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pinkseas · 1 month

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girls who have all their lives struggled with worthiness and have spent a solid decade convinced that they were undeserving of love fighting desperately to be good enough to be loved in any capacity by anyone at all, constantly failing constantly being left behind, when someone they dearly care for and genuinely trust just Very Casually tells them that they are easy to love

#diary time sorry this is kinda :// im just like. REELING #'damn shocked you into silence' GENUINELY YEAH 😭😭😭#like okay. okay. okay. okay. cool. take a belief ive held onto my entire life and flip it on its head with no effort at all. yeah thats fin #it feels SO silly to say im like Shaky bc of this but i have a whole ass complex built around it ive worked thru sm in therapy for years no #but this is one of the only things left that still (consistently) REALLY fucks me up and that i cant get through my head #and not for lack of trying its a work in progress if u will but. god.#genuinely one of the kindest things anyone has ever said to me i think this is going to live with me for the rest of my life #or at least for the next decade #u know when someone says smth or tells u smth and u just Never Forget It like its too meaningful for you to let go of?#whether good or bad?#this is obviously Very Good which is strange in of itself but also holy shit. holy shit. holy shit #and idk i try to surface level be. Like This? silly goofy kind etc? but to hear that from someone who knows me PRETTY damn well #and who i have sm respect for and put sm trust in #like okay. okay. okay .okay. okay. okay. yeah. sure. yeah. mmhmm. alright. cool. okay.yeah. alright.#one million explosions #alyalyoxenfree #cant decide if i want him to see this or not #thats always a weird moment of someone saying something genuinely life-changing and then its like oh shit #do i suddenly dump all this baggage on you for the sole purpose of making you understand how meaningful this is to me #or do i do. Not That. and simply carry on forever changed for the better

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