'If you decide very soon we could drive you to pick up your food order' is NOT helpful for me bc very soon is meaningless. And i interpreted that as the time to decide I WANT to order (and what/where from) and not. Like. The time to also CALL AND PLACE THE ORDER and the wait time to make it. So literally that is absolutely useless and the opposite of helpful bc you also DIDNT TELL ME WHEN YOU NEED TO LEAVE/WHEN YOUR RESERVATIONS ARE FOR. so I was finished with something and decided I think I will take you up on this offer in time to find out actually you're leaving NOW for dinner and to be told you meant like. Immediately decide and call the order in. and that you have to be headed to dinner around 7. Maybe you should have said something???? Or at the 6:40 mark checked in?? But also the offer was useless anyway because this restaurant takes 6 years to prepare a simple panini bc theyre super busy or whatever so we wouldve been idling there waiting till 7:30, so that wouldnt have even been helpful for anyone. But still. Thanks for NOTHING. And no, i dont think you said 'right away' and you definitely did not say AN ACTUAL TIME or an AMOUNT of time (like, say, 15 minutes) and 'right away' is as meaningless to adhd brain as 'soon'.. you know I have consistently had problems with w ppl saying something vague like that instead of a concrete amount of time, and yet you don't learn to be specific!

I don't feel as bad as I think I could right now. But I am on the edge of a headache and I just want to be home. Going to work tomorrow is making me feel stressed. But it will be okay. Today was a good day. Even if I felt anxious.

I slept okay. I'm glad I didn't go in early with James. Sleeping the extra hour and a half was helpful. I got up, I got dressed, I loved my outfit. I decided to make a sandwich at home. And drove right to work.

I would be a little early. Which was good. It gave me time to read over my notes. I was in a weird place. I wasn't exactly nervous. But I wasn't looking forward to it. It's a lot of moving parts. And I'm very good at the other parts. I take pride in being the best educator. So not being good at this made me feel weird.

The group then shows up a half hour early. Thankfully the teacher was just good at being early and had a plan for questions and things for the students to fill in the time gaps.

I wish they had also done a tour but I tried my best. I know it wasn't perfect. It was very rough. I talked in circles, forgetting things and having to backtrack. I also got very confused about the timing because the clock on the back wall was broken and I got very confused. I also was nervous sharing facts in front of Del, just like I knew I would feel, and I was second guessing myself a lot.

But this was a group of 9th graders. Some of the trouble was them being loud, but they were obviously interested. And had lots of questions. Which was perfect because it helped me fill in the places I didn't explain well. And when I got confused really bad I called back to Del and they were able to turn me in the right direction.

The actual program part went well I think. Me and Gaby got confused by the time too. But it was that were were like 9 minutes early so we were able to figure it out and it worked out fine.

I think in the end I did a good job. Not spectacular. The teacher even asked if I was new. Ugh. But the program part was fun and everyone else did a great job.

I was really glad to be done. I know Jessica will have me do more but I hope I don't have to do it all the time. It is not my favorite and I know it will take practice but it wasn't a complete disaster.

After hanging out with coworkers and making some oysters, I went to bother James for a few minutes. Said goodbye to the group. And then I headed out early. Because I had to go to the nursery and I wanted to get lunch and rest my eyes.

It all ended up working out. I got home right around 1. I had leftover pasta. And did my knitting for the day. I got really frustrated when my laptop locked me out and then wiped itself again. Thankfully I don't think I had anything worth while saved but still obnoxious.

I went and laid down. I had set an alarm for 230. I would doze off. I wish I could have slept longer but I probably would have just been very groggy. So a half hour power nap was what I needed and what I got.

I got up and put my blundstones back on. So glad to have them back. I grabbed my bag and a snack and walked to the school.

I was with the little babies today!! I was nervous. But it was just two hours and I had a good time with them. They were a little unsure about me at first. I think mostly because I showed up when they were just waking up from a nap. But I would help them put their nap stuff away. And helped with snack. I read them a few books. I read them twice. They were all so small and cute.

We went out to the yard for recess. They don't go all the way to the park. I would chase them and throw them around and push them on the tricycles. Lots of scream laughing. I can only do one big thing like a chase, and then take a breather. I would chase them and pick them up and keep running to grab the other one. Which was a lot of fun but makes me very very winded. It was nice being out there in the sun and having these tiny little people listening to me sing to them. I need to rack my brain for more songs. I am not great at camp songs but I sang what I remembered and had lots of little laughs.

I helped them take the kids inside. And then I headed home.

James had gone to get us Chipotle. And so when I got home I was alone for a little while. But then the Chipotle ended up being terrible. They used spinach instead of lettuce. The rice was old, they forgot some toppings. It was just very disappointing.

So I ate some and then had cereal instead. I played Pokemon. I hung out with James. It was a nice evening.

I came and laid on the bed. Watched videos and just tried to be chill. I am very tired. I wish I didn't have work tomorrow but it will be okay. I will give good tours and have a fun day. Even if I am very tired.

I hope you all have a great night tonight. Take care of each other. Goodnight!

Donald's is so good when you want it (I feel), but also I get hungry pretty soon after? And as good as steak is it gets annoying eating the same thing again and again. I let my budget decide at times like that, but I'd prolly go with Donald's (seeing you talk abt it on my dash has me thinking of getting some) (also super jealous you're getting Japanese food tomorrow)

WEEKLY FOOD ROUTINE!

You, my lovely anon, bring up a very good point. So, each fortnight for food and personal care things, I have a budget of $251 Aus, and normally at the end of that fortnight, after food is bought and bills paid like phone and streaming, I would possibly have around $50 leftover. And as much as I want to get take out most nights, I know it's not feasible.

Now, this will be in a very long post but I wanted to break it down cause some others might be interested.

I normally do a big grocery order that day I get the money, to get all my heavy items like milk, soda water, detergent, toilet paper and fresh produce and snacks. That will cost around $64, with delivery included in that price.

This shop always contains a meal for my carer to make on that Friday. And right now, due to various circumstances in Hobart and Aus, different things are available so I'm having to adjust my meal things. Also, I only go shopping when I'm out of snacks or I've run out of something important like hot choc. I don't go on a whim, I go when I need.

But I have some golden rules that really help keep me in check with my spending AND my food wants.

1. Friday night is always take out night. Never spend over $20 unless a special occasion. I normally go to either the local fish and chip place, the Japanese place, Macca's or a small Thai place. All cheap, and within walking distance!

2. I don't drink alcohol, so I don't need to spend money on that!

3. Always buy a meal that'll go into 4 or more serves, whether that be a pasta dish, a protein and some veg, a casserole, whatever makes your heart happy. For me last week, I had a bit of cash to splurge on a pack of 4 steaks for $10. So I had that with broccoli and carrots and mash. This week it'll be the Bacon and Broccoli Pasta that I wrote a fic on a couple of weeks ago. The most expensive bits will be the bacon and eggs needed.

4. I never really shift on breakfast foods. Either it's toast or cereal. I can always get good quality bread for a low price, and it's a staple I'll always have (except now I realise I don't have bread...). I don't eat lunch often, only on days when I've worked out.

5. GET FRESH PRODUCE THAT'S IN SEASON! It's always cheaper and better! Last week 3 massive plums were only $1.00 here, an absolute score.

6. I tend to get snacks that I know I like and are cheap and on special. It's normally a pack of potato chips for like $1.75 that'll last a couple of days, some crackers, defs chocolate!

7. I'M ONLY ALLOWED TAKE OUT TWICE A WEEK! I don't want to spend more than $25-30 a week on take out. I wanna have money left over to go into my savings! I'll also make my own hot chocs at home, mix cordial and soda water together instead of buying soft drinks.