Maybe someday I will get to make this art in color😗

230118 | Yena - 'Good Girls in the Dark' at M Countdown

i try so goddamn hard to be beautiful but i'm not. it sucks so bad that i can't be pretty. that there's no level of femininity i can attempt that will make me pretty.

I got up at 4.30am and wrote a song. That’s never happened before.

apologies in advance, i just finished my russian literature and theology course and now i have to find memes

On that note of Hugh Grant, the problem with Bridget Jones is that I find Bridget completely insufferable and I want her to end up with Hugh Grant instead of Mark Darcy, and I don't find Mark Darcy all that charming either. Hugh Grant is not a good translation of Mr. Wickham and overall the whole thing doesn't make much sense for a Pride & Prejudice redux because it lacks the social context which carries it, but that by virtue makes him less of a reprehensible character (like Wickham who is completely inappropriate. Wickham running off with Lizzie's baby sister after trying that stunt with Darcy's baby sister is different from running off with Darcy's fiancée).

But then you would be writing a romance about two insufferable and morally questionable people, and it's not really a romcom anymore. It would've been funnier though.

Bro I'm a bit stressed

i went to a tiny counterserve diner once and accidentally poured sugar instead of salt all over my hashbrowns and was eating them sadly anyways. the waitress took them away and started making me another one and I tried to protest, but she just snorted and said "we're not catholic here". now every time i'm doing something painful out of obligation i think about how that is not repenting, this body is not a catholic establishment, there is no nobility in suffering.

Tis but thy name that is my enemy.

her cock was an undersea fiber optic cable and Brother i was a hungry shark

FUCK

astarion is cheating

i can't lie to you i loveee bad endings sometimes. what if nothing worked out. what if the characters gave into their worst instincts. what if they became worse. what if there's truly no hope left. what will they do out of desperation? who will they become as their worst selves?

Obsessed with characters who portray themselves as worse than they are. Who are lying to everyone including themselves about it. People generally assume if someone's lying about themselves they're trying to look better but sometimes they're trying to look worse. They attribute agency to where they had none, add intend to accidents, try to convince everyone that this is something they did instead of something that happened to them.

Ugh my focus has been at record lows the past two weeks or so and finals start next week :/

i mean i think she would've had the time