i have a thought of you for every star in the sky ♥︎

im really tired

Severe "I am baby" hours my god

General health update. So I have been having a hard time getting back into writing, and I have been going to the doctor about it and good news is we have found out the issue. I've got insomnia and I have been sleeping maybe 1 hour a night for...basically the last three years. Bad part of this: I have an adverse reaction to all sleep medication we have tried so far. So new plan - I gotta exercise every night until I am sleepy, in the past I ran 3-10 miles every night and then went home and slept great, so I gotta do that again, but that was...gods 4-5 years ago and I have gained a lot of weight (I'm talking 60 pounds here I'm now 200lbs) so not gonna jump into that again right away, but going to try and do a 30 minute job every night starting on 10/16/23 why not start now? - Because one of the sleep medications I was taking was making me cough and have mild cold symptoms so I am letting myself recover from that first.

It’s like one night someone came and tore me apart and I never worked out how to fit back together again

It’s like losing yourself overnight and then never being able to find yourself again

nightmares are so fun it’s like yesss give me yet another reason to procrastinate going to bed :(

When was the last time that you woke up and actually felt awake and rested for more than half of the day? I'm asking for... Ehm... Research?

Yeah, let's say research (╸w╺)

I got put under for surgery a few months ago and I woke up feeling great cuz I was drugged up lol

Aside from that, probably when I was like 11 tbh

Insomnia and Generalized Anxiety Disorder is a bitch

Oh the thoughts I have. I wish I could share them all. They’re beautiful really but then again that’s because you are.

Gonna check hats tomorrow

Haven't been able to sleep again ugh. Happy fucking 3 am

whatever. i'm just going to keep watching star trek

sometimes you feel bad so you smoke a little weed and instead of making you feel good it just makes you feel bad but in a quiet way

Do not drink 8 espresso shots it sucks✌️

I can't sleep so I'm up playing minecraft :)

Damn always being tired but never be able to take a real and full rest, is destroying me ngl.