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agirldying · 2 years

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upon anon request i'll share some updates with me:

idk if i mentioned this b4 but i'm getting an apartment with my boyfriend in august and i'm more excited than i can explain! it's a 2 bedroom 2 bathroom apartment about 10 minutes from our campus and the place is super clean and modern! we're both excited to not only get away from stressful/noisy roommates but to live together. I'm also glad that we have our own bedrooms because I think having the opportunity for privacy will be super useful, especially since we're both on the spectrum on some level. it is a little soon admittedly (we will be together for 10 months when we move in together), and move-in will be the first time our families fully meet, but I wouldn't do this if I wasn't confident that my boyfriend is a perfect match and has consistently proven that to me.

i also made a poetry chapbook last semester and it just came in the mail today from my professor! i want to find some way to make copies of it (I taped my art to it after it was officially printed) so I can maybe sell some or just make it publicly accessible. It was really cool to learn how to make my own book, formatting book folds through word and being mindful about how pages will print (first paper will be pages 1 and 29, then 2 and 28, etc) as well as looking into cover paper like cardstock. I decided to call the chapbook A Girl, Dying, and my author bio mentions this blog!

i'm currently taking journalism 101 which is kinda interesting but asynchronous makes it really hard to feel motivated to complete assignments. Thankfully all assignments are due friday nights so I just do my hw on friday mornings if not thursdays. i'm doing alright so far, I have like an 86 so I'm not mad about that as a B student.

umm what else... it's still mentally difficult to be home now that i've processed all the trauma i experienced at home when i was away in college, and it's especially difficult to sleep in the same bed where, you know, some things happened. so i'm just trying to stay occupied or dissociated or a combination of the two. therapy starts sometime this week for me but it's unclear when yet, i'm waiting for the counseling services to clarify a date and time. i really feel like i need it asap especially because my existential ocd is just getting progressively worse and I had a scary panic attack for the first time a few days ago. the existential ocd is also feeding into my dpdr so i'm honestly struggling to stay on earth mentally.

i think something that could not only help ground me but heal my cptsd is dance therapy, and i pitched it to my parents the other night and they were both in enthusiastic support so hopefully that'll be arranged soon. i'm in no way a dancer but ofc that's not the point. i just want a safe space where im encouraged to move however feels most liberating, surrounded by others with similar difficult backgrounds doing the same thing. i think that could make me feel way more confident in my body (my abuser was the only person in my life to tell me my body was nothing to be proud of, whereas literally everyone else who has seen my body essentially tells me i could be a model lmao).

in lighter news i have been playing wizard101 lately and reached karamelle yesterday (i'm stuck on gobbsmacked tho) but my necromancer reached lvl 150. my diviner reached level 50 something and is in celestia, and i have a life wiz in krok named mary jade leaf in homage to that good kush.

I've also been getting into strawberry hospital and dltzk since 100 gecs turned me onto that whole genre. Click previous hyperlink to see what I've been listening to non-stop.

I think that's pretty much it. i guess i'll keep this up since i've posted updates in the past. thanks for reading :3

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darkbrokensoul1666 · 4 years

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Life update

The past week has just been problem after problem. Along with so much studying, tests and assignments. It started with ballet being cancelled last week monday. Tuesday , We then tried going to the dance shop a main road was shut so we took like a 20 minute detour - then couldnt find the shop. We then went to the shop - power was out. Pull out of shop - car starts making weird noise. We get home - power is out. Wednesday we take car to mechanic. We get a loan car. These mechanics didnt call and mum didn’t know what was going on until thursday afternoon when she called. Friday they then finally think they know whats wrong with it. $1700 - $2500 to replace the part. Then starts blowing white smoke. Mechanic recommendeds we dont drive home - we do. Mum woke me up friday night coz she felt dizzy, sick and had back and stomach pain. She then drive to my brothers mechanic friend the next day and he diagnoses the cars problem in 5 minutes. Turns out its a different thing and will only cost $500. Mum has a doctors appointment sunday after church and the doctor wants mum to take these antacid tablets and have blood test and ultrasound done. I now also have a psychology assignment that i neglected to use the time in class to do so now i have pages of questions that were due today so i will probably get 10% taken off. This friday i also have a massive dance 1000 word critical review due that i havent started because once again I neglected to use the time in class. Its also super hard to work in class when everyone around you isnt. I am bloody exhausted. Today mum had the blood test and has the ultrasound wednesday. On top of this my brother attempted to fix the car but its now leaking oil. My mum told him multiple times not to drive it home but yet he did. Today one if my friends also started asking why i wasnt eating and forgot every lie I usually tell and just said nothing and made an absolute fool out of myself. We didnt have dinner til 8:30pm so i totally broke my rule of notveating after 7pm and after 6:30pm. Now its study week with exams next week and im hella stressed and its like i never had a weekend. I want to just disappear. Ive also got such a headache and have no brain space to think about this psychology assignment.

On a more positive note my mum and i were looking at dance careers yesterday. I also found a dance short course at waapa for high school students in the summer holidays that costs $530-$550 that is 5 days long and goes for like 6hrs each day. I am hoping i can do it and mum can afford it and if not my dad will offer to pay hopefully. I am also hoping to start more dance lessons next year at a proper dance school as well as with school and my current ballet teacher. Im hoping to bring my total dance hours a week to about 10 next year

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kulifefall2019 · 4 years

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College Stressors

Michael Drago

Angelo Bencivenga

Alexa Ghignone

prologue- Being a freshman is not an easy task, the amount of stress that is brought onto a freshman feels unreal. As freshman we know all the ups and downs of being a student and how stressful it can be. The first semester of college is a time when students go through many changes, not only academically, socially, or with extracurriculars and are brought into a whole new world. Students are forced to change so quickly it can cause lots of stress in their life. Stressors in college can come from many different places for many different people. We will be talking about the main causes of stress for students. Whether its from sports, academics, or social life at some point students at Kutztown University will feel stress during their journey.

Act 1-Being a Student Athlete

by- Angelo Bencivenga

Being a student athlete in college is not as easy as it was in highschool. Here at Kutztown our athletes are incredible and very talented. Most of our Kutztown teams are top ranks in the country of all division two teams. I am a wrestler here at Kutztown and it is very fun but also very stressful. When I first came to kutztown I was so stressed because I didn't know if the team was going to like me. I never ended up doing an official visit with the team so I didn't know how they were going to treat me. This did not help with the stress of coming to college and dealing with the time management of wrestling and classes. Being a student athlete they have to keep your grade point average above a 2.0 and take 12 credits a semester. Although this is not very difficult and they want to have a higher gpa than 2.0 it just adds a lot of stress on your life. Another thing that is very stressful is study hall that all athletes have to take freshman year. My study hall for wrestling is at 7pm to 9pm on tuesdays and thursdays. I find this very stressful because after practices I am very tired and don’t always have the effort to do homework at that time. It can be helpful some days but most of the time it is more about talking with the other freshman wrestlers than doing work. Another stress is picking classes to work with your practices. Although athletes get early action in picking classes sometimes the teacher that they want to take has a class during your practice and your unable to take that teacher. Early action is very helpful because picking your classes before everyone else creates less stress. Another freshman on the team Tyler Fisher was interviewed. He talked about how it is very stressful to keep grades up with wrestling because of how tiring it is. Tyler discusses “waking up for classes in the morning are the hardest because your body is so tired from practices that you don’t want to leave your bed but I have to go and do my work which is very stressful and trying to keep my grades up so that I am able to wrestle.” One thing that Tyler talked about was how joining a sports team allows them to have built in friends. He explains “coming into college was very stressful trying to find friends but every weekend we all hang out together now and do team bonding things, I feel like they are my brothers and they always have my back.” This is one thing that is very hard to find coming into college. It’s a stress that everyone has not being able to find friends. Especially with the wrestling team since I am on it, I can say that they are my friends and it was stressful in the beginning but becoming to know everyone it got easier and stress free.

Act 2- The stressors of college academics

By Mike Drago

College can be one of the most stressful times in a person's life and its likely Students will realize this when they start classes at Kutztown University. One of the main causes of stress in college is academics. Academic stress can come from many sides of a students academics at Kutztown. Whether it's writing an essay, studying, or finals it's almost impossible to get away from stress. Coming from high school and moving into college is a big step in a students academic careers and it can take time to acclimate to their new workload. Many students including myself find that even though they have all this new found freedom it comes with lots of work in and out of the classroom.

After talking to Brian Bush, a close friend and classmate in Kutztown University I was shown many different types of academic stress that differ in some ways to the stress I feel in my everyday life during my first semester. Brian said that “I get very stressed over the amount of assignments im assigned over the week.” Many students find that acclimating to their new workload can be very stressful and have a hard time finding ways to overcome their new problems causing them to have extreme stress. Brian also felt “Professors don't give us enough guidance on assignments.” When a student moves on to college they may realize that even their work is more dependent and the student is given more creative freedom. This freedom can be more stressful for students. Students may feel they aren't being guided enough by their professors and in turn, overthink and stress over simple assignments.

Another stressor is students setting a good base for their GPA. Setting this strong base for a student's GPA is super important for them their first semester. This is so important to them because it can dictate the rest of their academic career. This is why students will stress over setting up this strong base so much in their first semester. Setting up this base goes hand in hand with another stressor, time management. Time management can be very intimidating and stressful to first year students because as their work piles up they will have trouble juggling thing like sleeping, studying, and social life. If a student can't figure out time management quickly they won't get a good base for their GPA that they need and will continue stressing over academics.

Act 3- Social stressors

By- Alexa Ghignone

Coming to college all students have to go through many obstacles; one of them being the stress of finding new friends, going outside your comfort zone, and knowing when your social time is and when your study time is. For me, dealing with change is very hard. I went to highschool with kids I grew up with, so it didn’t take much to get adjusted to. Going from highschool to college is definitely a harder adjustment. I truly think each year of college requires more out of people, which forces yourself outside of your comfort zone. Today I interviewed my friend Brenna Clark. She is a sophomore here at Kutztown University. Brenna is now part of Zeta Tau Alpha, a sorority here at Kutztown. Brenna said it has been hard for her to make friends. She said “since I’ve been in college I have a lot of anxiety regarding social situations especially when trying to branch out and make new friends.” This is extremely common for so many individuals at college especially if you are a shy person to begin with.

Brenna also stated that she constantly have a fear of being judged and not liked by other people “I may not have the same interests and hobbies as them which can be hard in college, trying to meet new people and be open minded but always comparing people you meet here to your friends at home and just feeling like everything in your world is completely different.”

“This also causes me to have a lot of social anxiety because I feel as if I say the wrong thing or make a decision that others may not agree with that I will be isolated and struggle to meet new people.”

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klaineccfanficlibrary · 5 years

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hey there, im very sick and sad at the moment, do you have super fluffy(preferably multichapter) fics?

Hey Nonnie,

Fluffy multichapters? I’ll see what I can do :-) Most multichapters will contain some angst, though, even when the story is mostly fluff.

Here are some virtual hugs for you in the hopes of making you feel a bit better XOXOXO

Marjan

A Month, A Week and Three Days by @it-avi

"Why does everyone take me seriously when I talk about that?" Kurt mused. "My Step-Brother, my Dad, my-" he stumbled over his words for a second. "-Blaine." He finished lamely, his cheeks turning quickly to a rosy, adorable pink.

A Place to Stay by ItsNotEasyBeingQueen

Kurt is a blogger who has reserved a room at a hotel for Fashion Week - a hotel which just happens to be managed by the charming Blaine Anderson. Circumstances force them into each other's lives for the week in a way neither of them expected. What exactly will happen when Blaine gives Kurt a place to stay?

A Universe Where Prop 8 And Other Related Homophobic State Laws Have Long Been Defeated by @rockinhamburger

Fast-forward several years in the future. Kurt and Blaine are navigating the waters of marriage, and everything that entails.

Along for the Rides by @slayediest

AU. Blaine and Kurt get their summer romance on. Mostly fluff, awkward flirting, a side of misunderstanding and some hanky panky.

Another Time, Another Place by elfinder

What if Kurt had met Blaine a year earlier? How would his life have changed? In his sophomore year, during the spring, Kurt Hummel ends up by chance meeting a charming young man named Blaine Anderson, who turns out to be in his own Glee club. The two begin down the road of becoming friends and then the journey that their relationship takes them. Will they be able to face any problems ahead? No matter what they may be?

Black and White by rainjoy

Kurt and Blaine do a crossword. Amongst other things.

Click and Press Send by @loveheartlover

Blaine Anderson is 18 years old and in his final year at McKinley High. His best friends know everything about him- apart from that whole thing where he's in love with an online blogger.

ThreeDomsToRuleThemAll are the best thing to ever happen to Blaine; three friends who post audio and video that more than satisfies his need to submit, and Kimber is the man who makes every Thursday the best day of Blaine's week. It's just a shame that Blaine is little more than another number, another follower to him. He doesn't even know Blaine exists.

Until one day, he does.

This is their story.

Crema verse by @twobirdsonesong

Kurt’s just landed a job at Vogue as Carrie Bradshaw’s assistant. One of his tasks is to bring her coffee in the morning. Enter Blaine, the barista. This is the story of how they change each other’s lives.

Equality by idoltina

Obligatory 'gay marriage becomes legal in New York and the boys react' fic.Also: Blaine just wants a blowjob. His elderly neighbor, Kurt's parents, and a plan that's been in the making for three and a half years all serve as sources to Blaine's seemingly never-ending sexual frustration.

Excited about things by @a-simple-rainbow

"It's not fair because I'll never get to make fun of your pictures!" He whines and Kurt stops dead on his track. The silence is thick and then Blaine sighs and laughs "Relax, I'm kidding." "I'm… I…" "You're gonna have to get used to blind jokes if this is gonna work." Blaine announces, smirking as he leaves the kitchen, glass in hand. (Blind!blaine, Skank!Kurt, FLUFF)

Gourmet Rhapsody by @hazelandglasz

Kurt has been working as a designer in a high-end fashion house but he just reaches his emotional limit.He goes through a burnout and during the time he has been given to recover, he goes back to what has always been his way to cope with stress : cooking and more particularly baking.It acts as an epiphany : why does he keep on working for someone else who doesn’t really let him make the right decisions and put too much pressure on him, if he can try being his own boss ?With Blaine’s support and Adam’s collaboration, he opens “Nibble on”, a bakery that cares about feeding you, body and soul.

How Kurt Hummel Loses His Virginity by @scatter-the-stars

Tired of being a virgin, and not having anybody be interested in him, shy and insecure, Kurt, decides that for his twentieth birthday, as a present to himself, he will hire an escort and lose the big V. Little does he know, that when he meets Blaine, his escort, everything will change.

How Many Days... by @fictionallylost

How many days does it take to fall in love? For Music Producer, Blaine Anderson it’s just another day at the office working on a valentines record for an international, top selling artist; with the idea of love as far from his mind as possible…that is until he meets lead backing vocalist, Kurt Hummel.

In Want of Magic by @trufflemores

3.01-4.01. "I just want my senior year to be magic."

Italian Boy by @kookaburrito

Every Saturday morning Kurt takes the bus to Little Italy. During the ride he keeps seeing the same cute boy who reads Italian books, and decides to learn the language, you know, just because it might turn out useful in the end.

Jump by @scatter-the-stars

It's been over a year since the injury that took away his dream. No longer able to take the questions and concerns, Kurt has escaped to a small town to think about what he wants. What he doesn't expect to find are Blaine and his little girl, who both quickly steal his heart. And it's not long before he has to make the choice of where his heart truly lies.

life is like a song (i want you to sing to me) by @luthien82

Kurt and Blaine have been best friends since college. They would do anything for each other, which Blaine proves when Kurt confesses he has to go home for a wedding - a wedding where everyone expects him to bring his long time boyfriend. The thing is: Kurt doesn't have one. But he has a Blaine, who is willing to help. Enter one group of crazy, well meaning friends, a week full of wedding preparations, and lots of sexual tension and you've got yourself a mix that's just bound to blow up in their faces...

Loving You Is Easy by @mrscriss2012

Single parent Kurt is moving back to Ohio. Having been hurt before, will he ever find anyone to love and trust again?

Make the Yuletide Gay by @razorsharpquill

When the invitation comes, Blaine Anderson is delighted -- he can't think of a better way to usher in the holidays than an impromptu Warbler reunion to celebrate one of their own getting married. Unfortunately that includes ALL of the Warblers, including his ex-boyfriend Sebastian. Avoiding the ex might just call for drastic measures -- and Blaine knows just the man for the job.

Missing Pieces by @sunshineoptimismandangels

Even after living in New York City for three years Kurt Hummel still hasn't found love. He thought that the city of his dreams would make all of his dreams come true, but maybe he just isn't made for romance. That is until Kurt is home for the summer, helping his father run his growing Android Repair shop and getting to know hid dad's latest acquisition, a handsome and sweet android with curly hair, and a kind smile and a love for musicals. Maybe Kurt will discover that love isn't what he always thought it was.

NYADA Crushes by @notthetoothfairy

Kurt doesn’t think it’s going to be a big deal if he posts an anonymous message on the NYADA Crushes Facebook page about the cute guy he just saw fall on his ass in front of the NYADA main entrance. Little does he know that Blaine is going to be his dance TA once the new school year starts, and that Blaine has a history with NYADA Crushes, too.

Operation Secret Santa by @ckerouac

Kurt can't stop staring at the cute guy who comes by the coffee station near his desk every morning, but can never muster up the courage to say hello. Until the assignment for their office Secret Santa is revealed and his reads 'Blaine Anderson'. Written in pieces for Klaine Advent 2017.

Shiftings by @chazzam (check out the entire verse, it’s lovely!)

Shiftings 'verse #1 - The shift in their relationship didn't come out of left field at all. Beneath the surface, things had been changing all along. Set right after THE KLISS. Kind of fluffy.

Somebody to Love by @bazllton

Klaine Coffee shop AU in which Kurt is a barista and Blaine is a dorky customer. Basically just lots and lots of fluff.

Sum verse by flaming_muse

The whole of Kurt and Blaine’s relationship is greater than the sum of its parts. Scenes of two boys in love.

Three Weeks of Summer by @antarcticbird

Kurt just wants to get some work done, Rachel just wants him to relax, and Blaine shows up and makes everything even more complicated than it is already.

Written On My Heart by @gingerfic

Kurt draws Blaine’s name in a massive secret pal exchange at work. He doesn’t know Blaine, and thinks he is giving to a female. Will he decide to reveal himself and actually meet Blaine at the end of the six weeks?Meanwhile, he has started noticing an attractive stranger...

Also, if you don’t mind me reccing one of my own fics:

Catch Me A Catch by lilyvandersteen

Blaine is a hard-working pre-law student and part-time barista, whose brother Cooper has snagged a role in Funny Girl. Kurt is a diligent NYADA student and intern at Vogue dot com, whose roommate Rachel is the new Fanny Brice. Cooper and Rachel hit it off immediately, and then start scheming to get Kurt and Blaine together.

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