for the record i agree with u completely but pls elaborate on ur forlorn gansey feelings if you're so inclined <3

HI OMG !! god i wish i had my copies of the books with me rn so i could refer back to them because i feel like without them im about to say sooo much without saying anything at all like my thoughts are so shallow and half formed but just like...god. his wholeee search for glendower there is smthn so utterly forlorn tragic melancholy behind it and behind his obsession with it and behind his sense of duty towards it and behind how much of his life and his purpose and his being he hinges on the result of it. especially when it ends up dissolving into practically nothing in front of him. AGAIN wishing i had the books but like thinking of uhh i think whelk's?? description?? of him being smthn like strange, desperate gansey. and the bit where its like gansey clung to the possibility that his king would explain the intricacies of gansey to gansey. his fear of having to confront and define who he is as a person and what his purpose is outside his search for glendower...which is at least part of what keeps him so devoted to it...and like. between his supposed responsibility towards that and his responsibility (as he sees it) to looking after his friends all of whom have problems of their own all thats left for himself is like. sitting alone on the floor at like three am painting little carboard models of henrietta. IDK at the end of the day hes just this weird desperate little guy hes kind of fucked up he's like one of those sharks that die if they stop swimming and he knows it and thats why hes gotta keep looking for this dead welsh king and never ever think about what'll happen afterwards so that he never ever ever stops swimming because once he does....

basil ur new mobile theme is rad <3

aaaa thank u sm 💖💖

ridi steelycunt i must know WHAT is babylon berlin i want to treasure the man who looks like a kicked puppy

HELLO partridge boyhamlet my love!! literally so glad you asked...it is gereon rath nation population of one over here...babylon berlin is a german crime series set in berlin against the backdrop of the weimar republic in like the late 1920s-early 1930s!! i am not a crime show girl at all but it is actually very good and sort of strange...lots of music...but quite honestly however good a show is i need a little wet dog of a character if im going to get behind it and babylon berlin's detective gereon rath is like. wet dog character of ALL time hes so sad and tired and haunted-looking and he looks like that ALL the time...he gets beaten up all the time literally people are always fighting him and he never ever seems to win...and also he dances. like he dances i dont know theres lots of dancing on the show on a whole and he is the saddest man in the whole wide world but also he dances he's just...need to wring him out like a damp rag he was created in a lab specifically to appeal to ME

Girlgonzo is SUCH a good url to have omg <3

THANK YOU BAB omg i love her sooo much she's my prized possession she's the shiniest jewel in my jewellery box <3

contributing to fave poems list with : miss you. Would like to grab that chilled tofu we love. by gabrielle calvocoressi <333

OH I THINK I KNOW THIS ONE!! sooo gorgeous my fav sort of poem thank u sm <33 WAIT realising now she also wrote hammond b3 organ cistern which is also one of my favourites!!

my no 1 nonfiction rec is olivia laing if anon is still looking for recs!! she looks at art history and lonliness and community i love her very much <3

omg nice thank you!! i love the sound of that ill definitely check her out :-)) nonfiction anon i hope you see this!! <33