Hike A Mountain By Yourself.
I accidentally did folding mountain today.
I started my day early, despite ending it late last night. I was up and making coffee before ten, organizing my google drive and adding to unfinished pieces of writing.
It was when I was further reflecting on the time I’d spent barefoot hiking, that I quickly became inspired to go outside and move.
I packed my bag, extra layers, snacks, water, I even threw bear spray in there for good measure.
I stood out in the parking lot, about to start off to cross the highway and do the trails I’ve so often done on the OML property. For whatever reason, I paused and looked behind me, and turned around, heading to find the beginning of the folding mountain trail.
I’d had plans to go with Matt tomorrow, so I figured I better know where I was going. I found the entrance to the trail, and started walking. In my head I’d planned to walk awhile, see how the trail was, find a plateau to see a decent view from not too high up, and then come back home for lunch.
No such beast. I should have known better, as stubborn as I am. The first hour was absolute garbage, easily ranging from a 65-75 degree incline. I had never experienced hiking like that before, had never walked at such an incline for so long. I was instantly winded, despite trying to pace myself. I kept stopping to catch my breath, telling myself that there's no way I could do this whole hike, I’m nowhere near in shape enough to climb something like this.
I grew up outside of course, but my family was nowhere near this level of outdoorsy. I’d never done a real hike like this, let alone a six hour hike by myself.
I was instantly discouraged upon trying to take the first hour. It wasn’t until I finally reached a break in the trees and a plateau emerged, and I could see the sky poking out from behind the trees. I stepped out into the sunshine, I was screwed, I knew I couldn’t turn back at that point.
The mountains loomed out at me, taunting me to continue and to keep going.
As soon as I reached that point the worst of the incline subsided, and I continued to press forward through the trees. I came out at viewpoints every now and then, which was enough to keep pressing me forward.
I had no idea how long it was going to take me, I only had a rough idea as to how long the hike would take to begin with. I’d done little to no research. I tried not to pay too much attention to the time, I’d left my watch at home, and my phone was tucked away in my bag, playing music off my bluetooth speaker.
I kept being pulled forward, the sky was so bright and alive, the wind howling through the trees. At around the hour mark (please note all time frames are purely estimations since I had no watch on), I turned around a rock bend and began to see more sunlight pushing its way through the canopy of trees. I was instantly pulled forward, as more sky began to peek out. I knew there was a real plateau coming, I knew I would get a visual enough to spark the flame lit within me to push forward.
I clambered up the rock face, and as the trail turned I saw the reason why people do this. Mountain range sprawling across the whole skyline, the highway I’d driven down so many times before winding with the earth. The Athabasca river moving around the obstacles the earth laid in its way, with pockets of trees beginning to turn yellow with the changing of the season.
I stood in the breeze, yelling to myself, hardly able to contain my own stoke. That was enough for me, for at that moment I’d learned that with the brutal hike, comes the moment of realization that washes your body when you get a moment to peek out from the trees and see the increasingly growing view you’re working towards. Its the push to keep going, the aspect of steadily increading height pulls you forward. “Yeah this view is great, but if you keep going you only know its going to be better”, the mountains whisper.
Once I passed the first plateau I hiked a few kilometres through subalpine meadows, dragging my hands through tall grasses, stopping to sit in the flora and eat some trail mix while watching the view continue to grow in vastness.
I entered back into dense trees, which is where I hit snow. It didn’t hit me how much snow would be at this level of altitude, so within a half hour my feet were damp through my suede blunnies. I hadn’t thought ahead, considering I had no idea I was going to do Folding today, all I was wearing were cabin socks, and as soon as they got wet my heels began to blister, rubbing against my heels.
Slightly discouraged, I plunged forward. I wasn’t entirely sure why I was so driven to keep going or to do this, but regardless my stubborn self kept going.
It wasn’t until probably the two hour mark that my bluetooth speaker died on me, leaving me in complete silence. I began to worry just a little, no one knew I was out there, and if I plummeted to my death or was attacked by a bear, no one would know where I was or where I would have even gone. Who knows how long it would take for anyone to find me. With that idea lingering on my mind, I smiled and kept going.
It felt good to be off the grid like that, to know no one knew where I was or what I was doing, to hear absolutely nothing but my own thoughts in my head.
I’d been walking through other hikers tracks in the snow for while when I finally got frustrated.
The trail had begun to bend and had been sloping downwards for a while, my feet were aching, I had no idea how much further I had to go. I’d been under the canopy of trees for so long, I was itching for a view to keep me going forward. I was talking to myself, listening to my voice echo through the trees, I was asking for a break in the trees, anything to keep me going. I stopped, feet in the snow, and had to yell awhile.
What was I doing? I’d never done this before. I’d had no idea what I’d signed up for. I was wet and cold, my speaker dead, all I had on me was an extra shirt, some food, and bear spray. No one knew where I was. The sinking feeling of the fact I had to at some point begin the DESCENT back down was already looming heavily over me. Anyone can walk for awhile, but what happens when you hit that wall and exhaustion sets in, and you realize you still have to walk down the mountain.
I was off the grid of course, but I stood and sent a few texts to Jordan. I’d hit a block, but again, for whatever reason I kept going.
Not a half hour after I sent those texts, telling him how frustrated I was, I caught wind of the trees breaking ahead of me. There was light flooding the ground beyond me, and I ran forward, knowing the growing lust within me was going be satisfied within minutes of this climb.
I turned the bend, and stood in a break in the trees, overlooking the range, the heavy slope down into a valley of trees. I was standing on a ridge, I knew the trail ahead of me was the trail leading up to the summit. I knew this was the last final heave, for I could see the summit not a few hundred feet ahead of me.
The trail was padded with thick snow, adding an extra element for me to power through, but at this point I knew this was something I needed to push through for myself.
Walking along the ridge, I had views on both sides of me between the trees. Any wrong footing and I could fall of either side. I was walking in the path a fat bike had made previously, digging my hands in the snow on each side to keep my balance. It was so deep in some points I had snow up to my thighs. It was enough that I very well could have called it at that first ridge. No one was with me, I could have easily lied and said I did the whole thing.
With every step forward I knew I was getting closer, despite more bends coming by way the more I climbed.
The snow finally cleared, and I realized I reached the top. It was a fleeting thought of mine earlier, how would I know when I reached the top? I’d never really hiked a real mountain like this before, so I had no idea what to expect.
But they’re right when they say when you know, you know. I sat, perched at the summit awhile, drinking water, eating a cliff bar, sitting in the dirt in complete silence, while looking out at the range of the Rockies splayed out in nearly every direction around me, looking down at the sheer height I’d climbed on my own.
I’d never seen the world from a perspective like that before. It guess that’s part of the thrill though, seeing the world from such a height and knowing that you got there with nothing more than your own personal strength, you literally walked to the top of a mountain. The only people who have also been there are also the ones who managed to hike to the top.
I see the appeal, it becomes a chase to some degree, especially when going at it alone.
My mind was sufficiently clearer than I thought it would be, it was nice to get a break to just enjoy the sense of quiet up there. No people, no cars, nothing except the wind echoing between the mountains and the trees blowing in the wind.
I stayed up there probably forty five minutes, but as soon as the cold of the altitude began to bite me, I knew it would still be a few hours to get down.
I wasn’t at all daunted by the prospect of the hike down. I knew the landmarks, I knew what I had got myself into, and with the element of the downward incline I wasn’t too worried about the trek down.
Upon clambering down the summit up to the ridge, sliding down a sixty degree angle through thigh deep snow, I then realized that if I wasn’t careful with my footing I could easily fall down the side of the ridge and into nothing. But with that knowledge I smiled, I felt I would be fine provided I respected the mountain, took my time, and was aware of the damage that could be done if I got tactless and careless.
So that is what I did, I took my time, and moved my body with the curves of the mountain. I’d learned with the aggressive incline it was easy to get carried away with my footing, and there were a few times I rolled my ankle, not horribly mind you, just enough to remind me to slow down.
With each landmark on the way down reminding me of the distance I’d come, giving me more increased perspective on the perceived concept of distance in the first place. Upon my way up, I’d come across the spring, an old campsite, stretches of meadow, all of which meant nothing to me at the time. However on the decline, seeing these simple mundane things brought me such light to see that I recognized something.
My mind was off for the most part, I’d faced all the struggle on the way up, so it was nice to be able to turn off my thoughts, and go with the downward flow of the path. Allowing myself to breathe sighs of relief with every break in the trail, I could see my view slowly becoming less vast as I slowly climbed back down towards home.
I reached the first plateau I’d come to when I first started, and knew that the last chapter would be close to the most challenging. I entered back into the cover of the trees, and found myself instantly picked up more speed from both such a strong decline, as well as the push to finish strong. I knew I was close, that I had less than an hour until I could collapse in a heap.
My thighs were burning from being activated for so long, I was trying to keep from breaking into a run down the slope, knowing that with speed at such angles I would no doubt fall and hurt myself.
My feet thudding against the dirt, I kept looking for signs of recognition, but saw nothing. It was all just heavy winding trail covered by high trees, I found myself discouraged, feeling like I would never reach the bottom. With a turn in the bend at long last, I saw the makeshift firepit the French boys had set up not far from the trailhead, and knew I was close. The majority of heavy incline was long gone, so I broke into a run, moving with the flow of the path, until I saw the last and final break in the trees, and I could see the highway poking through the woods on the side of the road.
I stopped at the trailhead, sweaty and red in the face, covered in dirt and exhausted. I looked back at the entrance to the trail, glanced at the sign to the beginning of the path, and laughed, smiling at myself.
I turned around and started walking back towards staff accom, legs numb and already dreading the pain I would wake up in tomorrow. I was filled with such incredible pride as I approached the building. I dropped my bag and sat down on the camping chair outside the common room, watching Andrew clean out his car while the housekeepers were cleaning the kitchen.
He asked me how my day off was, to which I replied “I accidentally hiked folding mountain by myself”.
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2016 currentlies
september 2016
hearing, florida georgia line
feeling, nostalgic
reading, daring greatly - brene brown
watching, too many movies
thinking, thoughts of self-improvement
wanting, support. love. comfort. a hug.
needing, weekend adventure.
making, it by.
eating, grandma’s borscht.
drinking, david’s tea cream of earl grey
planning, self-care
loving, my flannels.
enjoying, random day adventures, rain or shine.
wondering, how i want to spend my heartbeats.
anticipating, a lot of change. a lot of growth.
favorite things
- grise Sitka flannel
- wool socks
- foggy, rainy west coast days
- brunch with friends
- my blunnies
- slow mornings with coffee and a book
october 2016
hearing, tv at grandma’s.
feeling, anxious & grateful
reading, living beautifully with uncertainty and change - pema chodron
watching, movies
thinking, about self-care
wanting, a companion
needing, rest
making, decisions for myself
eating, grandma’s home made buns
drinking, cream of earl grey
planning, my next steps
loving, my family
enjoying, the fog in the trees
wondering, when i’ll be aligned
anticipating, change.
favorite things
- warm socks
- toques
- grise Sitka flannnel
- army green pants
- camp t-shirt
november 2016
hearing, the lumineers
feeling, cozy
reading, my own words
watching, one tree hill
thinking, about timing & numerology
wanting, healthy routine
needing, to re-establish myself
making, decisions for me.
eating, at new places
drinking, chestnut beer from whistler brewing co
planning, a month of happiness
loving, myself.
enjoying, kirsten’s company
wondering, how the holidays will go
anticipating, me being in sync.
favorite things
- vanilla balsam candle
- craft beer
- nelson
- new experiences
- eggnog lattes
- OTH
- ripped knee black jeans
- MBH & zephyr
- purple dress.
december 2016
hearing, back home - owl city & jake owen
feeling, misaligned
reading, the subtle art of not giving a fuck - mark manson
watching, OTH
thinking, a lot.
wanting, another human.
needing, to love myself
making, space to do just that.
eating, toast
drinking, caramel machiattos
planning, 21 damn early days
loving, my bed
enjoying, life.
wondering, when I will trust myself
anticipating, rough mornings (at 4:30).
favorite things
- my bed & twinkle lights
- balsam & pine candles
- warm socks
- toques
- dragonfly
- grise Sitka flannel
- phone calls & facetime dates
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