you were a selfish hero.

it was an oxymoron, at the crux of it. selfish hero. it wasn't something you heard everyday—not after all that had changed, all that had happened in the past. the world was an unforgiving place for selfish heroes—it stomped them out cruelly, without justification.

you liked to think you weren't. you threw yourself into rescue after rescue, broke yourself bit by bit by bit so that you could save every single person who needed saving. you opened your heart of gold to all others and closed your mind to the logic that screamed at you to deliberate upon your actions more heavily.

but you were a selfish, selfish hero.

for when you were struck with the choice—the devastating, heartbreaking choice—to pick between the fate of the world and the fate of the one you loved the most... you picked the one you loved. and that made you selfish.

because you couldn't let katsuki go. couldn't let him slip away from you so easily as though you were cupping water in your palms. not after all the work you put into loving him—all the work he put into loving you. the long nights, the quiet mornings. the smiles, the laughs, the tears. the universe wanted you to pack it all away in a box and throw it away, but you couldn't. you didn't want to.

he was prepared to die—prepared for the cold hand of death if it meant saving everything that he loved. you knew that, could see it reflected across his carmine eyes that looked at you as if it was the last time he would ever have the chance to do so. you felt stuck, trapped, in the few moments you had to make a decision. you'd been burdened with this choice and each breath felt icy in your lungs—like a cool blade ready to strike.

you closed your eyes, a hot tear running down the curve of your cheek.

and you picked him. you picked him.

you let the world burn.

...you wondered if it was the right choice to make.

I forgot if u say anything abt akechi acknowledging he did bad things you either get ppl who are mad that you “misunderstand his character and that you need to understand he actually did nothing wrong at all” or the ppl who get mad that you like his character “because he’s irredeemable” I almost prefer the pancake jokes era

Editing the original to force u to look at my tags bc 90% of u didn’t understand the post at all and look dumb as hell to me . Sorey

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     “ THEN WE’VE GOT very DIFFERENT experiences with bein’ bossed around. “ His response is casual, like it's just a completely normal conversation they're having  ( which is almost humorous, considering they’re on opposing ends )  but it also comes with this somewhat deadpan tone to it. He could say with confidence that the man who held him under his thumb was certainly NOT the sort that was concerned with doing the ‘RIGHT THING.’ ( But he doesn't need to get into that here. )

      “ And y’know, I wanna agree with ya’ — ‘cause I agree with what you’re sayin’ — but I suspect, given our RECENT HISTORY, that our ideas of doin’ ‘what’s RIGHT’ don’t exactly MATCH UP. “ Probably quite the OPPOSITE, in fact.

concerned mother voice: what happened to little miss perfect you guys used to love little miss perfect

think one of the cutest unspoken things in serv.amp is the fact that while ash went through so many hundreds of years of depression he met a lot of people who grew to care for him, like ... it's a really clear reminder that no matter how low you feel, or how you may look after yourself, there is always parts of you that remain beautiful and people will still consider themselves your friends / fall in love with you / care for you / idolise you and that is so important.

HIIII KIT <333333 you said you were okay w selfship asks so!!!!! here i am :33

first of all >:3 i’m a sucker for the falls first/falls harder dynamic, so!!! in your selfships, who fell first and who fell harder?? 🎤🎤 or did you both fall at the same time??? i need to knowwww!!! 

anddddd i also . love & adore….. sun/moon pairings……… 👉👈 so i’d love to know where your selfships fall on that scale too!!! :3 i get sun vibes from you but i could see moon too…. super curious to hear abt this one hehe

anyway!!!! ily kit <3333 i hope sukugo r treating you nicely!!!!! feral cat men smh…

AAAHHH ARIIi, TYTYTY FOR SENDING ME THESE QUESTIONS! I SERIOUSLY LOVE ANSWERING ASKS ON MY SELFSHIPS SM— i'm hugging u so very tightly rn *mwah mwah mwah* @twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat

who fell first? who fell harder?

kitoru

honestly speaking, the lore of my ship w satoru changes w the seasons 🤭🤭 but acc to the information i hv as of summer 2024, i'm the one who fell first. and 'toru is the one who fell harder. i fell for him a very long time ago— back when i was in my mid teens and he was in his early twenties. but nothing romantic happened then– wtv hints i gave him either went over his head or he intentionally side-stepped them. and i js stopped giving him hints after one or two failed attempts, js staying happy with staring at him from afar, or yk, relishing wtv moments i used to get him as being one of his acquaintances... [he used to see me as a 'friend'. i nvr thought he cld see me as a 'friend', haha] but yk, when we grew up, i crossed quite some distance into my twenties and he too entered his late twenties— this is when the tectonic plates of our relationship slowly started shifting. i cld feel it, but i did not want to hope once again js to get heart-broken a second time— satoru, however, felt the shift like an earthquake. it's like, one moment he was thinking of me like he wld think of a friend, but then smthng happened, and he was like, "oh. this isn't how i think of shoko or nanami. oh. oh."— and well, let's js say, satoru was not rly in the mood for dating... he was more like, "omggg, ily! i'll take care of u! i'll make sure u hv a happy life! why don't we get married engaged, hm?" [i love my men a bit yandere 😂]

kitkuna

i think, mr. darcy's words fit sukuna and my dynamics the best 😄— “i was in the middle before i knew that i had begun.” we did not hv a very normal start to our relationship. sukuna js abducted me from my family and made me his queen. and i js became his queen and began to live in his temple or palace or fort or wtv. and yeah, we js started living together the way two ppl married as if for tax benefits start living together under the same roof. tht is it... except, tht doesn't stay tht is it for long. usually, i wld be content w some yummy food, interesting books, and nice comfy clothes— but over time, i began to notice i was feeling stuff other than js content. over time, this heavy feeling inside my chest began to grow lighter and i began to feel freer— and i realised, it was because of this freedom i was experiencing here. smthng i nvr got to experience when i was w my family— that place was rly good, yeah. i was treated rly well. but i felt more like ' a bird inside a golden cage' there. this observation changed my perception of sukuna from a housemate to smthng more amiable, perhaps smthng more affectionate, and i tried to get closer to him, inch by inch— actually millimetre by millimetre, 'cause i love to test the waters 1st then dip my toe into it— and then one fine day, when i wake up from an afternoon nap and i find sukuna sitting at the table, totally immersed in scrolls of poetry... an odd thing happens in my chest— which occurs again at dinner a few nights later... when i notice him eating as messily as ever— smthng which repeats when i catch him napping one day, akin a big cat lounging in the shade— a phenomenon which starts to happen multiple times a day very very soon... needless to say, i quickly diagnose it as a case of falling in love w my hubby 😌😌 as for sukuna... i don't rly think he feels love... he kidnapped me 'cause he was lwk intrigued by me. [idk why] he married me 'cause he grew highkey intrigued by me. [i still hv no idea why 😭😭] and he gave me space, never tried to be bad or scary to me 'cause he gave me some amt of respect as his wife, his queen [i nvr went to his court tho. i preferred drinking fruit juice and reading a good book in the shade of a tree] [were u able to guess i'm lazyyy] but then, one day, few weeks after i was able to extricate myself from my jumbled emotions and reach a definitive diagnosis— i found him snoozing under the same tree i take rest under, w a very amateurish book titled 'how do you know you are in love'— and i actually got rooted to the spot. and sukuna, heaven knows how, woke up while i was busy gaping at him. and he made an embarrassed face and dashed away— uraume later confirmed, their lord was feeling an odd thing in their chest; esp the last few weeks— roughly the same time as when i first encountered my symptom. later tht night, when i started subtly teasing him, calling us soulmates, he js put a blanket over my head to shut me up, but did not kill me— guess he loves me, huh 🤭🤭

who is the sun? who is the moon?

be it kitoru or kitkuna, i think i'm the moon, babes 😇😇 tho not a full moon. i'm more of a waxing crescent, methinks... 'cause i feel like i'm bright, but not bright enuf to light someone's path thru a forest at night... i js hv the potential, heh [i'm defo not the sun, babes 😅😅 i can be a lil grumpy and mean tbh, hahaha] satoru and sukuna, on the other hand... i think they are the sun in our dynamics. they can be both the comforting sun of chilly winter mornings, when i need them to be here for me, to hug me, to kiss me, to love me— and the scorching sun of a summer noon, ready to burn anyhting and everything which dares to bother me... [i love satoru and sukuna being a little crazy in their love for me 🥰🥰]

they're treating me pretty well so far, babes 🥰🥰🥰 and fr fr— feral cat men make me go insaneeee 😂😂😂

now i too wanna know ur answers to these same asks for ur selfships, my loveee 🤗🤗🤗 [no pressure tho!! only if u wanna ❤️❤️]

I'm probably the only one here who likes Cho Chang more than Ginny Weasley (PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I HV COMPANY). It's not because ginny ends up with Harry, I've objectively never cared abt the pairings in this series (except Grindledore), neither is it to spite Ginny as her fans might scream. Its just them as characters.

Personally, cho's just a lot more likable for me. She's sweet, friendly, brave, insanely loyal, and sticks by her beliefs no matter what (also ravenclaw rep). People really underestimate her loyalty, she was the only one who stood up to harry over hermione's insane trick with the DA parchment (i love u hermione but wtf) and supported her friend. And yet she didn't seem to have any friends to talk to about cedric, even her parents supported the ministry. I really don't blame her for her failed relationship with harry, she wasn't exactly in the right there, but both of them were just teenagers who didn't know how to handle complicated emotions, and at any rate harry was no saint either. She just needed a shoulder to cry on n just about no one was there for her. She was a sweet, sensitive girl and deserved someone who just loved her the way she was. Ik a lot of ppl complain abt representation in the hp series using cho as an example (yeah, the name certainly warrants tht), but as an asian myself, she and parvati patil are still my fav back round characters in the whole series.

I've already discussed in detail as to y i don't like ginny here and a little bit here

to summarize though, she became an important character only when harry needed a love interest, which is y her entire personality is just a cumulative of every single trait harry wants in his 'ideal woman' (confirmed by the author herself) instead of making her an interesting and layered character (not all characters need to have so much depth ofc, but she's one of the 'big seven' so its kinda a necessity). Her flaws r appreciated by the narrative, and her possession is completely ignored post book 3 (i've already detailed on y tht scene in ootp didn't hold good for me, its above). She even defends harry when he uses sectumsempra on malfoy, and personally, her humor just seemed like the author was trying very hard to make her funny and likable. It also seemed like her character was designed to somehow be better that cho's to appeal more to harry (not weepy, better at quiddich) I sorta liked her till book 5, but book 6 onwards i just rolled my eyes whenever she was on page.

Ultimately, I personally just prefer a sweet, sensitive, loyal girl over this over the top mean spirited character just filled to the brim with positive attributes. People often say that cho's character was just restricted to being harry's gf, but i don't think thts entirely true, she's a much more dynamic character than what people give her credit for.

HI CARINA !! ᰔ i know i already left a super looong comment on ao3 (pls i hope u didn’t mind tht) but badlands was SO GOOD and in general your works😭 <3 i really like your ideas and the way you think—i’ve been interested in your blog for awhile firstly bcz i saw on @/kentopedia’s collab you put something for fyodor & dazai and i’m so fascinated w/ their dynamic + adding it w/ a reader so i was like OMG YES !!! even better w/ a historical!au !! (in reality it was bcz i thought your user is rly pretty + i’m fond of your aesthetic + the house in the rats of the dead theme)…ehe + i see you’re also an intj and like hozier ^/^ i’ve been wanting to say this for awhile but i was a lil intimidated cz you’re super cool LMAOO but reading the series was so good i HAD to stop by now !! anyways i hope you have an amazing day/night and uni gives you mercy LOL :))

I JUST READ YOUR COMMENT LAST NIGHT I WAS LITERALLY CRYING I PROMISE IM GOING TO RESPOND TO IT BUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PROPERLY RESPOND TO IT SO ILL PROBABLY GET TO IT THIS WEEKEND I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY AND NO TIME TO SAY IT ALL 😔😔

omg speaking of the collab fic i actually finally started writing it the other day, it’ll probably be a hot minute before i can finish but 🤞 it has begun i’m very excited for it it’s my fav topic too

DONT BE INTIMIDATED 😔 i’m a loser i promise half of the time i just scroll on this app like “wow i want to talk to this person” and then pussy out because i get nervous HAHAHH i promise im such a loser there is not a cool bone in my body 😔

WHATS YOUR FAV HOZIER SONG i’m so obsessed with him i listen to him on repeat all the time

i hope you also have an amazing day 🫂 and i’m sorry it took me so long to get to asks 😔 i let them build up too much

i think ultimately i get annoyed at like goober clout shit and like repetitive like pandering meme art anime niggas not out of like, like, i dont know. i think if u have the mana to be able to manipulate the room that well youd probably do well in most jobs and most situations in life & i hope i am not speaking out of turn in articulating tht like probably 80% of gf, Certainly me myself, r like, too insanely visibly immediately sick with something to do anything but be like invisible & dirt broke in any dynamic other than making these things. i think if u have a brain that can comprehend, execute, and sustain like, Marketing Strategies, u have a brain that can do like a ton of other, admittedly less interesting things, and, i guess i would rather not have to compete tooth and nail with you inside the only field that has provided a path whereby me & like a lot of my doggs is not either semi permanently institutionalized or full on dead. i dont ball outside of this & i couldnt if i wanted to. this is the only thing im psychologically fit to do. i dont know how elitist tht position is if like u can work at the movie theater & i would go to jail behind what would happen if i tried

(chanting) DIVORCE DIVORCE DIVORCE DIVORCE

anyways hi i like making charts apparently so here's the elden ring divorce square and how i think their relationships are like + me trying to learn how to draw them <//3 relationship notes under the cut

relationship notes

godfrey + marika -> i said what i said. their relationship may be over but there’s a level of still being dedicated to each other. like idk ... the idea tht godfrey was privy to marika’s plans is so intereting to me, and i feel like even though there might be some level of like “i kind of still hate you for what you did, even if you had to do it,” there r still parts of them that are like THATS MY HUSBAND/THATS MY WIFE

radagon + marika -> no bc i have so many complicated weird thoughts abt these two. i operate largely under the assumption that radagon is like, another half or another part of marika, and i find it so VASTLY interesting tht at the point tht you fight radagon, it seems like he’s the one keeping marika in the erdtree. like ... they do not like each other !!! maybe at some point both of them, pieces of each other or not, trusted one another but clearly that’s no longer the case and i feel like if they were two separate bodies still, theyd be so suffocating to each other.

rennala + radagon -> i like .... so badly want to imagine that the love and adoration from rennala was reciprocated, and i think they were to an extent, but w radagon there was always that reminder of like I Am A Piece Of Marika / I Am Marika, so he couldn’t fully return those feelings. but like i said above, whatever manner their relationship was, them breaking everything off was bad enough for rennala to be sent into such despair and anguish, and fucking radagon left their family behind as far as we know, and he also just left her with an egg? and ive seen ppl theorize (unless its like, confirmed) that the egg has their unborn child in it and its so like ...... RADAGON.......

rennala + godfrey -> a while ago i drew some weird parallels between rennala and godfrey, esp within their roles as the spouses to the marika/radagon mess, and these two kindaaaa made me lose it thinking abt them. theres this thing i noticed where like, they were both spurned and turned away by their spouses, but where godfrey was exiled and seemingly willingly left the lands between, rennala was just STUCK THERE. and there’s truly something abt the dichotomy of rennala’s grief and despair being like ... pacified(?) by the egg as she clings to it, and then godfrey’s bloodlust and rage being pacified by serosh. also how godfrey (from cut dialogue) seemed to know what marika was up to but rennala is kept in the dark and is left to succumb to her anguish. there r also dog/cat motifs (red wolf of radagon in raya lucaria vs serosh), jock/nerd dynamic, tank/mage dynamic .... the way that godfrey and rennala are both blasting Fairytale by Alexander Rybak as they think abt their respective spouses. I JUST THINK THEYD GET ALONG LOL.

rennala + marika -> jennifer’s body-ass relationship. toxic wlw homoeroticism. its the like “ur not my husband but u are him but u’d be better than him” like .... theres a level of attraction going on tht at least rennala wouldnt fully understand until she learned abt the marika/radagon situation, i think?

godfrey + radagon -> i said what i said!!!!! theyd have weird tension and godfrey wouldnt give a shit abt the radagon/marika thing on the surface but i think if he knew what was fully going on (ie the radagon keeping marika in the erdtree thing w the elden beast as punishment) he’d be pissed.

Things I would change in Danny Phantom: make Danny and Tuckers friendship and Danny and his bond with his sister the focal point of the big emotional safe haven of the show. Make Danny's parents out right problematic and abusive instead of stereotypical stupid parents Butch Hartmen enjoyes doing. Keep Vlad as the big bad villian(but actually commit to it) or give him a redemption arc. Give Sam a villian arc and explore toxic abusive girls. Especially ones who don't take no from their life long crushes who don't like then back and will never see them more as a friend. Don't let Paulina just be another stereotype. Make pink astronaut end game. Maybe make Danny be the ghost king. God make the game have demon slayer horror and consequences. Imagine if the horror in tht game was like Demon slayer! Last but not least I'd love to make Paulina like this tumblr blog report/writer or something does stuff about ghosts ananthe supernatural.

YES. I really would've liked for Danny and Tucker's friendship to have been explored more as opposed to having Tucker become Danny and Sam's third wheel.

I feel like Jazz's dynamic with the entire trio could've been explored more, especially since it seems like she had more of a bond w/ Sam than her own brother sometimes. But hey, at least she had an obvious bond w/ those two instead of having pretty much nothing w/ Tucker 💀

Considering Butch has a thing for having child abuse in his shows (aka FOP w/ Vicky's existence and Timmy's neglectful parents being why he had Fairy Godparents to begin with), I think Jack and Maddie are an improvement upon that and I would've liked for them to actually be good parents instead of questionable at best, abusive at worse parents so then there could be more angst but not in the sense that Danny fears his parents killing him <- has been reading DP fics

Oh Vlad. He had so much potential and I feel like him asking for what, $500 billion in the finale didn't make sense for him. I do think that him using his ghost powers to save and therefore control the world would've been enough for him and in character. I do like that Vlad is just going to be in space for the rest of his life but also couldn't he have just escaped to the Ghost Zone or whatever 💀? Like, people can't see him when he's INVISIBLE so he could've easily snuck into the Ghost Zone and lived out the rest of his days in solitude to think about everything he's done. I do feel like it was a bit of a cop-out to have the finale's big threat be a fucking asteroid instead of Vlad but eh.

Ooh villain!Sam would've been cool. The ep where Danny got his ice powers was a nice peek into what it could've been like. Also, Sam could've been a badass girlboss <- focusing on the wrong thing here. I would've liked for the show to focus on onesided attraction and not just Fenton's crush on Paulina and Paulina's crush on Phantom but Sam's crush on Danny. That could've been during the whole Gray Ghost thing and how just b/c you're friends/besties with someone, that doesn't mean that the two of you are meant to be romantic partners which is ironic for a demiromantic to say but shh

No cause I LOVE that Valerie wasn't a stereotype and I would've loved it if they did the same for Paulina. Maybe they could've done something like that one FOP episode w/ Trixie being into boy stuff?

I was actually thinking about this earlier and having either Gray Ghost or Pink Astronaut as end game would've been so cool cause both have a girl of color as the love interest and it's not a best friends who barely have chemistry [not saying that's what Danny and Sam are, I'm just talking about the trope in general] to lovers

OH. ANOTHER THING THAT FANFICS MADE ME BELIEVED WAS CANON. I thought Ghost King!Phantom was canon in the show b/c of all the damn fics that had as canon in their AUs and so I was confused by the constant disrespect until it clicked for me that Phantom being Ghost King is another popular phanon thing.

I don't know much about Demon Slayer's horror but I'd assume that it's pretty cool and/or interesting?

Your blogger!Paulina would've been like the PERFECT thing to expand her character. It's genuinely a cool concept that goes w/ her obsession w/ Phantom and then some. I also like the inclusion of Star since I, once again, thought that Paulina and Star were besties b/c of fanfics (do you see how many times I've been gaslit by this damn Phandom???/j).

idk if you can see asks again yet BUT

i kinda wanna talk abt what that anon was saying with people adding non-side characters into fanworks and how that could be connected to other analyses of the fanbase (i haven’t been here as long as u have though so mb there’s some stuff idk abt)

for me it’s symptomatic of the way this fanbase treats the characters in general- they like. boil them down to one simple trait, one little personality thing that becomes how they’re viewed in fanon. so like patton is just sweet/innocent/stupid, but all other aspects of who he is, what he does, etc are kinda they out the window.

people add characters like picani and sleep even though they’ve had no canon overlap with the sides because their fanon personalities are simple enough to imagine with the sides. this fanbase ignores canon events so often that they can just like. add characters in and it feels the same to them

by making them into these one-note characters, it’s easy to imagine them interacting with one another as if they are from the same series because they’re so one dimensional and shallow in fanon. they can basically be made into whatever you want them to

i just think it kinda says something abt the way this fanbase warps it’s characters beyond recognition tht you can straight up just add these guys in and it doesn’t change the dynamic much, it doesn’t seem super out of place, and they’re just kinda. there

idk if that made any sense, im really tired, but my thoughts on this change all the time so i might look at this later and decide it’s bullshit lol who knows

I do agree that people boil down the sides into one specific trait & dont have any nuance to their character, however every fandom has crossover AUs. Every fandom boils characters down to their characters into one specific trait. I don't feel like there's anything to discuss there, because if I wanted to talk about how fandoms function as a whole, I'd just talk about that. But I don't want to. I want to talk specifically about the SaSi fandom and how it correlates to the series.

There's a difference between

"the series is about morally greyness and how there is no 'good' or 'bad' in the world, but the fanbase completely ignores that to treat the sides one-dimensionally" (and because of the lack of content and large stretches of time)

&

"the fanbase creates crossover AUs, like every other fanbase, and tends to make the characters one dimensional to fit them into the AU"

Every fandom has the same issues, but it's very interesting when it comes to SaSi specifically, because they are actively ignoring the lesson in Sanders Sides. It's the same with the Undertale fandom. People were actively ignoring the point of the story to make a child out to be the villain, because they couldn't comprehend, or want, the idea that it was them/the player who was fault

(also, it's less the one dimensional thing, & more that they are all creations of Thomas. People are adding in shorts characters and cartoon therapy characters because it's all by the same creator. I'm sure it's also because their fanon identities are so shallow it's easy to imagine them interacting, but that's not the main reason why it's done. It's done out of love for the other creations Thomas has.)

what do you think are the ethics of making and selling pins that are collages/photocopies/edits of images found in like, 70s/80s/90s lgbt books/magazines/comics? on the one hand i think they look so cool every time i SEE them but on the other hand when it comes time to actually make them i always feel weird, like thats someone elses art or writing or fashion right there

i mean personally none of mine are from lgbt run zines, they’re all from 1960s playboy magazine lol. and i like the dynamic of transforming smth thts heteronormative n often kinda gross into a gay/trans art piece. like this is an interesting thing 2 consider and i will later when im not h*gh, but the buttons i Might sell are just the ones i make w my typewriter so. 🤷🏻‍♂️

The behzerk part of the fandom is, indeed, quite more dead than it used to be years ago (mainly because they don't really seem to hang out alone as much anymore), but i am unfortunately still quite insane about them.

Ethan used to actually be pretty vocal about how much he admired Josh, and I feel like after some time this meeting-your-idol hype just died down a little for him lool. They're definitely not as close now, but I do still think they get along, especially more recently. At the beginning of Sidemen existence they would make a lot of content with just them, which doesn't really happen now. If you never paid them as a duo any mind, for OG Behzerk content definitely would recommend the pumpkin craving challenge (Josh's channel), really wholesome and gives a feel of their dynamic back then. In more recent content (off the top of my head) I really liked them as a duo in Monopoly IRL (both versions) and Christmas mukbang (2020 + this year (Ethan is very aware of Josh's GTA roleplay lore. friendship goals)); weirdest world records had its moments too.

I have many ideas about them because I am demented, but I generally just wish they made more stuff together now 💔 When I think about them, I remember how one time when the Sidemen were asked who their biggest inspiration was, Ethan immediately talked about Josh and said that he missed him, because he couldn't be there with them. I wonder if sometimes they feel like that now, too.

I think in an alternative universe they live together in an entirely too-big apartment and after Sidemen shoots play GTA, or whatever. They bicker about stupid shit constantly, but no matter what they still choose to come back to each other at the end of the day, because they know they simply work.

I do also have a soft spot for a rekindled relationship trope, and kind of re-discovering and re-learning how the other person works after growing apart, and I think that's maybe how I see them now. I think there's a lot of tenderness in getting to know someone you used to be close with again, in both the platonic and romantic sense.

Sorry for a long-ish rant and being very insane lol but if you're interested in behzerk content recs (old and new) or fic concepts I am always happy to talk about it! Otherwise just ignore this ask lol no hard feelings!!!

Heya behzerk-anon, can't say i've invested in behzerk content before but icl what you've said is v interesting so i have no complaints for the long rant :)

That's really quite cute that Ethan had a fanboy phase for Josh, esp the fact that it was over his gta content - tht's so neeky it's acc sweet

And you're so right - i feel like you never see "duo" content with the sidemen anymore - tbh i think the last time they did a duo collab was when JJ moved out of the apartment and Simon did the interview w him... But other than that, it's only in SDMN vids w teams where you'll see the boys in duos and tbh, it doesn't look like genuine friendship atp considering they're often given some convoluted scheme to follow for the video

And this romantic-platonic-rekindled relationship trope is so cute - tbh i haven't read fanfics in a looong time and i'm not that knowledgeful off many book tropes, but you've used the exact word that the rekindled trope seems like to me: tender. It is very sweet, cute, heartfelt and tender... I see why you invest sm in the Behzerk duo tbh, esp if you've grown up watching their content from the early days of GTA and all, that's a really sweet interest also <3

For the top 5 ask game I was wondering your favourite Brio moments and favourite of the girls’ moments? Xx

Nice! Thank you!

Okay, for the Brio moments, I'd say In no particular order:

All of 2.04. Yes, of course the bathroom break, but honestly all their scenes in this episode are so great. From the opening scene at the bar which just brims with her exhaustion and his excitement, to the last scene in Boland Motors where Rio both listens to her (doesn't tell Dean what they did) and doesn't (destroys the corvette), it's just hot and emotionally complex and good. Genuinely one of my fave eps of tv ever.

The bench scene in 3.06 where Beth and Rio finally confront reality. This scene just aches in all the best ways. I know a lot of people found their lack of communication frustrating, but I loved the way it made scenes like this one really pay off. They both feel like they're nearing breaking points, and the wound between them is still bleeding, and nothing they've put on it is making it stop, and you just feel that. I love it a lot.

"If you need something, all you gotta do is ask" in 4.15. It still makes me insane.

All of 3.04. I know, it's kind of another cheat, but the early scene in the bar where they're both so emotionally wasted juxtaposes so perfectly with the tension and promise of the money making scene at the end. The fact that it plays into all those things that make their dynamic so interesting - the way they can't stay away from each other, the fact tht he sees her, the fact that she always steps up for him - - it just gets me in all the best ways.

The Dubby in 2.07. I've done enough unhinged posting about this ep to last a lifetime, haha, so I'll just leave that there.

And for the girls - - I'd be here forever if I was talking about all my favourite scenes with iterations of them, so I'll try and keep it to trio moments:

Annie and Beth give Ruby the full cut at the hospital after Sara's seizure in 1.05. Honestly one of the scenes that encapsulates the show for me. Funny and tragic and always empathetic, it just shows off Christina, Retta and Mae's friendship chemistry like nothing else.

Ruby shooting Big Mike in the foot and Beth and Annie's reactions in 1.03. I SCREAM.

The bachelorette party scene in 4.08. Absolute cinema magic, they're on fire, I love them.

All of 2.08 - the flashbacks, Annie setting Beth and Ruby up, the crack in Beth's voice when she says she'd always choose Ruby. 10/10 ep actually, I love it very, very dearly.

All of 3.08. This one's maybe a surprise, but the episode where they retrieve Boomer is such a good one, especially for the push-pull between their motivations and the way we get to really see their growth from the start of the series. I love that it's Ruby who's actually the most accepting of the situation, and that Annie's the one who can't really cope. All three of them act the hell out of the episode, and play off each other so well, and I think especially given it felt like we got less of the girls together in s3, it really means a lot to me as an episode over all.

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You got me, curious about the inscryption x hadestown au, explode your ramblings and go insane sharing your thoughts GO GO GO

AWESOME OK OK OK. disclaimer like i saaid in the notes about that post idk if its even an interesting au or compelling story, we made it sleep deprived while someone was joking around with our p03 and leshy. its a dumb silly au and it makes no sense but its MY cringe baby 😤😤😤 so. its not a shipping au despite hadestown being . yk. but theere is some shipping for plot reasons.

Hades - Leshy (I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS. you can tell i put a lot of thought into his and P03's relationhip in this au) Persephone - P03 (the fucking themes. the fucking THEMES.) Hermes - Grimora / Magnificus, haven't decided yet, leaning more towards grimora but i really want all 4 scrybes included :[ Orpheus - Luke (i hate that tuber boy sometimes but god damn it he will carry my story :salute emoji:) Eurydice - Kaycee. duh. (note: kaycee and luke r not shipped together in this au, they just exist to cary the plot) the fates - one of the scrybes cohorts because i think itd be funny. probably leshy's just bc of the hades thing but i think it could work with another's.

ive rewritten this post like 8 times because i just ramble endlessly about my little cringe baby au (none of my aus are good its all serotonin factory here boss).

SO PLOTLINE. i only have a feew songs in my head but the jist i it takes place after the old_data situation and p03 is away from leshy for the spring and summer n thats where luke initially learns about kaycee and starts researching her death and junk. major plot points i have is luke playing against leshy and reluctantly being told more information about her death, and its revealed he has her death card. other plot points: p03 staying with leshy over the other half of the year and their Strained Marriage (tm).

this lyric is so them. they hate each other theyre deeply in love their marriage is failing but they stay together despite it all nd in the end they try again. i know i kissed you once before but i didnt do it right can i try again and again and again /lyric does tht explain it. theres so many themes

anyway. i dont have a lot of the plot fully fleshed out bc tbh it doesnt make sense and mking it work with both stories is taking me a minute. but i love all the dumb little plot points i have made.

ithe song how long is their dynamic FR FR FR FR.

im trying to figure out how to encorperate orpheus going to the underworld nd trying to leave with eurydice into the au but like i might need to tweek the plot a bit bc its alreaady not 1.1 wwith hadestown story but still. the reasaon p03 and leshy are more fleshed out is bc this whole au started with me comparing our leshy and p03 to hades and persephone X] im just a humble kaycee fictive i lov my blorbos my oingy boingys.... :] the characters ever. but like i gen dont like tht luke and kaycee r the only decent options for orpheus nd eurydice bc i dont want to make them romantic!!!!! i hate the tuber guy but also their dynamic could be so silly. my aromantic ass making the iconic greek myth couple PLATONIC FRIENDS. happy ending the boy doesnt get the girl X]

more lyrics with THEMES.

like do u get my image here. grips ur shoulders. do you see them.

i cant screenshot all the lyrics but GOD. any way the wind blows is kaycees song FR FR FR.... her main character moment. right b4 she dies X]

some feverish shouting from me at like 5am last night

the au makes no sense but tht is ok... its my cringe bby and it makes me happy. thank u anon for asking me about it i loved being able to explode ill rb this with more info later