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41. Part 6

I will always prefer California, I don’t care about any other city besides my own. I honestly wouldn’t move if it wasn’t for Maurice, if he wasn’t ill as he was and if he didn’t have his office in New York then my ass would make him move to me but I rather take that stress from him and move to him, I can see the excitement on his face. He really can’t wait for me to come with Reign but after today, after seeing my daughter that upset on the video she has resorted to comforting herself, my girl feels alone. I can’t do it anymore, we moving once more and we staying, we have too because my daughter can’t be doing this. I can’t wait to be with Maurice officially, it’s been a long time coming so that is exciting but I got so much to do here and also tell my mom officially, I am going and then next week is work for me, this is hectic on my end anyways. Maurice is such a sweetheart though, as soon as I got off the jet the SUV was waiting for me, I did not expect it. I was going to make my own way home but he did it for me, I love him so much. I am excited to see my daughter, I can’t wait to hug her and reassure her that I won’t be leaving her like that again, it’s not worth shit. Like if anything goes wrong again, I will never do that again because my daughter needs me, I was so dumb. I am more then that and I did that, I just want the bruise to disappear to be honest, it is slowly but not quick enough. I just feel so marked, and I know Leon feels he is to blame, I told him we will speak on it so I am not sure if he will he be at the home when I get there but I think he isn’t to blame. I am a grown adult, I should be able to hold my own and think of my daughter, I was not thinking of her and that hurts, I am so stupid. My phone started ringing, looking down and it’s Maurice. Look at him already calling me, he better be chasing me. Answering the call “pootie missing me?” I said laughing “uhhh not exactly, I am happy to be free of you feign” I chuckled, he is lying “sure pootie, are you at the hotel?” it sounds quiet “mhmm, yeah. I am in bed, going to sleep. Just thought I would call you, are you home yet? Is Reign ok?” he must not be well then “I am in the SUV still, I am like five minutes away from my home, I will text you to update you. Are not feeling well?” I asked “a little bit, but I had my medication, some water at the side and just going to sleep it off. Ally was like oh welcome back and I said it to her, I said I need to go to sleep. Don’t tell anyone I am here, but she is the only one catching me walk in, she knew so nobody will harass me. Just wanted to say, if need anything tell me in terms of moving” I love him so much “thank you baby, I will tell you if I do. Move your shit from Texas too, that is our home now, I mean it” he laughed “I will, text me how she is so I can read it when I wake up. I love you” he sounds tired “my pussy got you tired, I love you too” I laughed “I suppose, night” I wish I was there “night” disconnecting the call.

I feel so much excitement to come home, unlocking the front door and pushing it open. Dragging my case in with me “is that mommy, is mommy back” ok I do take too much shit with me, yanking it inside. Seeing my mom hold Reign in the kitchen “oh wow, Reign. Mommy is home, finally” look at my daughter, she is staring like a dear caught in headlights “aww my baby girl” pushing the door closed, my mom walked over to me, Reign is frozen like she just malfunctioned “welcome home Robbie, I am just happy you are here and safely back” my mom hugged me, she kissed my cheek “princess, I am home now” Reign’ lower lip poked out “aww no, my baby girl. No crying now, come here” taking Reign from my mom “she has been so upset Robyn, I couldn’t even cook anything. I was constantly here and there with her on my hip, she is so heartbroken” I hate when she is crying “I know, I am sorry” hugging Reign close as she cried, like I am truly a dumb bitch. Rubbing Reign’ back “I am here now, I am sorry” I sniffled “aww you’re feeling emotional too” my mom rubbed my arm, she doesn’t understand what her daughter was doing, she was worried for me and Reign was worried thinking her parents left her when I was out there being stupid, I was not thinking of Reign at all “it’s a lot” I said, flicking the tear that fell.

Sitting down on the couch, Reign is holding onto me. Turning Reign in my arms “did gran do your hair, wow baby you got pretty hair” look at my mom putting pigtails in my daughter’ hair, sitting Reign on my lap “you miss mommy? Well mommy missed you so much, I am so sorry. I hurt you didn’t I, you thought where did she go” Reign is staring at my lips “I am really sorry, I won’t ever leave you unless for work, other than that me and you forever” Reign leaned into me and I hugged her, she just wants to hold onto me and wants hugs “my snuggle buddy” wrapping my arms around her so she is close to me “she missed you a lot Robyn, I just needed you to come back. I didn’t want her to be stressed out” my mom said “I know mom, trust me I made a mistake and I didn’t think of Reign at all and I am a selfish mother, she needed me or better yet her dad but he came to me. He left her with Nalah because of me, I am just so selfish towards Reign” I sighed out “don’t say that Robbie, you have been upset” Reign held my finger “not that mom, I was out there getting drunk. I was flirting with men, I was doing bad things when all along the person that was suffering was Reign, I wasn’t thinking of her, you don’t understand. I called Maurice and he could have been with her, I just wanted to get away and Maurice took me to Spain and again, I didn’t think of Reign and she was the one suffering, you wouldn’t do that to me would you? You went through all of that marriage for me, I am not you as a mother at all” I swallowed hard “don’t say that, we are all different Robbie. We all do things differently, we are all not the same so please, do not ever say you are not me or we are not the same because everyone is different, you are great mother. You do love Reign, but you were hurting, you are here now so stop this” nodding my head, it won’t stop me feeling the way I do at all because I fucked up.

Smiling down at Reign, to see her still sucking her thumb. I guess this is something that she is attached too at the moment “pass me her pacifier mom” I said, I rather she use her pacifier then her thumb because she will get too used to it, it is not good for the future “here you are” taking the pacifier from my mother “so how was things, what exactly happened?” moving Reign’ hand “use this baby” placing the pacifier in her mouth, she is content now but she don’t want to move at all and usually she is always fussing but not tonight “in my drunken state I rang Maurice, and I wanted him to come. He did, all the way from New York, and I was so very drunk by the time he came. The next day I woke up and he was there, and I just said to him. Take me away, I need it because Thomas text me. He said he was sorry, and that things escalated, and he would never miss a birthday of mine which made me want to drink more, I feel like my whole life has been a lie. It hurts mom, so that happened. He just took me, he took me to Spain, and I met his nanny, well his mami. I did find that weird, but she was so sweet. She said to me that Maurice does love me, marry him. She was hugging him and kissing him like a damn son, so the next day I said it to him and he laughed. He was so calm about it, he was like oh my dad married her, my dad took me at 3 months there, Joy found out like so later on, how weird is that. How do you let your son be taken at that age, I don’t care how rich and famous Maurice is I would do everything in my power to bring my child back, I would claim kidnap” my mom looks flabbergasted “but you’re not with him for the money” my mom said “there we go, so yeah that happened and Maurice felt bad, he just cried. I think it was a lot because he made a remark about his illness and how I would want a guy that is not ill, so I bought it back up and he got really upset about it. I think it is one of his insecurities and no matter how much I tell him that he don’t need to worry, he will always feel that. I also met Odell Beckham Junior and posted the picture of us, he didn’t like it but Odell wanted to take me to his home” my mom’ eyes widened “and I hope the hell you didn’t?” she spat “I didn’t mom, I only want one stupid man and to be honest. He knows now” looking down at Reign “young lady, what are you like” she has really spat her pacifier out and swapped it to her thumb.

I guess I won’t be putting Reign down at all, she don’t want to move “I feel like there is more to your stories Robbie but I am happy you are ok, if this was just you then you do what you like but you have a daughter which you can’t just leave around. Yes, Nalah is her auntie, Maurice came to you when Robyn, Reign is the main priority. Are you now staying in one place?” my mom is not pleased and I wouldn’t tell everything to her “well Maurice and I have decided to move in together now, I will be moving to New York, officially I will be going there. This will be Reign’ home and I know. I won’t be moving again, trust me. But I just don’t want to leave you here, I think I would like you to come. Just hear me out, I have work next week and I am leaving Reign again, I just need you to help me. If you can come to New Yok and support me please? For a few days while I settle in with Reign, I get into a routine with Maurice having her, it’s just going to be so rushed mom, please” I pleaded with her “so you want me to drop my own work for you?” my mom is not happy “you know I would drop anything for you Robyn, I will help you for a few days but I will be coming back. I am so very happy for you both, I think this is something Reign needs. This moving around is not it, I am very happy to hear” I hope this time with us in New York makes her move to us, that is my plan so she will want to not go back and just stay with us.

33.

To be back home is a different feeling, to be back home in my parents house is weird to me. And I think it’s because I don’t want to be here, I want to be with Maurice and when I did come here, I was running away from him and that life but I’m not now and I miss him. It’s been a day and I just feel a mess, I feel I have lost a little part of me and it’s left in New York. I did call him, he picked up straight away and I cried again, I’m a mess and I know it but god help me I need to get through these days. I won’t even lie but I am very upset about the home, Maurice is very calm about it but I’m very emotional about it all, that was my home. My daughter’ home and I built on that with Maurice, I feel like someone has taken things away from me and they have. I don’t feel safe even if Maurice was to let us go back there and rebuild, my daughter and I could have been there. It’s just I feel invaded that someone did that and I don’t want to say it to Maurice to make him feel bad so I’m just keeping it to myself right now, but I’m being optimistic because Leon is taking me out for some food and my dad woke up for Reign, back to the daily routine of me waking up late, life is great when it’s like this. Stretching my body out, I’m not sure actually when Maurice does come back but I hope it’s soon because I miss him so much. Let me actually get my ass out of bed, I’ve really had the best time of my life and met and seen people I never dreamt of even meeting and I can only thank Maurice for that because he didn’t need to do this for any of us or even me.

Making my way down the steps, I can hear my dad speaking to Reign. I know she is loving it, she loves when you speak to her and I know she must have missed my dad because I did kind of did also but he needs to learn, he did deserve to be kicked out because of how he was “I can tell you missed her” I said as I reached the bottom of the steps “I did, I feel like she has grown so quick on me, look at her. She is holding her own, she is ok to keep her head steady too” my daughter is growing so fast on me “yeah she is, little diva was so spoilt was Dubai.  Gold chain by the Prince, dresses upon dresses. She is so spoilt. You see how her little rolls are, the creases are light skinned while she is tanned, you fat baby” I grinned at her, she is looking at me now she has heard me “you are one loved little diva, ain’t you. Drooling all over” grabbing her top, wiping her bottom chin “princess!” I yelped, Reign smiled at me “you are so beautiful daughter, I am so blessed with you” she looks so happy, moving away from Reign to sit down “so what exactly has happened to the home?” my dad asked, I didn’t really get to explain to him “well it got robbed, the police say it is an inside job. Maurice is busy so he can’t come right now so he is in New York, he told me not to worry. He will be moving, he won’t let us stay there but you know” I sighed out shrugging “I just feel like it’s a lot, my daughter is in that home, she means everything to me and I felt helpless, because if I was in that home, I would be scared” my dad doesn’t look impressed.

My dad placed Reign on his lap, facing the TV “don’t you think that is a bad thing? I mean even now, he is not actively here in the city. You will be in that home alone Robyn, he has people that dislike him and he can’t even be around for you. Don’t you think that is a cause for concern for the both of you? You’re my daughter and I am concerned that he is not around enough for you, he is a business man and business men travel” he is not wrong “then what do you suppose I do huh? You just answered the question, he is a business man. Honestly dad, I want to be in my own home, I don’t want to be here, I feel it’s a conflict of interest because you feel Maurice is doing a bad job when he’s not. He’s doing his best, if I wanted and I had no job here I would have moved to him in New Yok but I would like him home more, I cried when he left because I love him so much. I know his home is New York, and come to think of it. He never really had anything in that home, it’s weird that I never realised it but I have now. He had a few clothes, chains. A car but it was like he had nothing he bought with him, I just think he never really moved, you know? I didn’t think that until now. He emptied out his home with Noami but the things he had there, I don’t think he had anything there. I feel he had his things in Texas still, everything was just me and mine, Reign’ too but he never made his home. It was where he laid his head when he came, I don’t know why I am telling you” I am so dumb “you’re thinking out loud, that is fine but Robyn. You answered your own question too. He lives in New York, a man that is not going to be in one place at a long period of time is not going to make it his own, where does he stay in New York?” I paused thinking “uhm, his hotel. Penthouse suite, even there it’s just a hotel room. His things are in Texas” they have to be, he had cars there. Those cars we had, he bought new.

I need a drink, I am glad Leon has taken me to a bar because a bitch needs it. I am just thinking things, not a bad things but if I look at the bigger picture where the fuck is he based at “you look miserable with a god tan” Leon said, I had to laugh “thanks” I grinned, it’s a thing where if I move for him will it be a case I see him less or more but I think it will be more because he is more in New York, always New York and I could get a job there but I hate it there or like his dad said, move it here in California but I have a feeling the quicker option will be me moving “you think I will be suited in New York?” I asked Leon “no” he is so damn blunt “that place is not it, why?” he asked, but he is not wrong I won’t be suited there “I want to be closer to Maurice” that is it “I think you need to just not be so quick to jump, he didn’t ask you to move did he?” shaking my head “I feel like, maybe I should move for him. I feel like Maurice never really moved with me, he came there to me and his daughter but making it his home. He left it to me, got his designer friend to do it and left. He got some clothes there, he bought cars. He has cars in Texas. He closed home with Naomi but those things never really came to California. I remember he said he would have them here, it didn’t come. New cars arrived instead, some clothes, new ones but I didn’t pay attention, it’s me I was excited. Maybe I should pay attention to him more, move to him. Maybe he wants to stay there and not speaking on it, his dad seemed to want to push him towards that” I have a lot to think about.

I stifled out a yawn, I am tired as hell. When I arrived at New York I just went to New Jersey and checked on the estate and then I didn’t really sleep so I am tired “you not sleeping again?” Ally asked “you know me, but anyways. I want you to take notes, everything being said with the business, the divorce. Please write it down” the elevator pinged, I am glad I don’t need to be making an effort in walking anywhere, I am just going to the meeting room in my hotel. The doors opened and I stepped off “erm, Maurice. By the way” Ally said behind me, I am walking way ahead of her, she is lagging behind “Naomi is here” I stopped abruptly turning to her “what?” I said in shock “well your dad told me to not say but they are trying to not go court over this, trying to come to an agreement with you both. Not my fault!” Ally spat, turning around as I walked off. So my dad couldn’t just tell me that my fucking wife is here, I haven’t even told Robyn that either. It does seem like my dad has a plan, I find it odd to be hones that he is doing this. Wade is here though so we shall see, if Malik is here he is being dragged out.

Noami and I just stared at each other through the glass as I walked down to the door, she hates me now and I hate her. Pushing the door open “it’s different seeing you with clothes on this time” I said as soon as I walked into the room “Ally, privacy please” I want the glass to be shaded to black so nobody can see “Wade” I said as I got my hand out to him “Maurice” he shook my hand “this is comfy, don’t you think” sitting next to Wade “this is Kelly, Naomi’ lawyer” Wade said, sitting back in the seat “lawyered up?” looking over at Naomi “you want something?” I don’t understand what she want “can you not speak to my client, Wade if you can” this is a bitch, my dad is here but he is not saying a word “just keep quiet” Wade said to me, she is such a bitch honestly “it’s laughable, just divorce me and go, it is that simple right?” Wade didn’t say anything at all.

The bitches have been whispering “my client has been through emotional distress, the settlement put through was not enough for what she has been through” Kelly said and I had to laugh “Oh no, that is wrong. She signed paperwork wanting us to remain married still to get at her father, she signed it and broke it off. So it’s her loss” Noami is funny “it was made clear what we wanted from Naomi, she couldn’t provide and lied so I would rather she admit the wrongs and move on, don’t take it to court because honestly she will be the one to lose out. The agreement is a baby, bring the family together” my dad spoke up “Mr Davenport, do you really want to go to court, for this to be put out there that you wanted a baby machine? That you threw this poor girl once you heard she couldn’t have a baby, would you really want that? The Davenport name to be dragged through dirt, oh I have seen the contract and it’s disgusting. Naomi had no choice but to marry Maurice, her father’ choice but Maurice has never support her in this. I mean, so what if it isn’t truth but there is plenty of women to see it that way, so why don’t you offer my client what she wants?” this woman is a bitch “Kelly, if go to section 5 of the form she made. She has stated she knew that she couldn’t have kids, if we pull up her files it was there. She signed these papers when she wanted to keep her marriage to Maurice. I also have her medical records, stated the year she found out. And it was way before the marriage, yes Marquis made a contract for what they wanted but she is a liar, she knew” Wade threw the paper to Kelly “see you in court” Kelly got up from the seat “Naomi, you are fucking yourself over more than me!” I half shouted.

This shit is so dumb “so now what?” I looked at my dad “I wanted to test the waters, it’s ok son. I am not worried at all, she is trying to get at for emotional distress, you will get the divorce. We have all the proof, she is scaring you. Wait on it, it won’t go far. I just needed to see how she was, if she was going to fight it and I see, she won’t with the divorce but she wants money from you” my dad be so calm at times “you got her medical record?” I questioned “yes, I know a person that knows a person Maurice” Wade smiled at me “we are ok, I am not worried. They will try with the negative headlines” Naomi is so stupid, why is she even doing this. Maybe she wants some sort of fame “Maurice, before you start the next meeting with your dad. Tina is wanting to meet you at the club tonight, she has the VIP section” Ally said, I groaned out “a club? Why?” that woman never stops “she said see you there” rolling my eyes, now I will need to say it to Robyn because if I don’t she will be moody with me. Getting my phone out from my pocket “thanks” I said to Ally, unlocking my phone and tapping on Robyn’ name “I won’t be long, then we can move on” I said to my dad, placing my phone against my ear “hey” Robyn picked the phone up, sounds busy “hey, just a quick call. Are you out?” I asked, didn’t know she was “yeah, just a few drinks with Leon. I know, early drinking. Aren’t you in the meeting now?” she remembers “I am, just needed to ask or make you aware that I need, well I have been invited to go to the club with Tina for a meeting, she is a big client of mine. She spends a lot of money with us” did I word it right “ok then, uh yeah. Ok, well I need I need to go, Leon is coming back” is that a good thing “ok, speak soon. I need to get to my meeting” Robyn disconnected the call first, looking around me and Ally gave me a awkward smile “did I do good?” I asked “would you like me to send her flowers? When a lady is calm like that, it’s not good” Ally said “let me book that in for you” Ally said, but Robyn said ok, that is a good thing.