#Idk but I was thinking about the damaging confinement of assumed asexuality for women when uhhh that's not accurate WOMEN CAN HAVE DESIRES | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

amarrymeinbostonwriter · 1 year

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Okay BUT that ancient idea that all 'good' women don't have any sexual desires at all, only men do is highly destructive and still influencing society today...

For a very long time, I was so uncomfortable with the idea of having a sexuality at all because I internalized that shit. YES, REALLY!

For many years, I fought for the rights of my gay friends fiercely (all the while not connecting the dots of why it mattered to me on a more personal level).

I was loudly vocal about LGBT activism at my college, all while living like a nun and avoiding ever having to deal with any of my personal feelings.

Suppressing yourself like I did is NOT healthy. I wouldn't suggest it at all.

#I tell you I was probably the least self aware person you have ever met #granted I am sort of glad it turned out this way because I didn't know I was bipolar until I was 22 #So somehow younger me was just put all her manic energy into really loving the gays...hmm wonder why #I would not want to be a scary unmedicated girlfriend nooooooo because trust me it would have been UGLY #and somehow I thought I was asexual...I was just very good at supressing things which I can't any more because of the bipolar #and because I wanted to be the perfect daughter I tried to be straight and failed horribly at it...comp het is horrible it really is #don't waste your entire 20s trying to be someone you aren't #look you can be ace and be a woman that's not my point #hypersexuality which is a symptom of bipolar disorder pretty much rules out being asexual- sorry but I realized it #I wasn't asexual because I wasn't interested in men I was gay because I had been interested in women the whole time #I just aggressively ignored it for the most part since I had some fucked up ideas about myself and cared too much what people would think #one of my best friends is a lesbian irl and many many of my friends in school were LGBT of some kind #I purposely sought out other LGBT people to hang out with- because on a level I knew I belonged with them #I definitely miss the communities at school and I could just be around other gay people and just chill there #I'm lucky in that way I think and I hope all LGBT people experience that sense of belonging in their lives #Idk but I was thinking about the damaging confinement of assumed asexuality for women when uhhh that's not accurate WOMEN CAN HAVE DESIRES #mychatter

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