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overthelillies · 4 years

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fic recs for my friends

yeah okay so most/all of these are davekat im sorry!! arranged in no particular order also some of them are second person I Am Sorry.

Your Interpersonal, Intergalactic Relationship: A Beginner's Guide (8,400-something words)

A beginner's guide to playing hopscotch, overcoming internalized homophobia, and falling in love with your alien best friend.

friends to lovers! p cute

So It Goes (56,845 words)

They managed to win the game somehow. He's not really sure of the details, but it's not all it's cracked up to be. He's stuck in an unfamiliar body with a thirteen year old little brother who's terrified of him.

Somehow, he is sure this is his fault.

// i have not read this one. but strider angst and davekat yes please

Red Converse (26,648 words)

Due to a seizure, Karkat Vantas now has to learn how to live his life with two speech aphasia. He goes to therapy three times a week, suffers from awful headaches, and tries to avoid people as much as possible.

Due to a traumatic experience, Dave Strider refuses to use his words, preferring to relay his snarky comments and witty banter through sign language and typing on his phone.

They meet in a waiting room.

//THIS IS REALLY GOOD Altho they do have sex just skip it dw i promise it’s worth it

how...did you tell your friends (7,906 words)

Unfortunately, you don't fancy your brother's suggestion on how to break the news to John...

There's no other way out of it, you're going to have to just tell him.

//set after homestuck, dave tries to tell the most oblivious person in the world and also his best friend (john) that he and karkat are dating and it’s literally so good

Dave Strider’s Stupid Fucking Jawline (11,607 words)

Generic high school AU. Dave's jawline is really distracting and Karkat does NOT have a crush on him (shut up, Kanaya).

//high school au. lovely. good eating.

Gray and Red (16,084 words)

In which you only see color once you meet your soulmate, and the first color you see is the same as your soulmate's eyes.

//SOULMATE AU SOULMATE AU this is kinda very Angsty (Karkat do be pining doe) it’s p good

We’re All Friends & Family Here (And Frankly, We’re Sick Of Your Shit) (68,000 somethin words)

It's been about a year since the big Fast Forward, and sure, things on Earth C aren't perfect for everyone. But they're fine. Really. It's fine. Everything is super fuckin' swell, and that's that.

It's not like one night is going to change anything.

//post homestuck GOD THIS. IS SO GOOD okay so this fic is mainly dirkjake being fucking stupid with rosemary and davekat and also a lil roxy/calliope in the bg and it’s long but!!!! so very good

Red Ties (10,705 words)

Dave Strider's eyes never turned the color of his soulmates. With his rare eye-color, there's next to no chance they simply share an eye color.

One day he meets Karkat Vantas.

//another cute soulmate au! again. love the soulmate aus what can i say

i’m at the combination dunkin donuts & urgent care (3,920 words)

Karkat Vantas is convinced beyond a doubt that his neighbor is some variety of murderer, until they actually meet in person. Highlights include blood at the laundromat, Dave's weird obsession with candles, and a box of shitty swords.

//this is SO FUNNY short n sweet i promise

the calculation (2,481 words)

the fic in which Dave gets the flu for the first time since before the game and Karkat takes care of him.

//this fic is really funny and also sweet

Start At The Beginning (9,304)

//post-homestuck, Dave and karkat falling in love. the ending to thsi made me cry

I Love Cheap Thrills (4,773 words)

You’ve been trading memes with an international pop sensation, and your drunk ass had no idea.

Classic.

//this one is verrie funnie

Locked Up (9,272 words)

Dave had always been the one best prepared for the game. He was able to handle the shit it threw at them and push it down a lot better than everyone else could.

It might have fucked up everything else about him, but that didn't matter.

He was fine.

He was always fucking fine.

//angst. very nice

I’d Tap That (oh fuck i didn’t mean to tap that) (17,041 words)

Karkat finds his old school bully on Grindr. Dave doesn't know how to shut up.

// really funny!! sorry if these are getting redundant i don’t remember the details about some of these

Pale as Bone, Pale as Water (5,305 words)

//another davekat sickfic

Apple Juice, Chips, and Bandages (5,335 words)

Every time he comes in he gets the same three things. A bottle of apple juice, a bag of chips, and bandages.

//really cute!! they’re liddol and they’re friends it’s nice

The Land of Blood and Childhood Trauma (8,242 words)

When two dreambubbles collide, two anti-social assholes are forced to help each other through it.

//not quite as Angsty as it sounds! it’s good

ecdysis (6,077 words)

Karkat goes through his adult molt. Dave does his best to take it in stride.

//so i actually haven’t read this thought I did but Uh have it anyway it looks good

Self Sabotage and Other Symptoms of a Damaged Soul (10,698 words)

//basically dave grapples with his internalized homophobia, etc. very good

turntechGodhead is offline (36,999 words)

//I’ve already ranted to you guys enough about this you know what it’s abt it’s SO FREAKING GOOD

A Ten Step Plan For Wooing Karkat Vantas, Featuring A Multitude Of Illustrations By Your Esteemed Authors, As Well As Tips For The Aforementioned Wooing (11,261 words)

Kanaya, because she's a saint, makes you a list.

The list is entitled "A Ten Step Plan For Wooing Karkat Vantas" and features a multitude of illustrations in purple pen.

"So we're doing this," you say. Your mouth threatens to twitch into something dangerously smile-shaped.

"Yes," says Kanaya. "We are making this happen."

"Hell yes."

//dave n karkat! they go on a date. stuff happens. it’s really good

Catching Colds on a Rock in the Middle of Space (15,887)

Rose catches a bad cold and it slowly spreads to the rest of the meteor crew. None of them are particularly good at admitting they're sick, let alone looking after themselves, but at least they're decent at caring for each other.

//rosemary and davekat! VERY sweet

Dave’s Girl (2,527 words)

The thing is no one knew anything more about "Kitty" other than her delicious cooking (Dave obviously doesn't want to share – ever) but the guys are more or less already in love with her. Drew insists she's probably this blond bombshell with big, blue eyes, all curves with legs that go on forever and a great rack... Practically everyone in the team has their own opinion.

//this is so funny and also im a sucker for these kinds of tropes so it’s great

Songs Made on the Meteor (27,762 words)

Dave makes music and they fall in love.

//on my to-read list! it looks good

Looks Just Like The Sun (12,231 words)

“Holy shit,” you whisper. Dave joins you at the window.

There are no stars left in the sky. Nothing but blackness and a faint soap bubble sheen.

“Is that a dream bubble?” Dave says.

And then it swallows you.

//okay. does this have explicit sex? yes. does it have a very explicit image? yes. HOWEVER (hear me out here) I firmly believe that if you whizz pass those parts, this is a very good fic with great characterization and fun banter. send tweet

aight happy reading

#im sorry to anyone i dont know

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thingssxthatxshine · 5 years

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THANK YOU TAYLOR!

I don’t think any music has ever spoken to me then this album. i’ve never been in a relationship but the lyrics are beautiful and it’s just makes me speechless.

First of all the line “He likes my American smile, like a child when our eyes meet” 🥺💞 This is beautiful and I love it because i’m a first generation American in my family bc the rest of my fam is from Pakistan and idk but it gives me hope and happiness i guess. Because i’m always told how American I am by my family and how I need to start speaking urdu and how i seem snobby and all thsi stuff that makes me kind of insecure about my American style and I guess i’m making this line deeper than it is but Taylor you have no idea how much it means to me.

Also okay the lyric “you are what you love” is amazing. idk if i was just being over dramatic but it was definitely true 🤧 when i started almost (actually) crying if happiness becaus ur hate being told the things i’m not and the things i don’t like bc i don’t wanna be defined that way 😞 I just want to be defined by the things I love liek YOU and reading and coffe and pink and so much more ❤️

Okay and then Paper Rings is just so beautiful and fun and i love it. it’s got a theme song vibe and i love thattttt 😻👏 I love all of that song it’s just amazing 🤪👍👏

And then “step into the daylight and let it go” is just a perfect ‘no bad vibes allowed” kinda vibe 😂 it’s just this relaxing that makes me feel happy and calm bc we all gotta just calm down 😌 I hate taking stress and it feels nice to just walk out into the daylight and let it go 😍

In Cruel Summer I love “Devils are the dice and angels role their eyes” also the “looks up grinning like a devil” IS THE ABSOLYTW BEST! and just so much of that song is like this pastel, rainbow darkness 😂 It reminds me of “darling Ima nightmare dressed like a daydream” It’s a beautiful song 💞

The Man is just 👍👍🤠 LIKE YESSSSS WOMEN! Taylor is THE WOMAN! she’s a queeeen 👑👑👑 WAIT SHES THE CAT! @taylorswift let’s quit being man or woman and let’s just all be CATS 🐱

I’m I Forgot You Existed I love “It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference” I luv that so much because sometimes you just have to forget, let it go and be i different 😌

Death By a Thousand Cuts is just amzing and beautiful 🤧💕 “saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts” i think i loves this mostly bc i’m usually known in my family as the one who cries when a family member leaves after visiting. And it feels like death by a thousand cuts bc i don’t know when i’ll see them cuz my fam lives around the world. basically i just don’t like goodbyes 😭

(ik this isn’t going in order it’s just what i think of on the spot)

I loved Afterglow so much because it was about accepting the blame and asking for forgiveness and i think that’s beautiful 😻

I think he knows is liek this cute song you can skip through the neighborhood with ☺️👏💕 i love it, i’ve never been in a relationship so i can’t relate much but i stilll absolutely love it!

Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince is like this high school story and it’s reallllly amazing i loveee it zjjzjssj! I love the cheering and also how you say “It’s you and me, that’s my whole world” and i love that because i hate it when people change their ways because of someone else whispering. for me it’s just me and the people i love, that’s my whole world 🌎.

Cornelia Street I LOVE! i think bc of my tripp ti nyc this summer, i’ve been loveing ny so much. Thanks to WTNY i fell in love with the place. And the lyrics are so beautiful and relaxing. It’s like listening to starry and i love itttt! I love how it’s a song about nostalgia about a place bc i miss nyc. i was there for 2 days but i cried when i had to leave. it’s amazing and wonderful and magical.

Soon you’ll get better is giving me Safe and Spund vibes. it’s so sad and beautiful. i’m a muslim is some of the lyrics don’t relate to me but itssss beautiful i love ittt! “ cuz you have to” is so heartbreaking but so trueeeeee!

Ok False God was the “Ohhh 🤭” song of this album. Like dress “the altar is my hips” but i think my fave lyrics is “Hell is when i fight with you” because we all have that relationship (any kind) that we don’t wanna ever fight in. and that whole verse is amazing and i love it because it speaks to me. i also love “I’m New York City” because I LOVE NYC AND NOW TAYLOR ISSSS NYC 🤯💃👑!!!! YEET

I LOVE ITS NICE TO HAVE A FRIEND! This is basically a PASTEL TOY STORY 😂💞 I LOVE THISSSSS bc it’s a friendship song, and it’s amazinggggggg! i love this new friendship song and it’s just so sweet and cute ☺️😻❤️

okay so now for the singlessss!

LOVER is JAHAJSJSJAJSJS! ITS JUST THAT! like it’s so beautiful and amazing and romanticcccccc! The bridge is amaizng i love it it’s my favorite part it’s like Vows and it’s just so sweeeeet!!!!! 😻😻👏 and omg the “dirty joke” in the me is 😂😂😂

ME! is always gonna be iconic i’m just really sad that the “HEY KIDS SPELLING IS FUN” was taken out bc my friend and i were obsessed with that😂 SWIFTIES WE GOTTA YELL IT OUT DURING THE TOURR!

also for ME! @ all the haters about it, this song was supposed to be fun and cheerful and it started the hunt for easter eggs and it was the beginning so to anyone who was saying that it was getting boring or whatever. be thankful cuz this album was def worth the wait

YNTCD is 🤪👏👏👏🤪🤪🤪👏 I use that line everyday like u have no idea 😂 and now i have an album if things i could sayyyyyy! alll these singles are iconic and this is amazinggggggg 👌

The Archer is like the best thing ever! LIKE ITS TRACK 5?!!!! sijsjsk! It’s so vulnerable and true and i’m so happy we have it 🤧❤️ it made me cry bc it’s so metaphorical that it can connect with anyone 💕💕💕

OKAY BUT IN ALL! All the music is great and everything but you know what’s even greater? TAYLOR OWNS IT ALLLL! She’s her own company and some how that is everything! I’m sooo sssooo sooo happy that this is her first own album and she finally happy and in this amazing place. like everyone’s always complaining about watch out for taylor or she’ll write a song about you BUT if u treat her with respect and love she’ll write and album dedicated to you 🤧😍 (and the best songs of rep). This whole album is Taylor’s and it can rule the world! 💃 like literally it has a song for all the good people of the world 😌 like lyrics anyone can connect whether u have a love life or not this album is for everyone and it’s owned by the one and only taylor. Taylor i can’t thank you enough ever for sharing this absolute masterpiece with us, it’s so raw and true and vulnerable but you’re giving it to us to protect and cherish. i love it and a i LOVE(R) you TAYLOR 😘😘👏

THIS CAT ANGEL IS EVERYTHING 😻 @taylorswift

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ballofyarn-archive · 6 years

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As a 9w1, have you ever found yourself coming to terms with your anger and expressing it more openly? I know that sounds like something most 9w1's wouldn't do under normal circumstances, but I want to know what would make a 9w1 get to that point.

well… i’m working on it?

there’s two things you mention but that have to be separated first: one is “coming to terms” with my anger, the other is “expressing” it, cause one doesn’t necessarily lead to the other

as for the first, learning about enneagram and ennea 9 has opened my eyes in many ways, because - and that’s kind of a funny thing about 9s in general - i’m actually angry, or at least mildly pissed off, a lot, way more than gets to the surface. but i never paid attention to it which made many things worse, including trying to express it. and still, when i notice it nowadays it doesn’t mean i also act on it.

i have expressed anger quite a few times though, both voluntarily and involuntarily, and the latter is like,… it’s like truly counterintuitive actually…? i really hate it when i express my anger involuntarily, because it’s sudden and uncontrolled like pop! off goes the lid, and it feels very physical, and it can express physically too. i have a few anecdotes about that but the most recent one was when i was at the cinema and there was a couple two seats to the side being… loud, and - god, thsi s so fukcing sutpid - i tried ignoring them but couldn’t focus on the movie and i listened to that for a long time (lexa, why didn’t you say anything), and i had my feet up on the seat in front of me and you see, i was aware that i was angry? just remembering it makes me angry lol, and i felt like a bottle of soda that was shaken a good amount, but i didn’t know where to spill so-to-speak, and i repressed it for too long, and in a split second it was like -bam- and i had kicked the seat in front of me so hard it actually made them turn around lol but like… well, five minutes later i also asked them to turn it down a bit, and then they fucking left 20 minutes before the movie was over, anywayyy that’s the involuntary passive-agressive kind and it’s just.. honestly pathetic. what i’m trying to say is by trying to keep it down i made/make myself feel worse. tbh i could probably use a bit of anger management training

on the other hand voluntary expression doesn’t fulfill me either, or i just had enough bad/unsuccesful experiences with trying to assert myself that i didn’t feel like trying anymore and turned to resigning as preferred method of dealing with things jkdlsajf. the voluntary kinds were more often when i was still younger, cause starting my teenage years i was only sad and anxious lol. when i chose to show anger, it was also more often about getting angry for the sake of someone else than just me. in elementary school i hit a younger child cause he was annoying my sister (and me maybe too), and when he started crying i felt terrible and that’s one instance where the 1-wing comes in.

so yah noticing it and expressing it are two pairs of shoes. you could even choose to show your anger voluntarily, eg defending something or someone openly, and still insist you’re not angry or only realizing that you were after the fact.

what would make a 9w1 get to that point - if we’re talking about expression only, the reasons can be very varied. in my case it’s often tied to aux fe and sp…

what would make a 9w1 notice and express their anger somewhat healthily, though? (i’m assuming “more openly” does not include passive-agressiveness, like that bottle-cap example) mmmh… self-reflection…. practice… integration…..?

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lol not a native speaker, interpreted coming to terms as noticing oops

anyways, have i come to terms with it yet? mmmmm, well, … i can acknowledge that it’s there but i’m not good at handling it yet

#it's long so i hope my reply still makes some sense jklfskf #9 #Anonymous #yah anyways i might have jumbled up some things there so if that was stupid feel free to #go into it or sth

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jungkookio · 7 years

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bias tag game

hoooooooo boy so i was tagged by @hoodiejungkook @literally-just-yoongi-trash @aragyeom to do this... y do u want me to expose myself like this

Rules: write down the last 15 associated tags with your bias.

yoongs:

#take his belt and choke me with it

#not to be nsfw buti have an undying need to fucking hug this man

#when wiwllhe start capitalising on his sweat as a highlight tbh #i wna tthtta glowhgngnnfngngnghhggghhg #why is my grandpa man so hot ti rlly wanan dfckkin d8 him

#omfg fuck off #look at him hes a dumpling #a soot ball #he owns the key to m heart #honestly im rlly soft over my boys tonight #im cryign in th club

#im sorry but he looks like that sailor moon 'but you didnt do anything' meme #but like hot

#im... rlly out here loving this loser i cannot believe myself #i fell in love with some grandpa infant hybrid #look at this pingu lookin ass god i love him so much

#who let this emo kid out the house #wheres his mum

#c hoke #what the fuck wjat the fuck #when will he fucking spit on me #whatthehfuxuckgoddddddddddddddd he #what the fuck i swear everyone wants me to roll into a coma and fucking die #i hope ifkckng choke seriously what thejfuck is thsi #what is his problem why is he like this

#thsi is the begsat theing to evr hapoenr yi me shsudjrnshjsjrbndkansb pleaese

#ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my god you own my fucking heart #u cld own my kidney too if u ever need it just ask

#i want him to tuck him in n kiss his forehead but i also want him to spit in my mouth u feel? #probably not #kinkshame me

#okay... he gettin thicker #i love my man's pancake ass okay #im eatin well tonight !!/1!!1/! #nourished !! #acvdhdjsjbdbsjsj hav i evr mntiond i hte mslf

#i love him so much ohmygod #!! fuck !! #m heart went nyooooooooooooom #💟💖💗💕💓💝💟💓💕💖💞💗💟💖💕💞💓💝💟💕💞💓💝💟💗💞💕💗💟💓💝💕💗💟💖💖💟💕💞💓💖💗

#m heart just launched outta m chest #idk wht t doabout it tbh #i... need that

#ohmygodohmyogogododdoohohoh #hooh my fuckicjg n god #im fucking malfunctioning btixch #bwaht the fuck he looks so fucking goood #hes rlly rpepin the gays again inhis flannel #an icon #he looks like a billion fckng dollars bitxchm im rlly choking #im gna eat a fucking shoe i love him so mcuh #godthey rlly mad ehim blond again #i dk what to domblond yoongs has always been m favourtei #n im alwaysh fucking screaming about it and bitch x hes rlly blodn n im rlly crying because fuck #hhes in his fckckng prime okay #hes th mc of m heartmcnncnnnnnggggggggggggggjhsbdhjbfhbnj

jungkook:

#i wanna punch him in th face #but with lovecause i love him so much #i cld never hurt him #honestly i'd much rather him sucker punch me in the jaw #look at him he's such a shit but he's my favourite #eugghhdghhdhhhhjjhhjhj

#he cld crush a bitxch with those thighs #(its me) #(im the bitxch) #(please crush me)

#fucking b e a n me #rightin th fckn skull #just straight up fucking murder me #what kinda zoom #its all so shiny #hes fckng gleaming #his shirt is fcking gleaming #meanwhile im constructing my coffin while i wait for him to b e a n me #the fuck

#biyxch his tiddies bigger than mine

#its always th lasttwo gufs that tip me over the edge #m reachign fr th mfing gun bitxch #i hate this shirt n its aphrodisiac bullshit #oyster juice #it had to have been soaked in fckng ousyetr juice #can u hear my inner turmoil sis............. this shirt has victimised me #the shirt #it strikes again

#wow look its my emo boyfriend

#ggggggggggggggno the shirt can fuck off #whoever manufactured it #you know what no it wasnt manufactured #it was hand crafted by satan himself to fucking tempt me to evil #show me a single fancam of mr jeon fucking jungkook in that shirt where he doesnt look at one with the fucking devil #find me one! #i can guarantee u wont find any bitxch #possessed #absolute blasphemy #i hope i fckign burn in hell

#the second gif is him throwing my heart out the fucking window

#ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my gohd how can he be this cute while literally drnched in sweat #ion kno but hes gleaming #shining #glowing even #he hsa no faults #look at his smile it cld make flwers grow fck off #n the stars are in his eyes #all of them #im real emo tonight #hes so bright #the most beautiful boy #a baby #my best baby boy in th whole wrld #i wld gv hm m everythng #i love hm so mch m heart is so full #im nourished

#this era makes m choke on air #he was so rude the entire time i really hsatge bjgbnkgjbnfdkjbdfj bjbngnbkgnbkgfkbng #...gotta go #i hope he *** **** ******** ** *** ***** ** *** **********

#jungkook is so cute i love him so much what the fuck #he is the purest mostwholesome lil fella ive ever seen #his gecko friend :(((( #bitxch #search: how to be a gecko #hes so excited wgdhjb #'this one is a different guy!" #what the actual fuck jungkook rip m heart out y dont u #he saved m life wow #bad day who? dont know her #m never gna b sad again

#oh my god someone get me out of his ass #i'm too far #so far up his ass

#ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm????? #i want him to dropkick me down a flight of stairs

#i want to fuxjckxking die and be dead get this photo away from me #what the ever loving fuck #are you seeing jungkooks arm??? are u seei g it #cause biyxch i am and i choxked #i hope i die #ababsbndnenjabsbsjjsnsl ouc h

#hes like my age in these photos whahat the fuck #why do noboys near me look exactly like this with this exact personality and this exact dna

jimin:

#he looks like a sad puppy and im not having it #ill fight the fucking rain #ill punch a cloud i dont give a fuck

#i wld step on a lego brick for u

#omg hs lilcrooked tooth #im ugly cryign bitxch #thats it im cryign in th club fr real

#im screamign outta my ass #what the fuck jimin #what kinda extra ass #he did a fuckin split to try and kick a golden glittering pompom #this is gay culture

#he looks like a rich housewife #please step on me

#his fucking n e c k #look at it fuck #what the fuckim..... #im rlly reaching fr th fckng gun sis jesus hcirst

#@nasa i will pay you to launch me into th fckng sun bitxch

#can he maybe... jump like that again... on m fuckin head

#i swear hes like... made of gold and honey and stardust or smth what th e fuck

#i literally just said oh my god under m breath #buyt i cldnt get th words right so i just sorta went ohgghg #what the fuck

#this is some chaotic evil behaviour right here what the fuck jimin

#perfection? on my dash? its morelikely than u think!

#i hope i die immediately right now this very second

#can he punch me in th fucking throatplease #i will pay him to straight up fucking deck me

#oh my fucking god im #he #whatthe actual fuck is this?????? #what the fuck is thsi ?!??!?!?! #no #ihave truly had e nough of this shit ajshdbjdbnjfkfl #i become a fckcng jimin stan and this is th shit i get in return???????? #chronic agonising pain #yes thnk u jimin thts rlly what i fuckcing signed up for #this was not part of th fucking contract #i just wanted a cute squishy boy with a lil button nose #n mybe a bit of sad contemplation #i did not want !!!! sin !!!!!! #in my christian household????????? #blasphemy #this is fucking blasphemy #the power of christ compels you #fuck wheres the holy water bitxch #this boysjhdbfjhbfjbjgbjbfbflk #u kno what fuck it if this is what death feels like sign me th fuck up #guess ill just die bitxch

do u ever just look back at your past self and think... is she okay

im tagging: @namjoonsgalaxy @blumiin @minsuga--genius @velvethoseok @hobisnovia @gukiee @itskimtaehyung @parkjiminivan @jiminyoongs (if u want !!)

#that was fuckign wild...#thanks for tagging me #tag

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meyhew · 7 years

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ever since new york

i’ve been obsessing over the halbum since before it dropped so here’s my almost 1k rambling on esny enjoy grab some tissues

okay so i dont actually know who this song is addressing but it makes me cry blood nontheless so lets go thru the three options i think are plausible yea

1. harry talking to himself 2. harry talking to louis 3. harry talking to taylor (honestly this is bullshit i know it is but just bear w me)

alright so like such a big part of the song is harry just saying “tell me something i dont already know” and it so desperate and he sounds like hes begging because really he knows everythng he possibly can know at this point theres no way to predict anything about his future and he knows that but he still wants Something to keep him going anything is better than nothing

and then hes like “u dont know nothing just pretend u do” and wow like,, hes calling it out hes saying “u dont know shit u just like to pretend that u do” and like?? thts so fucking heartbreakign? like this kid has been telling himself for years that itll be okay and hes been clinging to louis and tahts all tehre is thats all he knows He Knows That and theres nothing else To know because louis is all it comes down to so he Knows but shouldnt there be something more? some other thing he can hold onto besides this boy who has also been thru hell

“must this hurt u just before u go?” my fyckgin heart holy shit

this i think i absolutely definitely 100% talking to louis because? what happened in new york? oh right haylor :/ and that was painful for both louis and harry and ye s we know harry was miserable in ny ,, u can see from the photos but?? louis???? this is harry saying to louis “i know i need to do this but why you pls why does this have to hurt u why cant they leave u out of this pls tell me something to make thsi better” and then he realizes that louis cant say anything he doesnt know and fuck im goin in circles a bit anwyay

“brooklyn saw me, empty at the news .there's no water inside this swimming pool”

im?????????

tis is about haylor, like not even talking To taylor but its about their “relationship” and how convenient that the media isnt picking up on it huh

almost as though harry is saying “yea there was no fuckgin relationship there to begin with” with the whole empty swimming pool metaphor

he said the album isnt very literal so ofc hes not talking about an actual fucking swimming pool being empty theres so much more to it

but back to brooklyn seeing him and “empty at the news” holy shit do u remember how fuckign sad he was?? and louis??????

“so u and taylor are good friends” “if that !”

fuck

“almost over, had enough from you” this is @ taylor,, “its almost over whatever this is that i had to do with u is almost over and i have had enough” ((maybe the enough from u could be shade for the songs she wrote about him whom knows i hope it is))

“and i've been praying, i never did before. understand im talking to the walls. i’ve been prayng ever since new york”

boy holy shit fuck okay

this is probably literal and metaphorical

bc like,, harry has a cross tattoeod on him and he used to have a cross necklace too?? taht he gave to a little girl when they went to africa for red nose day (i forget to country)? i rememebr he said its something that helps keep him grounded and make him feel safe and he wanted her to feel safe so he left it with her

so like he did pray(ish) he has faith in smth if i had to assume so i think hes saying that he never to pray for his relationship

haylor happened in 2013 and before that yea they were closeted but it wasnt Too bad bc their public interactions werent yet reduced to almost nothing

“understand im talking to the walls”

wat the fuck?? he doesnt have ppl he can talk to? ppl who will actually hear him and Listen to him? help him????? i want to die

“i’ve been prayng ever since new york”

HES BEEN PRAYING SINCE NEW YORK!!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE THATS WHEN IT ALL WENT TO ABSOLUTE FUCKIGN SHIT AND !!! ! H ARRY REALIZED THTA IT WOULNT BE SO EASY

he understood being with louis would be a miracle and those are hard to come by almost impossible without prayer so hes been praying ever since new york ever since he had to fake a relationship wiht taylor

and now im thinking about louis’ album because lousi has had to suffer thru two beards and a fucking baby and i jsut,, how much harder was it for him? how many times has he almost fallen off the edge? ? does he have songs like two ghosts safely hidden close to his heart does he have declarations like sweet creature does he have jealous moments like women

how are these boys still here after seven years after all the shit theyve been thru how do they manage to come out on top every time in in awe and im fuckgn sobing

#harry.styles #harry styles #ever since new york #idk what to tag this as idk fuck #whatever idc it just needs to be out there #seedpost

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