I was on the wikipedia page for phobias just for fun but just discovered theres an actual word for a fear of being touched.. 🥹

Why do you think Alex and Miles fought in 2018? In my opinion between two there is nothing but a simple friendship and nothing else

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the reason i think there was a falling out between alex and miles after the eycte era and ESPECIALLY in 2018 is because of how radically their interactions changed after the end of their 2016 tour.

if you only consider them as strictly platonic friends (which is completely fine) then you're probably not gonna agree with what i'm about to say - which, if you follow me on this blog, you probably already know lmao. and that is the fact that in my opinion the making of eycte and then specifically the actual tour was a turning point in their relationship, and it was clear even from an outsider's pov that something was going on between them. the actual nature of what was actually going on is and will probably forever be a mystery, but the way they interacted, the way they were constantly on each other in every way you could possibly think of, the way you could feel so many different kinds of tension between them, and the way you could see the utter fondness and admiration written in their eyes every time they looked at each other... that was definitely something. again, we'll probably never know what it was, but it sure felt like love. the visceral kind, rare and special and so intense they both got completely swept off their feet by how strong it was. the depth of their connection was almost tangible, romantic or not, and that is clear by just watching any 2016 performance.

sure, their friendship had already been going strong for years, but... 2016 was just different. it felt different, intimate and exhilarating and electrifying for the both of them. you could just see it in their eyes, in the way they smiled their most genuine smiles back then. in the giggles and whispers and constant touching and looking at each other like they were each other's biggest, most precious treasure.

and then the tour ended, and it was deeply emotional and sad and it really felt like the end of an era.

they came back to their solo careers, and they were seen less and less with each other. from what we know, they also both suffered from writer's block for a while. then 2018 happened, and am came back with a very concept-oriented album, where everything that might be related to alex's private life is hidden under ten layers of obscure metaphors - and even then, we have no way of knowing how much of it is actually real and how much is just part of the whole concept. the only songs where he is a bit more direct are either """"love songs""""" (and very sad at that: see golden trunks and the ultracheese) or very introspective and personal ones (see anyways). on the other hand, miles came back with a very direct, very much heartbroken breakup album. also an implicit coming out album. also an album where every song screams of alex (i don't even need to give examples. it's literally every single one. the whole fucking album.)

regarding their private lives, miles entered his slut era while alex seemed to slowly start wasting away. my dude literally had a mental breakdown and shaved his head, he was not well fr. this was probably due to criticism of tbhc + him cheating on taylor most likely for a while before actually breaking up with her + getting stuck into a very shallow relationship with louise out of 1) self-flagellation and 2) search for a safe space (keeping up his straight persona, denying his identity and literally burying himself into the closet).

the majority of the milex fandom - me included - seems to agree that if we assume there was something romantic going on between them during the eycte era (possibly even before, but it definitely got to its intensity peak in 2016), after the tour ended things got complicated: miles wanted an actual committed relationship, while alex - back to the routine and having "woken up" from the dream that was the eycte tour - was already struggling to accept his identity, and when miles got serious he got scared and chickened out. so then miles tried to forget him (hence the slut era, but to no avail) while still trying to be his friend because of course they never really left each other's side, and that probably hurt like hell. everything miles could do was watch as alex slowly got eaten away by his own regret, fear, repression and self-hate. what i always say is that by doing what he did, alex broke both their hearts.

their interactions became so weird, too - la cigale 2018 being a prime example of peak cringe content, with them awkardly sharing the mic and alex literally fleeing the stage to run backstage to louise as soon as the song was over. you can't watch a random 2016 performance, then watch la cigale and be 100% convinced nothing happened in between those two years. something definitely switched between them.

my guess is that they never really got over each other, but their friendship did recover after reaching an all time low in 2018. i think now it's in much better condition, though not back to how it was before. they probably never got closure and they probably never will. they just... quietly long for each other and do nothing about it because they're both dumb fucking idiots.

they were indeed seen hanging out during summer 2020 if i rememver correctly, and then they were both at zack and lola's wedding last summer (we were ROBBED of a photo) and then back in... late july? (early august? or was it earlier?) we got that pic of alex at a bar with a fan and miles in the background. ofc this is just the "public" evidence we have of them hanging out and being on at least amicable terms, and who knows what really happens behind closed doors. i do believe they hang out as much as their busy schedules allow them to do. and obviously things aren't the same anymore because they clearly went through something, but what they have now isn't necessarily bad. they're still friends, and that's all that matters in the end.

obviously we don't really know what happened. we probably never will, and that's okay - because that's how it should be. we're not entitled to know anything about their private lives that they don't want us to know. let them figure out the nature of their relationship for themselves. as fans, we admire them for their music and we all enjoy the essence of their relationship with each other - their public dynamic and personas. and i think that we can all agree on the fact that their relationship is something they both cherish so much, so unique and heartwarming and beautiful that it's impossible not to be captivated by it, be it romantic or platonic.

i am very intrested in the transfem banshee agenda and would love to know more 👀

YESSSSS okay so the original conception for banshee was that she was going to be a woman, which makes sense given the name bc all banshees in celtic mythology were woman. this was blocked very early on by stan lee though, because he was apparently worried it might be weird if a bunch of guy superheroes ganged up on a woman villain, so it was changed but the name stuck.

anyway because of this i made a joke about banshee being transfem but then i thought about it more and i was like yeah? bc the taking of banshee as a codename, constantly having your own body weaponised, being so close with emma but never actually seeming properly interested in her, even the mix of genuine love and extreme awkwardness we see a lot with theresa, i was like oh perhaps??? anyway i imagine like, banshee is perfectly fine to spend her life just completely repressed and ignoring everything bc it's too complicated, but after dying various times and ending up on Fresh Restart Island i like to imagine her finally acknowledging it and working slowly towards transitioning.

i think at first though it's awkward it would also really help fix tom and banshee's fractured relationship, bc they have always felt so separate but with tom being gay and being out as gay (i know he isn't technically but like. it fits so well it is literally just canon to me) i think next to emma tom would be the first person banshee would talk to about Gender and being of the same generation i think it would let them have a lot to talk about and tom could offer a lot of support if it's needed and would really like being supportive while banshee finds herself and helping her find a community of other people to talk to bc i imagine for her intitially she would feel quite isolated? but begin to gain confidence as things progress.

banshee's transition name is siobhàn (pronounced shiV-awn), i think it would take her an incredibly long time to actually talk to theresa about it for the forementioned awkwardness but obviously tom already mentioned it (in very vague terms) before and she's perfectly accepting and they both get very sappy over it.

my endgame for her is definitely forge bc they had a little thing going on at times (uncanny #255 to #263 is the big arc where they're just vibing together, it's very sweet, they also show up together in x-factor #57 and it does feel like x-factor are getting checked up on by their parents), i think forge's nickname of irish is very cute, i think forge would strike a good mix between being annoying and being endearing when he tries to flirt with her and i have such a clear mental image of forge purposefully teasing her a lot bc like, she's a natural redhead so she's going to go bright red and just having the most fun with making her flustered that i'm kind of taken with the whole idea. it's very sweet to me.

anyway i have like... become obsessed with this it's just such a vibe and i think the world just needs more transgender irish milfs she's filling a void!! transfem banshee ily.