in light of me crying about my fan-fanfic in your DMs, i ask:

🥺 Is there a certain type of moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels?

in your defense: skdhfkhdfkhd ;;;;;;

a certain TYPE of moment? oh definitely. idk if it's clear by *gestures to "(why is there) joy in this poison" and "I've Got You, Brother"* but i am a very big sucker for sibling relationships.

so really... any moment with Kevin and Nathaniel makes me so emotional bc i know what they've been through, and i know what's happening behind the scenes, and every interaction i've written between them feels like a hidden part of myself. but when they get the rare moment to act like dorks with each other? that's the biggest moment for me. so especially chapters 9 and 10, but also things like when Nathaniel is calming Kevin down from his panic attack and Kevin makes a joke about the tree outside. it's clear that despite everything they've been through, they have a safe space with each other that's still big enough for inside jokes and outward affection. and thinking about that just. ugh. to reference an insanely good story, they have a real home in each other.

and now, i'm only just starting with getting to explore Erik and Wilhelm's relationship, but i feel like it's still those moments when they get to tease each other that get to me most. and they are definitely getting a lot more of these moments than Kevin and Nathaniel do, but they make me smile a lot. for sure, it's partly bc parts of how they interact are pulled from my own siblings. like the way Erik notices that Wilhelm is running a hand through his hair in an anxious manner but is still amused despite knowing that Wilhelm is anxious at that moment. maybe it isn't necessarily kind of him, to laugh at that, but it is something my siblings have done to me, so it feels like a very real moment.

so yeah. dkshfksdhfhsf. siblings.