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icterid-rubus · 7 months

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My dad just gave me an early birthday present. He’d taken all of my sketchbooks, from the earliest years to college, scanned them, and created a slide show that he put on for everyone to watch together.

All I could do was sit there in abject horror as he—essentially—displayed my life’s diary entries on the big screen for everyone to consume.

He’s so proud of it and I can’t even tell him how incredibly violated I feel.

#a huge irony is one the first first few images scanned was a comic I’d made in middle school depicting an incident with him #my father has picked up and read my sketchbook from the coffee table and when I saw him i asked him not to read it. he became enraged #and told me if it was in a public space it was for everyone to read #and since then I hid away all of my journals. i don’t show people my sketch work. i don’t feel like i have a right to privacy.#a lot of e middle school and high school stuff contains personal work and writing about how much i hated myself and how suicidal I was #and body dysmorphia. and it’s just become haha look at these skinny women with big boobs. you were such an angsty teen for no reason #if I do mention it he’ll bet mad again because it’s all in the past so why do I care. I’m so afraid he’s going to upload this #to the big family chat and everyone will see it and have a laugh #a lot of my childhood was him wanting me to ‘turn on the art’ for other people and create things on demand for him.#he still views my work like that. it’s meant to be created and enjoyed solely by other people

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