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meggtheegg · 3 years

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Cobbler mo- I mean Connor Murphy?

favorite thing about them

his depth, for sure. it would have been so easy to make connor a one-note "bad" kid or an overly-pitiful wreck whose suicide felt inevitable, but there's this very realistic balance to him, where he acts out and it's not okay, but you understand why, and you feel like there is some possibility that he could grow and heal, given time. he's depressed and angry and a little paranoid, but he makes jokes, he smiles, he apologizes in his own weird little way. this is a kid who dies fifteen minutes into the show, and yet, there is so much to him that makes him feel real and makes you truly care about him, which is so important for the rest of the show to have any sort of impact

least favorite thing about them

on the other hand, a lot of scenes surrounding him are kind of clumsily done. the whole scene before wtaw with jared calling him a freak and him pushing evan makes me cringe every time, and is the biggest moment in all of deh where it's like "yeah, this was written by adults," because teenagers don't,,,talk or act that way??? anything involving his relationship with zoe feels really clumsy, too, and it's been up to the fandom to kind of decode what that relationship actually was, and even then, it feels like there's something missing

favorite line

bc he's pretty much split in two, i'm gonna give one for each version of him...

real connor: "you fell out of a tree? well, that is just the saddest fucking thing i've ever heard, oh my god..."

the one time we really see him trying to reach out, and the poor kid is so awkward. but he's sincere, and the way most actors let him genuinely laugh, here, is really endearing and says a lot about him, as a character

fake connor: "if you really believe that, then why are you standing here, talking to yourself? again?"

i know there's a lot of love for "did you fall, or did you let go?" but this one sometimes hits even harder, for me. because it really calls out how much evan's "growth" has been entirely superficial, if not artificial. at the end of the day, he's the only one aside from jared who knows the truth, and with him and jared falling out, he is left completely and utterly alone. the world where he isn't alone is entirely made up. there's still so much work he has to do.

brOTP

connor and evan, probably. in another world, another lifetime, i think they really could have been friends. also love to see healthy murphy sibling stuff :)

OTP

connor/miguel. i know the novel is unpopular, but i think they're really sweet together

nOTP

luckily i've never seen connor/zoe, but that would be it, if i ever did see it. among popular ships, connor/jared. these guys do not get along or like each other, and that's okay

random headcanon

if he had lived, i think connor would have really figured some things out, in college. as well-meaning as his family was, they bombarded him with quick fixes that did nothing but tell him that he was broken. given a little bit of freedom, i think he'd have been able to grow and sort out some actual coping mechanisms and find the help he needed

unpopular opinion

the casting for connor is maybe the most important in all of deh. it's a deceptively hard role, with very limited time to make the right impact, and every moment is extremely important. if connor isn't any good, the show's impact is diminished significantly in ways that flaws in the other characters don't have much effect on (and i am very certain of this, as someone who's seen the show with an evan i didn't like with a connor i did like, and a connor i disliked with an evan i loved. one made a surprisingly bigger dent than the other)

song i associate with them

thanks to the novel, slip away by perfume genius will always be a connor murphy song, in my mind

favorite picture of them

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