favourite poems of august

marge piercy circles on the water: selected poems of marge piercy: "for the young who want to"

marilyn chin fruit études

lisa olstein radio crackling, radio gone: "the hypnotist's daughter"

elizabeth willis address: "the witch"

jana prikryl the after party: "to tell of bodies changed"

diane seuss backyard song

alison c. rollings original [sin]

gerard malanga cornelius...cornelius gurlitt

todd boss rocket

beyza ozer to summarise a galaxy

john foy night vision: "woods"

clodagh beresford dunne ford galaxy

dorianne laux smoke: "heart"

anthony madrid like a cloud above the ravine

pascale petit swamp deer

frank o'hara maurice ravel

adonis selected poems: "desert" (tr. khaled mattawa)

sonja johanson three deer in oquossoc

melissa stein terrible blooms: "lemon and cedar"

w. s. di piero having my cards read

thomas hoagland bible study

peter campion big avalanche ravine

alberto ríos the smallest muscle in the human body: "rabbits and fire"

lena khalaf tuffaha water & salt: "mountain, stone"

josephine miles desert

jeanne murray walker invocation to convince a baby already more than twelve days overdue to come out of the womb

andrew hudgins the imagined copperhead

robert carr stargazing while sedated

mary ruefle among the musk ox people: poems: "blood soup"

jack collom red car goes by: selected poems 1955-2000: "bald eagle count"

mahmoud darwish to a young poet (tr. fady joudah)

kofi

3/3 Alright, last one, which is for our lovely Cosima and Delphine. It's just a single line (from the song Almost Made It by Racoon), to keep as much open as possible and leave you all the room to play around with it. Here it is:

One day we die, most days we don't.

Simple, right?! 😁 Thanks again, plus 3x please for all of them, as I might have forgotten with the first two (oops)! 🙏

I actually had part of this ficlet written out already from last year, but I never quite figured out what I wanted it to be. As I was reading the lyrics to the song, it prompted me to go back and re-read it, and I realised it fitted into how I interpreted these lyrics and the idea that, after all they went through, Cosima would want to live every day to the fullest. I hope you like what I did with it!

A link to the song

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Cosima sneaks into the bedroom just after midnight. The room is still except for the slow rise and fall of her girlfriend’s chest; silent except for her gentle snoring. Cosima slips into the bathroom to get ready for bed, stripping her clothes and pulling on an old Rolling Stones t-shirt. She removes her glasses for a moment so she can wipe her eyes clean of their thick, black make-up, and brushes her teeth, the taste of mint masking the beer and tequila she has consumed this evening.

Delphine doesn’t stir when she creeps back into the bedroom and perches on the edge of the bed. She is sprawled out on her front, lying down the middle of the mattress, her long blonde hair splayed on the pillow and her arms outstretched, taking up the whole of the bed. She does it on purpose, knowing that Cosima will have to rouse her when she gets home late, never wanting to miss a goodnight kiss. There were too many missed kisses during their months apart.

Cosima still feels the hurt sometimes of those months thinking that Delphine was dead.

She smooths the curls out of Delphine’s face, her fingertips tickling her temples to wake her.

“Hey,” she says quietly.

Delphine’s eyes flutter open, a lazy smile spreading on her face when she sees her love looking down at her. Cosima dips her head to steal it from her lips with a kiss.

“How are your sisters?”

“They’re good. The usual kind of crazy,” Cosima says. “I can’t believe the twins are going to be one next week.”

Twelve months have passed since they exposed Neolution, and since Cosmia and Delphine started their trip around the world, tracking down LEDA clones and inoculating them. It has kept them away from the sestras for most of the year but there was no way Alison would let them miss the twins’ first birthday.

“Did you tell them?” Delphine asks in a low voice, looking up with curious eyes.

Cosima’s hand instinctively goes to the Peruvian ring that hangs from a chain around her neck. Its twin is in its usual place on Delphine’s left hand.

The proposal had been a spur-of-the-moment thing. Their six months of travelling around South America finding LEDA clones had ended in Peru, where Cosima had insisted on hiking the Inca Trail. Delphine had tried to talk her out of it; after all, it had barely been a year since she had received her cure and, while she was doing well, hiking a mountain was a big leap. But Cosima was adamant, her only concession being that they opted for the shorter trail, reaching the peak after just two days.

“Okay, you were right, it was worth it,” Delphine concedes, in awe of the breath-taking view that surrounds them.

When Cosima doesn’t respond, she looks over her shoulder to where she stands close by. She can tell from the way she holds her body that she is feeling her feelings, and even from this angle she can see a solitary tear trickle down her cheek. Delphine walks over to her and slides her hands around Cosima’s waist, resting her chin on her shoulder.

“Are you okay?”

Cosima puts her hands on top of hers and nods, biting into her bottom lip.

“Tell me,” Delphine prompts.

“My parents had a photo of this view on the wall when I was growing up,” Cosima says. “They came here before I was born. They used to talk about their trip and tell me how much they wanted me to see it for myself one day. I always thought I’d do it once I finished school, you know? And then Beth showed up, and the others, and I got sick, and I thought… I thought I’d never get to see for myself.”

Her body trembles and Delphine instinctively tightens her hold.

“And now you’re here.”

“We’re here,” Cosima says.

She leans her head to one side, resting against Delphine’s temple, and sighs happily. In that moment, she feels the weight of still everything she carries fall from her shoulders. They are free of all that once haunted them, free to do whatever they choose.

Free to live.

And Cosima wants to spend every moment of that life with the woman standing beside her.

“Will you marry me?”

She feels Delphine pull away, her hand still loose around Cosima’s waist as she looks at her with surprise and delight.

“What?”

Cosima grins as she turns and looks up at her with a glint in her eye.

“I wanna spend the rest of my life with you,” she says. “Marry me, Delphine?”

Delphine laughs, tears streaming down her face as she nods. “Oui… yes, Cosima, I will marry you!”

“Cosima?”

“Hmm?”

Delphine’s voice pulls her out of her daydream.

“No, I didn’t tell them,” Cosima says. “I want you to be there, I want us to tell them together.”

She wants Delphine to share the love and joy that she knows her sisters will smother them with when they tell them the happy news.

She leans down and kisses her fiancé softly, then shoves Delphine across the bed playfully. Delphine giggles as she makes room for Cosima to slip under the covers, then curls her body against hers, a hand sneaking up inside her t-shirt. It doesn’t take long for Delphine to fall asleep and Cosima lies awake for a while, listening to her snore. She can’t help but smile to herself.

What a life they are going to live.

Humphrey for character ask

Humphrey! Everyone’s favourite under appreciated Tudor ghost.

Headcanon A: realistic

He did make an effort to learn French when he married Sophie. That effort involved buying the 16th century equivalent of a handbook of useful French phrases, skimming the first few pages and then remembering that he hates languages and never picking it up again.

Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious

One day a history student comes to the house to do research for their dissertation on the Bone Plot. Cue all the other ghosts frantically looking for Humphrey’s head so he can talk to them through Alison, only they can’t find him anywhere. They try to improvise with the others recounting to Alison what Humphrey told them in episode 3x01 but they all seem to remember the story differently and she keeps contradicting herself. In the end the student politely thanks Alison for her help but says that they’ll probably finish their research online. Only once they’ve left is it discovered that Humphrey had rolled under one of the sofas and was listening the whole time, but didn’t say anything because he just didn’t feel like talking about his death.

Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends

He was an only child, and both his parents died when he was four years old. This left him the sole inheritor to the Bone estate, and is part of the reason he was pushed into getting married so young. He was raised by his aunt and uncle, but they didn’t really care about him beyond using him for his inheritance, so for most of his life and all of his marriage to Sophie he had virtually no one to turn to for support or advice.

Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own

He’s a really good storyteller. Since he has so much time on his own with nothing to do he just makes up stories in his head and over the hundreds of years he’s been dead he’s got really good at it. If he had hands, and a laptop or some paper and a pen, he could probably be a bestselling author.

Thanks for the ask :)

Walk-Ins Welcome by Sue C Dugan

Walk-Ins Welcome

Sue C Dugan

Genre: Paranormal Romance

Publisher: The Wild Rose Press

Date of Publication: May 24, 2023

ISBN:978-1-5092-4908-4

Number of pages:336

Word Count: 73,299

Cover Artist: Kim Mendoza

 Tagline: True love repeats itself in unexpected ways

 Book Description: 

Adult education teacher, Alison Larkin has a second chance at love after her husband is killed in a car accident. Her new love interest comes in the form of a 20-year old student called HB, whose reputation as a bad boy and poor student has everyone questioning her attraction to him. Alison finds him to be nothing like his reputation as a drug-dealer and trouble maker. 

Although HB has few high school credits to his name, he is flying through the coursework in adult education. Alison learns she and HB share a memory of a dramatic rescue at a local amusement park. 

HB has a secret he has yet to discover, but when he does, he must convince Alison to give him another chance at love.

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Excerpt

She put the flowers on the coffee table and moved her hand toward the sofa. He sat, and she did too. “Didn’t you have something you want to talk to me about?” Momentarily, he couldn’t remember what it was.

“Did you forget?” She gave him an encouraging smile. “So much has happened. It seems like ages ago.”

Then it came rushing back to him—Dr. Sims—the things he remembered and the yearbook pictures. He sat with his hands clasped and his head down, thinking. Was now the time to tell her? He jerked his head up. “I’m not sure this is a good time to tell you what I know.”

She frowned. “That sounds serious.”

“It is and a bit weird too.”

She leaned forward and clasped her hands together. “Why don’t you tell me, and I’ll decide how serious it is.”

HB shifted on the couch, trying to find a comfortable position. Finding none, he straightened and looked at her. “You know I felt like a different person when I came out of my coma?”

Alison nodded but remained quiet.

“And I wrote about the rescue at Cedar Springs?”

She remained stock still.

“I started adding one plus one, and I came up with something bizarre out there.”

Clearing her throat, Alison finally said, “You’re scaring me.”

He noisily let out his breath. “I’ve been seeing a counselor, and he told me about one of his patients, Ashton.” HB paused and rearranged his thoughts. “I talked to Ashton, who told me he had tried to kill himself but failed.”

“Oh, no!” Alison cried. “Please don’t tell me you want to kill yourself!” She leaned forward and tried to grasp his hand.

“No, I want to live again!” He let her touch his fingers before pulling back. Although contemplating suicide might be easier than telling Alison he was her dead husband—Robert.

“Anyway,” HB swallowed, “Ashton told me about soul walk-ins.”

“What did you say?” Alison asked, alarm creasing her brow. “Wait!” She jumped up and hurried down the hallway while he waited. He moved his forefinger over his thumb, wondering what would make her leave like that.

She returned with a small book, sat, and clutched it to her chest as if protecting it. Then, slowly, she eased the book onto her lap and opened it.

He murmured the title. “Communicating with the Dead… So you believe in that?”

“I don’t know what I believe. But this book mentions walk-in souls and—”

“I think I have Robert’s soul in my body,” he exclaimed before he could change his mind.

HB didn’t mean to interrupt her, but it just happened. He couldn’t help it. He watched as

Alison’s eyes rolled back, and she slumped over.

“Alison?” He patted her hand and then her cheeks until her eyes fluttered open.             “How…” She looked confused. “Why? What?” She fell back on the couch. “I don’t believe it,” she said with a shake of her head, and her features turned stony. “I think you should leave.”             “What?” HB cried. “No! No. I’m sorry!” Tears immediately filled his eyes. “I knew it was a bad time.”             “What a cruel and mean joke to play on me after what I’ve gone through!” Her eyes flashed with anger, something he couldn’t pinpoint.             “I’ll let myself out.” He jumped up. He’d blown it with Alison, and she didn’t want to believe him. And he might not have a chance to convince her.

About the Author 

Sue writes five-star LitPick novels that keep readers of all ages turning pages long into the night. When she’s not writing, she’s reading, attending author events, or walking her dogs. She’s has two children and five grandchildren. Snack wise, Sue is a salty-type gal, but wouldn’t say no to an occasional chocolate kiss or two! She isn’t sure she’s a reincarnated novelist, but if she was, she’d want to be Jane Austen, Mary Shelley, or Emily Brontë. When her novels are run through author comparison sites, she gets Anne Rice through Mark Twain—quite a wide spread which makes for interesting reading (Tom Sawyer was a Vampire?). 

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I have so many thoughts but so little time, goddammit! Both dance events were fascinating. The junior event showcasing infinitely better skating skills than the senior one is such a bad look. My heart broke for Yahli, but at least she had Tanith there to console her, she's the perfect person for this because she's literally lived through it. Although I do feel bad every time Tanith curls her hair just so her teams would disappoint her. Overall I was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked the juniors, they were all so different and so good. Probably the best JGPF I've ever seen, especially the girlies!

Marjo and Zak are likely rooming with Lia and Trennt respectively because they looked like they rubbed off on each other. Zak looked like he knew they wouldn't have a good skate going in, so I wonder what's been going on. Marjo's hair piece is doing all the heavy lifting discipline-wide. The tech panel tried to do its job but the GOEs were a trip, as always. It's fascinating which judges fucked over their own teams. Charlene went out there with a vengeance and skated lights out, her ponytail floating in the wind like a plume of fire. They should've been in first. Barbara's stopwatch should be put up in the Olympic Museum when she retires. I love Mark so much, his ability to sneakily say things is unparalleled. When he said C/B have never won the GPF, all of us old-timers knew exactly what he was saying - they'll be handed the win. Luckily for them, G/P aren't helping themselves with this atrocious RD. Any team that's lying down on the ice better not talk to me. And Nik really isn't doing anything to get off my shitlist, huh? I was wondering when F/G's reckoning would come and I'm pleasantly surprised it was this quick, they needed a reality check.

The pairs event also made me stabby. The Germans had no business outscoring the Italians. Minnie better shield this boy lest Aljona try to poach him. What annoys me the most is that Deanna and Max repeat this trajectory every year - they start out strong, nail it at an early Challenger or GP, and then can't do a clean competition for the life of them, the choreo gets watered down, and by the time Worlds rolls around, they're completely out of gas and the judges have lost their faith in them. The axel has never been Trennt's jump, but I'm fascinated by how he's landing his former nemesis the 3S with such ease now but not the 2A. And it was only a matter of time before he started putting down lifts because Alison doesn't teach the girls how to hold themselves up in them. They need a harder throw and a Lori Nichol/Sandra Bezic/David Wilson program if they want to be competitive next year and of course they should keep spending time in London, it's doing wonders for them, and maybe they can learn a thing or two about lifts from the coaches there as well. Their free was the most beautiful of the bunch here. I see what Asher was trying to do with the SP but it doesn't really suit them, I much preferred the initial version they did at the sectionals. The Hungarians' free could also be so tender and special if it was being done by a team with any connection whatsoever. I want justice for Sara and Niccolo at Europeans and Worlds, but they also need to change programs once in a while. Is H/V's coach really powerful or something? What is going on here? What is this shit?

The women's event could've been an email. I'm still shooting daggers at Isabeau's coaching team. The way she can't recover from a mistake is deeply concerning. Amber is being served the national title on a platter this year and she better eat. Rion's skating usually doesn't do anything for me but I kinda enjoyed her here. I still actively dislike Hanna and Loena's SPs. Nina's dress is fabulous but she's the second coming of Alina on those crossovers when I'd rather forget even the first coming. Angel Kaori still doing angel shit, good for her, as an OG stan I'm fucking thriving. All I need is Wakaba back at full brilliance and I'll ascend. I'm so ready for this senior free dance event, I can't even tell you. Hope you feel better soon!

I didn't end up watching any of the junior gpf, but you're making me wanna go back and watch junior ice dance, I may do that!

Ice dance at the GPF could have been an email, I know you said that about women -- and that's fair -- but I really think this ice dance event bored the hell out of me. Same with the free dance I just watched. I skipped half the teams cause I just didn't really care to watch. I am happy F/G got a reality check, and I wish the Italians won, but what are ya gonna do? Go stalk and kidnap judges' families until they do what you want? Maybe?!

Pairs is a wild time, I think H/V have been very consistent this season, despite all their issues off ice, and the judges are into it. I enjoy them as a team, I wish they had better programs, and looked at each other more, but I think they've got a cool future ahead of them. I'm so sad for Deanna and Max, had she done a double axel the title would have been theirs. It is fun the top three teams were within two points of each other, that's a good time for me. The Italians (both teams) put me to sleep, so I don't really remember their skates.

I agree with all your opinions on the women's sp event, amen amen amen.

Chilltrax (June 30, 2023)

23:58 Tep No Feat. Starzun - Hold Me 23:54 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known 23:54 C H I L L T R A X - Like Lobster Straight Out Of The Sink! 23:49 Valante - Eio 23:46 Cannons - Loving You 23:42 Telepopmusik, Juicy Cola - Breathe (Juicy Cola Remix) 23:37 Zaven - Voliere Amplitude 23:33 Jos & Eli & Eli & Fur - Riffs Of The Night 23:33 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc 23:28 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 23:23 Kraak & Smaak Feat. Izo Fitzroy - Twilight 23:19 Leaving Laurel - The Family We Find 23:16 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 23:16 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 23:12 Lipless & Blue Noir - Alone 23:09 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 23:04 Ghenwa Nemnom - Story Of A Battle (Chris Zippel Remix) 22:59 Zhu & Yuna - Sky Is Crying 22:59 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You 22:56 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 22:52 Everything But The Girl - Caution To The Wind 22:48 Attom - Distant Memories 22:44 Pableno - Heights 22:40 Autograf - Sleepless In Nyc (Extended Mix) 22:40 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 22:37 Jan Blomqvist - Carry On (Earthlife Remix) 22:34 Lapsley - 32 Floors 22:30 Logic1000 - 21 22:25 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 22:21 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U 22:21 C H I L L T R A X - Chilltrax - Chill Out Piano 22:18 Dye O - Simply Be Here 22:14 Drama - Don't Hold Back 22:11 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - Let's Just Have Some Fun 22:07 Flexible Fire - Costa Serena 22:03 Boehm - Who You Are 22:03 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 21:59 Avira & Nicholas Gunn - Sensing You 21:54 Two Lanes - Movement 21:50 Lp Giobbi Feat. Dj Tennis & Joseph Ashworth - All In A Dream 21:46 False Intentions - Good Liar 21:43 Melosense - Lost In Gruvv 21:43 C H I L L T R A X - Wonderful Tan! 21:39 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 21:34 Tycho Feat. Saint Sinner - Japan (Chilltrax Mix) 21:31 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 21:26 Above & Beyond & Marty Longstaff - Gratitude (Aname Pm Mix) 21:23 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix) 21:23 C H I L L T R A X - Organ The Chillout Channel 21:19 Jones Meadow - Paint 21:13 Maya Jane Coles Feat .chelou - Never Asked For Much 21:10 London Grammar - How Does It Feel 21:05 Il:lo - Cynnes 21:01 Heard Right Feat. Phoebe Tsen - Pulling Me Under 20:56 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me 20:56 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 20:53 Vintage & Morelli - Once Upon A World 20:48 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 20:43 Darius Feat. Wayne Snow - Apology 20:38 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Julia Church - 9 Days 20:35 Dreem - Miles Away 20:29 Roisin Murphy - Incapable 20:29 C H I L L T R A X - Musique Nonstop 20:25 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 20:20 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Let's Get It Right 20:16 Sons Of Maria - Outbound 20:12 Emmit Fenn & Shallou - Hollow 20:11 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Bassy Dr 20:08 Xixi & Hildur Ottilia - Don't Worry 20:05 Embrz Feat. Abroad - Rise 20:00 Blank & Jones - Floatation 19:56 Blonde Maze - When You Move 19:52 Satin Jackets Feat. Mandy Jones - In This Life 19:52 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1 19:48 Chris Malinchak - Control 19:43 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 19:38 Classic Unknwn & Lipless - Be With You 19:34 Rocket Empire - Astoria 19:30 Kelela - Contact 19:30 C H I L L T R A X - Comes To Chill Out 19:27 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 19:23 Circle Sky - Love Hertz 19:18 Above And Beyond - Sun In Your Eyes (William Orbit Remix) 19:13 Alex Lo Faro - Move With Me 19:13 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 19:10 London Grammar - Lose Your Head 19:05 Chicane & The Mannequin - Summer In E Major 19:02 Jones Meadow - Expect 18:58 Kidnap Feat. Leo Stannard - Moments (Ben Bohmer Nils Hoffmann Remix) 18:57 C H I L L T R A X - Fresh And Fascinating 18:53 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix) 18:48 Sg Lewis - Lifetime 18:43 Nicolas Godin Feat. Cola Boyy - The Foundation 18:39 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 18:35 Beacon - Im U 18:35 C H I L L T R A X - Scratch Toh (Freesound) Chilltrax 18:30 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 18:27 Mango & Cloudcage - More Than This 18:23 Ran The Man - Swimmingpool 18:20 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 18:16 Elderbrook - The End 18:16 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit 18:13 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 18:09 Zimmer Feat. Panama - Make It Happen 18:05 Sons Of Maria - Lake Tahoe 18:01 Woven - Brushes 17:58 Olan - Wake And Return (Little Dragon Remix) 17:58 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Rocket Empire 17:52 Rüfüs Du Sol - See You Again 17:49 Sum Wave - It Feels Like Summer 17:45 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Just Wanted To Know 17:42 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise 17:38 Tycho - Into The Woods 17:38 C H I L L T R A X - See That The Humans Are Entertained 17:33 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 17:29 53 Thieves - Heights 17:26 Flexible Fire - Amatista 17:22 Drama - 3am 17:17 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Chris Howard - Thought Of You 17:17 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music 17:12 Two Lanes - Ascend 17:07 Braxe Falcon - Step By Step (Amtrac Remix) 17:02 Ry X & Olafur Arnalds - Oceans 16:57 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars 16:56 Bonobo Feat. Jordan Rakei - Shadows 12:15 Pines Feat. Fractures - Rewrite The Ending 12:11 Sultan Shepard - Sirens 12:08 Rezident - Wellenlainge 12:08 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Bassy Dr 12:03 Chicane & The Mannequin - Summer In E Major 11:58 Chris Malinchak - Saving My Love 11:55 Attom - Where Are We Going 11:53 Cannons - Hurricane 11:49 Everything But The Girl - Forever 11:49 C H I L L T R A X - Like Lobster Straight Out Of The Sink! 11:45 Shingo Nakamura - Focus 11:41 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 11:37 Fabio Vee & Mike D' Jais - Consolation 11:32 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix) 11:28 Sound Quelle & Tailor - Where We Should Be 11:28 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel Redux 11:23 Alex Lo Faro - Move With Me 11:19 Ross Quinn - Away With Me 11:16 Giants' Nest - Flower Burst 11:12 Satin Jackets & Panama - Alive 11:12 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 11:07 Deep Sound Effect Feat. Svetlana Voice - Dreaming About You (Dj Aristocrat Remix) 11:03 Sons Of Maria - Lake Tahoe 10:59 Leaving Laurel - The Family We Find 10:55 Session Victim - The Pain 10:55 C H I L L T R A X - Listen To This! 10:51 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 10:46 Royksopp & Susanne Sundfor - Oh, Lover (Nto Remix) 10:43 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson - Riptide 10:38 Zaven - Voliere Amplitude 10:33 Way Out West Feat. Liu Bei - Oceans 10:33 C H I L L T R A X - Scratch Toh (Freesound) Chilltrax 10:29 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix) 10:26 Beacon - Pay My Debts 10:21 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 10:16 Sao Miguel Feat. Sebastian Reynoso - Hope In Balance (Wisternoff-grant Remix) 10:13 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo 10:13 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 10:10 Dreem - Miles Away 10:06 Shallou & Daya - Older 10:01 Braxe Falcon - Step By Step (Amtrac Remix) 09:56 Emi Ca - Just Breathe 09:52 Liz Cass - Blue 09:52 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Rocket Empire 09:47 Eli & Fur - Carbon 09:44 Flexible Fire - Costa Serena 09:40 Khotin & Tess Roby - Fountain, Growth 09:37 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 09:33 Thievery Corporation - Guidance 09:33 C H I L L T R A X - No Sticky Fingers 09:29 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix) 09:24 Mazoulew Feat. Bonnie Wylde - Circles 09:21 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 09:18 Tep No & Noak Hellsing - I Won’t Need You 09:13 Arley & Sirolf - One Day 09:12 C H I L L T R A X - Backward Rvb Where World Comes 09:09 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 09:05 Pines Feat. Water Park - Tell Me 09:00 Il:lo - Cynnes 08:57 Melosense - Can't Replace You 08:52 Max Cooper - A Model Of Reality (Tor Remix) 08:51 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc 08:47 Forty Cats & Arentis - Zen 08:43 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise 08:38 Washed Out - Eyes Be Closed 08:35 Lost In Pacific & Hanging Valleys - Escape 08:32 Dye O - Simply Be Here 08:27 Alampa - Caravan 08:26 C H I L L T R A X - Musique Nonstop 08:23 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 08:19 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Gordi - No One Else 08:16 Holen - Breathe 08:13 London Grammar - Metal & Dust 08:12 C H I L L T R A X - Industrial 08:09 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - Let's Just Have Some Fun 08:05 Tycho Feat. Rum.gold - Run Away 08:01 Jones Meadow - Shackles 07:56 Steven Weston Feat. Lapsley - Like I Used To 07:52 Elderbrook - Wasted On You 07:52 C H I L L T R A X - Well How Ya Like It? Terrific! 07:47 Bonsaye - Viaje 07:44 Cannons - Loving You 07:40 Boerd - 2far 07:36 Pableno - Heights 07:32 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - It's Enough (The Last High) 07:32 C H I L L T R A X - Twcc Chill Chill Chill Chilltrax 07:27 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix) 07:24 Drama - Hold On (Rezident Remix) 07:19 Ghenwa Nemnom - Story Of A Battle (Chris Zippel Remix) 07:14 Mozez & Tim Angrave - Head Full Of Dreams 07:14 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 07:11 Alex Hook Feat. Rene - You Showed Me 07:05 Maya Jane Coles Feat .chelou - Never Asked For Much 07:01 Arto - Para Mi 06:56 Sons Of Maria - Close To Me 06:55 C H I L L T R A X - Haven't Even Rinsed! 06:51 Alex Lo Faro - Move With Me 06:46 Sound Quelle Feat. Daniel Robinson - Tempest 06:42 Tagavaka - Oxygen 06:39 Aftruu - Falling Asleep 06:34 Moon Boots Feat. Nic Hanson - Keep The Faith 06:34 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 06:30 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 06:26 Fkj Feat. Little Dragon - Can't Stop 06:22 Sum Wave - Evening Mood 06:17 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 06:13 Reel People & Muhsinah - Something New (Kraak & Smaak Remix) 06:12 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel, Chilltrax 06:09 Holen - Healing 06:05 Two Lanes Feat. Kwesi - Another Time 06:02 Xixi & Hildur Ottilia - Don't Worry 05:57 Above And Beyond - Sun In Your Eyes (William Orbit Remix) 05:54 53 Thieves - Waves 05:54 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 05:49 Alampa - Lush Dance 05:46 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 05:42 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Malou - About You 05:38 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 05:33 Chris Malinchak - Photograph 05:33 C H I L L T R A X - See That The Humans Are Entertained 05:30 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 05:26 Kaskade - Find Love 05:22 Rocket Empire - Astoria 05:16 Attlas Feat. Mango - Over The Water 05:13 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known 05:13 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music 05:09 Approaching Black - Sensitive 05:04 Chicane & The Mannequin - Summer In E Major 05:00 Hausman & Lumynesynth - Faded 04:56 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 04:51 Blonde Maze - Night Light (Hessian Remix) 04:48 Everything But The Girl - Run A Red Light 04:48 C H I L L T R A X - Be Svendsen World Comes 04:44 Bonsaye - Kismet 04:41 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 04:38 Catz 'n Dogz Feat. Jaw - Time 04:33 Kelela - Enough For Love 04:29 Alex V - Cristal Shore 04:25 Shallou Feat.wales - Begin 04:25 C H I L L T R A X - Come Along Children - Need To Chill Out 04:20 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 04:16 Farius - A Big Life (Sound Quelle Remix) 04:13 Jones Meadow - Expect 04:08 Ferr By Ferry Corsten And Rich Walters - Limbo 04:08 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Bassy Dr 04:04 Sons Of Maria - Lake Tahoe 03:59 Eli & Fur - You And I 03:56 Flexible Fire - Costa Serena 03:53 Leisure Feat. Muroki - Summer Season 03:48 Evelynka - Letting Go 03:48 C H I L L T R A X - Bugs B Gone 03:44 Electronic Bodyguards - Stronger (Pete Herbert Remix) 03:41 Afterlife - All I Wanted 03:36 Pines Feat. Akacia - History 03:33 Melosense - Nous 03:29 Morcheeba - The Moon (Kutiman Remix - Version B) 03:29 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit 03:25 False Intentions - Good Liar 03:22 Sault - Wildfires 03:18 Sum Wave - Milkyway 03:15 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 03:15 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 03:09 Pilots Of Peace - Fallin 03:04 Braxe Falcon - Step By Step (Amtrac Remix) 03:00 Il:lo - Ink 02:56 Flume Feat. Emma Louise - Hollow (Logic1000 Remix) 02:56 C H I L L T R A X - Scratch Toh (Freesound) Chilltrax 02:52 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Relapse 02:49 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 02:46 Blonde Maze - Daydream (Otherwise Fine Remix) 02:41 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 02:38 Passenger 10 - All I Have 02:38 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You 02:34 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone 02:30 Darius & Amaria - Faded 02:25 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars 02:20 Odesza Feat. Olafur Arnalds - Light Of Day (Parra For Cuva Remix) 02:17 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix) 02:17 C H I L L T R A X - Chilltrax - Chill Out Piano 02:12 Vincenzo - You Knew 02:09 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 02:04 Elderbrook & Emmit Fenn - I’ll Find My Way To You 02:00 Fakear - Crystal 01:56 Alampa - The One 01:52 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me 01:52 C H I L L T R A X - The Interstellar Chillout Channel 01:47 Flexible Fire - La Cumbre 01:44 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 01:40 Parra For Cuva Feat. Kyson & Beau Diako - Ordel 01:36 Jean Vayat & Evelynka - My Soul 01:32 Dye O - Simply Be Here 01:27 Royksopp - Compulsion 01:27 C H I L L T R A X - Cleanliness Don't You Agree 01:23 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 01:19 Vandelux - Tulum 01:16 Tomb - Unbound 01:12 Tennyson - Iron 01:12 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Rocket Empire 01:08 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - Let's Just Have Some Fun 01:03 Sons Of Maria - Are You 01:00 Sum Wave - It Feels Like Summer 00:55 Two Lanes - Never Enough 00:51 Eli & Fur - Where I Find My Mind 00:51 C H I L L T R A X - Like Lobster Straight Out Of The Sink! 00:47 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix) 00:44 Drama - Dark Rain 00:39 Blank & Jones - Floatation 00:36 Satin Jackets & Panama - The Future 00:36 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 00:31 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix) 00:27 Circle Sky - Your Name 00:24 Rocket Empire - Lima 00:20 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 00:20 C H I L L T R A X - Industrial 00:17 Tep No - Deep Sin 00:12 Maya Jane Coles Feat. Chelou - Never Asked For Much 00:08 Flexible Fire - Costa Serena 00:03 Meeting Molly - Gerda 00:03 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1 00:00 Alampa - Seesaw Season

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NAME/ALIAS: feni

AGE: 25+

TIME ZONE: eastern

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PREFERRED CELEBRITY: yvonne strahovski 

BACKUP CELEBRITY: alison brie

CELEBRITIES GENDER: female

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AGE & BIRTHDAY: 40 & july 30th, 1982 

CAREER: actress

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Just re-watched S1E1 of Ghosts and was reminded that the first person we see the Captain ogling is actually Mike.

Imagine Julian keyboarding Mike T-H-E- -C-A-P-T-A-I-N- -H-A-S- -T-H-E- -H-O-T-S- -F-O-R- -Y-O-U and instead of Mike getting panicked that he's being spied on by this unknown man, he goes full peacock. Swaggering up and down the hallways. Wearing his tightest, thinnest t-shirts. Posing strategically in a way that makes him feel sexy. All just in case the Captain might be in eyeshot.

Imagine Alison pleading with him to cut it out (because none of what he is doing is at all sexy; he's posing like he's in an Argos catalogue), he just rolls his eyes and goes "I can't help I'm so fit that I'm literally giving the dead the horn, Alison".

Johnson x M! reader Pt 4

Warning: IDK

Summary: Matty slowly accepts you while Ethan confirms your the identified Greaser to a certain woman. Johnson still keeps you near him while you question your next move. Antony goes back crawling to Joel and memories replay. Ghouls catchword and want in while your Father is still on the hunt for you. You can't always hope for the best when there is none.

"Who the fuck is a Greaser anyway," Rita says as a much longer-haired Joel chuckles. "They grease everything even themselves" a much more opened Johnson chirps from the back. "What do ya know about them Johnson," Joel asks while a cigarette hangs from his lips. "They're prudish jokers and they'll fold" Johnson replies confidently "Cheers to that" Rita clings her alcoholic beverage with his.

"C'mon Y/N you need a hair cut" I huff as my shaggy H/C lock falls meeting my jaw. I carry a crate of American liquor to the back while my brothers continue to play pool. I walk out from the back with a frown "I didn't ask you, Luca. Plus is Sylvie the second or tenth girl you claim to be your true love". Josto laughs along with Alberto.

"Rude Y/N Rude" I shrug as I pull on my first ever Greaser jacket "Tell me how does it feel to be a fellow Greaser". I smile a little while Josto slings an arm around my shoulders. "You became a Greaser when you were 14 while the Twins had to wait when they were 14 too. But now I'm 15 moving on 16" Josto could only smile. "Dad expects more from Alison but she headed off to university but now you are our brains and brawns" I just roll my eyes.

"But why did I have to wait for so long" Luca and Alberto just sighs "Because you're the youngest. You had gone through it a lot earlier than us". I just sigh "You guys were told to say that" Josto pats my head "Well it doesn't matter anymore. You're a Greaser now so rejoice. "I wanted Alison to be here. To celebrate but now she had gone off to university" Josto frowns.

"She sent gifts and apologies in such tough times. Exams are eating at her so don't think she had forgotten you" I smile. "Okay, at least I've nice combat boots that I need to grow into". Josto smiles "That's my brother" I laugh when he picks me up "I'm not a kid anymore, put me down!.".

Laughter fades when in walked the three river phoenixes "You guys must be the Greasers" a breaded man announces. He came waltzing into the second Roll and dice establishment. "I'm quite happy to see such young men but a boy" the mysterious man hums.

I'm seat down when the man approaches Josto "You aren't welcomed here". "Oh, I know but if you don't surrender your territory and pay 60% taxes to the Banished Brawlers you'll risk a war.". He pulls out a cigarette when he pats himself down "Do you have a lighter?" the man dears ask Josto.

A tall slim man whistles to catch his fellow phoenix's attention and tosses him a lighter. "You know I love to see such brothers willing to defend such false honor" the stranger puffs smoke into Josto face.

The twins move forward while I move three steps back but a woman comes up behind me. "Hello," she greets me and tucks a strand of hair behind my ear "Your a handsome one" she compliments. "Old man Johnson check this one out" the much taller man walks over to us. I kept calm "don't touch me" I move her hand away from me while she hums.

"Don't lay a finger on my brother" Josto snaps his head to me while I'm eyed down by the two adults. "Just surrender and you're brother will walk away unscathed" I glare up at the woman.

I smirk "I never liked women especially women like you" I barked.

The twins pull out switchblades while Josto lands a blow to the head of the phoenixes. I stab the said lady with a fork I took from a nearby table, Luca and Alberto take on the towering man.

I watch as Josto throws out the breaded man while I drag the very lady but I dump her halfway to the door. "I'll let you leave with what's ever left of your dignity" she looks up at me. She saw warmth and romance within my eyes but she knew it'll fade away. She stands and leaves clinching her bloody side "C'mon Y/N help us drag this guy out". Luca holds onto his bleeding nose while I nod.

The man struggles with me and Alberto, he manages to wiggle free and slugs Alberto in the face. Now Alberto has a broken nose, I hoist the man up by the scruff of his shirt. To meet my eyes.

A sharp blade greets his throat "I'd hate to walk away with a broken nose. So if I was you I'll take my leave" he stares me in the eye. Ain't like he could see them with loose locks fallen in front of my eyes.

He leaves groaning and unsuccessful while I hoist my two chaotic brothers. "You two are insane," I say as Luca smiles at me "Thank you little brother" I just roll my eyes. "The fuck was that all about," Luca says as I attend to his newfound stab wound. "Warn Pops, The Banished Brawlers has landed" Josto demands.

I woke to Johnson poking my face, I sit up while stretching to see Johnson "I'm gonna get somethings from the corner store. Do you want anything?". I rub my eyes "If they have slushies, I'll love Lime please" I ask while he nods.

I watch him walk away, I have slept in the back trailer for the first night in and I had to admit it's not so bad. I yawn and notice Ethan attending to a phone call, I frown a little. 'He has attached himself to his cell, what is he hiding?' I thought as I hear a groan.

"You know starings rude," I notice Matty "I didn't mean to come off rude" the blonde hums. Matty's acting as if nothing had happened yesterday "I'm just curious. Who has he been talking to?. Who's the person wrapped around his finger or the other way around?". Matty just stares at me and that's when I realized "I'm not a stalker".

"I know, you're just either curious or nosy" I frown "I never step over people's boundaries". Matty chuckles while he lights his cigarette "I never said you of all people would do such a thing. But you aren't all that innocent either". I stare at him "What do you mean?" Matty grins "I may not be the greatest when it comes to education-wise. But I know that look from anywhere, Old man Johnson acts differently around you".

"He wants to impress you so he does what he can. He feels the need to be held accountable for you so he drags you everywhere. He brought you that pocket watch and you showed gratitude.". Matty finishes off with a puff of smoke "Wow, you really pay attention to small details and you notice the smallest things". Matty just nods while I smile "I wish I'd had a close eye for detail but I'm too oblivious so I never bothered".

Matty looks at me with a 'huh' and sees a smile on my face "You have a close eye for detail. You could be a detective you wanted to". Matty pulls his cigarette away from his lips "You're really odd". Matty notes "I know, that's one of the great things about me. If everyone was normal then this world would be dull and boring".

Matty grins a little while he tosses me a lighter "You haven't had a rosemary for quite some time. You'll need a lighter". I nod "uh...Matty I need to go to the Bathroom" The blonde huffs.

I head back to the car after my business when I notice Johnson waiting for me "You waited for me?". He nods while he gestures to Matty who's speaking to Ethan. "Here, they ran out of Lime so I brought you Lemon instead" I'm met with a yellow beverage. I smile "Thank you, Johnson. You are sweet" Johnson lifts his hands up a little "just doing what I'm told".

I look up at him "Well then, if I asked you for a hug would you embrace me?" I ask. Johnson rolls his eyes "it depends, what are you expecting?" I shrugged while I slurp my slushy from my strapped straw. I stare at Ethan and Matty "They're quite the blokes" I say as Johnson hums.

"I wonder if Ethan would hug me if I ask," I say as Johnson looks down at me as I stare at Ethan. "He'll question you" Johnson chirps as I frown "I guess so," I say disappointingly.

We are on the road again "I'm starving" Matty says as he drives "There's a nearby diner not far from here" Ethan adds. "Yes, food. Do you think they'll have breakfast sandwiches?" I piped up "Most likely" Ethan answered as I smile.

There I sat beside Johnson eating my breakfast sandwich and aside of fries. "So what else happens within the Greasers?" Ethan asks. I swallow my food as I think a little. "We smuggle cars, drugs, booze, and export goods throughout America other than that it's the same old same old" I reply. That's only half of the things we do besides running Roll and dice.

"We are also well known for fighting pits located throughout America" Ethan frowns. "Then why are you fighting for more when you have enough?" I shrug.

"For we humans don't always appreciate the things we have" I note while I continue eating. "Okay, here's your requested paper and pencil" the waitress comes back. I smile "Oh wow, Thanks Ma'am" she giggles and walks away.

I start writing "What are you writing?" Matty asks "I'm pretty sure Ghouls has gained word of me as a hostage or a captive, whatever you call it. So I'm plotting a plan, what I can do and what I can't do". He nods as the three eyes me "They have motorbikes and more men but on the move, they won't be able to attack. So a shoot-out might be needed. They're the more up-close type of guys so, of course, their aim isn't exactly that great". I wrote down more and more ideas for I don't feel like dying in the hands of Ghouls.

"Relax you've us," Matty says as I continue writing "The last guy who said that had been found washed up on the beach". Matty falls silent as he continues eating, I take a slurp of my slushy.

We exit out as Johnson stuffs my written out plans in his jacket pockets "Thank you again Johnson". Johnson raises his eyes brows while he takes me back to the car. I notice an odd-looking rock on the ground, I stop and pick it up and notice it's a small little rock.

Had 'moon' engraves in it "Look Johnson" I show him the said rock. He nods when I smile "open up your hand" Johnson offers me his hand. "Here have a rock that has moon engraved in it" he looks at the very rock and stares at the word moon. "Thank you" he thanks me as I smile "Your welcome, Johnnycakes". Johnson looks down at me for I had given him a childish nickname.

"Jukes, the kid had been identified over the radio, his father has grown desperate" Gary addresses his boss. The head of the Ghouls smiles as he stubs out his cigarettes "His out for grabs then. He'll be in our hands soon".

That was the last conversation the two men had before Gary and a few of Ghouls had set out for you.

"Do you know which Bang-a-Rang they are holding my son?" Don asks the two K's. They shook their heads "His nowhere near in any of the said Bang-a-Rangs, boss". Your father grows more and more worried every second you had been gone for only 48 hours.

"702 is out of question including 705" Koba adds while Don paces around his offices. "The Ghouls had gained word and now they might as well kill my son" Don continues to pace. "But I'm not gonna let that happen" Kev feels his phone vibrate "Uh boss". "What?" Kev holds out his phone to Don "I think you should read it".

"Hey, Old man me and Ginny are heading your way. Y/N hasn't answered any of my texts or my Phone calls. Is he okay?" Don feels his face drain of all colors. Alison and the two K's had been close ever since she was a mere infant so it's logical for both of them to have her phone number. "Oh, shit she had been gone for so long she hasn't heard about Y/N over the radio" Don a late 40's old man starts freaking out. "She'll have my head if she finds out Y/N had been kidnapped" Don hands over the phone and dashes out of the room.

"Man teenagers and young adults really scare the shit out of him," Koba says as Kev just shrugs. "Understandable, Luca had walked away with a head injury one time and he was completely fine except his head of course".

"Oi, why the hell did you call us here" Joel approaches a scared Anthony who stands outside of a Chinese restaurant. "Let's chat this over with a bowl of Ramen" Anthony offers while Joel rolls his eyes.

"So you're telling me that he had sent out Kev and Koba to find Y/N," Joel says as he watches Anthony slurp his Ramen. "Yes, his father growing desperate and more worried" Joel rubs his temple. "He has postponed the export of gray map" Joel nods. "He has forgotten about it for now. But I promise he'll have to continue" Joel groans. "I didn't ask if he had postponed anything. I had paid you and demanded you to give me information about his father, not the fucking map" Anthony shutters away.

"His worried if his daughter finds out" this catches Joel's attention. "The oldest" Anthony nods "She'll rain hellfire upon her father". Joel hums while Bru eats his dumplings "When does she arrive?".

Anthony falls silent for his mere lackey who knows too much "I don't know". Anthony sets down his chopsticks "You don't know" Anthony nods. Anthony has feared the breaded man when he woke to a whole world of pain two months ago. "All I know she arrives a week or month early for mid-semester break" Anthony replies.

Joel hums but keeps a dangerous glare stuck on Anthony "I don't know much, I eavesdrop but other than I can't always provide information once a week". Joel frowns "You had enough time and now you want more time" Joel takes one of Bru's dumplings. "I'll give you until this Friday if you prove you're useless then" Joel stops to eat his dumpling. "You'll suffer the same fate as your old friend Colins" Joels stands along with Bru how takes his meal to go.

Anthony let out a little whimper.

Colins had been chained to a pole, had been forced to see eat raw meat. He went through starvation for ten days. He had been dowsed in deer blood and had been left there until it became overwhelming. Colins died within a month and rumors say he's a rotting corpse attached to the said pole till this day.

"For fuck sakes Doris, yes he the Greaser" Ethan chimes in answering yet another phone call. "I don't know if he's a threat or not. But it doesn't mean he isn't stupid" Ethan looks over at a smiling Y/N.

"Johnson drags him everywhere. How I'm supposed to gain such trust" Ethan kicks a nearby rock. Matty finishes fueling the car "I can't expect him to like me. He's smarter than you think Doris". "Ethan we're heading out" Ethan looks at Matty and nods "Look we're on the road for eleven days. I'll try okay, we'll talk soon Doris" Ethan hangs up.

"Was that your girlfriend?" I ask with a little smirk as Ethan shook his head "No, it was a friend of mine". I frown "Welp, whatever" Johnson walks behind us. "Not gonna lie, a dreamboat like you should have a girlfriend by now" Ethan smiles a little. "No, I don't want to get sidetracked" I shrug as I grin "Which college did you attend". Ethan falls silent "I don't want to bore you" I sigh "Whatever princey".

"Princey?" I hum and nod "It suits you, prince, charming," I say along with finger guns. "Your oddly comfortable" I frown a little "What do you mean?". "You nowhere scared and you're not afraid to be yourself" I feel my ears become warm. "You don't find me annoying" Ethan stops walking and looks down at me along with Johnson.

"No one finds you annoying," Johnson says as I feel a smile grow "aw, I'm flattered. No one said such things, you see people had always told me how annoying I am". Johnson lays a hand on my shoulder "Not to us, you're more than that" Johnson says as Ethan nods.

I'm happy for they're the first "Annoying?" Matty joins in "They'll have to face Johnson here. If they want a fight then they are gone get one". Matty flexes his arms "Ethan along with Johnson would teach them a lesson".

Get Me Through December | Gwilym Lee

Pairing: Gwilym Lee x Reader

Warnings: Pure fluff, a little bit of teary eyed homesickness but Gwil swoops in and saves the day

Word Count: 3,276

Summary: As the holiday season draws ever closer, Gwilym can't help but notice the rather depressing change in mood in his normally bright eyed, happy-go-lucky immigrant fiancé. He’ll do whatever it takes in order to help her get through December. 

A/N: Sorry if you’re from the UK and reading this, you’ll just have to pretend your from someplace else for a bit. Inspired slightly by the song ‘Get Me Through December’ by Alison Krauss & Natalie MacMaster

Masterlist

The holiday season, a time for joy, merriment, festivity, hot chocolate, and being with the ones you love. Almost nobody had a frown on their face this time of year, especially in the busy streets of London where the Christmas shoppers bustled about trying to get the best deals possible on the wonderful items they wanted to purchase for their loved ones. (Y/N) and Gwilym were no exceptions to this, and on this particular Saturday afternoon, found themselves wedged into the crowds on Oxford Street like a couple of sardines in a can, desperate to complete their shopping and get back to their flat and continue their lounging and watching of festive films with a steaming bowl of hot chocolate as they cuddled under a big fluffy blanket. Of course the sardines were luckier, they had all that oil to slither around in. On Oxford and Regent Street, everyone was such in a hurry to get to their next destination, they didn't care who they had to bump into or knock down to get there. “Alright.” Gwilym started, pulling (Y/N) off to the side out of the way of the busy shoppers, eager to secure their treasures and rush home. “I only have one more thing to get, but we’re going to have to part ways for a little bit, love.” 

“Ooo, does that mean it’s for me?” (Y/N) asked cheekily, batting her eyelashes at the tall Welshman before her. 

Gwilym rolled his eyes playfully. “It might be, but it might not be, especially if I catch you following me.” 

“Awe, you’re no fun Gwil.” She pouted softly, crossing her arms across her chest. Gwilym reached up, gently poking her cheek soliciting a giggle from the girl. “Alright, alright, I’ll be good.” 

“Good girl.” He praised with a chuckle, gently kissing the top of his fiancé’s head. “Meet at the Piccadilly station at quarter to five?” He asked looking at his watch to see it had just turned to four in the afternoon.

“Don’t keep me waiting.” She smiled softly, placing her arms around his neck, craning her neck to look up at him. 

Gwilym smiled softly, his dark eyes meeting her sparkling, smiling (e/c) orbs as he ran a hand through her soft (h/l) (h/c) locks. “With you to come back to, I could never.” He winked cheekily before gently pecking her on the lips. “See you in a bit, love.” He smiled before walking off in the direction of the store he was after. Wanting to be sure that she wasn’t following, Gwilym often checked behind him to make sure there was no sign of the (h/c) haired female before finally heading to a nearby jewellery store they had passed earlier in the day. (Y/N) had stopped in front of the window display to look at the ‘shiny objects’. One of the necklaces in particular had caught her eye and the Welshman was determined to make sure that she got it. Seeing the way her face lit up when she saw it, he imagined what she’d look like on Christmas Day as she opened the small parcel to find that she owned it. It warmed his heart, taking the bite out of the unusually bitterly cold London December air. 

Gwilym, as Joe and Ben so thoughtfully liked to point out to him on the daily, was absolutely whipped for (Y/N). In good reason too, she had been there for him since the start of his career. They had met in one of his favourite book stores shortly before his career began to flourish. He had been looking for some new reading material to keep him busy during his downtime while on set and had been on his way to the till when he saw a (h/c) woman struggling to reach a book off one of the higher shelves. Being the gentleman he was, he couldn’t just walk on by knowing there was a lady struggling whom he could’ve helped. “Please allow me.” He offered, the smile evident in his sultry, deep voice as he walked up behind her. 

“Oh, you don’t have to...” She tried to wave him off initially, a(n) (country you’re from) accent to her voice, before turning around to face him. For the pair, it had honestly been love at first sight. Gwilym standing there in a navy N-neck layered under a black quilted bomber wind cheater, black jeans and a pair of dark trainers, he looked very smart and put together. He clearly had a flair for fashion. Then his perfectly groomed scruff on his chin, she had initially thought that facial hair wasn’t really all that great a thing, but on him it worked divinely. The way his dark eyes sparkled and smiled at her like the stars above beneath the dark rims of his glasses, that sent her over the moon. Why was a man this absolutely gorgeous piece of man talking to her?

Truth be told, Gwilym was blown away by her beauty. She was absolutely stunning, so incredibly fit. Her (h/l) (h/c) locks exquisitely framed her bright, cheery face. Her (e/c) irises rivalled the sparkle of diamonds, and the smile on her perfectly flush, kissable lips reached up to them. She clearly was one of the those girls who wore her heart on her sleeve and it showed instantly to all around her. Her smile was actually infectious. Her sense of style was absolutely superb in the Welshman’s eyes. Done up in a jumper in a lovely shade of (your favourite colour) that sat just off her shoulders paired with a tan skirt, black tights, and brown knee high boots, she was an absolute dream on the outside. That’s why, for Gwilym at least, he wondered if what was on the inside was just as exquisite as what he saw on the surface, and he was absolutely determined to find out. “I don’t have to.” He smiled, eyes locking in on the book she had been reaching for, reaching it with great ease as he pulled it from the shelf. “But I can’t ignore a lady in distress.” He grinned at her before looking at the book. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoevsky it read on the bright red cover. “You’re a reader of Dostoevsky? I must say that’s quite a rare bit of literature for someone to read now in days.” He chuckled handing her the book. 

“I just love the rawness of the way he writes. The way he’s not afraid to tackle real, and rather serious topics like suicide, poverty, human manipulation...its honestly so intriguing. Then of course there’s his use of literary realism and naturalism, especially throughout his earlier works. And on top of that...” She trailed off biting her hip as she giggled very slightly. “I’m rambling aren’t I? I’m sorry, I’m sure you don’t want to hear me rattle on and on about Dostoevsky.” 

Gwilym chuckled offering her a kind smile. “Oh don’t worry about it one bit. I’m just disappointed you didn’t mention any of his works demonstration the vision of the chaotic sociopolitical structure of contemporary Russia.” 

“Well uh...” She smiled softly, a hit of blush creeping on her cheeks as she looked down before looking back up at the tall Welshman from beneath her eyelashes. “Why don’t I buy you a cup of coffee and we can delve further into that then?” Of course Gwilym had said yes, and the rest was history. They spent a solid six hours together at the coffee shop discussing their favourite authors and films and talking about their lives. He had found out she had come to London from (your home county) to work in historical recreation work for the V&A. Just when he thought that she had rattled off her last bit of textbook information about something, she was raising more and more interesting points about their various topics that he himself had never thought of. From day one she was broadening his mind, getting him to see the realm of possibilities and the many different infrastructures rooted within society, challenging him to be a better, more well rounded man. And as challenging as it was sometimes to keep up with her vast book smart knowledge, especially when it came to literature as they both had their differing opinions and could debate for hours on a single topic, he loved every moment of it. Which is why when they realised they had been sat in the coffee shop for nearly six hours, he had asked for her phone number, and eventually a second date, followed by a third, then asking her to be exclusive, to eventually asking her to marry him in the course of a few years.

She was there for the good, the bad, and the just plain ugly. She saw him at his best, and his absolute worst. No matter what, no matter how many miles separated them, no matter how many times he unintentionally brought home some of the stresses of his parts and the lingering bits of his characters, she stuck by his side no matter what through thick and thin. It didn’t matter how bad of a day that he was having, as long as he saw her bright smile, everything was instantly made better.That’s why it confused Gwilym so much why his fiancé had a deep frown on her face when he approached her a while later at the Piccadilly Circus tube stop. Something had clearly soured her plucky mood since he left her almost an hour prior. It wasn’t an angry look in her eyes, rather than one of pure sadness and melancholy. In fact, she hadn’t even noticed him walk up next to her, despite having him ask her if she had gotten all her shopping done. He followed her gaze to see where she was looking to see a family, not too far away from where they stood saying goodbye to someone, if they were a relative or a family friend was beyond the actor, but there were certainly tears amongst the group. Gwilym turned back to look at his fiance, seeing her biting her lip as she watched the scene unfold before her. He could practically see the film reel running though her head that had been on a constant loop these last few weeks. The day she left (your home country) to move to London. 

Gwilym sighed softly to himself, it was that time of year again, and honestly he couldn’t blame her. He often missed his family in Wales while he was in London, but it was infinitely easier for him to go to another part of the UK for a visit than it was for her to fly back to hers. He knew she hadn’t been home for Christmas in nearly five years, and the last four they spent together were filled with her talking about all the traditions she and her family had, the things they’d eat, the films they’d watched and so on and so forth while the actor did anything and everything he could to make it seem like home was a little less further away than it actually was. But this year had been very different. No matter what he said, no matter what he did to try to get her to open up about, she kept all her emotions bottled up tightly inside. He was doing all he could to keep her traditions alive, but there was only really so much he could do when it really boiled down to it. “(Y/N/N)...” He called gently snapping her out of her dreamlike trance. “Are you alright love?” He questioned with a concerned raised eyebrow.

“Don’t worry Gwil...” She sighed sadly. “I’m fine...I’m just tired.” She tried to wave him off with a weak smile, like she had been the last few weeks. The first few times, he had bought it chalking it up to the stresses of the holiday season that came practically gift wrapped with it. But as time passed, he knew that certainly wasn’t the case. He knew what his girl was like, and this sad, sluggish, teary eyed female wasn’t her. 

He sighed not wanting to push her any further knowing if he did, there would most certainly be tears. “Alright...” He put an arm around her shoulders as they headed toward the stairs down to the underground. “Let’s go home, love.”

Gwilym laid in bed later that night with his arms around (Y/N) holding her close into his chest, breathing in the calming scent of lavender that was almost permanently laced into her hair from her shampoo. She had fallen asleep with great difficulty that night, but no matter how many times he tried, he couldn’t get her to talk about what had gone down at Piccadilly Station that afternoon. Truth be told, he knew exactly what it was, she, for the last few years, had taken the pain no girl should endure. She knew she missed her family horribly at this time of year. Always for a few days in December her heart would grow cold, her love stored away as she longed for the days she could be with them again. It’s not that she didn’t want to go home for Christmas, just the last few years money had been tight for her. Being only a girlfriend at the time, she had absolutely refused any sort of help from her successful actor boyfriend. “Gwil, I told you, that’s too much money for me to ask of you.” She’d try to dissuade him from wanting to do anything. “You shouldn’t have to pay for me to see my family. I can FaceTime them.” 

“But FaceTime can’t replace face to face time, love.” He’d argue gently. “Please...let me do this for you, you’ve been so miserable.” 

She’d shake her head at the Welshman, a weak smile playing on her lips. “I’m sorry...I just...I can’t let you do that. I just need you to get me through December so I can start again. I’ll be fine I promise.” She never was, and as brave of a face as she’d put on, he knew she was hurting inside. 

“I promise, love, you won’t have to go through that pain again this year.” He whispered softly, gently kissing the back of her head before slowly slipping his arms out from under her. He had some work to do. 

The next morning, (Y/N) awoke, expecting to feel the warmth of her tall, literature loving, Welsh giant’s arms wrapped around her. Upon opening her eyes though, she found she was the only one in their in bed. It wasn’t until the delightful smells of a cooking breakfast met her nose did she realise where he had gone off to. She smiled softly pulling on her housecoat and slippers before slowly and groggily making her way out to the kitchen where Gwilym stood making them a nice breakfast. “Morning.” She yawned shuffling up to him, wrapping her arms around his waist, gently kissing his shoulder before resting her head on it. “What did I do to deserve a man who wakes up early to make me breakfast?” She giggled watching as he stirred the eggs up. 

“I ask the same thing when you make me breakfast, darling. Love is a two way street.” He chuckled. “Kettle’s just boiled if you want some tea.” 

“That sounds lovely right about now.” She yawned shuffling over to the cupboard where they kept their tea bags and cups. She watched as Gwilym finished up his cooking before bringing it over to an elegantly set table. “Pulling out all the stops this morning aren’t you.” She smiled taking note of the opened bottle of champagne on the countertop. “Mimosas, a nice breakfast. What do you want? Or what did you break?” She narrowed her eyes playfully at the actor. 

He let out a soft chuckle. “I either have to want something you may not or there has to be something wrong for me to make my fiancé a nice breakfast?” He asked walking over to her, putting his hands on her hips. “I do it because I love you more than anything, love. Everything I do for you is because I love you.” He smiled softly, gently kissing her lips in the most tender kiss he could manage. “Now come on, let’s eat before the food gets cold.” 

They walked hand in hand over to the table where Gwilym, being the gentleman he was, pulled out her chair for her, pushing it in once she had been seated before taking a seat across from her. (Y/N)’s curious (e/c) gaze landed on an envelop that sat on her plate. “What’s this?” She asked raising an eyebrow. 

“Why don’t you open it and find out?” He smirked softly into his cup of coffee as he leaned back in his seat, watching her expectantly. 

With a small bit of hesitance, (Y/N) reached forward picking up the envelop, opening it up to find the booking confirmation for a flight for two to (nearest international airport to your hometown). (Y/N)’s eyes went wide as her gaze snapped up to meet the dark, smiling chocolate orbs of Gwilym. He offered her a sheepish smile. “Gwil...” 

“I know what you’re going to say. That i’ts too much money’, and that you ‘don’t want me to have to spend that on you’ but love...” He smiled softly, reaching across the table to take her hand in his. “I know how you get with the changing of seasons...the long bitter nights and the wild Winter days don't get any easier when you’re so far away from home...especially when it's Christmas. In the past you’ve had the excuse of us only dating for not wanting me to spend the money to get you to see your family in person, but we’re engaged now. And being your fiancé, by putting this ring on you finger...” He smiled playing gently with her engagement ring. “I vowed to do anything and everything to keep you healthy and happy. And if spending Christmas with your family is what it’s going to take to get you through December this year, then I’m more than willing to fly the miles to see that smile I’ve come to love so much on your face again.” He explained softly. “After all, they’re my future in-laws, best make a good impression now.” He winked cheekily.

“Gwil...I...I can’t believe this.” She smiled happily, tears welling in her eyes. 

The actor grinned ear to ear, standing and rounding the table to hug his fiancé tightly. “Well believe it hun, because we leave tomorrow.” He spoke softly holding her tightly.

He pulled back to see the first genuinely happy smile he had seen on her face in weeks, it reaching up to her brilliantly sparkling (e/c) orbs. “What did I do to deserve a fiancé like you.” 

“You were you, love. Plain and simple.” He took his seat across from her. “And like I said, I’ll do whatever it takes to get you through December so you can start again...forever and always.”

“God, now I have to get you something even better than I already did.” She giggled softly serving herself some of the eggs Gwilym had made. “Way to upstage me Gwil.” 

“Well don’t think the Christmas surprises are over, love. Still have plenty in store for you.” He winked playfully. the last few Decembers may had been ones to forget, but this one would surely be one she’d try hard to remember and all because of this gentle giant with a kind heart who happened to love classic literature.

Could you make a Diego Hargreeves x reader where she is number 3 and her power is like a banshee? Where she is part of the Sparrow Academy. When she meets Diego she falls for him and him for her, but he is still thinks about Lila so he’s kinda weary of starting something with the reader

I didn’t know how to write this at first but then I started and it got out of hand. It turned out angstier than I wanted it to but I hope you like it!

Warnings: Language, Angst

Her voice

When you were little every sound out of your mouth was harmful. Your screams as an infant put your siblings into unconsciousness, it made all the nannies quit and Pogo and Dad were always wearing earplugs. At some point everyone in the house was wearing earmuffs all day long. You soon came to understand that your voice hurt them and you started to keep quiet. When Dad noticed that you had understood your powers to that extent he finally started training you as well. Quickly, you were able to talk without hurting people, generally using your voice normally or to severely injure those within earshot.

As you got older, Dad taught you about frequencies and singing the right notes to do more than just harm. Manipulating people, make them love you, make them do whatever you wanted them to. Destroying objects, moving objects, even growing plants. You had your voice under full control and found quite a lot of joy in singing. 

When the Umbrella Academy arrived and you all gathered in the living room your sister nudged you to sing a tone to put them to sleep. Dad seemed to know who they were though so you kept your mouth shut. That, of course, didn’t mean he told you anything. Dad was a secretive man.

The Umbrella Academy stayed on the same floor as you. They had gone on many explorations through the house and sometimes you heard them in front of your door as you were practicing to sing without destroying everything in your room. One day someone knocked on your door.

„Come in“, you called.

„Hi, I’m Alison, I’ve been listening to you, sorry , that’s not supposed to sound creepy or something“, she laughed, „But you sing beautifully.“

„Oh, thank you so much“, you smiled, offered her a seat and sat down, „I certainly hope I didn’t manipulate you into saying that“, you laughed but then saw the confusion on her face, „I’m a banshee, or that’s what Dad says I am, the mythology is a bit different from what I do.“

„So you sing and people do what you want?“

„That’s one thing“, you grabbed the empty water glass, sang a high c and the glass shattered, „This is another. There’s more to it, I don’t think I’ve reached my full potential yet. I’m (Y/N), number three.“

„That’s cool, I’m number three where we came from, I can manipulate people, too“, she looked down, „I don’t really like using it though.“

„Except of course if you want to mess with your siblings“, you both laughed, „Don’t worry I do that, too, sometimes.“

„The other day I made Diego punch himself in the face“, she told you.

You laughed. You realized that she could be a friend to you and if she could be that, why couldn’t the others be that, too? So, you started spending more time with her. Her siblings, Vanya and Klaus, also started to come around and you showed them more and more of your powers. Yours and Vanya’s powers worked well together and you also started helping her with controlling her powers a little more than she did before. As you grew closer and closer you started hanging out around the house, with more people around.

Diego noticed you truly for the first time when you were sitting in the living area, singing along to Vanya playing the violin. He was entranced by your voice and when he looked around the corner he saw you for the first time and to him, you were the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. He watched you and listened to you until you were done and went back to your conversations. That night as he laid in bed he thought about you but the longer he did the more it felt like some charm fell off and he felt bad about his feelings. He had just let Lila escape with a briefcase because he loved her. He couldn’t suddenly be in love with you, could he?

After that day, Diego seemed to always be looking for you, listening to your voice was like a drug to him and he couldn’t stop. Whenever he didn’t hear you he felt empty. One day, as you were practicing on your own in your room he was standing in front of your door when said door suddenly opened and you were standing in front of him.

„Diego, right? You know, you could just join us sometimes instead of eavesdropping“, you pointed out.

„I- I’m just- Sorry, your voice is…“, he couldn’t find the word.

„Beautiful, Cool, Amazing?“, you searched his eyes for confirmation, „Your siblings’ words.“

„Of course. I didn’t mean to eavesdrop. I just- I heard you the other day and- and you’re great, it felt good to listen to you.“

You blushed a bit at his words. „I can have that effect on people.“

After that Diego stopped listening from afar and joined you and his siblings. You grew closer to him. In a different way than to his siblings. You started feeling something for him that you’d never felt before. Diego didn’t know what your powers could do and you worried that if he did he’d think you used them on him. Because you did use him to lure him in. Everything after that was real. If he still loved you now it would be all his own feelings.

One day, after your first mission with the Umbrella Academy, Diego immediately went to his own room. He started avoiding you and didn’t talk to you for nearly two weeks until you got sick of it and went to his room. You knocked on his door but didn’t get an answer. You knocked again.

„Diego, please, it’s (Y/N). You haven’t talked to me since we got back from that mission and I think I deserve to know why at least.“

You leaned forward against the door and nearly stumbled into Diego when he finally opened the door. You looked up and noticed his eyes were swollen as if he had been crying but it didn’t look like sadness, more like rage.

„You lied to me. Don’t try to deny it. I saw you on the mission“, his tears started rolling, „I felt so bad about it but it wasn’t even my fucking fault. You used your stupid voice to lure me in, didn’t you?“

You felt your own tears sting your eyes. „No, Diego, please, I- I don’t use my powers on you“, you looked down, „not anymore.“

„You really did manipulate me. Fuck“, he was about to slam the door hut but you caught it.

„Diego, wait, I- please, don’t misunderstand. I saw you and I was- I was starstruck. I fell in love with you and- and I couldn’t control my powers anymore when I knew you were around. I think- No, I know I should have tried harder. But I’ve managed since we started hanging out. If- if you still like me that’s not me. I don’t do that“, your voice got quieter, „If it makes you feel better, I’m willing to always stay quiet when you’re around. I just don’t want to lose when I’ve only had you for so little.“

„I don’t want to be around you anymore. How will I ever know that all this was real? I felt so fucking bad about my feelings for you. Because I loved Lila, I mean I love Lila, I do. And then I- I fell in love with you. But it’s not real.“

„No, it is. Diego, I fell in love with you, too. I just made you notice me. That’s all, please don’t shut me out.“

You let go of the door and he threw it shut. You went to your own room and locked the door. Your cries that night made your room shake since your emotions were overpowering your self control. You stayed in your room for days and when you finally left it again for breakfast you were exhausted and just hoped no one would try talking to you. You got yourself a cup of coffee and a bowl of cereal and sat down at the kitchen table where some of the Umbrella Academy and some of your siblings sat. When your siblings noticed your swollen face they made a run for it, trying to avoid confrontation at all cost.

„You okay?“, Alison asked.

You just nodded. You didn’t intend to use your voice again. Not around people you liked and cared about. You couldn’t risk them thinking about you the same way Diego did. She looked at you with worry but didn’t bother you about it anymore. You didn’t even notice how time was passing but you were soon alone in the kitchen, constantly refilling your coffee cup, eating cereal directly from the box. When the grandfather clock in the corner sounded you turned around and saw it was midnight. You sighed and noticed that with all the caffeine and sugar you had consumed you wouldn’t be able to sleep anytime soon.

Instead you went into the courtyard with a blanket around your shoulders and stepped into the courtyard. Diego was sitting under the big tree in the centre, flipping a knife in the air and catching it again. When you saw him you sighed again and looked down. That was your spot. You always sat there when you were upset. And right now, you were upset. On the one hand, you didn’t just want to surrender the spot to him. On the other, you didn’t want to bother him. You were in love with him and he hated you, at least that’s what you thought. Demanding your spot back now would probably just drive him further away.

Then he spotted you. He put his knife away and stared at you.

„I haven’t heard you at all these past few days“, you didn’t respond and didn’t look at him either, „But my feelings for you were still there.“

You looked up at him with tears in your eyes. He had feelings for you. Did he believe you now that you weren’t manipulating him?

„I missed hearing you sing. I missed seeing you everyday. I missed putting my arm around your shoulder when we were sitting beside each other“, he got up and walked up to you, „I’m sorry I didn’t believe you. But if you can forgive me I would like to hear your voice again.“

He put his hands on your cheeks. And you looked up at him through teary eyes. 

„I would love to sing for you again“, you whispered.

He smiled. Then he leaned in and kissed you. Because he wanted to.

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Emma Brammer - Stay With Me (Fvhm Remix) 19:58 C H I L L T R A X - Wonderful Tan! 19:55 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 19:51 Armin Van Buuren & Matoma Feat Teddy Swims - Easy To Love 19:47 A.m.r - Sailor's Cry 19:42 Zaven - Voliere Amplitude 19:37 Rufus Du Sol - Like An Animal (Trinidad Remix) 19:36 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 19:33 Afterlife - All I Wanted 19:30 Leisure - Be With You 19:26 West & Zander - Silfra 19:21 False Intentions - Good Liar 19:16 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes 19:16 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music 19:12 Alex V - Cristal Shore 19:08 Forester - Symphony 19:05 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 19:00 Ghenwa Nemnom - Story Of A Battle (Chris Zippel Remix) 18:56 Jimpster & Oliver Night - Ascension 18:56 C H I L L T R A X - Scratch Toh (Freesound) Chilltrax 18:51 Nicolas Godin - The Border 18:49 Attom - Where Are We Going 18:45 Jos & Eli & Eli & Fur - Riffs Of The Night 18:40 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 18:35 Elypsis - Open Road 18:35 C H I L L T R A X - See That The Humans Are Entertained 18:31 Jan Blomqvist - Carry On (Earthlife Remix) 18:26 Joy Orbison Feat. Lea Sen - Better 18:21 Il:lo - Cynnes 18:18 Emmit Fenn - --amman 18:12 Arley & Sirolf - One Day 18:12 C H I L L T R A X - Comes To Chill Out 18:08 Giants' Nest - Purple Beach 18:05 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - Let's Just Have Some Fun 18:00 Blonde Maze - Being Pulled (Polar Inc. Remix) 17:57 Pableno - Heights 17:53 Andre Aguado - Through The Night 17:50 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo 17:50 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc 17:46 Sum Wave - Moments Of Sundown 17:42 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 17:38 Kidnap - Start Again (Kidnap Piano Mix) 17:34 Everything But The Girl - Caution To The Wind 17:29 Two Lanes - Movement 17:25 Thievery Corporation - From Creation 17:25 C H I L L T R A X - Distinctively Different 17:22 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 17:18 Gold Lounge - Higher 17:13 Leaving Laurel - The Family We Find 17:08 A.m.r & Lumynesynth - Unfinished 17:08 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Rocket Empire 17:03 Maya Jane Coles Feat .chelou - Never Asked For Much 16:58 Royksopp Feat. Pixx - How The Flowers Grow 16:54 Dye O - Simply Be Here 16:50 Leisure - Take You Higher (Serebii & Arjuna Oakes Remix) 16:46 Reel People & Muhsinah - Something New (Kraak & Smaak Remix) 16:46 C H I L L T R A X - Fresh And Fascinating 16:42 Duckmaw - Habits 16:38 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix) 16:34 Kaskade - Where Did You Go 16:31 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 16:27 Lp Giobbi Feat. Dj Tennis & Joseph Ashworth - All In A Dream 16:27 C H I L L T R A X - Chill Out Chilltrax 16:24 Alampa - Seesaw Season 16:20 Kc Lights Feat. Leo Stannard - Cold Light (6am Remix) 16:15 Above And Beyond - Sun In Your Eyes (William Orbit Remix) 16:10 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 16:10 C H I L L T R A X - Industrial 16:05 Sons Of Maria - Always 16:02 Xixi & Hildur Ottilia - Don't Worry 15:59 Flexible Fire - Marea Turquesa 15:54 Tsha - I Know 15:54 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 15:50 Satin Jackets & Panama - Alive 15:45 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Julia Church - 9 Days 15:40 Marsh Feat. Leo Wood - Over And Over 15:36 Rocket Empire - Astoria 15:32 Washed Out - Far Away 15:32 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 15:28 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 15:24 Boerd Feat. Stella Explorer - Another Life 15:19 Melosense - Story To Remember 15:15 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 15:10 Max Cooper - A Model Of Reality (Tor Remix) 15:10 C H I L L T R A X - Organ The Chillout Channel 15:06 Sum Wave - It Feels Like Summer 15:03 Faodail & Kakadu - Painting In Shades (Edapollo Remix) 14:58 Chicane & The Mannequin - Summer In E Major 14:55 Holen - Breathe 14:52 Forester - Saint (Shallou Remix) 14:52 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 14:48 Kleerup Feat. Yuna - Break Down The Wall 14:44 Dreem - Miles Away 14:41 Kelela - Contact 14:36 Alex Lo Faro - Move With Me 14:31 Be Svendsen - Day 3 14:31 C H I L L T R A X - Listen To This! 14:28 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 14:24 The Knocks Feat. Foster The People - All About You (Equal Remix) 14:20 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 14:16 Tep No Feat. Starzun - Hold Me 14:13 Everything But The Girl - Run A Red Light 14:13 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 14:09 Sons Of Maria - Lake Tahoe 14:05 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson, Oli Hannaford - Yearn 14:00 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars 13:56 Lipless & Blue Noir - Alone 13:52 Elderbrook - Wasted On You 13:52 C H I L L T R A X - World Comes To Chilltrax.com 13:47 Above & Beyond - Believer (Marsh's Guatape Remix) 13:43 Mozez & Tim Angrave - Head Full Of Dreams 13:37 Satin Jackets - Little Airplanes 13:33 Sg Lewis - Lifetime 13:30 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 13:24 Boerd - Blind 13:24 C H I L L T R A X - Retsyn 13:20 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone 13:17 Giants' Nest - Crema 13:11 Emi Ca - Just Breathe 13:06 Morcheeba - Oh Oh Yeah 13:06 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 13:00 Braxe Falcon - Step By Step (Amtrac Remix) 12:56 Aparde - Know You 12:53 Holen - Healing 12:49 Cannons - Fire For You 12:46 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known 12:45 C H I L L T R A X - Like Lobster Straight Out Of The Sink! 12:41 Jones Meadow - Need You Now 12:38 Afterlife - All I Wanted 12:34 Washed Out - Too Late 12:31 Melosense - Nous 12:27 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Just Wanted To Know 12:26 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit 12:23 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 12:19 Beacon - Until Next Time 12:18 Arto - Para Mi 12:04 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 12:00 Tomb - Unbound 11:56 Mahalo - Nothing Matters (Lipless Remix) 11:56 C H I L L T R A X - Well How Ya Like It? Terrific! 11:51 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 11:47 Andrew Nagy & Joel Winterflood - Little To None 11:42 Monolink - Take Me Away 11:37 Blank & Jones - Floatation 11:33 Moby - Porcelain (Arty Remix) 11:33 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 11:29 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise 11:26 Lapsley - 32 Floors 11:21 Zaven - Passive Activity (Evren Furtuna Remix) 11:18 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 11:14 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U 11:14 C H I L L T R A X - Twcc Chill Chill Chill Chilltrax 11:11 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 11:07 Otr Feat. Shallou - Heart 11:04 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - Let's Just Have Some Fun 11:00 Il:lo - Ink 10:56 London Grammar - Lose Your Head 10:56 C H I L L T R A X - Scratch Toh (Freesound) Chilltrax 10:53 Chris Malinchak - When The World Stops Turning (Quiet Mix) 10:49 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads 10:45 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head 10:41 False Intentions - Good Liar 10:36 Massive Attack - Weather Storm 10:35 C H I L L T R A X - Parents Magazine Seal 10:32 Cannons - Loving You 10:28 Camelphat - Waiting (Eli & Fur's Found Version) 10:25 Flexible Fire - Amatista 10:21 Mango & Cloudcage - More Than This 10:16 Steven Weston Feat. Tae - Same Dream 10:16 C H I L L T R A X - Dionigi/the Chillout Channel 10:11 Two Lanes - Belong 10:05 Maya Jane Coles Feat .chelou - Never Asked For Much 10:02 Indigo Eyes Feat. Kehina - All Over Again (Remix) 09:58 Arto - Now You're Gone 09:54 Above & Beyond & Marty Longstaff - Gratitude (Aname Pm Mix) 09:50 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me 09:49 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music 09:45 Jones Meadow - Entrance 09:41 Phoenix & Dj Falcon - Winter Solstice (Braxe Falcon Remix) 09:37 Hoki - Memories Of Love (Dsf Remix) 09:31 Ry X & Olafur Arnalds - Colorblind (Whomadewho Remix) 09:29 Attom - Where Are We Going 09:25 Rufus Du Sol - Hypnotised 09:25 C H I L L T R A X - Musique Nonstop 09:21 Jan Blomqvist - Carry On (Earthlife Remix) 09:17 Satin Jackets Feat. Ivy Falls - Different Directions 09:14 Sultan Shepard - Sirens 09:09 Sons Of Maria - Don't Tell Me I Can't Have It 09:09 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Rocket Empire 09:06 Xixi & Hildur Ottilia - Don't Worry 09:02 Otr Feat. Au/ra - Broken (Rac Mix) 08:59 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 08:55 Olan - Wake And Return (Little Dragon Remix) 08:52 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix) 08:51 C H I L L T R A X - Come Along Children - Need To Chill Out 08:48 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 08:45 Catching Flies - Daymarks 08:40 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix) 08:34 Sumsuch Feat. Matty Eeles - Find Home (Vincenzo-chilltrax Sumdub Mix) 08:34 C H I L L T R A X - Backward Rvb Where World Comes 08:30 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 08:27 Ben Bohmer Feat. Jonah - Home 08:24 Giants' Nest - Flower Burst 08:18 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 08:18 C H I L L T R A X - Industrial 08:14 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Let's Get It Right 08:09 Chicane & The Mannequin - Summer In E Major 08:06 Rocket Empire - Lima 08:01 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Derek Luttrell - Lose Control 08:01 C H I L L T R A X - No Sticky Fingers 07:57 Alampa - Seesaw Season 07:52 Darius Feat. Benny Sings - Rise (Darius Remix) 07:48 Gareth Emery - St Mary's 07:43 Zaven - Voliere Amplitude 07:40 Morcheeba - Even Though 07:40 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 07:35 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix) 07:31 Bonobo Feat. Jordan Rakei - Shadows 07:26 Jean Caillou - Signs 07:21 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 07:16 Dj San & Sebastian Moore - In Your Eyes 07:16 C H I L L T R A X - Worlds Chillout Channel (Chillout Channel) 07:11 Alex V - Cristal Shore 07:06 Baile & Haulm - Knows No End 07:01 Sons Of Maria - Lake Tahoe 06:57 Jones Meadow - Fences 06:53 Drama - 3am 06:53 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 06:49 Cannons - Tunnel Of You 06:45 Two Lanes - Movement 06:40 Sound Quelle & Tailor - Where We Should Be 06:37 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 06:32 Three Drives On A Vinyl - Greece 2000 (Davidson & Melosense Mix) 06:32 C H I L L T R A X - See That The Humans Are Entertained 06:29 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix) 06:25 Attom & Blonde Maze - I Think About 06:22 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 06:17 Boehm - Who You Are 06:13 Satin Jackets Feat. Mandy Jones - In This Life 06:13 C H I L L T R A X - Chilltrax - Chill Out Piano 06:08 Alan Cerra - Radiant 06:03 Braxe Falcon - Step By Step (Amtrac Remix) 06:00 53 Thieves - Two Days 05:54 Il:lo - Cynnes 05:49 Mass Digital - Thoughts Of U 05:44 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Chris Howard - Thought Of You 05:44 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel Redux 05:41 Nuage Feat. Gus - The Place We Know 05:35 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Diana Miro - You 05:30 Royksopp & Susanne Sundfor - Oh, Lover (Nto Remix) 05:27 Dye O - Simply Be Here 05:21 Massive Attack - Teardrop 05:21 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You 05:17 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix) 05:13 Running Touch - Why Do I 05:09 Giants' Nest - Heart Void 05:04 Syml & Zero 7 - Symmetry (Zero 7 Remix) 05:04 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 05:01 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 04:57 Edapollo Feat. Akacia - Run 04:53 Jones Meadow - Shackles 04:50 Mansionair & Kim Tee - Next High 04:46 Elderbrook - The End 04:45 C H I L L T R A X - Haven't Even Rinsed! 04:41 Eric Hilton - Artifact22 04:37 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 04:34 Flight Facilities Feat. Your Smith - Heavy 04:31 Pableno - Heights 04:27 Khotin & Tess Roby - Fountain, Growth 04:27 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 04:24 Cannons - Hurricane 04:20 London Grammar - Baby It's You 04:15 Sons Of Maria - Outbound 04:12 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 04:12 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Bassy Dr 04:08 Heard Right Feat. Phoebe Tsen - Pulling Me Under 04:04 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - Let's Just Have Some Fun 04:00 Woven - Brushes 03:56 Westseven Feat. Angus Powell - Go Right Through (Sound Quelle Remix) 03:56 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 03:51 Alex Lo Faro - Move With Me 03:48 Lost In Pacific & Hanging Valleys - Escape 03:43 Double Touch Feat. Reigan - All I Want 03:40 Aftruu - Falling Asleep 03:34 Groove Armada - History (M3 And Bachelors Of Science Remix) 03:34 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 03:29 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 03:24 Mango - Skyline 03:21 Feathervane & Oreonic - Overcast 03:17 Mozez & Tim Angrave - Head Full Of Dreams 03:12 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes 03:12 C H I L L T R A X - Be Svendsen World Comes 03:08 Dreem - Miles Away 03:05 Twoworldsapart & Panuma & Nina Carr - Slippin' 03:00 Maya Jane Coles Feat .chelou - Never Asked For Much 02:55 Sg Lewis Feat. Lucky Daye - Feed The Fire (Kassian Remix) 02:51 Rocket Empire - Astoria 02:47 53 Thieves - Lyd 02:41 Arley & Sirolf - One Day 02:41 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc 02:37 Giants' Nest - Storm Trap 02:32 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 02:28 Billie Eilish - Everything I Wanted (Aquadrop Remix) 02:24 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - It's Enough (The Last High) 02:20 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 02:15 Zero 7 - Don't Call It Love 02:15 C H I L L T R A X - Bugs B Gone 02:11 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise 02:08 Pines Feat. Fractures - Rewrite The Ending 02:03 Above And Beyond - Sun In Your Eyes (William Orbit Remix) 02:00 Chris Malinchak - Happiness (Eternal Moment Mix) 02:00 C H I L L T R A X - Scratch Toh (Freesound) Chilltrax 01:56 Xixi & Hildur Ottilia - Don't Worry 01:53 Cannons - Bad Dream 01:49 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads 01:46 Tep No - Say What You Wanted 01:42 Everything But The Girl - Forever 01:42 C H I L L T R A X - Like Lobster Straight Out Of The Sink! 01:37 Dim Kelly - Nocturna Animal 01:32 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 01:28 Leisure - Slipping Away (Flight Facilities Remix) 01:24 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 01:19 Sound Quelle Feat. Daniel Robinson - Tempest 01:19 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music 01:16 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 01:11 Vintage And Morelli Feat. Arielle Maren - The Light (Flexible Fire Remix) 01:08 Jones Meadow - Expect 01:04 False Intentions - Good Liar 01:04 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Rocket Empire 01:00 Kx5 Feat. Hayla - Escape (Chill Mix) 00:55 Chicane & The Mannequin - Summer In E Major 00:52 Sum Wave - Milkyway 00:49 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson - Follow 00:49 C H I L L T R A X - Trans Europe Vocoder 00:44 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 00:40 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Malou - About You 00:36 Melosense - Nous 00:31 Zimmer Feat. Fhin - Lost Your Mind 00:31 C H I L L T R A X - Industrial 00:28 Jan Blomqvist - Carry On (Earthlife Remix) 00:25 Beacon - Pay My Debts 00:22 Elypsis - Open Your Eyes 00:17 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 00:13 Evelynka - Letting Go 00:13 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel, Chilltrax 00:10 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 00:05 The Knocks Feat. Muna - Bodies (Tycho Remix) 00:01 Sons Of Maria - Lake Tahoe

Bean Rolls, Alison Knowles, c. 1964, MoMA: Drawings and Prints

The Gilbert and Lila Silverman Fluxus Collection Gift Size: overall: 3 1/4 x 3 1/4 x 3 1/8" (8.2 x 8.2 x 8 cm) Medium: Metal tin with offset label, containing dried beans and sixteen offset scrolls

http://www.moma.org/collection/works/128090

Christmas disaster

Warning: abuse

Christmas Day was here and Joey drew had invited everyone from the studio to join them with there families. Sammy has been working hard cleaning around the house and cooking the food for the party tonight. He no longer worked there, instead was a house husband while Joey made the money. But Joey wasn’t doesn’t help much around the house. He believes Sammy should do it all. Sammy was exhausted from lack of sleep these pass few days. Cleaning, decorating, shopping, cooking. He was also hurt from a beating a day before. A bad one. Sammy had tried to ask him to help

out a little more. He was tired of Joey putting this all on him and just wanted a little bit of help. Joey ended up getting pissed and beat Sammy. He has broken many of Sammy’s ribs in the process and left bruises all over his body. It was his fault though. He should’ve knew better then to say anything that might set him off in a fit of rage. Sammy was stupid for trying. He should’ve just kept his mouth shut.

Speak of the devil, Joey came up behind Sammy, wrapping his arms gently around him so he wouldn’t hurt his broken ribs. “You almost done, tater tot?” He ask. “ it’s almost time for the guest to arrive.”

Sammy Tense up but nodded as he stirred the mashed potatoes in the bowl. “I-It’s nearly done Joey.”

Joey smiled and kisses the crest of Sammy’s neck. Sammy closes his eyes and wished he wouldn’t. He wasn’t in the mood for this, but he wouldn’t tell him no. “Good.” Joey smirked after he moved on. “Now go get ready. Cover up those Bruises. Wouldn’t want my friends to question things.” Joey told him as he ran his thumb access the bruise on Sammy’s cheek.

Sammy nodded obediently before heading to the bedroom to change. It was extremely painful to bare, pulling off his dirty shirt but he went slowly to ease the pain. He didn’t stop to observe any of the bruises on his stomach or sides. He didn’t want to see how badly they are. As he slipped into a long sleeve nice button up shirt he herd Joey greet some guess that just arrived. He knew now he had to hurry before Joey looked bad. He went as fast as his ribs let him changing into black suit pants and wrapping a belt around them so they would stay up. He had lost a lot of weight do to stress from Joey and not having time or will to eat. Sammy buckled the hook then headed to the bathroom. He looked at his face in the mirror at the bruise around his eye and the one on his cheek. The one his cheek was a sickly greenish-yellow color that covered his whole left cheek. The one around his eye was a deep purple one that almost connected with the one on his cheek. Sammy stared at them for a while before a knock on the door startled him back to his Reality.

“Sammy. Are you almost ready, dear?” Joey ask in a warning voice Sammy knew all to well, and scares him. “Guess are starting to show and we shouldn’t keep them waiting.”

“I’m c-coming Joey. I-I’ll be there in a minute.” Sammy replied. Great the night just started and he was already fucking up.

“Alright. Hurry up though, love” Joey told him with the same warning in his voice then walked away.

Sammy hands were started to sweat from the fear of what would happen to him after. He needed to be on his best behavior for the rest of the night so Joey wouldn’t hurt him again. He quickly pulled out the blush make up and started to smear it on his bruises and blending it with his skin until it was all covered up neatly. Sammy glances at himself in the mirror before approving the make up and leaving the bathroom, heading for the living room.

Lacie, Burtrum, Tom and Alison was the ones that arrived a few minutes before. Alison was putting some gifts under the Christmas tree while Tom and Burtrum was in a Conversation, Lacie watching then and listening. Sammy didn’t feel like getting into there Conversation though or any at the moment. He decided to head back into the kitchen where joey must be getting things ready. But he wasn’t.

Sammy stepped into the kitchen then comes to a halt by what he saw. Joey had his arms around Susie and was flirting with her. Sammy watched as Joey whispered something in her ear then nibbled it as she giggled. Sammy left the doorway quickly so neither of them would see him. He hid in the to keep people from seeing how hurt he was by this. This hurt him so much more then the beatings he had received by Joey. He felt betrayed by the the only person he thought loved him. His heart felt like it was being ripped into pieces.

He herd another knock coming from the door, meaning more people he had to lie to and more people he had to pretend everything was good in his life. He wished he could disappear from all this. He wished so badly Joey would just beat him to death.

As the night went on the rest of the employees arrived with there families. Sammy hasn’t had the time to talk much to anyone one. Not that he wanted to anyways. He was finishing up the last bits of the food and cleaning. At around 8pm everything was finished and Sammy started to set the table. Norman Polk decided to

Go in to help Sammy with the table while Joey is in the living room getting drunk and flirting with Susie.

Norman walked into the kitchen to

Sammy trying to balance the Turkey, the vegetables plate and the plates in his hands. “Here sam. Let me help you with that.” He kindly offered, reaching for the plates.

Sammy shakes his head. “N-no. I got it.” Sammy told him but he doesn’t. The Turkey slipped out of his hands, onto the floor making a big glass braking from the plate into the pile of Turkey.

Norman saw the mans tired eyes quickly go wide in fear in Seconds and before Norman could say anything he herd a drunken. “GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!” From the living room.

Joey stumbled into the kitchen with rage in his eyes and looked at this mess on the ground then turned to Sammy who was now cowering in the corner. “YOU!!” He pointed at Sammy. “YOU -hic- FUCKING RUIN -hic-CHRISTMAS!!” He approached Sammy, threatening ready to swing at the poor man.

“Hey stop it!!!” Norman Said, getting in between of Sammy and Joey.

Seeing Norman standing there made Joey snap back into Reality some. He realized what he was doing in front of the guest and insanely regretted drinking. He looked behind him at his friends who were all watching him with horror on there faces. A few had there phones out recording him. He turned back around to Norman still protecting Sammy

Norman had seen enough just now to suspect this wasn’t the first time this happened. “Is this how you treat him Joey?.. like shit?...”

Joey rolls his eyes. “What? How dare you ask my that!” Joey replied. “I would never hurt Sammy! I love him!” Joey glanced at Sammy making eye contact. “Right tater tot? You know I wouldn’t hurt you.”

Sammy glances away from Joey’s eyes, hugging himself. Joey was going to beat him tonight again for all this. Making this mess and the guess witnessing joeys anger. There was no doubt in Sammy’s mind which made him sob hard and shake me.

“Tom, henry. Get Joey out of here please.”

Norman asked them two. Tom and Henry had to almost drag the drunken Joey out of there, screaming his head off about how this was his house and how Sammy was his boyfriend.

Once Joey was gone, Norman knelt down by the shaking Sammy, calmly. “Hey Sammy he’s gone now. Can you answer a few questions for me? I need to know the truth Alright?” Norman asked. Sammy gave him a small nod in reply. “Alright.” Norman asked. “Was this the first time he got angry?”

Sammy shook his head no. “N-no..” he said in a fearful voice.

The sight of this once care free man now shaking and crying out of fear made Norman’s heart hurt for him. He didn’t want to ask Sammy this next question but he had to know. “Does he hurt you Sammy?”

Sammy took a while to answer this question but he eventually nodded then lowered his head in a pathetic kinda way.

Norman gets angrily at Joey and wanted to get his hands on him but he kept his face and voice cool and calm while talking to Sammy. “When’s the last time he hurt you, bud?”

“Y-yesterday...” Sammy replied after a minute then wipes his tears away, smearing the make up. Norman noticed the make up

right away but decided wait for a safer time. Someone had called the police and they were here now.

——-

It was nearly midnight before Norman pulled into his apartment parking spot. The night was crazy with the police arresting Joey after he tried to make a run for it and the investigations with the police. He killed the Engine then turned to Sammy. “I’ll grab your bags, alright bud?” Sammy didn’t looked at him but he nodded, knowing his ribs couldn’t handle picking his bags up. Together they got out of the car and went into Norman’s Apartment.

fallin' for ya part 4

sorry for the wait 🥺 entirely my fault but i will finish this 😤💕 sorry again

~Klaus POV~

After (Y/N) disappeared into her apartment I walked a block down the street to my house. I would say home but it was in no circumstances a home. I got to my fire escape and climbed up, getting into Ben’s room, who was still up, reading a book. He was fixed on The Bet at the moment, by Anton Chekhov. He was reading Frankenstein yesterday meaning he had already finished it. It only took the boy two days which was really something seeing as how every chapter Ben would excitedly, and sometimes exasperatedly ranted about whatever happened in the chapter yet didn't give any spoilers, not that I would be reading Frankenstein anytime soon. Unless it was the picture book version because that was a lot easier to read. Ben looked up and his eyes lit up when they landed on me.

“We have to go to that restaurant more.” That was odd, Ben normally wouldn't request a restaurant and definitely not as soon as possible. He would be kind of shy about it and beat around the bush but when he was really passionate or just in the moment he let it slip out.

“You got the waffles?” Klaus asked. He watched Ben’s facial features, something had to give the boy away, right? Ben’s face got a faint pink glow and he coughed slightly, scratching the back of his head, his head tilted. Right.

“Well, the uh, waitress was interesting too. She was kinda mean but she seemed sweet. But the waffles dude.” He said, attempting to change my attention to the delicious waffles, the blush still present.

“Who was your waitress? And the waffles were good today but when (Y/N) makes them they're real good.” I said, taking one of her sayings and watching him react. He didn't seem to notice, instead folding his book a few times.

“I didn't get her name.” He said honestly, flipping his book so it was showing the title. Aw little Ben has a crush! On my best friend though. But he's my favorite sibling. But then she’d ditch me for him. But I love him. But I love her. I’m getting ahead of myself, they don't even know each other yet. Pros and cons, currently pros outweighing cons.

“Well my best friend is coming over tomorrow so be on your best behavior.” I said, rolling off his bed and going to the closed door.

“Who’s your best friend? Is it the kid who brings you donuts? Do they know about us?” Ben asked. Normally I would give my favorite a response of some sort but I didn't want him to know so I shut the door and went across the hallway to open my door. Ben was lucky he had access to the street down below but that also meant he would be the first (Y/N) would be meeting, nothing wrong with that but sometimes both Ben and (Y/N) were shy. I collapsed on my bed and stared at the ceiling before passing out.

Sunday, your POV

I woke up and groaned. I was so tired but my inside clock decided I just had to be up. I didn't even have work today and I knew once I was up I would not be able to go back to sleep so I decided to go find Klaus earlier than normal. The poor boy was sort of an insomniac, mainly because he had vivid nightmares he didn't normally tell me about. As soon as I finished brushing my teeth I opened my closet to see Klaus searching my clothes. I normally would have kicked him or at least swiped a punch in his direction but I had a feeling he would be here in the morning so I didn't bother.

“You have no clothes!” He said rather emotionally which made me roll my eyes. He was in a closet that had a few good options.

“You have most of my clothes at your house so I don't know what you mean. Plus I have a few good options.” I said, folding my arms and glaring at him as he threw my clothes around. He tossed some skirts my way and ended up hitting me in the face with a sweater.

“This will do, go put it on. I won't peak.” I huffed and picked up the dark (F/C) high waisted skirt and the lighter colored sweater that went really well together and silently cursed him for being so good at picking clothes. I went into the bathroom down the hall and changed, glaring at how nice I looked in his stupid outfit. I walked back in and he clapped before throwing black thigh high socks at me. I rolled my eyes and slipped those on before passing him and pulling a (prefered color) and black flannel out of my closet, throwing it on over.

“You just ruined it.” He complained in a whiny voice.

“It's cold though.” I said with a shrug, walking over to the window and opening it easily. I knew all the lights were off and seeing as I had my wallet in my pocket I was chilling. I climbed out and Klaus grumbled behind me, going on about how I had ruined his amazing outfit. I ignored him and when my feet touched the ground I turned and put my arms out to help him down and he was about to accept since he always did until he realized he was mad at me. He hopped down and let out a little grunt as he stumbled. I steadied him and he forgot he was mad at me again, wrapping his arms around me and starting to drag me to his home. We walked for a good while, Klaus pulling me into Griddy's after the twenty minute walk.

“If this is your house I have a few things to say. One, why do you have me bring you donuts if you live here. Two you can always live with me.” I said easily, opening the door for him.

“So mean, I just want to treat you to a donut.” He said, pulling out some crumbled dollar bills. Agnes came out and Klaus quickly ordered two donuts but if I was being honest I didn't want one, I had had a lot of donuts lately and it was making me think of Five who was sort of getting on my nerves. Not in a bad way but thinking about him made me realize he was a little shit. I accepted Klaus’s sugar donut and followed him out the door.

“After you finish your donut I have to blindfold you because my house is a surprise.” We got to the park and I had finished the donut making him take off his fashionable scarf and tie it around my eyes so I couldn't see. He spun me a few times walked forward spun me a few more times then we started up again.

“So, anything I need to know or is this just a house tour?” I asked, holding onto Klaus for much needed support.

“The only one of my siblings you’ll be seeing today will probably be Ben. The best one.” Klaus said happily, dragging me around what I think is the park.

“That's cool, are we there yet?” I asked smelling the dirt and iron that came in alleyways.

“Yep! Mi casa es su casa! Welcome to the Klaus household!” He didn't let me take the scarf off and instead helped me up the iron ladder that reminded me of how I got to my room. He pushed me through the window and I yelped as I landed on a rather soft bed, someone in the room grunting. The makeshifts blindfold was taken off my face and I was met with a rather cute asian boy under my legs.

“Sorry to drop in on ya.” I said with a smirk, hoping he had a sense of humor.

“Are you Klaus's friend?” He asked, his face quickly going red. He was familiar.

“Yes she is and she needs to move.” Klaus said, popping up and kicking me out of the bed and onto the cold hard floor.

“So mean, Klaus.” I complained from the ground, admiring the room I was in. It was simple with a bookshelf being the main attraction. Everything was neat and I felt overdressed as fuck seeing as the boy was wearing a leather jacket and jeans, Klaus in his normal weird but stylish get up.

“Klaus, come on.” The boy said, dragging my bestie out the door and into the hallway, both stepping over me. I didn't mind it and instead went to look at the bookshelf. All of the books were interesting so I grabbed one that he was reading it seemed- The Bet by Anton Chekhov- and fell back onto his bed so I could read. I heard they were talking about me but nothing in my body made me eager to find out why. When I got to the fifth page the door opened and Klaus was there grinning, the boy behind him with his face still bright red.

“It’s nice meet you, my name Ben.” Ben muttered, his arms crossed and looking not at me. Broken english because of nerves I’m guessing- nothing a little humor can't fix.

“The pleasure is all mine.” I said with a grin, shutting the book and holding my hand out for a handshake. He shifted his weight a few times very quickly before uncrossing his arms and shaking my hand which made me light up. Klaus frowned and dragging me into what I assumed was Klaus’s room I couldn't process anything I was dragged so quickly.

“Welcome to my room, make yourself at home.” He said, falling onto his bed. I leaned against his desk as I took the room in, it was also simple but he had drawings all over his wall.

“I like it.” I said easily, looking around and seeing out of the corner of my eye from the small crack in the door that multiple eyes were watching us. I caught his attention and glanced over to the door which Klaus understood easily.

“My siblings aren't home so lets get to hanging out.” He said with a wink, pulling me onto the bed. I let myself be pulled and we landed on the mattress harshly. He started to make kissing noises and pulling out some lipstick we drew lipstick on each others lips. The door slammed open and four bodies tumbled to the floor.

“(Y/N) meet my siblings. The ones on the floor are Luther, Diego, Alison, and of course Ben- who you met. Vanya and Five are by the door.” Klaus said, lipstick smudges covering his face.

“Nice to meet you guys, Ben.” I said, winking at him. The boy blushed and Diego hit him.

“Can I just say I knew it? This is Klaus's girlfriend who gets us donuts all the time.” Five said smugly, leaning against the door frame. I sat up.

“I love Klaus but I could not be his girlfriend. But I will accept a ‘you’re welcome’ from any and all of you.” I said easily, standing up and almost falling down but instead being greeted by Ben tackling me to the floor in an attempt to keep me up. I hit the hardwood with a thump and Diego started laughing until a smack was heard and he shut up.

“I’m so sorry. This is my fault.” Ben got out as I rubbed my head, laughing slightly at what had happened.

“It's fine, just help me up.” I gasped, grinning up at Klaus who looked conflicted. Ben was pushed off of me and Klaus pulled my arm as hard as he could, basically launching me up onto the bed.

“Too kind. Anyways nice to meet you all you can all get going.” I said easily. The girl with long curly fair shook her head, scoffing.

“No, come over to my room.” She said, pulling me off the bed as Ben scrambled out of the way.

“I came here to hang out with Klaus so.” I said, attempting to reach for Klaus who looked sort of anxious at me being dragged away.

“Yeah but I want to hang out with you.” She said, her voice convincing but not enough.

“No thank you. I know I’m irresistible but my dance card is full- my best friend invited me.” I said, the words coming out of my mouth on the fly, Alison looking surprised. The door shut and now it was only Klaus and I in the room, Five had shut it angrily for the two of us.

“I love you.” Klaus said in the silence, jumping on me and kissing my forehead, the two of us laying on the bed, cuddling.

“I love you too Klaus, honest.” I said, not even fazed at his need for attention.

“You can date Ben, I won't even mind. I love you both so much.” He said, surprising me. I barely met Ben today, but he is cute, but how could Klaus tell I liked him so quickly.

“He is cute.” I hummed, petting his hair.

“You should get to know him- there’s a reason why he’s my favorite. Other than you.” He said, kissing my collarbone.

“Later. I wanna hang out with you today. Even if it's just cuddling.” I said, closing my eyes- tired.

“I can get behind that.” He said, the two of us just vibing and enjoying each other's company.