i think i've finally come to understand why i'm so bad at communicating with friends 👍 at one point or another i've thought i was in love with every single person i've ever been friends with (for the most part, at least) because i don't expect other people to like me. OBVIOUSLY this is not true but platonic feelings are not dissimilar to romantic ones (baseline they're the same: you want to love and be loved by someone) but i always end up realizing that i'm not in love with them, just that they matter to me very much and i wouldn't know what do to w/o their presence in my life. BUT this brings me to facet number 2 of my awful communication skills: i hate it when things Get Real. i find myself retreating any time it seems like Something Could Change in my day-to-day life due to them being around and "forcing" the change. i run away from talking to one of my only irl friends on almost a daily basis bc i dread the idea of having to do anything she might want me to do. i think, at the end of the day, my problem might just be that i don't want to change... ANYWAYS

Millie, since you know Razputin for quite a while, we wanted to know what your best memory has been with him ?

[Millie] 'A while'? It's more some ...a little over a year I know the little guy. In fact, tomorrow it'll be a year me and Lizzie are dating. Th- ...that's not really relevant, not sure why I said that.

...

Maybe I'm just giddy for tomorrow.

Ahem, anyway ....I think my best memory with Raz is our time in Brazil, spending those few weeks at his Avó's beach house - more like a motel, with all those room .... Just spending the nights at the beach, having a campfire going, sharing stories, singing songs (badly), having fun.

Which ...was really needed, because it happened not too long after Lizzie and Norma's dad passed away. And other things happened ....

(Longs pause) I don't know if we ever told you this, but Lizzie and I had a big fight around that time, and I had really been contemplating breaking up with her.

Here's what happened: I didn't find out that Lizzie and Norma's dad died until a few weeks after it happened. Lizzie ...never told me. She called me the night after it happened, and she ...just didn't tell it, pretended nothing was wrong - Even Norma didn't know she hadn't told me. I have no idea why Lizzie did that, and I think she herself don't even really know why, but yeah ....

Lizzie reacted so badly to her father's death, did some real stupid stuff, and it all culminated into a physical fight between Norma and Lizzie, with the former luckily managing to talk some sense into Lizzie - after which she called me and told me. I was ...livid, absolutely furious. To me, it felt like she didn't trust me. I ...almost broke up with her then and there, but ....I just said I needed to think and ...(sighs) ...

Well, lucikly for all involved, it all worked out in the end. Me and Lizzie made up big time, and we commemorated the moment. (Lifts up the sleeve of her shirt, showing the Heart tattoo with Lizzie's name in it.) We got matching ones.

Author's note: these are all things that were gonna happen in the Norma/Frazie story-that-is-now-on-hiatus-and-I-don't-know-if-I'll-ever-finish-writing-it.

(Chuckles) How did I make an ask about Raz turn into a story about me and Lizzie? My mind, man ....just goes (makes a fart noise with her mouth).