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☆彡🌸 Winter’s Sun  🌸 ☆彡

 Tags: fluff, romance, angst, fem!reader, rude + posessive kageyama, highschool, friends to lovers, hurt/comfort, kageyama is bad at feelings.

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Kageyama’s POV

God what is actually wrong with me, I couldn’t continue staring at her glazed eyes. I just felt too guilty and too sad to actually let her feel that way. I thought for a moment if I really did love her, or if I was posing as someone who was desperate for love. I wasn’t desperate right? She made me feel things no one else did, she could tell when I was upset and would gently tug at my hand on our walk home, I could tell she used to stare at me from the corner of her eyes watching me, sometimes would even wait purposely on certain parts of the hallway she knew I would eventually walk past. I was okay with being alone, in fact I would even say I was perfect being alone so much to the point I didn’t realize how much I was missing, or what I never felt so deeply for anyone else ever before. It’s not like I didn’t like girls and have little crushes here and there, I just didn’t see the point in talking to them if they didn’t even look my way. But you, argh. You were just like everything that I was not expecting, your bright warm smile in front of me every time we talked, I couldn’t help but feel feverish almost by the way your lips turned into the sweetest smile, it almost made me so desperate to the point where I wanted to see that smile everyday and call me selfish but I wanted to be the reason why you were smiling. 

I wanted to meet you outside of the school, drowsy from the long day and just knowing that I just had the chance to see you, I was helpless and you were every reason for it. My mind just captivated and enamored by your voice and face, truly I do think that my heart ached every time I watched you go down the street alone. I didn’t want to leave your side, especially in such an empty street, not in this place or this time. So in a sense, I made sure that I watched until you safely entered your home. I know you probably noticed me watching until you entered your home, but I couldn’t leave knowing you weren’t safe and sound, I wanted to protect you. 

The morning of my birthday when I woke up to my phone continuously buzzing, to be honest too drained in sleep and tired to realize what was going on, my heart just sank a little when I saw all the messages you had sent me. Pictures of us together, or random food drinks we got here and there. I hadn’t noticed how long we have known each other, but it just made me grow and an even softer spot for you for remembering all these memories, now I think they were really engraved in my heart. The sweetest “Happy Birthday” I have ever heard. When you called me I didn’t know what to do, for a moment I didn't’ realize the phone was rigging. 

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! AWW YOU’RE SO BIG NOW!! HOW DOES IT FEEL TO FINALLY BE MY AGE” 

I chuckled at your words, I wasn’t much bigger I think I was just the exact same height. I didn’t hide the smile that grew on my face because of your words, “Thank you.” 

I knew you were smiling on the other end as well, I think I got used to your words and I knew when you were feeling what you were feeling. I didn’t mean to interrupt you while you explained all the things you had planned, but I admit I was letting my feelings do all the talking with no hesitation.

“I’m really happy I met you..” You quickly became silent, and I almost got worried when I didn’t hear a response. 

“I’m happy I met you too, Tobio.” I did blush every time you said my name. Every. Single. Time. Many people said my name, but it was the way it sounded when you said it that made me the weakest, now that I think about it I kinda wished you said it more. 

When I met you that afternoon I did almost have a heart attack at how beautiful you looked in that dress. I didn’t know you had those curves (lmfao y’all). No, but a part of me felt so soft inside just knowing that you wore this all for me. God what you could do to me with such simple things, at this point I was really thinking I would become your servant if you had asked me to. But it wasn’t the gifts, the kisses, or the many many birthday wishes that stayed with me the most that day. No. It was the words you said to me when you looked at me with your warm colored eyes, soft in nature and kind just like your soul, I had to hold in just how I was feeling. 

“I love you.” You said quietly and all I could do was blink. Maybe I was too mesmerized by your beauty, the way your hair fell so perfectly on your face. You smile looking for a reaction but I, too dumb-founded to even think about what just happened let alone what you said to me. Without even thinking about it, you take my hands in yours, fumbling with my fingers just like how you did every time you were nervous about something, I guess you were nervous about this?

“Yes Kageyama, you are that easy to love.” Fuck. Shit. 

I had to break away from your stare or I will literally melt away right here in front of you. I couldn’t even let the first words sink in, and now this just hit such a soft spot in my heart, I wouldn’t lie I didn’t even know that spot existed until you, how did you do it? God, no I shouldn’t think like this..Wait no I should answer you. Did I feel the same way? No of course I did.. boke. 

“Mhmp..Are you sure?” I couldn’t look back into your eyes, despite how beautiful they were and how desperate I was to see you I couldn’t find it in me to even stand still. 

Your hand is touched by your cheek in a soft and gentle form. “Of course I do, I love you, I love you so much..” God, why is this so hard to take? It isn’t like I don’t believe I really do but .. 

I could feel you quietly wishing for the same response as you patiently waited, eyeing me closely just like how you always did when you got too nervous and couldn’t figure out my face. 

“I-I love you..I do as well .. love you..” Your hands fell to grab your own in a tight tug. 

“Sorry.. I don’t know how to take things very well. I’m sorry I’m not more honest..” “No. No.. I love you just the same, don’t worry it’s okay. it’s okay..I don’t expect you to always be vulnerable..” Wow you really did mean that? I didn’t even know how to react. “I’ll always love you..” you said gently, I smiled, knowing just inside that I felt the same way. “Me too... I’ll always love you, I will never stop, I won’t I promise..” So why was it that now I was looking straight at you, hands clutched quietly by my sides, while you stared at me, tears in the brim on your eyes, and clearly holding back a sob. “I don’t-I don’t think I love you. I’ve been confused..and I don’t know how else to put it..into the right words.” I don’t know why I said this, but I just did. I was truly so upset, so hurt, I just felt betrayed by everything. “When you first talked to me, I knew...I knew for some time that I would be okay with you, that there wasn’t any harm. It felt good to believe this...” It was hard to put everything into words, especially when you were standing in front of me with the saddest eyes I had ever seen.“I think knowing that you kept so much information from me... It just..it just isn’t okay. I-I really can’t explain..I just.. I can’t love the sister of someone..I can’t love you. I can’t love you y/n because I will never be happy knowing that you two are related.” A small gasp came from your lips when I said that, I expect you to fight against me, to tell me that I was in the wrong and that I was looking at things in the wrong way. But you didn’t, you broke off your stare and looked sideways, hiding the tears falling on your cheeks. “Okay.” Was all you said, you didn’t even stare back at me but I could tell how much this was hurting you. I really did feel bad, to see you cry in front of me broke me apart. “I’m sorry.” I said, hoping you would stare back at me for just a moment. “It’s fine, I should walk myself home.” I nodded, “Okay.” You walked away, not turning or facing back to me, but walking forward without another word or glance. Stupidly enough, I stood there for a few seconds watching you walk away, probably more out of habit at this point than anything else. I mentally smacked myself for being so dumb, and turned the opposite way, walking towards my home. I told myself that I should forget about it, that in the end you would be better without me. I must have been a burden to you, with all the things I always had going on, all of the issues, emotions, and thoughts you had to carry, I felt guilty knowing what I caused. I tried convincing myself, now that it was over you wouldn’t need to worry about me, I wasn’t going to be a burden to you anymore. I tried and I tried to think of it this way, but every time I did I only became more upset and sad at what I had really lost. 

— Chapter Navigation 🌸  — A/N: Wooo this made me really hurt :(( I do love the little dynamic that they have together though ahhh it’s so cute but tobio why are you such a little sussy baka 😠  Also apologies if there are any gramma mistakes!! I tried proof-reading it as best as possible