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caelanglang · 10 months

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This is me outside your window begging you not to abandon Akai or in general ao3 out of fear of me—

I swear it is not all depressive as shit there’s ACTUALLY joy somewhere in there i am capable of writing joy I swear I swear

ito. dude. my brother in tumblr.

Allow me to walk you down my Akai journey. Sorry if it's gonna be a long read.

So. Months ago, after experiencing one of the most magical and adventurous Ao3 fic that is mvo, I saw your alta au sketch. I remember vibrating with so much excitement as I reblogged it. When you dropped the first chapter in Ao3, I ran—no, I sprinted. I've never opened a link with so much speed and excitement like that moment. Then i read the tags. Because last time I trusted an author (hi Ellie) with so much skill in storytelling and blindly jumped over the tags to read their skk fic, I was left with so much devastation and pain over how good it was (I missed the death tags) And I saw it.

"childhood friends to lovers to then enemies to lovers again, let's get this straight they both die okay?"

ITO. Do you understand the emotions I went through when I read those two tags??? I WAS SO HAPPY THEN SO SAD. ITO. I even messaged my friend about it. Which is in itself not a common thing for me to do.

ALAS. I DECIDED. OKAY I'LL READ IT. I KNOW WHAT'S COMING. I'M STRONG ENOUGH FOR THIS.

It was like mdzs all over again bro. Me, falling in love with the characters in the flashbacks. Me being devastated over shijie's death. no.

BUT THEN. You wrote them with so much life???? I could feel their blood running and pumping with so much vitality through the words—in the way you wrote them with so much color. That mattered so much to me. They were so young. The war felt so close yet so far. THEY WERE SO YOUNG. I knew what was coming. But with the way how you wrote them. I couldn't help but feel so attached. Just like the way how you wrote them being so captivated by each other. I was so captivated by them. Then the fear finally caught up. THEY'RE GONNA DIE. IN A WAR. And i'm telling you. ANGST IS OKAY WITH ME BUT WAR ANGST JUST HITS SO DIFFERENT. WAR ANGST WAS ALSO THE REASON I STOPPED READING TGCF. So yes. I froze time and stopped reading when they were young and as happy as they could possibly be in that damned war and timeline.

okay enough dramatics i'm sorry for making you read this much. I just wanted you to know I will inevitably fall in love with your words and storytelling. And i know i will be devastated. I'm not your strongest soldier.

but okay. i'll read it again. we rebuild homes in forgotten battlefields after all... i'll gather my guts again... orz thank you for writing such a wonderful fic (i will give thanks before i start screaming at you once i'm done)

#dw i opened ao3 today for klapollo food #but #mahn #ito you make it so hard #/lh /pos #i love you but why /lh #inbox #sure you are capable of writing joy but the ratio of that to your angst is #uh #*doubt*#fav inbox #inbox moots

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