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bluecloudious · 3 years

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Kinda angst I guess (but it has Zanaz so take that with a grain of salt)

Trying out writing a story this time.

I mean, yeah, I wrote for the comics, but not long dialog.

So yea, as per both the funni boys mature content warning. (There's no canoodling, there is talk of it tho.)

Also there's quite a bit of text (8 pages worth on Word)

So ye:

“Get up, I have some juicy gossip for you.”

...What?

I open my eyes and the world around me is blinding. It’s so bright that it takes a second to adjust to it. There’s nothing around me other than vast white and empty space.

This definitely isn’t Nevada anymore. (Unless Hank managed to ruin everything even further somehow.)

“Get up now, I know you heard me.”

I get up and look around. Who the hell is talking? There’s literally nothing but white for miles.

“I’m in your head, pretty boy.”

Uh, that…

“I’m holding my eyes closed, don’t worry. I regret ever having them open in here, in fact.”

Welp, that answers that. Now for the other question.

“Who I am is not important. What info I have, may be of interest, though.”

Alright?

“There’s a deal attached to this knowledge, Zanaz. Hear me out before you start fidgeting.”

I’ll sure try.

“You know Kits, right?”

No duh, he’s my best friend.

“Excellent. He’s going to die soon.”

…

What?! Wha, when, how, uh--

“Calm down, jitterbug. There’s nothing you can do to stop his fate, so don’t try. If he doesn’t die one way, another thing will go wrong. Understand?”

I-- NO! What the fuck?! Are you gonna kill him?!

“No, not me. I’m just sharing the news.”

Yeah, right, sure. Fucking… When then?

“Soon.”

How soon? In a month, week or a few days?

“Hm… A month then, give or take.”

...Fuck… How?

“Depends on what leads up to it.”

So, there are a lot of different ways it can happen, right?

“Indeed there are.”

...Do I die with him?

“No.”

NO?! In none of the different variations, I don’t die by his side?

“Oh, you can be by his side, of course. But death isn’t after you.”

What if I try to block a bullet, but it goes through both of us.

“Oddly specific. You’ll still survive.”

What if I block it with my head?!

“Brain damage, possible vegetable state. Will still survive though.”

What if Hank slices us with one of his multiple katanas?!

“People have lived through being sliced in half before.”

WHAT.

“This world has zombie clowns with god like powers and the AAHW is lead by a man consisting of black fire.”

...Ugh, fair enough. So… Wait those are all possible deaths for him?

“If you do everything in your power for it to happen, then yes.”

I… I can kill him before his time?

“Of course! You have free will, don’t you? It’s more of a question if you want to.”

Of course I fucking don’t! I care about him!

“I saw. You daydream about him an uncomfortable amount.”

He’s the main person I’m around, give me a break!

“Have you ever considered not being horny?”

Until I’m castrated, there’ll be nothing of the sorts.

“You’re not even fertile! None of the clones are!”

You think I’m tryna get anyone pregnant at this sausage fest? Besides, that has not stopped me before.

“I refuse to believe that any of those scenes I saw play out in your head happened for real.”

You’d be surprised then.

“WHICH?!?”

Those are for me to treasure.

“...You’re pulling my leg.”

Believe what you want.

“Augh, never mind, TMI. Back onto the topic at hand.”

Oh, yeah, right. Kit… Dying…

Could you for real not give me a date?

“If it depends on the circumstances beforehand, then there’s no possible way to tell which one belongs to this timeline.”

And that means…?

“I don’t know how this Kits dies.”

Can I at least warn him?

“Well, there’s where the other side of the deal comes in. If you tell him, then the effect kicks in immediately.”

What effect? Death?

“Precisely.”

...Ah. Wait, so if I don’t tell him, he dies in a month but if I do, he dies immediately? Of what?

“Stroke, heart attack or brain aneurysm. Chosen at random. Oh, also sneak assassination. That’s also a valid option.”

...This feels set up.

“Mh?”

This feels like either you or whoever sent you here set this up so I’d suffer. You enjoy the pain of others, don’t you?

“I’m only the messen--”

Yeah, yeah, Messenger Bullshit. Then whoever decided this is probably a reality tv producer, who is jacking off to someone pushing in the soft part of a baby’s skull as we speak. You encourage such behaviour by working with them, ya know.

“...Do you think you sound smart?”

I know for a fact I’m not, so no. I’m pretty sure I’m on the money with this one though.

“If I wasn’t here then Kits’ death would come as a surprise to you though!”

I’d prefer that, actually! Now I have to deal with knowing that he… He… Won’t be here anymore soon.

“Well, knowing how overwhelmingly perverted you are, wouldn’t you wanna grab this opportunity?”

...What?

“Shoot your shot, ask him out. Not like you could do it with a corpse… …Right…?”

I may be horny, but I’m not messed up.

“Had to make sure.”

Ugh, you’re just making fun of me, aren’t you?

“Which instance are you referring to?”

Kit would never date me.

“And why exactly do you think that?”

He has standards?

“You’re a decently handsome fellow. You also get along with him just fine.”

That… That’s not a determinant of shit like that. There’s way better out there for him.

“He won’t meet em then. Only a month to live, remember?”

I… It’s not worth it.

“What isn’t?”

I know he’ll say no, there’s no point in trying.

“How do you know for sure until you actually ask?”

Cause it’s obvious! He’s actually got a brain in his noggin and he knows me way too well! He’d be fucking disgusted, man! We’re just friends and that’s that.

“Do you not want to then?”

...Why do you assume I do? How do you know that those aren’t just blissful fantasies like the rest of them?

“He’s the only one that you dream of in a non-perverted way. I see no other person in this graphic landscape that you want to hold hands with. (Also, I am closing my eyes again now, Jebus Christoff.)”

...Ffffuck.

“Well, did hit the nail on the head?”

Y-You’re stupid and gay!

“I’m rubber, you’re glue.”

That doesn’t affect me, I’m already openly gay and stupid!

“I guess we’re both such then.”

Dammit.

“So, you gonna give him a month to remember or not?”

…Eh?

“Come on, how much romance could a member of the A.A.H.W. really experience throughout their lifetime? If you’d make this month worth his and your own time, perhaps it would be less painful to see him go? At least he died happy?”

THAT WOULD BE EXTRA PAINFUL FOR ME, THOUGH!

“Oop, Zanaz selfish, you heard it here first, folks.”

That’s not what I meant. I’d already be upset over losing my best friend, imagine how fucking devastating losing a sweetheart would be.

“…I dunno, still sounds selfish to me. Does his happiness not mean anything to you?”

Who says he’d be happy with me?

“I know you want to make him happy, at least. You dream about his smile.”

STOP FUCKING LOOKING THOUGH MY THOUGHTS!!

“I’m not looking anymore, I just memorized the ones I already saw. (I wish I couldn’t.)”

I- You- Fucking-- UggHHH! It’s not worth it!

“What exactly do you imagine will happen if you tell him how you feel, huh? World combusts?”

I already told you, he already knows way too much about me! He’d be fucking grossed out and we’ll… We’ll stop being friends.

He’d quicken his pace whenever we’d have to pass each other in one of the halls. He’d desperately keep his glance away from me. He’d… I’d stop being the main person he talks and comes to company for a-and I can’t fucking have that, man!

I-I wouldn’t be able to handle it. He means too much to me.

“…I had no idea you were this insecure.”

FUCK OFF! It’s a bitter reality that I’ve come to accept!

“You haven’t even given it a shot!”

You don’t need to get crushed by a piano to know you’d die on impact!

“Those two things don’t correlate even remotely!”

It’s a metaphor!

“I know that, I’m saying that Kits has a thing for you too!”

…He what?

“He has major league crush on you! The things you say when play-flirting excite him! He’s gotten off to the thought of you touching him up! The works! (Why did I word it like that?)”

Whuh-- How the fuck do you know this??

“While you were monologuing, I visited his subconscious and confirmed it for myself.”

You can do that??

“You don’t even know my name.”

...Fair nuff. So, wait, he’s actually gotten off thinking about me?

“I don’t even need to open my eyes to already know you’re imagining it. Short answer, yes. He’s into you, Zanaz.”

Augh, I dunno what to do with this info. It’s kinda... Overwhelming in a way.

Actually, wait, how do I know you haven’t been lying to me this whole time?

“I’m an incorporeal voice in your head that’s having a back and forth with you in a white void.”

Yeah, and?

“…I’m supernatural?”

Yeah, and?

“Come on! I just know, okay?!”

Sounds fake, not gonna lie.

“The part where I knew that Kits was gonna die was convincing, but the moment I mention that he might have a thing for you, you question the validity of my claims thus far??”

One sounds way more far-fetched than the other, you gotta admit.

“NO IT DOESN’T?!?!”

For you maybe! I’ve known him since I’ve been out the cloning tube! We became agents together! I think I’d know what kinda stuff is off the table for him, buddy.

“Well, not only are you wrong, you’re in denial.”

I am not!

“Then try it! Just attempt asking him out! In the very least, you’ll remain friends after. I promise you. Cross my heart and all that jazz.”

…

…You’re absolutely positive? You are also the person that told me he’d die in a month’s time.

“A hundred percent positive. I have never been more sure of anything in my life.”

You have a life?

“Unfortunately. So, you’ll do it?”

Why’re you so adamant about me fucking Kits?

“Affgdgfdgfg, it’s not about you fucking him, it’s you making his last living month worthwhile!”

Okay, so, why do you want me to do that?

“…Do you not??”

I mean, I guess that sounds worth my time. But you didn’t answer my question.

“Sorry for assuming that you want the person you’re madly in love with to be happy, I guess??”

Apology accepted. Now, how do I get outta here?

“Ugh, just wake up.”

Whu--

And I’m sitting up in my own mat, back at the facility. The clock shows that it’s early morning.

What the fuck do I make of what I just saw? Or heard, for that matter? It clearly wasn’t a normal dream, I never remember those. Plus the topic tends to blur together usually.

I gotta tell-- Wait, I can’t do that, fuck.

…

It’s way to early for shit like this, man!!

Augh…

#It's got pictures <:)#OC #Madness combat #I took my time with this one and like how it came out #Augh I had to even edit the text and shit on Tumblr...#I be like *gives Zanaz even more personality*#KitZan

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chyeahlex16 · 6 years

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Since I am not spoiler free...

BOY have I got THINGS TO SAY

Spoilers down below, pls talk to me if you’ve seen the season!!

First of all, of the top of my head bc i just saw something that reminded me of it, can we just talk about those flashbacks???

That outfit that Texas Kogane was wearing-- correct me if I’m wrong, but isn’t that what Keith dressed SHIRO in when they got him back in the first fucking episode of season one??? And the gloves??? Keith’s wearing his dad’s gloves???

And during the broganes flashbacks--Does that mean the hoverbike is Shiro’s and Keith took it over after he disappeared??

And can we talk about the Galran traits Keith had when he was fighting Clone Shiro? The eyes, maybe the teeth, and I think even the purple skin at one point?? Plus he’s apparently taller, ‘grizzlier’ and whatever else Lance called him lmao he ain’t slick pfft

Speaking of Lance, I find it hard to say things that aren’t complaints bc I really don’t want to complain about things this season. We were handed something that didn’t leave me 100% unhappy and unsatisfied, and I wanna take that with grace and not be all nitpicky and weird about. I feel like the more we complain and nitpick at it, the less we’ll encourage other potential shows that might wanna do what we ask for, if that makes sense? That’s not to say there aren’t things to complain about, (bc let’s be real........you know,,,,) , but maybe keep it to constructive criticism instead of verbal attacks? Maybe I’m just sensitive but a lot of the things I see are really..... aggressive. Tbh Idek why I’m saying this as if anyone important is gonna read it aslkdjalk ignore me i guess lol

Anyway, let’s talk about the good things with Lance! My boy got some screen time giving those orders!! Being in charge, giving out good plans, doing good things!! Offering encouragement and being stern and levelheaded when needed, all that good stuff. Yes, a bunch of his screen time was him being jealous of Lotor and Allura, but again, I’m tryna focus on the positives here. I’m so excited to see what happens when they go home!!!! I wanna see Lance’s family!! Wanna see him extend it around!!! Wanna see him welcome everyone into his home!! And he was so suave when he was playing as his character in the DND episode, that was great!

Speaking of the DND episode, it was actually really good I think! It made me laugh a bunch, and although it was a lot of comic relief and funny times... actually, I think that’s all it was... I’m v tired and the earlier episodes are blurring, ngl. Moving on! It was a good episode that made me laugh and showcased a lot of their strengths and abilities to work as a team, and I love the jokes they made about Shiro in it. Really humanized him and made him more like one of them, if that makes sense? I feel like he’s always been treated as Black Paladin, Leader of Voltron, Levelheaded Person At All Times, when, like, he’s a real person with lots emotions and joys too?? Ya know, a human, on the same level as the others. I feel like, as far as the show goes, he’s put on this pedestal and only taken down in rare moments, like the jokes in the DND ep and (only instance i can think of off the top of my head) the laser gun noises instance in s1.

AND SPEAKING OF SHIRO, CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT THE ASTRAL PLANE SCENE WITH KEITH. His fucking explanation of what happened to me killed me. He said he DIED and I WANTED TO DIE. I’m very surprised by this season, it’s the only one to have made me almost cry in the span of like 3 episodes like this. Where emotions come in, this bitch really tried to go for it. They had me for a bit, ya know?? I laughed, I wanted to cry, I got angry and annoyed and irritated, the whole shebang, it did a good job of getting an okay range of emotions out.

Everyone else is talking about this too, but they made Keith look so good in this season??? Like, as a lesbian, I am surprised; they made my sons look amazing. And this sparked the need to complain about the Krolia scene continuation from “You’re my mom??” but. But. I am not going to complain (yet ). And I’m not going to reblog discourse either. I am not tryna be in the business of tearing down things that potentially make me happy. This season gave me moments of happiness. Sparse moments, but moments nonetheless. It left me hopeful for the next season bc let me be an honest bitch and say that I have no idea what’s gonna happen next. All I can say is I hope they don’t fuck it up.

For now, I think this concludes my bubbling thoughts on season 6 for the night/morning. It’s 3am and I am Tired. If you’ve made it this far on my ramblings, thanks for reading, I probs didn’t make much sense, pls come talk to me further about it!! Let’s gush!! And although I said I wasn’t about the complaining that doesn’t mean you can’t come into my messages to complain! I’m actually a fair bitch who will hear you out lol, we can discuss. But yeah. I look forward to all the art and fanfics that will come from this season, even tho I myself as a writer can’t think of anything I could write from this. It was kinda... dry of substance for my tastes. But after a few days of mulling it over, I’m sure something will come to me and many others.

I go slep now goonigh <333

EDIT: HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN THE FUCKING WOLF???? MY BOY HAD A PET AND I NEVER EVEN LEARNED ITS NAME BUT I LOVED THAT MONTAGE OF BONDING BETWEEN THEM, MAY IT BE LOYAL AS FUCK TO HIM

#longpost #vld s6 #vld spoilers #vld s6 spoilers #my rambling thoughts #chacha speaks

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mindofawriter22 · 3 years

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Knowledge is Power

In crunch time, like it’s gut check

I punch lines but I ain’t no joke

The inspiration of hope

Giving unforgettable quotes

And did I mention the disposition

Of consistent repetition

Tryna show you what ya missing

So I’m hoping you’ll listen

On a mission, to get this cash

Starving for knowledge that can’t be bought

Brain wondering with a mind full of hunger

Hmm.. That’s food for thought

And my plate’s got plenty of room

Never too cool for school

Ears open, eyes peeled

Hearing the OGs point of view

See in this game called Life, I peep

The youth I try to reach

Separating preaching from freedom of speech

Fiends will try to leech

Disposing secrets they can’t keep

Exposing true colors like no other

Used to call each other brothers

Had a side I didn’t see

Like an agent undercover

Caught me slippin, I was trippin

Guess I’m arresting (rest in) my feelings

But never slackin on my pimpin

Even Mike took Ls without Pippen

For life we were Bad Boys

Remember days we ain’t have a pot to Piston (piss in)

Memory lane got me sittin reminiscin

Thinking if I could turn back the hands of time

Every dawg needs his right hand

Just look at Kobe back in 99

But I don’t hold no grudge

Made my peace with the situation

And if you still feel some type of way

You can get dropped like the situation

Back & forth, steady pacin

Got me losing all of my patience

Slow down my heart from racin

To prevent facin incarceration

Got no time for that

Much bigger things needa be tended to

And against all odds

Know that I stay down ten and on my own two

So what it do

Why do things have to be this way

All cause folks don’t practice to social distance

COVID cases spike up everyday

Those who are in it, for instance

To Pam, what’s a pandemic

Until you 14 days of self quarantine

Thinking to yourself Pam Damn It (pandemic)

Shit serious

Don’t be out here acting delirious

What do you gain from putting others at risk

I’m just curious

Prevention is better than care

And to be fair, I am aware

Doing all the right things along with prayer

To see a normal day when the coast is clearer

Cause Nighas dying everyday B

Kidnapping, suicides and the virus

Governors shut it down once again

With cases reaching its highest

As a country we’re at our lowest

Experiencing racism & violence

But since it’s Black Lives Matter

I can’t just sit & be silenced

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sagemoderocklee · 6 years

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1, 8, &18 for the salty ask meme?

1)What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?

gods above help me lmao

my biggiest is probably Nar*Gaa. it’s my most hated, most loathed, number one enemy. like when i see any mention of it the Kill Bill sirens start going off. i hate it. i don’t get it. it isn’t feasible politically and it’s just not fair to Gaara to put him with someone who has proven time and time again that the most important person in his life is Sasuke and there isn’t room for anyone else in that role.

like gaara deserves better than being side lined. he deserves someone who will put everything they have into a relationship with him. not someone who can’t even remember they’re friends long enough to be like “hey maybe i should tell him i’m getting married” 🙄🙄🙄 gaara cares about naruto a lot. naruto has proven that he cares about gaara the way you care about the friends you have in fb who you talk to from time to time–sure they’re your friend, sure you want what’s best for them, but you’re not going out of your way to see them or do things for them. they’re background friends. nice ppl you care about but not ppl you rlly need to spend time with….

and that’s not even gettin into the political problems or just the major character issues where they would butt heads and have fights. but anywayyyyyy!!!!

the others would be LeeT*n (like they’re like siblings????? i dont????understand????), all the end game pairings except for ShikaTema which is good and pure and i love them, and of course i rlly rlly do not fucking get KibaK*nku because of all the dudes in naruto these two are the most painfully straight… like they are loud and obnoxious Straights. like the kinda bros who can’t even hug each other kinda straight… and i just… they have no chemistry even as friends or possible fighting partners???? they shared one scene once where kankurou saved kiba and it was… so whatever that i literally didn’t even think it was possible for ppl to ship them when i was young and naive and didn’t understand how fandom worked. but here i am seeing ppl talk about rarepair hell for these two all over the place and i just sit there like ??????????? because how????? why????

like do you. be happy ship them all you want but it’s… they are so straight it hurts so i will never get it and there is nothing in the universe that will make me get it.

edit: i cannot believe i forgot the very first ship i never fucking understood in this forsaken fandom: Kak*Iru. like that was one of the three ships my friends insisted i ship and i just kinda was like "um okay" but then when i actually watched the series i was like "where?????"

8) Have you received anon hate? What about?

fandom wise??? ummm probably??? i’m tryna think. like other than some nasty ass comments on some fics recently i can’t think of anything off the top of my head cause i keep to my own corner of w/e fandoms im involved in because it’s safer that way. i don’t even think i got any hate from LeeGaa shippers when that dA group came to tumblr and had drama with some ppl in the fandom because i just don’t generally engage???? like i’m sure i’ve gotten some bs but it was probably so insignificant that i don’t remember it.

but like i’m sure i have. i’m pretty vocal about my feelings on certain things like ppl shipping nasty shit like children with adults or ppl who write rent boy![x] and plenty of other nasty things ppl in fandom do so i don’t doubt i’ve had some truly ass pained 30-something message me telling me how wrong i am for feeling this way or whatever and “don’t kink shame me” 🙄🙄🙄 i’m also certain i’ve had ppl send me shit for shipping h/d or for thinking draco deserves a redemption arc but like mhmm again it was all very much not worth remembering lol

18) Does not shipping something ‘popular’ mean you’re in denial and/or biased?

I think that is hugely dependent on the ship. like i will be the first to admit that i am biased against NaruGa* but i don’t think that makes my points any less valid. it patently does not work as a ship for a number of reasons. do i hate it with a passion so strong it could fuel the sun for a millennia??? absolutely! is my hatred of it rooted in the fact that it’s more popular than GaaLee? at least like 75% of it is! (the other is because gaara just deserves better) but does that mean that i can’t think critically on why i don’t like it for the non petty and no superficial reasons??? no. i am fully capable of looking at that pairing and sayin “man this shit rlly doesn’t work”

like ultimately i don’t think i’m in denial when it comes to not shipping that pairing because ultimately the popularity of it relies more on two things: their screen time together and the fact that both are at the very least conventionally attractive (gaara is obviously not conventionally attractive there is nothing conventional about him i love him he is my anime husband he is the most beautiful man in this series) whereas lee is… not the lost conventionally attractive ergo less popular to ship ppl with

however i don’t think that applies to everything. ppl who don’t sip sasunaru, for instance, i think have a large bias because of homophobia. and yeah are in denial. like at this point even if you don’t like it you should at least because to say “yes fuck those two rlly do love each other” but a lot of ppl are just plain homophobes and that’s rlly that. is this always the case with popular ships no. sometimes it’s bias 100% of the way and sometimes bias is only a part of why someone doesn’t ship something. but ultimately bias always plays a role. however i don’t think that makes not shipping something less valid.

#naruto #shippuden #the dreaded notp

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