#and god im pretty sure it’s just the demita and anxiety but he’s so needy | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lilgynt · 1 year

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my dad called me his guardian angel and that i have more patience than my mom and i know i told myself he just says shit but like that actually helped cause same day he was like i do not want to be alone with you and ur crazy so like. that did help a lot!

#personal #he doesn’t mean it and apologizes when his mind comes back to him but like #still good to remember during the bad moments #and this will sound horrible but #it’s not bad. per say.#when he says the nice stuff #but sometimes i do get an uncomfortable spike of anger #it’s like he says stay with me don’t leave help me or calls me nice names like guardian angel or something else #and it’s a flash of anger like im not made for you i don’t exist just for you #and obviously he doesn’t mean that #but hearing that from the guy you’re basing ur whole life around for the past few months #who due to things out of his control and frankly some of his own nature can get pretty nasty #and god im pretty sure it’s just the demita and anxiety but he’s so needy #like my mom can’t get any sleep or space around him #and my dads acting like their married with all aspects and my moms allowing it bc she has her own complicated feelings on the matter #but mostly for him so that’s cool to watch in real time #also watching the stats of how marriage benefits men and not women while my dead sucks the life out of my mom #like he doesn’t mean to but he doesn’t let her relax sleep eat anything like she took a week off work to clean the house & take care of him #and not to martyr my mother cause love her sympathize with her she is still. her.#but no one deserves what she’s going through and i will never have a bad word to say about how she acted during all of this #other things? fuck yeah but this no she handled it like a saint #and she’s been treating me better too so that’s nice #but anyway so fucking needy. i can hear them talking rn bc my dad wakes my mom up to reassure himself #i mean last night i was with him for five hours never left and if i did i warned him. he goes to bed. wakes up screaming my name #not his fault he wants to be reassured but jesus #i mean you go to the kitchen or bathroom from the living room and he says hurry back and interrupts you mid wipe #i’m a little spoiled bc he lets me go to my room some days but my mom doesn’t have any luck #he should get better with meds hopefully #and then worst of all you’ll #okay literally stopped typing bc my dad wouldn’t let my mom sleep and she freaked 😭😭😭 i talked him into just laying down but for how longuh

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