some dante doodles that i havent put up here yet

(1)hi mom! so theres this really funny and beautiful girl that has this like small youtube channel and i follow her on twitter n things and i think i have this massive crush on her? that or im just platonically in love but ive never really had any close friends or felt the need to make them so i have no idea how to talk? or be funny? or socialize in general and i like really want to talk to her too? and she really likes fashion n things and has really nice clothes n i like it too but

(2) i dont have the money to buy clothes or make up bc im kinda p poor so?? and i have no idea what to do bc i cant stop thinking abt her and ive never felt like this before n im kinda scared? do u have advice on this?

First of all, unless you know this girl personally I’d caution you from saying you’re falling for her or in love with her or anything of that sort. People online present themselves in a certain way and unless you know them personally, you honestly don’t know them. You don’t know this girl; she could be anyone when she’s not in front of a camera. Don’t forget that!

I’ve met… probably around 40-50 people off the internet over the last 20 years, and there have been a few times where I’ve been really surprised and disappointed about how different they are in real life. It’s not always the case, but people can use the internet to give you false impressions of what they’re like - to assume an alternate, ‘cooler’ persona, if you will. To pretend to be the person they wish they were. Sometimes you don’t even need to meet people irl to find this stuff out - you find out, after getting to know them better on the internet, that they’re nothing like you thought they were. 

You may really like the idea of her and want to get to know her personally - that’s fine! That’s how you make friends: liking the way someone seems and wanting to know them better. But please keep in mind all you like at this stage is your personal idea of what she might be like.

Anyway, if this girl is worth her salt, the fact you have no money to buy clothes or makeup won’t impact how much she likes you at all - so I wouldn’t worry about that area of your concerns. You can like fashion without having the money to fully engage with it yourself. 

Try to strike up a conversation with her. Engage her on something she’s said on her channel. I can’t really give you tips about how to strike up a conversation about fashion because I am the opposite of fashionable. I am Frumpy Aunt Asy who wears makeup twice a year. But if you’re interested in fashion too, get her talking about fashion and herself. People love talking about themselves. Compliment one of her outfits and ask how she came up with the idea of combining whatever elements she combined. Ask her what she thinks about add x element, or etc. People also love giving their opinions. You get a girl talking about herself or her opinions and you’ll get a girl talking. 

Anyway, I wish you luck with this one - but, genuinely, hold off on the “I love yours” until you know someone personally, because people can be quite different one-on-one! :)