Therapy - 09.01.2023

Started with talking about going to the rehab clinic, then about the holidays that I spent at my parent's house. I told my therapist that there was a lot of sadness and that I saw "ghosts" of people I once was wherever I went. He asked me if I often see these "ghosts". I said yes 🙃 Then he asked me if I talk to them. That's when I felt my face turn really red and I also said yes (thinking that this was getting too much into the direction of DID). I don't remember the whole conversation right now, but it ended with him offering me to talk more about these parts of me in the future and figure out what they need - and that it's also something I could do at the rehab clinic (if they work with that).

This feels too close to DID. I'm scared I'll be diagnosed with it again, or ego state disorder. When I talked about these ghosts I literally didn't have anything along those lines in mind. I just chattered.

Another thing I remember is my therapist saying that me and all these people I once was could work together well and that I have a strong adult part who manages life things. Also, that the smaller parts probably can't get exactly what I needed back then because I'm no longer three or eight but that we could take a look.

This really sounds too much like a disorder with dissociated parts oml