THE SEASON 4 FINALE OUGHH PSYCHIC DAMAGE

this is the one woman house “accepts” and wilson acknowledges that it might be what breaks their usual cycle: wilson gets wife, eventually resents wife when they aren’t “needy” anymore, divorces wife, crashes at house’s, and cries on his shoulder while house acts dismissive rinse and repeat. wilson now has a partner that works with him (and is a “female proxy” of house but that’s a whole other conversation lol) and house isn’t constantly wrecking havoc on them. as bonnie puts it, he isn’t necessarily what causes the breakups, but he certainly doesn’t help. now it’s different and there is a real chance at their lives changing, maybe even for the better. mutual respect that was never present now is and while house definitely does nip at their ankles, house and amber totally agree on what wilson needs (the whole bed debacle amber and house had the same view on it). wilson could be free from their weird, co-dependant, and possessive relationship, but still have a relationship⁉️

THEN AMBER FUCKING DIES. Their one chance at again, breaking their destructive cycle, is gone. NOT ONLY THAT THOUGH. What gets me is that if amber hated him she wouldn’t have picked him up. The reason amber dies is because they chose to act differently. If amber had been like the others, she would lived because she’d never have picked up house. if she had been like the others though, then well… she’d have left wilson’s life eventually just like the others. house’s “im so sorry” works not only him genuinely expressing sympathy (which was VERY fun to watch btw) but also for everything that led to it. if he hadn’t made his little truce, if he wasn’t drinking alone because of his destructive coping mechanisms, if he hadn’t had amber as a fellow in the first place, literally if he hadn’t been who he was, amber could have lived.

EDIT: Also, amber herself saying “I shouldn’t have gotten on that bus” hurts more too cause it’s like yeah that would have saved her, but as i said earlier not finding house would’ve made her like the other wives. There was literally no way to avoid it. sorry amber but you had to get in that bus 😟.

so now what..? the cycle is definitely altered, as house now has a direct part to play in amber’s death (also just the fact that it’s a death), but it still continues. as upset as wilson will be with house, that really doesn’t change the fact that house is all he has, once again…