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#and how that mark how that unaddressed trauma so deeply affected him.
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hold on everyone shut up im getting super emotional about jonathan sims
#tma
#kara stop blogging
#thinking about the web. thinking about how it was his first mark
#and how that mark how that unaddressed trauma so deeply affected him.
#and how befitting that is for the web too- to tie someone up its strands for YEARS
#thinkin about how almost every single decision that man makes is made out of fear
#that motherfucker has never felt safe in his god damn life you can tell and im EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT
#thinking about how so much of his fear response is CONTROL because of it. His ridiculous skepticism was him trying to control it
#if he denies it if he refuses to believe in it it cant hurt him
#about his paranoia and desperation for knowledge is so rooted in that fear of losing control
#about his entire s4 arc and grappling with becoming inhuman. about not feeling like he has any kind of personal autonomy
#and how so often thats written off as him making excuses (and dont get me wrong- he makes excuses too. im not saying he doesnt) but also-
#like you look at what happened with his first leitner and its like. he couldnt move. couldnt do anything to escape
#and then when the other boy got taken he couldnt do anything to save him either
#of course he feels like hes never had any control
#of course hes desperate for knowledge- if he had only *known* what couldve happened then he couldve prevented it.
#the survivors guilt is so deeply part of his character
#and thats what makes jonah targeting him so fucking insidious and scary
#he took his man who is already so terrified- put him in a situation where he was so out of his depth
#knowing that his fear response would be to desperately try and figure out what was happening- to keep asking questions--
#pulling himself deeper into the eyes influence and easily turning it around and making it Jon's fault
#as if Jon isn't trapped like everyone else- it's just his fear response is so fucking perfect for the role the eye needs him to play
#and then it leads to the ultimate trauma of ripping control away from Jon and forcing him to do something so fucking horrible
#something he would never in a million years CHOOSE TO DO
#how he's so terrified of being made a pawn and he is. playing a game against elias where he couldn't even see the board
#locking him out of his own body...forcing him to open the door. like. FUCK
#I MEAN FUCK DUDE. PETER LITERALLY SAYS “HE GOT YOU” WHEN JON ASKED WHAT HIS 'PRIZE' WAS
#LIKE SCRATCH THAT!!! FUCKING SCRATCH THAT!! he wasn't even a player he was a fucking PIECE in the game
#GOD!!!
#GOD!!!! free my boy he did nothing wrong (he did so many things wrong)
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