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x-dudes · 6 years
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Can u do a poe x reader where they have been friends since they were little and they both love each other but won’t admit it but then before a mission Poe takes off Sharas ring and gives it to her?
Hell fuckin’ yeah I can!
The Pros and Cons of telling Poe the Truth About How I Feel
a list by (Y/N) (Y/L/N)
Pros:
•  It might feel like letting something go that I’ve held on to for a really long time. Something heavy. Weird, since it feels like everyone but Poe knows about it…
• Telling him you love him just… feels right? It feels like those words could just slip out at any time when we’re together, but whenever I actually consider being upfront with our relationship, I freeze.
• Maybe I’d stop freezing up and acting shy around the guy I’ve known for more than twenty fucking years.
• Late at night, when he ends up crashing in my room and we’re just… together. Together and in peace. This feels like a part of my life that was just… supposed to happen. It feels like Poe and I were almost made to be at each other’s side. 
• He’s the man that understands me like no other creature in this galaxy ever could, but even more than that, he’s the man that helps me understand myself in ways beyond my own comprehension. Until I just look back at how far I’ve come and think “damn, without Poe I would be a way different person, wouldn’t I. I’d hate to meet that version of myself.”
• Some of the things he and I have done, and even are doing, are way beyond the realm of friendly…
Cons:
• I’ve known this man for nearly twenty years
• he’s my very best and very oldest friend. Pava told me falling for your best friend never really ends well and I feel like she has the experience for me to believe her.
• Yeah, rejection is a part of life, but what comes afterwards? Who do you complain about work to? Who do you go to when you want to avoid people? Where do you turn when you’ve got a problem he and only he would know how to solve?
• I would hardly be able to look him in the eyes if he told me he didn’t love me back, but working with him every day?
Poe smiled broadly as he read through the list he found crumpled up in the trash. He didn’t think much of your weird habit of making lists about whatever crossed your mind, but finding one in the trash with his name scribbled across the top was definitely eye-catching. 
She loves me too…
His grin got wider, somehow, shoving the note into one of the pockets of his flight suit.
“She loves me too.” He said out loud, giggling a little at how nicely the words rolled off his tongue. “Fuck, I gotta go find (Y/N) before I leave!”
“Did you run maintenance checks on your X-Wing?” (Y/N) asked. Jessika Pava nodded softly, checking over her shoulder quickly to see if she could tell she lied.
“Of course.” She answered confidently. 
“And how about your flight suit? No holes, no tears, no cracks in the helmet?”
“No, mom.”
“Good, and good luck out there. I’m a little more… apprehensive about this one, Jess.”
“Thanks babe, will do. You’ve got nothin’ to worry about.”
“I hope you’re right. Where’s Poe?”
“He said he forgot his helmet and needed to go back to get it.”
“He was supposed to be at check-in an hour ago…”
Maybe somethin’ urgent came up. I don’t know what could be more urgent than this but to-”
“(Y/N)!” His voice tore through the hangar like a bullet.
“Nevermind, I think I found him.” Jessika remarks with a little snort before ducking into her X-Wing.
“(Y/N)!” He called again.
“Poe, where the hell were you? Check-in was an hour ago.” You shouted, racing to meet him in the middle.
“It’s fine. It’s fine.” He assured you between heavy pants. “I’m already checked in. X-Wing’s fine, BB-8′s fine, my flightsuit is great, my helmet is fine not a tear, not a crack. I took care of this already but c’mere a second.” You allowed him to pull you away from your crew. He fished for something out of his pocket. A crumpled piece of paper. “I- I found your list…” Questioning turned to realization, which quickly morphed into horror as you watched him uncrumple it.
“OH, fuck, Poe- look, I’m so sorry. Y’know, I threw it away for this very reason. I never meant for you to see it and- ugh I feel awful I’m so sorry I didn’t-”
“(Y/N),” He cuts you off, grabbing your face in his hands and smiling as he squishes your cheeks together. “Just listen, I have been in love with you since I was twelve. I’ve spent every day of my life since I was sixteen hoping the pieces would fall into place for this, and now- while maybe this isn’t how either of us pictured it- I have the perfect reason for-” He cur himself off, pulling his hands from you in a hurry, pulling them to his neck and yanking. You noticed a few pieces of a metal chain sliding off across the floor, while Poe takes what he needs and tosses the remaining chain on the ground.
His mother’s ring. 
“Poe-”
“I- I know that it’s soon. Don’t think of it as a proposal, think of it more as a- as a promise. I promise you that I’m going to come back to you safe and in one piece, and when I do I promise to be the man that you deserve and more.” He took your hand in his own, sliding the ring down your finger and pressing a kiss to your hairline. “And I’ll do it on the double, for being late to check-in.”
“You better,” You giggle. “I love you so much.”
“I love you more.”
“Don’t be an idiot out there.” Poe lifted your chin and pressed a kiss to your lips.
“Mmm, keep my bed warm for me.”
You slap his shoulder with your left hand before he leaves, catching sight of the ring that would make his absence worth it time and time again. The promise of his return. And knowing that after all these years, you and Poe can finally have peace with one another, no matter how chaotic things may get. The promise that you’ll always have each other.
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