Thought too much about how much I love my internet friends and ended up having a dream that one of my tumblr mutuals came over to my house to hang out. Also Grant O’Brien was there but that’s unrelated.

Ok try two I'll make the cliffsnotes version this time since I'm too pissed to type all that text again. Fiona+ destructix leave him since he didnt wanna work with finitevus and is also a dick and they only listen to fiona in the first place really. All her goodwill for him has exhausted. He stays in moebius and tries taking over again and this time the suppression squad is ready for him and almost kill him multiple times but he lets slip he doesnt want to go to jail so they contact the zone cops. Zobotnik tries once more to rehab him under much more monitoring so he doesnt escape again but eventually gives up and dumps him into mobius prime with a control collar grafted onto him (zonic didnt like that idea but zobotnik said since he doesnt have a zone anymore it doesny rlly matter) Then he goes and asks mogul really niceys (destructix old boss can give ppl powers and such with chaos magic) for his speed back bc hes too scared to take the collar off but obviously mogul says no. Lol. And starts to harvest the anarchy energy from scourge in what is frankly quite the painful process. This goes on for months before scourge does self reflection and decides to change a little bit. And takes the collar off and manages to escape before collapsing ass up on sonics front door. Nobody has the heart to attack him or whatever now since hes pretty malnourished and quite frankly on the verge of death. So sonic mostly is trying nurse him back to health and they're talking kinda friendly (relative to their other interactions) and scourge decides maybe. He doesnt have to be a villain to be someone different from sonic. And hes asked sonic to join him before but that lifestyle didnt work so maybe he switches instead. Beats sonic at his own game. You know. Like a rival but more hardcore. Tldr is that he need to hit rock bottom and then his poor actions make him go even lower and someone else needs to bring him back up for this to properly. Work

oooohh my god hurting him so bad 😭 i guess he deserves that tho. a lot of well-earned karma. definitely i can see he needs to be forced to rely on others if he's going to consider anyone else's value. im so upset the original version got killed i want to read this but LONGER...

anyway good for fiona i hope he cried about it. i hope he sulked and pretended he didnt even care all his lackeys(?) and his gf moved on but he is definitely having a dramatic yell in the rain and a punch to the wall about it. misery after misery....

if you had to throw a birthday party for some of your f/os on their respective birthdays, what would the parties be like?

Anon yuore feeding me soo well I'm grabbing you so gently like a small creature and appreciating you rn. ANYWAYS (under cut as usual)

Hmm ok well. I think truthfully alot of my f/os would have very complicated feelings abt their birthdays/being celebrated and also I think some of them just dont know their birthday even but oh my God. The ideas are still so so cutes bc I LOVE ALL MY F/OS!! ANS THEY ARE ALL PRECIOUS TO ME AND DESERVE GOOD THINGS!! (<-many of them are actually not good people at all. But thatsok they're all good to Me thats what counts ♡(JOKE))

God ok. I cant imagine literally ANY of my f/os wanting big parties with lots of people like maybe lucien or alfred or toshi would tolerate it?? Actually a huge bday party for lucien would be so funny. Yeah I'm putting up the fantasy equivalent of obnoxious bday decorations in the murder cult hideout. No he'd tolerate it at best and attempt to murder me at worse itd be sooo funny OK ANYWAYS!!

Omg this is a little tough ok.,,. Hmm. Ok I wanna Give Moreaus old goofy as a nice party maybe just a small thing... I'd be stubborn enough to annoy his siblings into complying with the idea so it'd be more of just a lettle #problematic family get-together out in the woods by the village or perhaps in the Lady's castle (if she is.feeling tolerant of manthings at the time)... baking his silly fish ass a cake and giving him homemade gifts and guilting the lords into being real niceys to him yaaaaay♡♡♡ (miranda isnt invited tho shes been ex communicated FOREVER. Sorry that's just how it has to be ♡)

Ohhh yknow what. Throwing a (found) family get together bday party for Frank would be so good too but it'd also be so awful and ridiculous. It would have to happen somewhere secluded bc shit is ALWAYS happening to this man when hes just in public. Always. And of COURSE I'd invite his besties but also his Worsties (the defenders) and perhaps maybe he'd end up having a fist fight with his blind rival at his own birthday party. But that's ok! It happens! Noo but it'd be a fairly nice event overall methinks and despite what he might say I know Frank would be thankful to have so many people give enough of a shit abt him to happily spend a day hanging out with him and appreciating him being alive (despite everything)

These are.kind of so nothing but this post is already so long GAH!! Anyways my f/os are all VERY different and honestly i.could very meticulously ramble abt what I would do for their bdays but all that's insane behavior. And also I'm so shys. And also I think most of them would value the effort and time put in rather than monetary value or dramatics but also maybe a little dramatics is appreciated to show just how much they're really cared for. Y'know. Thank you and God bless

SCD 2020 - Week 5 Thoughts

Forgot to do a song and dance list this week but I barely knew most of the songs so thought it wouldn’t have been interesting anyway week 5 fake Blackpool week let’s go! 😂.

Bill and Oti - I have to say Bill’s definitely keeping the consistency in his ballroom but idk if it was completely amazing? I feel bad saying that cos I LOVE HIM but I felt his upper body lacked a lot of shaping. On his openings his shoulders looked hunched forward to me which gave it a sort of Mortal Kombat character menu pose look? That’s been something I noticed in his Triple Cha and I think if he were to push his shoulders back he’d create a more elegant shape. His footwork was great though, he as always had a good sense of rhythm and seemed to glide across the floor really nicely! Just the upper body needs work IMO 😂.

Maisie and Gorka - I KNOW I LIKE TO BE REALLY PICKY ABOUT MAISIE COS I DON’T REALLY LIKE HER AND I FEEL ICKY THAT SHE’S A FEW MONTHS YOUNGER THAN ME AND DANCING WITH A 30 YEAR OLD MAN but honestly apart from that bad lift landing this was pretty much perfect 😂. Maybe overall it could be cleaned up a little but she had a great use of dynamics, really nice hip action and flow through her moves, and brave af going into those lifts 😂. Especially that second one like I had to do something similar for my GCSE dance and I was just going off the floor she only had Gorka’s fucking knee to rely on so well done there 😂.

JJ and Amy - BALLROOM JJ IS BACK YAAAAY I always love his ballroom 😂. He definitely nailed the style of the Quickstep with his super springy steps and perfect timing, and his hold is consistently really nice. I would say maybe to brighten it up a bit he could add some sharper dynamics just to perform some moves a little bit more, but it was really good!

Clara and Aljaz - Oh rip Clara rip 😭. Samba can be a bitch we all know this but I feel so bad for her 😭. She seemed to really lose her energy about half way through and then a lot of her moves just looked really lazy, she never finished any of her arm placements or anything. It also looked very stiff and placed in some moves, and there was a lack of flow and hip action which made the whole thing look very unnatural. Idk the results so idk if this was the last one for her or not but if it’s not I think she needs to work on her energy and put everything into her moves like she did last week.

Jamie and Karen - Lmao if you took Clara’s song with Jamie’s dance concept you’d just have that scene from Ninja Yell 😂. I am officially the only person who knows who that is in the Strictly fandom 😂. Also this song keeps reminding me of Hot Pink by EXID even though when I first listened to that song I thought of this song and now I’m listening to this song it makes me think of that I’m rambling aren’t I ANYWAY WOW THIS WAS AMAZING 😂. Idk what I can say about it cos it was just perfection like you can’t ask for a street dance to go any better than that really 😂.

HRVY and Janette - I mean I didn’t see any mistakes 😂. He had really nice sharp action, perfect frame, nice timing and sync with Janette, it was really good! The only thing I would fault was his balance looked a little off a couple of times but that also just looked like the choreo so either I’m dumb and it’s not supposed to look like that or Janette’s choreo wasn’t very good and I mean that’s obviously not the case is it 😂.

Caroline and Johannes - Oh lord this was like watching porn I did not like this concept at all 😭. But when Craig said she looked like Mrs Slocombe looking for her pussy I cannot unsee that now 😂. The dance was good! I was VERY distracted by the feeling of wanting to throw up and how sexual this was (Shirley did NOT help) but the actual dancing was nice 😂. I feel like Caroline still has the nicey movements problem, everything she does still feels kind of placed and sweet and idk I still want some fire from her 😂.

Ranvir and Giovanni - Okay but for real can Shirley think with her brain and not her hormones thank you 😂. This overall was good, but I felt had the same problem as Caroline where Ranvir got all the steps correct but there was a lack of performance value in her body, even if she sold it in her facial expressions. Her upper body looked nice at first, but for a dance so focused on leg action I felt there was a lack of sharp dynamics in her leg movements, particularly in comparison to Giovanni, and it seemed to seep into her upper body as the dance went on. She had nice pointed toes and she hit all the moves, but her legs needed to attack for me, and her neck ended up looking really stiff by the end of the dance. I love you Anton but a 10, really mate? Really?

Anyway that’s my opinions nobody asked for for this week 😂.

give me anything wrathion and anduin you want thanks

This ain’t a headcanon so much as it’s ‘why flower stans this ship so hard’.

I think personally a lot of people come at Wrathion’s character wrong, and as a result miss so much of what makes his dynamic (romantic OR platonic) with Anduin so good. I see time and time again people trying to reinforce ideas that Wrathion is a war monger, that he’s out for his own gain more than anything, and that he’s the literal opposite of everything Anduin is. Which is to say awful where Anduin’s good, wrong where Anduin’s right, etcetc. This, honestly, is just missing the point of everything Wrathion is.

Wrathion and Anduin are different people, very much so, but their core values? Are actually very similar. They both want peace. They both want the faction divisions to stop. They both want what’s best for Azeroth as a whole. The differences are how they think those things should be achieved, the prices they’re willing to pay, and the methods they would use to accomplish them. Even then, for all these differences, Wrathion isn’t a bad person for all he’s not a nice person (and I love this tbh! Give me more assholes who aren’t actually bad, nicey nice people who’re actually awful. It’s spicy). They’re really just two sides of the same piece rather than two completely different ends of a spectrum, and this is something that just gets missed.

Anduin was raised in a turbulent environment, a lonely one, but it was a privileged one and it was one where he was loved. Wrathion, by contrast, is the product of awful experimentation whose only real kindness was extended to him by Anduin. When he was two. And that was literally years ago. A lot of their differences come from the fact their upbringings have just been so wildly different, giving them hugely different perspectives on the same idea. Perspectives that they actively challenge in the other, that they seek to understand rather than just debunking it and writing it off. Neither of them really outright tell the other they’re wrong, they just sit and debate for hours why they think they’re right, or why they thing a different perspective or notion might be more insightful. 

In every way they’re equals, they’re friends, and if nothing else that friendship was just so important for two fundamentally very lonely people. Neither of them had friends, nor a peer, someone who didn’t just defer to them (or fear them too in Wrathion’s case) because of who and/or what they are. They’re different, but they’re also so similar and especially with the character development we see in Wrathion now where he’s actually starting to weigh the costs against outcomes (whereas before the means would always justify the end for him). They’re really just two aspects of the very same ideology in a lot of ways.

Also they’re the classic trope of ‘asshole is weak for One Person who they’re soft af for’ and? I’m about that lmaoooo.

Episode 7 - "Jodi is doing the absolute MOST" ~Colin

Yasssssssss PERIODT!!!! Merge!!!!! Whooooooo

I just want the former fools to spill the tea to me lmao that's all

I made it to merge finally and I feel like I'm doing really good at talking to people. I would have to say that my favorite people right now are Collin, Jared, Amy, Jodi, Ginny and Brayden!! Those are the people I'm feeling like I could trust a lot going foward. I've gotten some sus news about Jay claiming for an alliance that didn't include me in it. So I'm not really trusting that boy right now. But of course I will continue to pretend I do. And Elle is super nice but our convorsations don't really contain much game talk and I really never know where her head is at because she's not the most active. She's more in this thing for the challenges which I can respect BUT ALSO SHES GOOD AT THEM. I think Elle is worried that people percieve her as someone who is good at challenges but it's true. I'm not about to let her win challenges all the way to the final tribal council. She is lowkey my target even though I literally love and adore her. And I met Jodi today and she is so cool and easy to talk to so maybe we will work together too! But I've gotten gossip that Jodi thinks I'm "connected." So I don't really know what that means? I could be a threat to her socially so I might not keep her the closest. 

wow we made merge. i'm not shocked to get to this point, but I am shocked to see that Danny was voted out. That is a major blow to my game he literally needed to survive one (1) more fucking round ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. But the show must go on right? Merge was overwhelming like a flood of people coming in. Some I knew some I didn't but based on my perspective here is my initial analysis of these gorls: Jodi- Finalllllllllly we back baby. Now that Danny is gone, Jodi moved herself up to my number 1 spot. I trust her I really do and I'm glad that we're back together I think that we can run this game together. However, I am withholding information from her. I wanted to tell her about only one idol, but I didn't even though we video chatted and I strongly considered telling her like I think I can trust her but at the same time it was almost like she was trying to pull some info out of me? idk i said that if i ever play the game of survivor i would never tell anyone about my idol and i'm just gonna ride with my gut. But we caught up and we are thinkin a lot of the same stuff. I feel like she's just like me, where she wants me to believe shes giving me 100% trust but shes really giving me 95% the same way I am. I still have my eye on her but she is my ideal person to ride this game with. It's just gonna be a problem when I need an ally to play something with and I'm gonna have to do major damage control. We'll cross that bridge when we get there. Amy- Girlllll idk how I feel about u anymore. Don't play the fakey fakey nicey nicey game with me you cannot bullshit the bullshit artist rn. She's working with others and trying to play the game where shes just nice to everyone and in everyones good graces. no. Jodi and i see you girllll we watchinnnnnn youuuu I don't think she fully wants to work with ginny but shes potentially tight with others too. I believe she has my back to some extent, but i know shes dipping her hand into a lot of pots. Babs- the only person i did not talk to. Colin- I know he's close with Jay so i made nice with him. Jodi informed me that hes tight with her too and I said perf bc he's tight with Jay so that is the formation of the group. Jay- Same stuff. meh. Jared- My king luv u xoxo we haven't talked too too much but I don't think we need to. You get spot number 2 my love. Also he told me about an alliance hes making with i think amy brayden anastasia and him which is good also confirms more that amy is very ugh. Brayden- Meh Ginny- Meh but also literally reached out to me and was like "i'm working with amy and anastasia and i know elle we wanna make a huge merge majority if u wanna join" LIKE WTFFFFFFF EFHIUDEHUDFBFHIUFE like u can't make this stuff up why would u tell me this????? All Ginny has done during this premerge is just reveal to me that shes actually smarter than shes making herself out to be, and it clicks now that she did not really need to connect much with us BECAUSE SHE ALREADY HAD HER PEOPLE THAT SHE WAS WAITING TO GET TO AT MERGE LIKE OMGGG the tribe placements Elle- Now miss elle.... turns out you do have a lot of connections here. And you're smart. interestingggggggggg. You are a problem for me. Anastasia- you are a problem for me already. i see you talking to everyone being all nice and shit like yes i get it youre supposed to be making connections and blah blah blah but not like this youre going about it wrong. And now I know you already have a group that you'd prioritize over me miss thing. Watchin you too. Josh- Glad he survived and I think he's riding with me. Back on original phantoms I told Jodi that I didn't speak to him when in fact josh and I were like alliance yas. I fear that he may have told Jodi that him and I were close and maybe thats where she's starting to get a bit shaky with me. But I know the two of them stuck together with an alliance of Collin Jodi and Josh. Butttt jared did tell me that josh was like i wanna work with u and he could probs be saying that to everyone yas i think i got everyone. So Jodi wants to go for ginny but I wanna go for anastasia. The tricky thing is there are soooo many advantages out there that if you say the wrong thing to someone it'll bite you in the ass unexpectedly and I am reallyyyyy not trying to get blindsided with two fucking idols in my pocket. So I want to get a group together that I proposed to jodi and jared separately which would be me, jodi, jared, jay, colin, josh. I don't think these people would run their mouths about who we voting out just to prevent an advantage from being played. I want to essentially force that group of elle brayden anastasia ginny amy(?) on the bottom but also in my good graces at face value. I think once the merge hit and even talking to jodi and jared the air is different and I feel like everyone is running around making alliances. I feel like jared and jodi even have a different air about them almost like the gears are finally starting to turn. i still gotta trust them and i think i can. It's just not gonna be cute when i start whipping out idols and theyre gonna be like wtf you fucking lied dennis. but again, will cross that bridge when i get there. gonna spend the next two days just chit chatting and being nice to these people. ginny is on the hit list, and i'm glad jodi is being very forward with it because shes just making herself a target.

https://youtu.be/nrrkbecwYCQ

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https://youtu.be/QRILHU966Y8

WE MERGEDDDD✨ while I was at work rip me 😅 but it's fine I'm idk if I've talked to everyone yet I was kinda busy but anyone who reached out first I did 😂😂 I do wanna talk to Babs she seems great and I haven't yet and I should try to get to know all of the new ppl from the other tribes I haven't met, Jodi reached out anddddd I can't remember if anyone else I didn't already know talked to me 😂 but yeah! 🎶Merge, baby merge, ✨disco inferno✨

https://youtu.be/gAKFLe75uDY update; the alliance is really awkward and turned into like a how i met ur mother fan group HAHAH

https://youtu.be/lp4KXh7xb4M

The phantoms tribe is all in one piece that’s perfect especially when I got Anastasia and Elle on my side as well we are gonna dominate this season whoooooooi

Day two of merge: https://youtube.com/shorts/OvofAokuBtM?feature=share

It was kinda a slow day. I talked with elle for a while today but no game talk. same with anastasia and they wanna make a russians alliance but like this is post-ironic. anastasia cannot run around making alliances with people like its obviously not real? BUT i realized that anastasia is doing this. elle is linked to anastasia. brayden has a linkage there (whos also playing dumb with me like i see right through dis boy). ginny is associated too. amy is involved. i know jared has a fake alliance with them and josh is floating around somewhere too. i may be the only one in here not making a million alliances except like babs lol but the point is i dont need any of those groupings and alliances. let them make groupchats. let thm do whatever because they will all fall apart except the elle/anastasia and co group which has allegiance that goes beyond this game. i just need to essentially stay in the good graces of the people i wanna vote out. because literally most of them are essentially double/triple dipping and people are already on edge and paranoid so like all i need to do is just buy a tiny bit of time, hope that the little tiny seeds that have been growing for a day now sprout in the coming days, and groups and alliances crumble apart. like i didnt do anything wrong for making any move when it comes down it bc essentially nobody wants to involve me? so essentially just painting the picture of being the friendly outsider casting votes until they all realize they cant trust each other. but i trust jared and jay rn and they will help me get through this. jodi also numba 1 buttttttt ughhhhhhhhhhhh i was thinking like okay if people are saying ginny then what is ginny saying? what are ginnys allies saying (if she even has true ones) like my logic would be that the other person receiving votes may be jodi. shes quite vocal and out there and like shes digging herself a grave every day but im not gonna stop her from digging? like if word goes to ginny that ginny may be getting votes and ginny asks who started this shit? it'll probably fall back on jodi. i fear she might not last much longer if she is on the vote because that'll get her in peoples minds. anywho yeah, the important things are that i have a good connection with jared jay and jodi, and i love that i got to jared before any of these other ppl. like theyre all coming to him with stuff and hes just bringing the info back to me. maybe he tells me half truths but nonetheless its something. if we just figure out where votes are going we figure out what to do from within and if i ever pick up on weird vibe changes and shit becomes different based on how they act with me i will whip out one or maybe even two idols teehee. so yeah plan rn, be chill and friendly BUT NOT OVERDO IT LIKE SOME PEOPLE, bank on the fact that there are lots of cracks in some of these groups, and just make sure the vote does not fall on me. :)

MERGE IS INSANE! From a tribe of 6 to 5 to 4 to now 12, it's a lot to keep up with. I'm glad Phantoms stayed afloat and we own 1/2 the merge, but there's a lot going on. Within a day, I created/got added to several alliances, so here's the breakdown (BTW, I CAME UP WITH THE ALLIANCE NAMES AND THEMES. CREDIT TO ME): 1) jodi's lovers – me, Jay, & Jared; this is my F3, this is my alliance. I will go into detail about my history with Jared later, but Jay was in my last org but we never got to play together due to never being swapped together and not making merge. Jay & Jared were swapped together, aligned, then realized I was a commonality so we decided to do a solid 3. This is where my true loyalty lies. All my info from other alliances and conversations are directed here. 2) 21 gang – me, Colin, & Jay; Colin and Jay were tightest on OG S.E.E.S, and Colin and I were tightest on new S.E.E.S. This came together naturally due to that, as well as me and Jay feeling good about playing together. 3) the krusty krab – me, Josh, Colin, & Jay; this is an extension of 21 gang, to pull in Josh as ours and nobody else's. He let out that he knew Danny so now that he's gone, Josh's best option is to stick to me and Colin, and as a result, Jay. This next vote will truly test that he's with us and not any secret alliance with the other side, but I am pretty certain he wouldn't blow up his game with the three of us to save who we're voting out. 4) how i met your mother – me, Amy, Anastasia, Jared, Brayden, Colin; originally they left Colin out but I fought to keep him so that he's in a big alliance and doesn't feel like a side piece, because he isn't. My loyalty is with him and Jared over the rest of them. Having 3/6 on my side is also good because as far as they know, I don't know Jared or Anastasia. This alliance is clearly not really one to stick together, but at the minimum, it's creating fun conversation and personal connections, as well as subconsciously leaving names out of peoples' mouths. That's honestly the only reason why I'm here, as I'm certain that the Stings kids have their separate alliance. ONE ON ONE ALLIANCES: 1. JAY & JARED are truly both my #1s. I'm going with them to the end, even though I'm 99% sure Jared beats both of us for being a Denise, winning advantages, surviving that cursed Fools tribe. 2. Colin honestly would be my tightest person here if not for Jay & Jared being upfront about just running to the end together. Colin essentially is my #1 from new S.E.E.S, and he even told me about his Safety Without Power. I trust him so much, but I cannot trust him over jodi's lovers because he does know Anastasia and Elle and Amy and whoever else. However, he's not my absolute #1 not because I don't trust him, I just trust jodi's lovers more. 3. Dennis – this is a key relationship that I have maintained. I connected with Dennis in hour 1 of the game, but honestly I struggle with trusting him because he is just so paranoid all the time about votes, advantages, alliances, etc. He got freaked out by Amy because she messaged everyone on OG Phantom, like what? We only had 6 people. But I genuinely think he relies on me because he thinks I'm not connected to Stings alumni with him. But he does love to stir up paranoia and try to plant seeds and doubts. We need his vote for the time being, but jodi's lovers agree that he's too paranoid to keep in the long term. And he would flip. 4. Babs/Josh – these two I've just maintained relationships from the swapped tribe and it has paid off because they are numbers coming into the merge. 5. Amy – ah, my OG #1. Girl, I still see you as my #1 occasionally but you've freaked me out with your Ginny and Anastasia alliance, as well as the subtle unwillingness to get rid of Ginny. If it was genuinely just to keep OG Phantom numbers, I understand and I'm sorry for the paranoia, but hopefully you see why that was never gonna be a concern – I had Colin, Jay and Jared (& honestly Babs too) locked down, who are much more willing to play this game with me than Ginny ever did. I love you though and I hope we can get back to #1 status within the next couple rounds. THE KIDS WILL PICK EACH OTHER OVER US. I'll share my story with Jared as well as our Merge boot plan in the next confessional(s). 

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The Story of me and Jared Lai. I was going to film this (still might) but my phone is out of storage. But here is the (not so) juicy story of me and Jared. He and I were both competitive badminton players when we were younger. He lived in Seattle, while I lived in Vancouver; in 2013, I met him at a badminton tournament because his club came up to play. I don't distinctly recall what the instant spark was, but we met that once and maybe had half a conversation. Of course, me being 13, thought he was a cutie and word got out, I guess he found out. I had maybe spoken to him once in person at the time, so he's probably really freaked out that some girl he's barely met has this huge crush on him. So I ended up literally never talking to him for years, because it just was awkward. Fast forward to recently, he started noticing that I was posting some Survivor stuff on my finsta (which he's followed since I made it like 7 years ago?) and realized I was a Survivor fan. I posted about my application for Metaverse (something about the flirt game I wanted to play) on my finsta and he asked me what it was, so I hesitantly sent him the link and he signed up. In all honesty, I didn't mention this earlier because I was dreading being put together or swapped together, because I really was not ready for the level of socializing with him that this game requires just yet. We ended up not being together until merge, where we finally decided to just talk. We called, and realized you know what, lets just play the game together because no matter how awkward it felt, we did have a connection that could be valuable in the game. That's how I realized he connected with Jay and formed the jodi's lovers alliance. It is worth noting that he never thought I was cute back. It was very one way. That is why I feel awkward and was slightly hesitant whether he'd play with me or use it as a reason to get rid of me early. But I think we're good. Maybe we'll play a BvW ORG soon or the real thing. 

While i like elle and anastasia, i’m forming a new majority (i pray to GOD i am) with Jodi, Jared, Josh, Colin, and hopefully we have dennis and amy...i don’t know where this game is going, i genuinely like everyone in this game but ginny. And it’s not like i DISLIKE ginny, I just don’t know anything about her. I have a good relationship with most people here, i just hope i’m not shot in the crossfire tonight at tribal. 

Well my former tribemate Ginny is terrible at communication. I’ve heard from several other players that they have received very cold or short responses when attempting to reach out to Ginny so it makes them an easy first target. I’ve also found out that apparently Ginny, Elle & Anastasia are besties irl so that must be broken up immediately. 

Finally created the renegades alliance it’s going to be huge nobody would expect it whatsoever 

GINNY YOU CANT NOT TALK TO ME ALL MERGE THEN HIT ME UP AND MAKE A GROUP WHEN YOU HEAR YOUR NAME 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YHQhqd5cz-Y&list=PLrsCGcojtF16jvLW49C4855pUlLWI9pnn&index=13 hey guys who here like amy winehouse say I

AHHH MERGE HAPPENED okay so I have no idea where to even begin. I'm just gonna ramble as usual. ITS so weird going from talking to 3 other people to now having to talk to 11 its the first merge round and I already have 3 new alliances One with Jodi + josh + Jay One with just Jodi + jay and one majority one with Brayden + Anastasia + Amy + Jared + jodi after Amy won immunity, shit hit the fan. Jodi is doing the absolute MOST. for some reason she's still on her rampage against Ginny. I don't know what their beef even is. but sis is doing the absolute most to get her out the natural move this round is to vote out Babs. Their name came out immediately because they're inactive still and haven't added some people back yet even. it's crazy. However, I'm out with friends last night and meanwhile Jodi is arranging an entire blindside and counting me as a number for it. like GIRL WHAT. I love her and she's my #1 but I can't put my own game in jeopardy for her chaotic plans. It would honestly be actually very easy to vote out Ginny instead but the way she's going about it makes it more chaotic than it needs to be My main thing is I dont wanna burn bridges. I feel very close to Anastasia and Amy and I don't want to lie to them. Brayden and Jared and Elle are people I would love to work with, but I can't start that off with a blindside. I understand there's a lot of powers and advantages in the game, but it's first merge vote. so now that I'm able to talk to everyone and take initiative, I'm taking it in my hands and trying to get it to be unanimous on ginny. that way Jodi gets her way, she doesn't spiral, she knows I'm still on her side, and I don't have to draw a line in the sand so definitively. i have no idea how this is gonna play out but we'll see how it goes!!

Jay told me Anastasia told him Ginny was the only vote for her at her last FTC. Girl, you’re literally proving why we need to get rid of her. I love you but she’ll never vote for me or work with me and my alliance. Sorry :/ 

teehee almost two hours till tribal. hate all of these people. voting out ginny. brayden is sussing me out he claims to be throwing a vote on babs so we'll see who else is putting a vote on babs. anastasia makes an "alliance" but doesnt talk to me about the vote lol anyway im just gonna chill and lurk in the shadows for a bit and just find cracks. just need to ride out these next few eliminations. thinkin about the most effective way to play a chaos idol. lots of thoughts. feel bad that the vote is on ginny but shes tanking her own game :/ i dont think she would even come for me yet so the only benefit of her going is that it takes away at anastasia and co's number. by co im assuming its elle brayden amy and whoever else they roped in. dxfcgvhbjkl so sorry ginny but bye i guess. maybe she'll pull out an advantage or something cool i hope my first tribal is exciting and not boring. i wanna be blindsided but not bc there are votes against me. just wanna see someone random go home.

So! Tribal tonight, I think everybody is pretty much voting Ginny. I feel like having an idol makes me that much more paranoid 😅 because im like *squints eyes* what if it's secretly me and they're trying to blindside me??? But anyway if Ginny ends up being voted out I'm sorry ❤️, I did mean it when I said mount merapi was water under the bridge, but i had work and then was exhausted so i took a nap and literally everyone had pretty much made up their minds 😅 there was no room to really even try to change minds.

We are voting out Ginny :( I AM ACTUALLY SAD I DONT WANT GINNY TO GO WHY GINNY??? Literally it was so random. Babs was going to be the target and then randomly Jodi and Collin were saying how they wanted to keep Babs and get rid of Ginny. And I tried to save it by sending a giant paragraph saying how Ginny would be a good number but they had their mind set. I THINK JODI AND COLLIN ARE WORKING WITH BABS. Jodi is literally my #1 target right now lol I want that girl gone. GINNY DONT WORRY IM NOT VOTING FOR YOU I AM VOTING BABS. I WILL AVENGE YOU!!

https://youtu.be/HX05_se6T8Y

gonna save the shade for the vote confessional lmao

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Edgic:

Power Rankings:

Jared: As a lot of people have put it, Jared is the “Denise” of the season. He is coming into the merge with a fresh start and a clean slate as the last remaining member of his tribe. He has aligned with Jay and Jodi who are definitely powerful numbers to have this early in the game. Additionally, he’s also hiding behind Jodi’s massive and ever-increasing target. People are not viewing Jared as a big, monstrous threat. However, he is managing the numbers behind the scenes and one of the only people who can keep Jodi’s head screwed on. His power over Jodi also gives him access to numbers that he would not have otherwise. Overall, Jared is calling the shots and getting things to go his way always.

Colin: Colin has played very impressively this round. He has managed to reign Jodi back in and has cleaned up most of her mess. Now, he nor Jodi will lose important numbers because of Jodi’s desire to make the first merge vote a blindside. By being clear, upfront, and communicative with his allies, he is gaining their trust despite not voting the way they want. Speaking of allies, Colin has built relationships with people that Jodi has not; namely, Anastasia, Elle, Amy, and Brayden are key numbers for Colin. This marks him as the head of the non-Jodi side, but he is also close with Jodi enough to find out information. He realizes just how important these numbers will be in the long run. Finally, Colin realizes that Jodi is a messy and chaotic player who will do more harm than good in the long run. This realization is sure to be the start of Jodi’s downfall which, if placed at the right time, will be very beneficial for his game.

Jay: Jay holds power because he is aligned with Jodi and Jared. Not many people give Jay a second look otherwise. He’s on the outs with everyone besides those two. Both Colin and Dennis do not vibe well with him causing him to be a target down the road if they need an easy one. However, Jay’s greatest strength has and is his ability to stay under the radar while aligning with power players. He is effectively using Jodi and Jared as shields for his own agenda. This might be a problem later down the road as he might be seen as their goat. So, he needs to step up and have more of a say on what goes on in that alliance instead of being reactionary to whatever Jodi and Jared do.

Jodi: There is SO much to say about Jodi’s game, but only some of it is good. Jodi has gone off the rails this round. Her obsession and paranoia with returnees and advantages have clouded her vision. She has tunnel vision when it comes to getting Ginnifer out. Due to this, she was ready to blindside and burn bridges with people that she should still try to play nice with early in the merge. Jodi seems to be of the belief that no matter what she does her allies will still trust her. This is seen when she openly talks about her closeness with others in front of people, making several unnecessary and clearly fake alliances, and lying to people despite having no reason to lie. She’s still at the #4 spot because, at this point, people trust her and she holds a lot of power because of it. However, her actions, which I foresee continuing, will only cause that power to reduce significantly as people start to see her for the chaotic mess she is.

Josh: Josh is a little bit out of the loop this round, especially when he told Anastasia and Brayden about the vote for Ginny when he was not supposed to. This caused some rifts in his relationship with Jodi. However, due to this, Josh is firmly in the middle of everything as no one sees him as a firm ally, but no one wants to target him either. He could even be the one to turn on Jodi eventually seeing as he is in all these alliances with her.

Amy: Amy was in a bit of trouble near the beginning of the tribal phase. Jodi does not trust her as much as Amy would like to believe. In fact, without Josh outing the plan, Amy would not have even known that the vote was actually for Ginny. She would just be one of the few Jodi blindsided without remorse. However, I do think that Jodi has learned to keep Amy close is better in the long run. Additionally, Amy has Anastasia, Brayden, and Colin on her side which helps keep her in the middle. She is not necessarily a swing vote as Jodi keeps a ton of information from her. However, the position she is in keeps her firmly in the middle of all the power distribution going on.

Babs: They are not active, but their previous likeability in the challenges in pre-merge has caused them to have powerful and vocal vouchers, such as Colin and Jodi, to keep them safe.

Dennis: The distrust of Dennis saga continues. Jodi believes that Dennis is paranoid and talks too much for his own good (sort of like what she is actually doing). The alliance of Jay, Jodi, and Jared believe that Dennis will flip on them if given the chance and is a game Player. The only reason he wasn’t targeted this round is because of Jodi’s vendetta against Ginny. However, I foresee him getting targeted by this group later down the road. The worst part is that he cannot get a direct read on this group. He believes that they are all wrapped around his finger. If he does not wake up soon or get strong relationships outside of those three, he will soon find himself blindsided with two idols in his pockets. And those two idols are the only thing keeping him away from the bottom 4.

Brayden: The top of the bottom 4. Brayden, for the longest time before Colin cleaned up Jodi’s mess, believed that Babs was the person getting voted out tonight. He had complete faith in Jodi which has since backfired because she rats about everything he says to her other alliances. His alliance with Amy and Anastasia is quickly being spotted by people, and he has made himself a target by association. This was not a good round for Brayden as it puts him in the bottom for the rounds to come. Additionally, his reads have been off causing him to be majorly out of the loop.

Anastasia: Anything Anastasia says regarding Ginny always seems to backfire. Anastasia could say “I think Ginny is lovely person” and Jodi will go “See! This is why we need Ginny out!” Anastasia’s relationship with Ginny in this game was quickly exposed, and it gave a lot of people a free target. Anastasia’s defense of Ginny has worsened her position on her tribe’s totem pole. She does not seem to have a lot of social power yet on her tribe either. She does have strong allies with Brayden and Amy, but she is going to have to find new ones soon. This is because that alliance is quickly being read by others meaning it just serves as an excuse to target Anastasia.

Elle: Elle is pretty inactive this round which has been to their detriment. This has led to people liking them, but not necessarily wanting to work with them. Additionally, the rumor of an IRL relationship with Ginny and Anastasia is still spreading and being believed even now. They have been pigeonholed into working with those two as it seems that there is no way others want to work with them because of said reason. Elle has a lot of leg work to regain power in this game.

Ginnifer: I do not know why Ginny is being targeted so vehemently. False rumor of her connection with Anastasia and Elle? Attempting to start a majority alliance without telling half the people before its creation? Her first mistake was trying to create an alliance so quickly after the merge started. This information spread like wildfire throughout the tribe which gave her opposition (mainly Jodi) fuel to target her over someone inactive like Babs. If Ginny had sat back and just small talked their way through this round, Babs would be the person going while she is on the jury. It does not look good at the moment for Ginny’s game. The problem being that her detractors are very vocal in their opposition, especially the alliance of Jodi, Jared, and Jay who were willing to burn a lot of bridges just to get Ginny out.

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All the alliances in this single round (y’all really said “What if Raffy was Pressed and Stressed”):

Fools Gold is Really Phantoms - Amy, Anastasia, Ginny

2 Gays and a Jodi - Josh, Colin, Jodi

Lasagna - Colin, Anastasia, Elle, Jay

Final 3 - Brayden, Anastasia, Amy

Kitty Cats - Dennis, Jared, Jay

The Active Ones - Brayden, Jodi, Amy

Krusty Krab - Colin, Josh, Jodi, Jay

Renegades - Ginny, Jodi, Dennis, Josh, Elle, Brayden, Anastasia, Amy

Vampires - Dennis, Jodi, Amy

Cody and Sarah's Besties - Jodi, Amy, Jay

Jodi's Lovers - Jodi, Jared, Jay

How I Met Your Mother (HIMYM) - Colin, Anastasia, Amy, Brayden, Jared, Jodi

21 Gang - Jay, Jodi, Colin

Yeet Ginny - Jodi, Dennis, Jay, Jared

school life

        Life in my secondary school was pretty much alright from the beginning, nothing especially significant occurred. but things started going bad when I reached SS2. from JSS 1 - 3 and some parts of SS1 things were pretty good. but unfortunately, I wasn't like I was in in primary school. everything felt different. almost everyone was mean and nasty and there was just an atmosphere of dread. I hanged out with some of the girls in my class but later on, I realized they were not my friends, and unfortunately I never really had any friends from that school.

         As we all got older they got worse. they were rude, obnoxious, disrespectful, awful s@$%ts and only the Lord knew how miserable I was, and it only got worse when my Father got a promotion. now my father getting a promotion is in no way bad, its what followed that was bad. the promotion required him to moved back to Bonnie permanently and the family had to follow and like I mentioned before, there were no secondary schools so I and my sister had to move to the hostel the school had. I tried to hang out with my sister's friends. they liked me, but unfortunately, it caused them to disrespect me a lot. it was pathetic since they were all a grade lower than me.

      life in school was bad enough but the hostel was unbearable. my sister had friends but the only person in my grade was this b$%@h who I really really really didn't like so I was alone, but at least I had my sister to talk to. we cam to Bonnie on holidays. our brothers got to stay since they hadn't started secondary school yet.

     In school, I started staying on my own more and more. the library was where I would spend most of my free time. in fact, books and art were the only things the kept me sane. I didn't like the way my classmates acted, the way they dressed, the way they treated others, I grew up in a Christian home so I had a strong moral value, but I guess something about the way I was led everyone to think I was some stuck up, sanctimonious know it all who thought she was better than everyone. they talked about me behind my back, and would often gang up on me, if someone had an argument then the rest of the class would join in happily.They liked to forget I was a human being, so they emphasized the most trivial of mistakes or called me out for silly things like not wanting to share a snack or arguing with someone. they loved it when I got in trouble. and they loved accusing me of things they themselves did all the time.

       I couldn't really call them bad people because once in a while we were nice to each other but I always kept my distance. and for the most part they were awful especially this particular girl named Angel, who was anything but, she and her best friend, who was the b%$# I mentioned earlier, were basically the leaders, they were like those popular girls you saw on tv. Angel liked to act like I was the reason alone we weren't friends when in actuality she treated me like crap. she would all nicey nice once in a while but truly she was a b$%@&.

            she would make fun of me, and say nasty stuff while I was in the same room with her and she knew I could hear. so whenever she was around I tried as much as possible to avoid any form of interaction with her, and for some reason, this annoyed her. she acted like she was trying her hardest to be my friend and I was some unfriendly monster. I developed anger issues and got easily annoyed. the only real friend I had was the vice principal, who as annoying as he could be, was like a second father to me.