if you HAD to choose, what are your top 3 scenes from s1 and why?

thankk u so much for giving me the liberty of talking about THREE SCENES

very easy to pick my most favorite but 2nd and 3rd is hard... :)

theres a LOT of scenes i like and im currently torn between two scenes for 3rd, but i'll go with

The disavowal of claudia. ohhh "a vile hunger for your hammering heart," you were SUCH a loaded episode. i pick this scene because bailey's performance was off the walls here and god does it hurt <:') i quote it in the mirror a lot because the subtle deliveries of pain, frustration, and confusion is soo..argh.... "who would ever want me? perverts? [...] or little boys? and 40 years from now... still little boys...?"

fucking heartbreaking, man. bailey is also really good at Shutting Off and i just find it sooo amazing to watch. i wanna be an actor too >:)

2nd might be.....

the entire church scene <:) i watched the pilot with my mom. i remember it Very well. if i try to remember hard enough, i can feel the tension that kept us chilled and quiet, and glued to the screen in abject horror. i think this scene is a really amazing example of SOUND DESIGN? something about the orchestra during this scene had me getting sucked into the tv and its easy to get gripped and invested in a scene but its another to be hypnotized by one, especially one as brutal as this one. it's extremely inspiring to me artistically, and i'd love to be able to find some way to translate how i felt watching this scene into future horror-esque pieces of mine <:)

my ultimate number 1 favorite scene WITHOUT ANY QUESTION is

paul and louis' dance :)...... it's just such a happy scene and even though ive seen the pilot over 20 times at this point the dance just has me grinning ear to ear every time, without fail. even when you know what happens directly after this scene its still really easy to get lost in the sheer joy that emanates out of it and it just means a lot to me T_T

i love louis So dearly and this is the happiest we ever get to see him the ENTIRE show, so.. yeah i hold the happiness we get to see very close to my heart :] and i like to see him and paul get along

throwing you a bone (heh) cause I wanna know your thoughts. Ramble about vampires. What do you like about them? Have a favorite vampire?

i had so much to say so if u care to read it it's under the cut :-)

ok so i have a lot of opinions on vampires but im not going to share all of them now (partly bc im planning to put those ideas into a paper at some point and i don't want to spoil the writing process for myself lmao) so my favorite vampires by far are louis, claudia, and lestat from the interview with the vampire tv show. there are characters who are vampires that i love more than those three (nandor from what we do in the shadows comes to mind) but in my opinion, that show is the best modern version of vampires. because vampires are monsters, and monsters symbolize something that a culture is scared of, and a lot of modern vampire stories forget that. i understand that not everyone want to see vampires as monsters, but i am very firm in my belief that vampires always should be monsters. that being said, i think there's a lot to analyze in iwtv (2022) of what people both from the past timeline and the present timeline are scared of, especially as it correlates to race, queerness, and femininity. i cannot go into more detail right now because i have not studied any of the iwtvs in an academic context, so i do not feel comfortable putting an unbacked opinion on something that i want to feel strongly about.

i do think that most modern vampire stories are largely disappointing. twilight and its copycats are disgraces to the vampire name, and even wwdits, which i love so dearly, is yet to show a real understanding of why culturally vampires exist.

as far as sexual reasons, because i do have a vampire kink, it has a lot to do with desire and submission. i feel a lot of insecurity about being desired, and i often don't believe when someone claims that they want me, so to have tangible proof, such as bite marks in my skin and my blood being sucked up, that that person desires me, then i am much more likely to believe it. as far as submission, i feel very comforted when i am able to submit to someone, and if someone is able to force or compel me to submit, then i am able to find that comfort more quickly. i think there might be a few other reasons why i find vampires so erotic, but i haven't psychoanalyzed them yet so there's nothing interesting to talk about in them.

okay hi figure skater anon back - idk how much you know ab ice dancing but i feel you when it comes to stydia like in my lil au world they are IT like idk if you know who tessa virtue and scott moir are but like thats who i mirror them off of but ive always imagined that stiles wouldve gotten into skating bc claudia was a skater with like olympic dreams before an injury shattered her career so she moves on falls in love has little stiles and then when she gets sick shes starts talking about it with stiles and idk the 2004 olympics was the winter instead of summer in this world and they watch it together (and its one of the last good memories stiles has with her) and then after she dies stiles starts skating as a way to be close to her but also hes GOOD enter (in this world classmate) lydia who is originally training just as a solo skater but her and stiles get like double booked on the rink one day and decided to just skate at the same time but they both see how great each other are and are like 'if were so amazing apart - imagine how great we would be TOGETHER? and thus their world changing ice dancing partnership begins and they win the olympic gold at least twice BUT idk now how to fit derek into this tho like obviously i want a reason for derek to see stiles skate and be like awestruck/fall in love at first sight and i think it would be cute to have it happen at stydias first olympics but what sport derek would be there for.....................i dont picture him as another figure skater and i feel like hockey is kinda cliche but idk

OK HI HELLO. WOWZA!!!! let me tell u how many times ive read and reread this ask and it always always makes me giddy and smile!!! OHGOD WHERE DO I EVWN BEGIN but ohmigahhh.. i dont know much about figure skating unfortunately but i’ve just watched tessa virtue and scott moir’s performance of stay by rihanna and OHMIGAHHH.. figure skating always always makes me insane like its just SO intimate and intense and partnered figure skating is like. a whole lot more and i lovelove that stydia has that steady intimate and close relationship in this au .. i jus know theyre each others best friends …. I love them so bad 🥺

ALSO THE STILESCLAUDIA. FAWKKK OHMIGOD OHOSNWKSNSJ. ohgod this is definitley similar with my ballerina au—i just love the idea of stiles doing something (in my case ballet and yours figure skating) that was so so close to claudia’s heart to keep HER close to his .. 💓 it is just so devastatingly sweet 😞💝 just stiles clinging onto the memories and whatever he has left of claudia… it is so heartbreaking to me! i fucking love any stilesclaudia with this trope!!! its why i jold ballerina au close to my heart like i just lovelove exploring stiles’ character & especially how claudia fits into all of it … arghh

I LOOOORV HOW STYDIA MEETS THATS SO AMAZING AND JUST SO STYDIA LIKE THEM REALIZING THEYRE SO FUCKING GOOD AND AMAZING BUT ALSO BETTER WITH EACH OFHER AND JUST UPLIFTING EACH OTHER AND BEING GAY AND GIGGLY AND ETHEREAL DURING THE OLYMPCS…. Ohgodddddd genuinely theyre known for being ethereal creatures once on the ice i jus know it ……

also im SO fucking obsessed with how dereks just some guy here 😭😭😭😭😭 CAUSE RHATS EXACTLY DEREK IN MY BALLERINA AU AS WELL PLEASEEEEEEHEJOSEKSIW 😭😭😭😭🫣 like im sorry derek! youre just some werewolf in the corner whos utterly in love w stiles ….. it’d be so cute if lydia & cora gfs and stiles and derek unknowingly meet .. derek is stiles’ strong and growly bf in the stands <3 hes just some cute supportive bf hes amazing. hes some basketball player or something. Love him dearly

u have a friend named claudia who makes u feel safe!!! i used to have a friend named claudia who made me feel safe...we don't talk so much anymore. losing friends can hurt a lot more than losing romantic partners. ah. something like that anyway. also, you also makes me feel safe-- your blog is a very soft, safe home. thank you for nurturing it so :)

i have a friend named claudia who is my world! i love her dearly. i’m sorry about your friend and i hope you’re always surrounded by people who make you feel safe. thank you for the kindness. i appreciate it more than you know.