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aberrantmind · 4 years

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so one of the older stories ive made that still appeals to me was the one about what happens after a portal fantasy ends focusing on this guy who was a child hero and saved a fantasy otherworld and then ended up back home on earth feeling completely listless and unfulfilled and had a lot of problems due to him just disappearing for weeks to months on end when he was a literal child. i think the storyline i used for that wasnt the right one (i had him return to the fantasy world, but it would’ve been more interesting to keep him on earth) but the concept is still good imo and i still like the character i used for it

#i like stories that are like well the world is saved. What Now #and all too fucking often the answer is the hero gets married and has babies #fuck OFF #not only is that bad and boring and dumb as shit it is uhm. also at times kind of a trigger for me due to some unknown reason #smth im currently trying to work on is a story set in a fantasy world focusing on someone who turned out to not be the grand hero of legend #who still defeated the great evil but like. due to not being the one who was SUPPOSED to said evil could still come back #and hes like trying to deal with that trying to make a living as someone who spent most of his life as a soldier or hero #trying to build a healthier relationship with his daughter #oooh ok the reason the married with kids ending makes me feel so godawful is probs like. *is aspec* *is sex repulsed*#*is very deeply adverse to the idea of myself in a relationship* *is traumatized from societys ambient misogyny*#*just doesnt like children very much* *having to see the idea of a life and relationship i want nothing to do with presented as the ultimate #in happiness and contentment makes me feel bad and trapped*#ANYWAY #lmao this guys story (the second guy) started just as me going yk what would be funny . traditional heroic fantasy #but theres a definite undercurrent of tense queer energy that pervades the whole thing #my idea was to write smth that cishet nerd men would want to read and then to hit them with 'actually the protag?'#'mlm and in love with his best friend'#huh. a lot of my playing with fantasy tropes story protagonists are mlm #most of my regular characters are wlw/nblw bc im nbwlw so i guess its just most fantasy protags are guys?#i think ill turn the portal fantasy guy into a dnd npc. living in a graveyard with his necromancer husband

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