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#everybody always talks shit about “missional dating” and how you can't do it!!but like... everybody does it
becca-alexa · 1 year
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✨personal so read if you want to✨
the people in my immediate circle all think i'm crazy for saying i'd want to be in a relationship for 2-3 years before talking about marriage and i think they're all insane for it but then i remember the average time from strangers to married for them is around 6 months
#becca.txt#legit do not think any of their relationships went on for longer than a year before marriage#my bestie went from absolute strangers to married in 4 months#they're adorable together but FOUR MONTHS???wild#they met around christmas and their wedding was in april - they just had their 1st anniversary and their baby's due next month#that's what happens when you're latina and religious i guess#not me thinking that 30s+ is a good age to marry and have kids and everybody thinking i'm insane 👀#don't even get me started on HAVING kids -- nobody wants to hear that i can't conceive naturally they all say to stay hopeful!...#there's still a chance!you can do it!like y'all i got stage 4 endometriosis that's taken over both my ovaries i ain't having no kids 😂#honestly i've said this before and i'll say it again - if i'm to have a marriage like some of them i'd rather stay single#i think only my bestie has a TRULY happy and functional marriage#i love her for it and her husband's an angel on earth -- everyone else's marriage is a literal dumpster fire#like my dudes if you're doing relationship counseling WHILE DATING then do premarital AND post marital couseling...#why get married???? like i am the biggest supporter of utilizing mental health services but something's not right there#and don't even get me started on how YOUNG they marry or how religious folk play round robin with each other til someone sticks#god forbid you tell anyone you don't want to get married in general or GASP!you marry a non-believer#everybody always talks shit about “missional dating” and how you can't do it!!but like... everybody does it#literally everybody#it's not a big deal#just because we're the same denomination doesn't automatically make you a decent person#and the opposite is true - just because we don't believe the same things doesn't make you a hellbound pagan#it's just frustrating y'know???idk if anybody will relate to this but i am so ready to just... do my faith on my own terms#so sick of people i've known all my life looking at me like i'm sick or something bc i'm 26 and still single#by this point if anybody in that circle tries to set me up with a guy it's an automatic aversion#not one man they've ever introduced to me is worth the light of day - and i'm not being rude#like buddy you're 30+ still living at home no job no career no education no ambitions....but he's christian tho!!#yeah sure but he's still trash#i want a partner not a baby imma have to support#just me rambling about things nobody want to hear but i gotta put this out somewhere or else i'll implode
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jadeylovesmarvelxo · 2 years
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Summary; Yn is always taking care of the group, making sure they are hydrated, they've been eating enough and sleeping well.
Looking after everyone leaves barely any time for her own self-care. Eddie notices this and had to make sure his best girl gets the TLC she needs.
Warnings; fluff, bit of angst
Requested by @i-always-come-back-xoxo hope you enjoy
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As always yn was like the mother hen in the group. She loved to make sure her friends were comfortable and always made sure that they were eating right, staying hydrated and sleeping well.
She loved taking care of everyone and was always making snacks, keeping extra in her lunch in case someone forgot to bring something one day ( usually Max was the worst for this) and yn was always making sure that Max had snacks at hand.
Things had been tough for Max and anything she could do to help make the girl's life easier she would.
The only thing was in taking care of everybody else she would sometimes neglect herself in the process, she spent so much time worrying about her friends and not enough for herself.
Truthfully she was exhausted and had woken up this morning with a pounding headache and all the feelings of a cold.
She still went to school pushing through the aches and pains, hoping some fresh air would help with the cold. It would work right?
Wrong! No, she felt worse and by the time she reaches Hawkins high she kinda wished she stayed in bed.
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Eddie notices how quiet yn is and grows worried, she was a sweetheart and was always looking after the group.
She even looked after him, baking him treats to take home for him and his uncle Wayne, she always had extra lunch on hand and was constantly making sure that he was alright.
He wasn't used to someone caring so much about his well-being, except for Wayne. He liked it and over the months he had known her, he began to fall for her and he hadn't felt this way about anyone, he was smitten.
Something Henderson teased him relentlessly for.
So when he notices how withdrawn she is he immediately makes it his mission to cheer her up.
He heads over to her and frowns, she's shivering barely touching her food and she looks exhausted.
"Sweetheart? Are you alright?" She peers up half smiling.
"No, not really, I feel awful" it takes him all of two seconds to gently help her up.
"I'm driving you home," he tells her firmly and she makes a noise of protest and then gives in. Fuck, she really must be feeling shit if she has given in without a word.
"I need to make sure my best girl is feeling good okay" he tells her softly and the way she looks at him makes his heart skip a beat.
"Best girl?" her eyes light up and he can't resist placing a kiss on her head.
"I've not exactly been subtle about it princess, now come on. Let me take care of you for a change"
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Once she is at home Eddie practically orders her into bed, shes running a fever by this point but he ignores all of her protests to go.
"I don't want you to get sick Eds" he shrugs and gives her a huge glass of water and settles beside her.
"I don't give a shit about that babe, I'm going to make sure you are better then when you are we are going out to see a movie and go for milkshakes, whatever you want"
She perks up and feels her heart race.
"Like a date?"
"A date. Then I can make you mine like I've been dying to do for months now" he grins and she suddenly wishes this cold would go away so she could go on this date.
"You've had my heart since we first met sweetheart," he says as he holds her hand, if she wasn't sick then she would be doing a happy dance right about now.
"I feel the same way about you" his brown eyes warm at her confession and he smiles.
"I brought The Hobbit to read to you. Would you like that?" Listen to Eddie talk for hours? Do all the amazing character voices? Yes please.
"I'd love it" he pulls the book out of the bag he's carrying and then as he settles down he motions for her to cuddle into him which she does happily.
Then he begins to read to her and his voice is so soothing that she snuggles into him even more and falls into a peaceful sleep as she does she feels Eddie's lips press to her forehead.
"Sleep well my princess, I'll still be here when you get up" with that promise she falls asleep with a happy smile on her face.
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proxylynn · 10 months
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What facts do you know about Carver?
I tried to search your answers, but found almost nothing.
[I don't look too into all that much Carver honestly. But let me check the tumblr. *digging* From the words of Gnome...]
"Carver is Alan's lil shit co-worker."
"His age is unknown but pretty much an adult. He has been in the assassin job as long as Alan has. He is a lot shorter than Alan, just a bit taller than Stu but it doesn't bother him. He likes to use chainsaws and electric carving knives w/ his victims. Carver always gets in trouble for leaving a mess when on a mission, since he really loves the sight of blood (He might be into Bloodplay). A complete Sadist. He kinda has a habit of threatening others that he will experiment on them. If you try to pursue a relationship with him he will call you "Guinea Pig". He can't connect/empathize with people. So a relationship is pretty much all physical and psychological. He won't buy you flowers, but he'll carve his name in you. He won't take you on dates, but he will show you his 'projects'. He doesn't fall for you. he can't but he does find you fascinating."
"He likes people who are too curious for their own good. Curiosity killed the cat as they say."
"he knows about Alan's 'doe-eyes'."
"Carver is not a fighter, but MC will probably never manage to lay a hand on him. He is too quick on his feet."
"he definitely can feel other emotions. It's just rare for him and he is just too into his job. If he does feel love, however, it's not even qualified as such. He won't go out of his way to do stuff for you, coddle you, or even get close to you. It is merely a fascination and what he believes in the mere exposure effect."
"In a way, yes, Carver is smart. Not too smart. Like Alan, High school is very much his end of education."
"He is 5' 8"."
"Carver is a top."
"Choking and Overstim are some good kinks for him."
"He likes 69. He finds it really degrading so it’s perfect for him."
"He can sing."
"Carver loves to keep things from his victims. Usually, they are either jewelry or an item of clothing."
"Carver has some side hustles with his main job. He needs a camera to require it."
"he thinks he gets along with everybody. Others would disagree."
"Anyway Carver is like 7 inches. (dic size same as Alan)"
"Carver's favorite animal is a snake. He likes all snakes but vipers are his favs."
"prefer knives to guns, technically, knives but not kitchen knives or even hunting knives. things like ancient doctor surgical equipment."
"dirty talk: Aggressive, degrading and violent."
"Alan can't really dance, maybe swings his hips but that's pretty much it. I think it would be goddamn hilarious if Carver could,,, Think he would be good at waltz and ballet."
"Carver got no ass! 0/10, FLAT AS A BOARD"
"Carver is a confusing character. You don't really know what his tastes are. He doesn't do "dating" he is not a fan of that mushy gushy stuff (unless it's about organs and flesh). He likes having his "special one" be scared of him but at the same time keep up with him. He will never really view anyone as an equal, just as pets he will toy with until they break."
"Rarely sleeps."
"Carver isn't dead or granted powers."
"Carver doesn't really go out in public frequently."
"Is Carver completely cut off from society? Kinda like Alan, yes he is also cut off but is still a little caught up with the current times."
"Is there something supernatural with his eyes and the change in his hair? Yes."
"Carver's parents aren't around anymore."
"Carver has worked for the boss the longest. He doesn't remember for how long, just that he was there for a good while."
"Likes messing with people."
"Favorite killing weapons...Carver is a scarificator/bone saw."
"He loves medical history, it’s what got him hired in the first place!"
"Stitches and Carver had REAL names. They're current names were given to them by their boss."
"Has Carver ever broken into Alan's house? plenty. one of the reasons he placed bear traps around his place."
"He is taller than Stu but shorter than Erika. (Alan is 6'4", Erika is 5' 9", and Stu is 5' 7"...So 5'8" is Lynn's guess for this."
"Caver doesn't remember his birthday, so he made his birthday December 15th."
"Does Carver celebrate Halloween? I feel like he is the equivalent of Jack Skellington with every holiday. Wants to participate in human festivities but doesn't quite get them and ends up causing chaos around him."
"Alan and Carver have more coworkers."
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deadsaigon · 5 years
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Kindred spirits || Carl Grimes
Summary: In a parallel universe where Carl is still alive, he experiences the events during the 9x15.
Warnings: Death, and yeah, a lot of cuteness and sadness. All at the same time.
Note: The flashbacks are in italics. Gif is not mine.
A/n: I've been working on this for a while, I hope you like it. Honoring my baby Carl, he deserved to live longer in the series. Requests are open. Sorry if it's too long, but I think is worthy to read. Hope you like it.
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"I stand before you today at the start of a new tomorrow. A tomorrow made possible by the sacrifice of many over the years. Among them a man whose mission was to build community and strengthen the bonds between us. A man who had to destroy the very thing that connected us in order to save us. It took us far too long to fulfill the promise of what Rick Grimes and his son Carl, who is here with us, envisioned" King Ezekiel stoped his speech, due to the ovation that the people started when they heard the name of 'Carl', Carl was a living legend. He and Amunet were between the crowd. One of his arms was around her waist and her head was over his shoulder. When the people around them began to applaud him, Carl blushed a little and he thanked them with his hand. "The same promise, Paul Rovia, better known the most as Jesus believed in when he brought us all together those many years ago. We've always been bound to each other. We always will be. We fought our way back to each other. We've grown. The crossing over the river may be gone, but we rebuilt a bridge nonetheless. Today is the proof that we can unite, not against a common enemy but for the common good. So eat, drink, trade and be merry, cause we got a lot of lost time to make up for" Ezekiel ended his speech.
Jerry stood in front of all the people. "That the first Annual Inter-community Reunification Fair begins" He said.
"Jerry, we changed that" Ezekiel told him with a little smile. All the people laughed. "Carl, could you make me the honor to say some words and inaugurate this?" The King asked him. "Amunet, you can pass, too". Carl blushed again, but Amunet encouraged him. They hold hands and passed to the front.
"Mmm, hello" He said, he was so nervous but Amunet pressed harder his hand, trying to calm him down. "I would like to thank you all, for not abandoning my dad's dream, the dream he worked so hard for so many years, the dream he gave his life for: the dream of being a big and unite family." Carl reached the cage of the white doves. "That the Fair or the New Beginning begins" He finished by setting free the doves. The people started to applaud again, and yeah, Carl blushed, once more.
Once the people got disperse, Carl and Amunet started walking around the Fair. "You're so cute when you blush" Amunet said.
"Stop it" He answered.
"It's the true, you are adorable" She laughed. Carl take her from her waist, pulled her close to him and kissed her.
"I love you, Amunet"
"I love you too, Carl" Amunet and Carl met each other since the beginning of the chaos. They were friends in the Atlanta camp, in the Hershel's farm, in the prison, and they started dating when they arrived to Alexandria. They had been a couple for 8 years approximately. They had always support each other.
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"Alexandria is granted to give asylum to Lydia" Carl spoke. The leaders of each community, Tara for The Hilltop, Carol and Ezekiel for The Kingdom, Rachel for OceanSide, and Carl and Michonne for Alexandria, were discussing about the fact of Lydia forming part of the communities now. Henry, Lydia, Judith and Amunet were also there.
"If her mother retaliates it's gonna be against Hilltop, not Alexandria" Tara said, she didn't seem to be happy with Lydia being around.
"Tara, remember when you stood in the prison with the Governor? You were our enemy. But Glenn saved you, and brought you with him. At the start, people didn't trust you, obviously, but we gave you the doubt benefit, and look how it come, now, you become part of the family" Carl told her and Tara seemed to understand what he was trying to say. "That's why we propose a mutual protection pact. If her mother wants to attack Hilltop, it won't be easy, cause she is going to have to fight the four communities. They mess with one, they mess with us all" Carl continued talking. Everyone in the place agreed.
"How do we seal it? A blood pact? Do we cross the pinkies?" Tara said making everyone laugh.
"I just got an idea" King Ezekiel said and searched for something. Finally, he found the agreement that Rick had made so many years ago.
"How do you have it?" Michonne asked.
"Maybe I took some things when I left Alexandria" Tara answered.
The first who signed it were King Ezekiel and Queen Carol, then Tara, it continued Rachel, and then, it was the turn of Alexandria. Michonne took the pen in her hand, but extended it to Carl. "It should be the Rick Grimes son" She said. Carl took the pen and signed the paper with 'Carl Grimes'. It was it, the mutual protection pact was signed.
Amunet and Judith stood next to Carl. "Carl you did it amazing!" The little girl said and give him a hug.
"Thank you Judith" Carl took the body of his little sister in his arms and carried her.
"Thank you, Carl. Thank you so much" Lydia said.
"It's okay Lydia, I couldn't let you alone. You are one of us now. Also, Henry needs you" Lydia and Henry laughed. When Henry went for Lydia, after Alpha took her from The Hilltop, Carl, Daryl and Connie searched for him. Daryl and Connie didn't understand Henry, but Carl did.
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"So, that's how you make CPR to a person" Enid finished her explication. "Who wants to pass and do it with the doll?" Judith raised her hand. "Okay, Judith, let's see how you do it" The doctor said her. Judith stood near to the doll, and started to do the steps that Enid had explained before. "You did it very well, congratulations! Take a lollipop. That's all, thank you"
The people dispersed, and Carl walked to Enid. "Hey, my favourite cowboy is here" They hugged each other. "How are you doing? Did Amunet came?"
"Cool, I'm pretty cool. Yeah, Amunet is here too. How are you Enid? Or I should say 'doctor Enid'?"
"I always call you 'cowboy', you have the right to call me 'doctor'" Both laughed.
"I'm happy to see you, Enid"
"I'm happy too, Carl. It's been a long since the last time we see each other"
"But we saw us in The Hilltop, when Rosita and Eugene got in trouble"
"I know, but I refer, to see each other like this, like family, not like two strangers. I'm sorry for never had get back to Alexandria, but Maggie needed me here"
"And I'm sorry for never have go to Hilltop to visit you, but you know what happened with Michonne, I needed to stay in Alexandria taking care of Judith and Rick Jr."
"Maybe we can be the same best friends that we were"
"I'd love that"
"It's gonna be a little different, I'm not the same depressive Enid that used to hate everything and used to sneak out the walls"
"That Enid was pretty cool, tho"
"It was cool for the emo Carl you were in that time. The antique Enid doesn't fit with the famous leader Carl you are now. But the doctor Enid, she fits perfect"
"I'm not famous" "Of course you are. You know that the adults tell about 'the Grimes' to their children?"
"I've heard about that, but I didn't think it was true"
"It's true, Carl, everybody knows your story, and I'm so proud of you"
"Heeeeyyyy, you're talking without me? I feel betrayed" Amunet got into the conversation.
"We were about to look for you" Carl said.
"I'm gonna pretend that I believe you. Enid! I've missed you so much" Both women hugged each other.
"I've missed you too. What have you being doing in Alexandria?"
"I'm in charge of the hydraulic system that provides water to the community. Also, I'm in charge of the maintenance of the solar panels, and the power generators. If they don't work, I fix them" Amunet said proudly.
"Woah, did Eugene teach you that?" "Who more could it be? The dude is a freaking genie. I'm glad to say that Siddiq did a good job training you, doctor"
"Can you believe it? Six year ago we were only teenagers trying to survive in the end of the world, and now, look at us" Enid said.
"This shit is crazy"
"Language, Carl!"
"Judith, what are you doing here?"
"I want a caramel apple, can we get one?"
"Okay, come on. Ladies, I'll see you later" Carl kissed Amunet before going with his sister.
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"You don't have to go. They can patrol the surroundings by themselves" Amunet said to Carl.
"It's okay. I'm gonna be fine. Daryl is going too"
"Yeah girl, I'll take care of him, even if he doesn't need it anymore" Daryl said.
"You should reconsider it" Michonne said.
"Mom, you are worrying to much"
"Mom is right, Carl, it's too dangerous. What if something bad happens to you?" Judith said sadly.
Carl kneeled to be at the same height that his sister and put his hands in her cheeks. "Judy, do you trust me?" The girl nodded. "I'm going out there because I want to help. I can't stay here pretending that everything is fine with those crazy people with skin masks around. I want to guarantee the safety of you three" He said to Amunet, Michonne and Judith. "I have to do it"
Judith jumped into Carl's arms. "Just be careful Carl, please" The girl said.
"Be prudent. And do what Daryl says, Okay?" Michonne told.
"The last time I listen to Daryl I was fifteen, but sure, I will" Michonne, Carl and Judith involved themselves into a warm hugged.
Amunet was the only left to say goodbye. "Promise me you'll get back"
"I do. I always get back to you"
"I can't loose you, don't make me get through that"
"You are not going to loose me. I'll be back" The couple shared a kiss full of love and hope.
"I love you so much" Amunet said.
"I love you more. I'll see you later. Don't forget that you have my heart and that you are the fucking love of my life"
"Carl! Language"
"Sorry, Judith"
"It's time to go" Daryl said.
"Daryl, please, protect him"
"I will. But you have to understand that he's not a kid anymore Michonne" The man said before the group conformed by Magna, Yumiko, Carol, Kal, Marco, Dianne, he and Carl left.
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"What the hell is that?" Carl asked.
The group had meet with DJ, Alek and Ozzy. They had found a destroyed carriage and dead horses. "We don't know. The bodies that were in here are missing. They must had been going to the Fair" DJ said.
"Do you think they were them?" Carl asked again, making reference to the people with masks.
"I'd like to say no, but you are not dumb"
"We should separate. Daryl, Carol, Yumiko and I will follow the rast of the bodies, and try to find them. Magna, Dianne, Marco and Kal, get to The Hilltop, and make sure everything is okay. DJ, Ozzy, Alek, keep patrolling around here. Let's go" Carl ordered.
When Carl's group moved, Carol and Daryl kept watching at Carl. "What's wrong guys?" He asked them.
"You did it pretty well in there. Being a leader is your thing, kid" Carol said with a little smile.
"Your dad would be so proud" Daryl told.
"Please, stop. People have been saying stuff like that all day"
"You shouldn't be ashamed of that, Carl" Yumiko said.
"Can we just keep going?" Carl ended the conversation.
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The day turned into night. Carl's group was still searching for the bodies of the people from the carriage. Suddenly, some walkers appeared in their way. "Take care, watch their hands, they could have knives" Carl said.
Walkers grew in number, and then, a body of 2 meters of height appeared in front of them. Carl, Yumiko, Carol and Dary prepared their weapons. "Drop them. I won't ask twice" Beta ordered. The four obeyed him, and the tall guy directed his voice at Carl. "You just had to give me the girl. Now that deal is over. You are coming with us"
Beta took them to the Whisperer camp, and tied them to a tree. Then, Alpha appeared. "You, one-eyed, come" She said and unleashed Carl. Ponting at him with a gun, she took him to a pit, where a big horde of walkers was in. "I hope I'm wrong saying that you can't take care of my daughter" Alpha said.
"You are. We will be the family that Lydia never had. She is better with us" Carl answered her.
"You and your people are alive because I let you live. But I'm done with you all. If you cross into my land, once more, I'll guide the horde to the communities. I've mark the border to the North, you see it as you leave. Now, reunite with the rest of your group and get away from my sight".
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After Alpha let go Carl, Daryl, Carol and Yumiko, they found Siddiq roofed to a tree, he had some injuries and the eyes bended.
"Siddiq! What are you doing here?" Carl asked him.
Siddiq wasn't able to answer him, so Carl helped him to get up and to keep walking.
During the way back home, they saw it, they saw the final warning that Alpha was talking about: some heads in pikes, marking the border of the Whisperers' lands.
Ten heads. Ten reanimated heads. Ten reanimated heads of people they loved and cared about. Ten people that were gone. Ten people that had died in a horrible way.
Once Yumiko, Daryl, Carol, Siddiq and Carl were close enough to the heads, they could finally saw who they were. And that only disturbed them more.
First head.
Ozzy.
Ozzy was the leader of the Highway men. He was working with his men to get to chance to watch a movie, and he didn't was capable to do that.
Ozzy was working only a few hours, and now, his head was the first of ten.
Second head.
Alek.
Alek was the right hand of Ozzy, and a member of the Highway men.
He was working with Ozzy for a benefit for him and their people only a few hours ago, and now, his head was the second of ten.
Third head.
DJ.
DJ was a reformed Savior that rebuilt his life six years ago when he redeemed himself and took the invitation of living in Alexandria. Since then, he had shown his effort by making sure that the surroundings of the community were safe. And Carl appreciated that.
Carl felt sorry seeing his head, cause he had live and worked with him for a long time. DJ was the proof that a person can actually change for good.
DJ was talking with Carl about his concern about the possibility of the Whisperers were killing people only a few hours ago, and now, his head was the third of ten.
Fourth head.
Frankie.
"Hey, Nabila, have you seen Frankie?" Eugene asked to the woman. He and Frankie's daughter were looking for her, there had been a long time since the last time they had saw her.
But Nabila hadn't seen her, cause Frankie wasn't in the fair anymore.
Frankie used to be one of Negan's wives. After the Saviors' defeat, she was accepted in Alexandria, where she adopted a girl and became in a great mom.
Carl felt sorry too. Judith sometimes used to play with Frankie's daughter and some others kids, and Frankie had always watch them. Frankie had take care of Judith on several occasions and he was thankful for that.
She was hugging her daughter and enjoying the fair only a few hours ago, and now, her head was the fourth of ten.
Fifth head.
Tammy Rose.
"Have you seen Tammy?" Earl asked Connie and Kelly, with his son in his arms.
Kelly repeated the question with sign language, so Connie could understand.
The answer was no. The sisters hadn't seen her, Tammy wasn't near.
Tammy was an old lady that lived in Hilltop with his husband Earl. They had lost his son Ken six years ago. But life had give them happiness again with the arrived of a baby that Connie had rescue from The Whisperers.
Tammy was talking with Earl about how they should name their son only a few hours ago, and now, her head was the fifth of ten.
Sixth head.
Rodney
Rodney was a teenager that lived in Hilltop. He was trying to have a normal teenager life.
He was hanging around with his friends only a few hours ago, and now, his head was the sixth of ten.
Seventh head.
Addy.
Addy was other teenager from Hilltop. She had worries about the walkers, but also, she had some teenager worries, like, trying to make the guy you like to like you.
She was talking with Henry only a few hours ago, and now, her head was the seventh of ten.
Eighth head.
Enid.
"It feels so sweet" Alden and Luke were singing on the stage. They had a large audience, but still, Alden noticed that someone was missing. Someone special. Had she forgotten? of course not. she was eager to see her boyfriend sing and be able to make fun of it. If Enid wasn't there, it was because she wasn't in this world either.
Enid was a resident of Alexandria when Carl met her. She was mysterious and mature, things that made Carl to got interested in her, an also, to liked her. Both had a realistic perspective of the world, and they became best friends cause of that.
Now, Enid was a doctor. She had something worth to work for. She was an important member of her community. She was living the happy life that she always had deserved.
When Carl saw her, something cracked inside of him, his heart for sure. He couldn't deal with the fact of seeing his best friend's head on a pike. So, a tear fell down his cheek.
"No" He mumbled. "Not you".
Carl was being Siddiq's support, but at that moment, the roles got changed. Carl's legs shaked like he was about to fall. " It's okay, Carl, it's okay. Stay with me, please" Siddiq said.
"Hey, my favourite cowboy is here"
"I always call you 'cowboy', you have the right to call me 'doctor'"
"I know, but I refer, to see each other like this, like family, not like two strangers. I'm sorry for never had get back to Alexandria, but Maggie needed me here"
"Maybe we can be the same best friends that we were"
"It's true, Carl, everybody knows your story, and I'm so proud of you"
Memories of her didn't leave his mind. Memories of Enid being happy. Memories of his best friend for all life.
He remembered the first time she saw her, on that abandoned house at the entrance of Alexandria. He remembered the times that he followed in the woods and lost her from his sight. He remembered when they used to sneak out the walls and go into the woods to read comics. He remembered all the times that she gave him advices about his relationship. He remembered when they skated in their way to Hilltop. He remembered a lot of things that they could never do again.
He had lost his best friend and he couldn't get her back.
Enid was teaching people how to do CPR only a few hours ago. Enid was eating caramel apples with his boyfriend only a few hours ago. Enid was getting back the lost time with her best friend only a few hours ago, and now, her head was the eighth of ten.
Ninth head.
Tara.
"If you happen to see her, could you tell her I need to speak with her?" Gabriel asked Eugene.
"I haven't seen her in a while, but she must be around" Eugene said. Sadly, he was wrong. Tara wasn't around, not anymore.
When the prison got under attack, Tara was in the Governor's army, she was with the guy who killed Hershel, she was the enemy. But things changed. Glenn needed her help, and, Tara needed to help Glenn, she needed to help him so the guilt she was feeling could disappear. It was when she was ready to die in that tunnel full of walkers, so Glenn could live and continue searching for his wife, that Tara stop being the enemy, and became family.
She was Hilltop's leader since Jesus' death, she was capable to lead, and she was ready to. She was supposed to be a great leader.
Carol, Daryl and Carl looked at her head with melancholy. They had survived with her during a lot time, and now, that girl with an incredible sense of humor that used to brigthen their days didn't exist anymore. She had been reduced to a sad walker.
"If her mother retaliates it's gonna be against Hilltop, not Alexandria"
That thought arrived at Carl's mind. Tara was protecting her people, but she must have protected herself.
Tara was thinking about what was the the best for her people only a few hours ago. Tara was signing the mutual protection pact only a few hours ago. Tara was being the leader that the Hilltop needed only a few hours ago, and now, her head was the ninth of ten.
Tenth head.
"Where could she be? She's not the kind of people that disappear without telling someone where she is going" Rosita told to Eugene.
"Maybe she wanted to be alone. She wasn't happy about Carl going out there. Maybe she wanted to distract herself"
"Eugene, she wouldn't do that. If she didn't tell anyone what she was going to do, it's because she is going out there and look for him. She care so much about him"
"In that case, I hope she is still in here. She can get hurt if she goes alone"
"Come on, we need to find her. Carl is going to kill us if something happens to her" Rosita commanded.
Even though Rosita and Eugene went to look for her as soon as they realized that she was missing, someone else had already found her.
And then, Carl saw the last pike. With his eye wide open, he unconsciously left Siddiq alone. He dropped the Colt Phyton that he had in his hand. He couldn't take his sight apart from the head. He approached to the pike a little more, he was wishing that his sight was playing tricks on him, because in case it wasn't, and the head was of the person he was thinking it was, he couldn't stand that.
He was about to get close enough when Daryl got between his sight and the pike. "No! No!" Daryl shouted, while he was holding Carl of his shoulders. "Don't look at it. Don't look"
Carl's legs shaked again, but this time, he fell on his knees. Daryl got on his knees too, to comfort him. "Kid, please, don't look at her, don't do that".
Carl's cry was making him look so vulnerable and so broken that even Yumiko felt the need of hug him. But nobody dare to do it, except of Daryl, who was already with him.
Daryl was speaking to him, but he wasn't listening. His heart was so broken and he was so submerge on his memories that everything around him didn't seem to be important.
Inside of Carl, it was like his mind wanted to live again all the moments that he had shared with her, like he needed to remember everything he had done with Amunet.
Cause, yeah, the head that was on that pike was hers.
"Hi, my name is Carl, what's yours?"
"I'm Amunet" The little girl answered. They were in the outsides of Atlanta, in a camp.
"Do you wanna play with me and Sophia? She wants to meet you"
"I would like to"
"Great! Follow me" Carl took her hand and guided her to where the other girl was. They played all morning and all afternoon, that when the sun hid, the three kids could barely stay awake.
The memorie of the first time they talked arrived. Carl felt like he was just being stabbed in the heart, so he let out a heartbreaking scream, toring apart his lungs.
"Carl! You woke up" Amunet had been waiting to him to wake up since Hershel operated him. She was happy that his friend was okay.
"Hello, Amunet. How's Sophia?"
"We hadn't find her" She said, sadly. But at least you are okay, I've missed you"
"We'll find her. I promise. I've missed you too. My dad gave my his hat, cool, no?"
"Yeah, now you are a cowboy"
"You can try it on, it must look great on you" Carl put the hat on Amunet's head. Both kids were laughing, but Carl started to cough.
"Carl, are you okay?" The girl asked worried.
"Yes, I shouldn't laugh too much, it hurts"
"You should get some sleep. Hershel said you're still weak"
"Could you stay here? I don't like to be alone"
"Sure"
The boy made a space in the bed, so Amunet could lay on it. "Sweet dreams, Amunet"
"Sweet dreams, Carl"
The sound of Carl's sobs were mixing with the sound of the moans that Amunet's head was doing. It was a brutal and depressive mix.
When a walker Sophia appeared out of the barn, Carl and Amunet started crying. They hugged each other and stayed like that for a while. After Rick put her down, and the adults began to move the bodies, they were the only ones that were near the barn.
"I thought we would find her" Carl said.
"I did it too. I'm gonna miss her" Amunet started to cry again.
"Hey, don't worry, we are you and me now, okay? You and me, together"
"Forever?"
"Forever"
Carl scratched the dirt under his hands, like the only way he had to express his anger. He could felt the Daryl's arms around him, but he didn't feel comforted.
"My mom's dead, Amunet. I killed her"
"You did what you needed to do. You couldn't just leave her, you know what would've happen"
"I'm a killer. The last moments I had with her I acted like an idiot"
"You were a great son, your mom loved you. And you are going to be a great big brother. Big brother Carl, remember that?"
"Can you give me a hug?"
"You don't have to ask for one"
"We should put them down" Daryl said, and his arms left Carl's body.
"Left Enid and Amunet, please, I'll do it" Carl said, standing up. Daryl moved his head in approval.
Carl got in the wagon that Garet told him. It was dark, but he could see that there were more people in there. A familiar silhouette appeared.
"Carl?" A voice that he knew perfectly asked.
"Amunet!" He said with joy. Both kids got together in a lovely hug, with tears in their cheeks.
"I thought you were dead" Amunet said crying. "When we were running out of the prison and you covered me from the walkers cause I didn't have ammo, I lost you, I looked for you but you weren't there"
"I had to get away from other way. Sorry"
"Don't you ever left me like that again"
"I won't"
Carl finally stood up, with his hands still shaking, he took the knife that Amunet had got for him in one of the running supplies that she did in Alexandria.
Carl opened his eye for the first time since he had get shot by Ron. The first thing he saw after had defeat the death again was Amunet, who was sat next to him. Amunet was submerged in her mind, she didn't notice that he was awake.
"Hi" He said.
Amunet made eye contact with him, and she smiled. She was showing him that beautiful smile and seeing him with those precious grey eyes that had him hypnotized.
She didn't said anything. She just stood up, got near to Carl and kissed him on his lips. "Thanks for wake up. I was losing my mind"
"I just lost mine with that kiss" He joked.
"I should've done that a long time ago"
Carl reached Enid's head.
"Why did you come to get me to The Hilltop?" Enid asked.
"I was worried about you. You didn't take any knife with you"
"I can take care of myself"
"I know, but..."
"But what?"
"You are my best friend. I needed to know you were going to be fine"
Enid hugged Carl and talked to his ear. "And you are my best friend, too. Thank you for made me company"
He raised the knife and buried it in the skull.
"I'm so sorry, Enid. Go to rest, it's time"
The head stopped moaning and Carl felt a little relieved. His best friend was resting now, in a place without suffer, that was what she deserved.
What Carl did next wasn't easy. He was in front of Amunet's head. It was the only left to put down. Everyone was waiting for Cark to do it.
Carl raised his hand, but this was shaking a lot that he dropped the knife.
"Carl, I could do it" Daryl said.
"I have to do this, please" Carl took again the knife. He looked at the walker's eyes. They were grey, but not the beautiful grey that Amunet's eyes used to be. And that was because that walker wasn't Amunet anymore, Amunet wasn't a sad head, Amunet was a shimmering start that guided Carl's life during so many years, and that wasn't going to change. A last memory appeared before Carl had put down the walker.
Amunet and Carl hugged after Carl almost got killed by Lucille. "I love you, Carl, I love you so much"
"I love you too, Amunet. I love you too" That was the first time they said 'I love you' to each other.
"I will always love you, Amunet" Carl said before he buried the knife, making the moans stopped. Amunet was now a free soul. Amunet loved Carl until the ended of her life. Amunet died thinking about Carl. And Amunet would always be with Carl.
Amunet and Carl were kindred spirits.
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