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stormyoceans · 4 months

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The clock on the wall of the restaurant was still showing the same time, for the third time Mhok had checked. He glanced down at his phone - no, it hadn't broken; Mhok was just impatient. And his phone screen was blank as ever.

He sighed, and returned to mopping the floor. Maybe all of this hard work would get him a raise soon, if his new boss noticed. That would be worth it.

His pocket began buzzing, and Mhok felt a fond smile beginning before he even had the phone out. Sure enough, the screen was lit with his boyfriend’s name.

"Good evening," he said, warm and low into the receiver. "If you'd like to place an order, I'm sorry, but the restaurant is closed."

Something in Mhok seemed to settle and relax, just hearing his boyfriend’s voice on the other end of the line. "I'm sorry, Phi," said Day, explaining about his family and the unexpected change of their plans.

Mhok had guessed that it would be something like this; actually, it could have been worse. He should probably feel grateful Day could call at all. He hummed, and told him not to worry. "I'll just have to be better next year," he murmured, with a self-deprecating smirk, "so Santa will be nicer to me."

Day's voice dipped a little lower. "Let's say that Santa is listening right now," said the younger boy. "What would you ask for?"

Mhok barely hesitated, certain of the only thing he wanted - the thing he'd want even if he had everything else in the world. "I'd want to be with you right now," he almost whispered, with the ghost of a sigh.

"...The moon is beautiful tonight. Wouldn't you say?"

Mhok's heart leapt into his throat, beating with a sudden wild hope. He wished so much... and there was only one way to know.

He moved instantly to the restaurant doors, pushing them open with firm, calloused hands, and knowing exactly the person he wanted to see.

And for a moment, for just one breath of a moment -

He'd breached a different threshold, in a different place, while something like deja vu made the faint glimmer of hope in his stomach into an endless star-filled canopy, millions of constellations strong. And his steps were uncertain, but his heart knew who to look for... the shape of this memory held a different face, and the word on his lips was a different name, but it was the same moment, somehow, the same longing, the same unbearable separation finally ending, this time for sure, two souls coming home, like magnets across a universe -

He blinked, and the moment was entirely his own, once more. Just a passing thought, an odd trick of the light in the courtyard, and it didn't matter anyway.

Because he saw Day, his Day, just as he'd wished.

"Day," Mhok breathed, his heart full. He swallowed past the sudden knot in his throat, blinking away the tears that gathered inexplicably in his eyes.

"Merry Christmas," said Day, smiling at him.

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(it's me again, hi 👋 after ep 10 i had to send this too hope you enjoy 🤍)

SLACK JAWED SHAKING OUT OF MY SKIN CRYING SHITTING YELLING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH SPINNING COUNTERCLOCKWISE ON THE FLOOR WAILING WEEPING HOWLING SCREECHING EATING GLASS GOING INTO CARDIAC ARREST MAKING A LOBOTOMY APPOINTMENT CRAWLING TOWARDS THE EDGE OF THE HIGH RISE BUILDING IM ABOUT TO THROW MYSELF OFF OF ASCENDING ONTO A HIGHER SPHERE OF HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS

ANON IM ONCE AGAIN SAYING THIS IN THE MOST AFFECTIONATE AND ADORING WAY POSSIBLE BUT YOU ARE - INDEED - INSANE. THIS IS MADNESS. LUNACY. DERANGEMENT. LITERALLY CAN WE HAVE A TALK. CAN WE HAVE A CONVERSATION. A DISCUSSION EVEN. YOU DID NOT JUST MAKE MORK HAVE A VISION OF PUEN OPENING THE DOOR OF THE GLASS HOUSE AND FINALLY FINDING TALAY AFTER HE CAME BACK FROM THE OTHER UNIVERSE. AS IF DAY'S SIDE BACK IN EPISODE 4 DIDN'T ALREADY RUIN ME. CURRENTLY IN A DEAD FAINT IN FRONT OF MY SCREEN EXPERIENCING THE ENTIRE RANGE OF HUMAN EMOTIONS LIKE

"the shape of this memory held a different face, and the word on his lips was a different name, but it was the same moment, somehow, the same longing, the same unbearable separation finally ending, this time for sure, two souls coming home, like magnets across a universe" <<< I CAN'T EVEN. FORMULATE [ISABELLE ADJANI TUNNEL SCENE FROM POSSESSION] [FEMALE HYSTERIA] [SUICIDE]

#NOT TO REPEAT MYSELF BUT READING THESE TWO FICLETS SIDE BY SIDE IS INSANE I FEEL INSANE #THE PARALLELS #THE WAY THEY COMPLEMENT EACH OTHER SO PERFECTLY #ANON I LOVE YOU BUT I HOPE YOU KNOW THE REASON IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO REPLY IS BECAUSE I'VE BEEN GOING INTO SHOCK GOING OFF THE RAILS #GOING BATSHIT GOING ABSOLUTE CUCKOO BANANAS OVER THIS #I WILL BE DEAD IN A DITCH SOMEWHERE GOOD DAY OR GOOD NIGHT TO ALL NEVERTHELESS #last twilight the series #morkday #vice versa #puentalay #m: ask

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stormyoceans · 3 months

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MONICAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SLACK JAWED SHAKING OUT OF MY SKIN CRYING SHITTING YELLING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH THROWING UP BLOOD SPINNING COUNTERCLOCKWISE ON THE FLOOR KICKING SHRIEKING BARKING BITING HOWLING AT THE MOON GOING INTO CARDIAC ARREST ASCENDING ONTO A HIGHER SPHERE OF HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS COMMUNING WITH GOD CALLING A MENTAL HEALTH CRISIS INTERVENTION TEAM TO SEDATE ME

I NEED THIS PICTURE STAPLED ON THE INSIDE OF MY EYELIDS AND TATTOOED ON MY BODY AND CARVED INTO MY HEART AND SEARED ONTO MY SOUL AND INJECTED DIRECTLY INTO MY BLOODSTREAM LIKE WHERE DID THIS EVEN COME FROM WHEN DID THEY DO THIS WHY DO THEY LOOK SO DAMN GOOD HOW DO I GET AN ENTIRE SERIES AND PHOTOBOOK IN THIS STYLE LIKE THE HAIR THE CLOTHES THE JEWELRY THE POSE IM ABOUT TO PASS OUT

SORRY FOR NOT HAVING ANYTHING COHERENT TO SAY BUT LIKE. THEM THEY THEM THEM THEM THEY THEM THEY THEY THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#THIS IS NOW MY LOCK SCREEN MY HOME SCREEN MY LAPTOP BACKGROUND IT'S SEARED INTO MY RETINAS IT LIVES IN MY SOUL #THANK YOU FOR SENDING ME THIS ANON!!!!!!!!!#HOPE YOU'RE HAVING THE MOST WONDERFUL DAY!!!!!!! 💜#NOW IF YOU'LL EXCUSE ME I'LL BE WANDERING THE WOODS SCARING UNASSUMING PASSERSBY WITH MY SHRIEKING FOR THE FORESEEABLE FUTURE #jimmy jitaraphol #sea tawinan #jimmysea #m: ask

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stormyoceans · 7 months

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BABE, ARE YOU OK?! DO YOU NEED ME TO HOLD YOUR HAND SO WE CAN CHECK INTO THE PSYCH YARD TOGETHER? BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE BANGING MY HEAD INTO A FUCKING WALL AFTER THE TRAILER! I'M SO QHDUSKSGFKDUVSCLIDGSKCOSVFKFOSGKDOFHWNFOSUWNCPDYWNFPEUBFLFIWHFKDNELCISBFPFHELFHFLEPFHDLDOFHELDPF

IM AFRAID THE ONLY WAY IM CHECKING INTO A PSYCH WARD IS BY GETTING DRAGGED KICKING AND SCREAMING BY A MENTAL HEALTH CRISIS INTERVENTION TEAM MADE UP OF 6 BURLY EMTs IM LITERALLY OPERATING ON SUCH A DIFFERENT LEVEL OF REALITY RN IM ASCENDING ONTO A HIGHER SPHERE OF HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS IM EMOTIONALLY SPIRITUALLY AND METAPHYSICALLY ON A WHOLE OTHER PLANE OF EXISTENCE IM LOSING MY MIND MY SANITY MY MENTAL FACULTIES IM RIDING THE HYPE TRAIN STRAIGHT TO BREAKDOWNVILLE IM ABOUT TO PARTAKE IN ACTS OF FEMALE HYSTERIA TO COPE THERE IS NO SEQUENCE OF WORDS I COULD PUT TOGETHER TO DESCRIBE HOW INSANE THOSE 3:49 MINUTES ARE MAKING ME FEEL IM BLOWN AWAY TO A DEGREE I DIDN'T EVEN THINK POSSIBLE IT'S EVERYTHING IT LITERALLY IS EVERYTHING AND MORE AND THEN SOME IM IN A DAZE

#I WILL GLADLY ACCEPT THE HAND HOLDING THO LET'S BANG OUR HRADS AGAINST THE WALL TOGETHER ANON #last twilight the series #m: ask

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stormyoceans · 8 months

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I might have shed a tear or two (i full on sobbed)

SCREAMING SHAKING CRYING THROWING UP SPINNING COUNTERCLOCKWISE ON THE FLOOR BARKING BITING WAILING WEEPING HOWLING AT THE MOON THE WAY I'VE BEEN IN MEETINGS ALL DAY AND THIS IS THE FIRST THING I SEE WHEN I FINALLY CHECK MY PHONE IM DEAD IM DYING I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE ALIVE IM ASCENDING ONTO A HIGHER SPHERE OF HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS IM EMOTIONALLY SPIRITUALLY AND METAPHYSICALLY ON A WHOLE DIFFERENT LEVEL OF EXISTENCE IM LOSING MY MIND MY SANITY MY GRASP ON REALITY IM RIDING THE HYPE TRAIN STRAIGHT TO BREAKDOWNVILLE IM ABOUT TO PARTAKE IN ACTS OF FEMALE HYSTERIA TO COPE

THE TENDERNESS THE PLAYFULNESS THE INTIMACY THE ADORATION THE JOY THE LOVE THERE IS LITERALLY NO SEQUENCE OF WORDS I COULD PUT TOGETHER TO DESCRIBE HOW INSANE THIS IS MAKING ME FEEL IM JUST SO DEEPLY FUCKED IN THE HEAD ABOUT IT THE ORDERLIES ARE ALREADY AT MY DOOR TRYING TO DRAG ME INTO A PADDED ROOM IF THIS WERE THE 19th CENTURY DOCTORS WOULD HAVE ME ON SOME HEROIN TONIC BY NOW

WHEN MY TIME COMES CARVE THIS PICTURE INTO MY SOUL AND PUT IT ON MY TOMBSTONE

#MONICA.EXE HAS STOPPED WORKING PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE AFTER THE SCREAM #[SCREAMS]#SORRY BUT I GENUINELY DO NOT KNOW ON WHAT LEVEL OF REALITY IM SUPPOSED TO OPERATE RN #IM SHAKING SO BADLY IT WOULD BE FUNNY IF I WEREN'T LOCKED IN THE OFFICE BATHROOM AND AT RISK OF PROJECTILE VOMITING ALL-OVER MY COWORKERS #HEAR ME OUT: LAST TWILIGHT TRAILER DROPPING TOMORROW BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND THR WAIT ANYMKRE #last twilight the series #morkday #m: ask #hsfavoriteworlds

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stormyoceans · 6 months

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for whenever you see this.

my dear friend,

i am writing to u as i bawl. this ep was so fkn beautiful, i have no words. just a ripped and battered heart, a blocked nose, red, puffy eyes and the most sadness i’ve felt in months.

i cannot believe it is only ep 2, mon. the way the story is written, the way it’s shot, the way jimmysea have acted. THAT LAST FKN FISH TANK SCENE. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

omfg friend. we know so little about morkday and yet it feels like i’ve known them for ages and so damn well because i can feel their pain, their fear, their sadness, everything. this ep was so so sooo beautiful. i am sooo soo soooo excited for the remaining 10 eps but i know they’re gonna RUIN me. how will we survive this, bestie?

🫶🏼, a broken sam 😭😭😭😭

MY DEAREST SAM,

HERE'S AN ACTUAL DEPICTION OF ME WAKING UP THIS MORNING KNOWING THAT LAST TWILIGHT EPISODE 2 IS REAL AND ACTUALLY HAPPENED

forgive me if im just gonna be holding you on the spiritual plane as im still lacking the words to properly express how this episode made me feel. the entirety of part 4 alone irrevocably changed the direction of my life the foundation of my personhood the chemical make up of my brain and my entire being on a molecular level. it just had everything: tenderness vulnerability understanding acknowledgment recognition care fondness adoration me in front of the screen screeching crying throwing up blood ascending onto a higher sphere of human consciousness. the fish tank scene at the end may very well be the most beautiful poetic romantic symbolic fairytale-like 5 minutes to ever be put on screen in the history of television and im gonna need to spend the rest of the week in a sensory deprivation chamber to decompress and recover from the parallelism romanticism soulmatism of it all

IM JUST SO DEEPLY GRATEFUL TO EVERYONE INVOLVED IN THIS SHOW FOR BRINGING TRUE LOVE AND REAL CINEMA BACK ON MY SCREEN AND TO THINK THIS IS ONLY EPISODE 2..........THERE ISN'T ENOUGH SEDATIVE IN THE WORLD TO MAKE ME COME DOWN FROM THE SHEER EUPHORIC UNHINGED RABID ENERGIES THIS SHOW HAS GOT ME GOING ON

💜💜💜,

YOUR FRIEND MON WHO'S VERY MUCH IN NEED OF A MENTAL HEALTH CRISIS INTERVENTION TEAM IN THE ROOM WITH HER RN IMMEDIATELY

#BUT ALSO IM SORRY BECAUSE IM LITERALLY CONTRIBUTING NOTHING VALUABLE OR SMART OR EVEN JUST COHERENT ENOUGH TO BE WORTH READING TO THE FANDOM #IT'S JUST ME AND THE FRANKLY WORRYING AMOUNT OF NEW MENTAL ILLNESSES I END UP DEVELOPING WITH EVERY NEW EPISODES #sam ❤️#m: ask

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stormyoceans · 1 year

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MONICA OMG VICE VERSA APRIL 19TH TALAY AND PUEN HOW ARE YOU ARE YOU OKAY??????????????????????? STILL BREATHING??????

ACTUAL DEPICTION OF ME 5 HOURS AGO SITTING IN THE MIDDLE OF A FAMILY REUNION CHECKING MY PHONE BLISSFULLY UNAWARE SEEING A GIF OF PUEN JUMPING INTO TALAY'S ARMS ON MY DASH AND ALMOST BREAKING MY FINGERS TO GO CHECK THE TRAILER AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT:

TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION IM DEAD IM DYING IVE NEVER BEEN MORE ALIVE IM ASCENDING ONTO A HIGHER SPHERE OF HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS IM EMOTIONALLY SPIRITUALLY AND METAPHYSICALLY ON A WHOLE DIFFERENT LEVEL OF EXISTENCE IM LOSING MY MIND MY SANITY MY GRASP ON REALITY IM RIDING THE HYPE TRAIN STRAIGHT TO BREAKDOWNVILLE IM ABOUT TO PARTAKE IN ACTS OF FEMALE HYSTERIA TO COPE

THERE IS NO SEQUENCE OF WORDS I COULD PUT TOGETHER TO DESCRIBE HOW INSANE THOSE 3 SECONDS OF NEW CONTENT ARE MAKING ME FEEL I'VE BEEN RUNNING LAPS ON THE CEILING SCREAMING SHAKING CRYING THROWING UP BLOOD FOR /HOURS/ I HAVEN'T EVEN WATCHED THESE EPISODES AND THE ORDERLIES ARE ALREADY AT MY DOOR TRYING TO DRAG ME INTO A PADDED ROOM AGAINST MY WILL I CAN'T BELIEVE WE'RE GETTING THEM BACK SO SOON IM ABOUT TO BECOME THE MOST INSUFFERABLE HUMAN BEING ON PLANET EARTH

#SORRY IM SO SORRY IM GOING INSANE GOING BATSHIT GOING CUCKOO BANANAS GOING OFF THE RAILS #RUSSIAN PARTICLE PHYSICIST ANATOLI BUGORSKI COULD NOT HAVE FELT TOO DISSIMILAR TO WHAT IM GOING THROUGH RN #WHEN A HIGH ENERGY PROTON BEAM FROM A PARTICLE ACCELERATOR PASSED DIRECTLY THRU HIS BRAIN IN 1978 #m: ask

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