fathers day gift of my whatever thode thing s were models tht u draw clothes on except i made it emo &scene af He didnt appriciate it too much.

I think ive accidentally created a monster. ive been asking my dad for help with crossword puzzles and he wanted to get an app like mine. after whining for a bit over not having my exact app in the store (he has apple i have android) he downloaded wordle. hes never going to be the same guys 😭😭😭 this is like his equivalent of candy crush. We'll be watching a show and every time he completes one he holds his phone towards me to see it and it's always immediately on a shitty mobile game ad 💀

My dad gets so awkward when I cry LOL

Senses heighten has my dad left the computer.