Panic attack 4. (Pokémon, Goh angst)

Summary; Kay, now it's finally Cinderace's turn- and you know how Cinderace is, well you should. Anyways, they are at a pokémon fighting competition.

Ash cheered for Pikachu as the fight narrator said; ”Pikachu wins”, and Goh joined in on cheering- everyone else started too.

They were in the Sinnoh region, at a pokémon fighting competition. And Ash was going to the finales. Well, there was just one more person left, that had also made it to the finales.

But Ash was surely gonna win that too.

”Cinderace!”

Grookey was asleep on his spot, while he was currently standing. It was tired from watching all the fighting, and the competition had been long.

”Now,” said the narrator. ”Ash Ketchum from Pallet Town against Joshua Walter from Vermilion City!”

The boy that stepped out shocked him- it was that Joshua. The Joshua who gossiped about him, the one who got everyone against him.

But why was he standing on the stadium with a Blastoise looking ready to fight his best friend?

Then suddenly, he felt a way too familiar feeling in his stomach- it was happening again. Around Cinderace.

But maybe- he looked over at Cinderace, that was looking confused at him- nope, he's definitely on to something.

”Cinder- Cinderace,”

He leaned against the wall, and slowly sat down, hugging himself.

Cinderace sat down next to him, knowing what was going on.

”I'm sorry,” he mumbled sadly. ”I'm so selfish... I'm sorry...”

He continued to mumble non understandable apologies.

The fight started on the stadium- but none of them watched. But they hoped that Ash won.

”The boy that Ash is fighting- I know who he is... He's my old bully...” said Goh, answering the question that was probably floating around in Cinderace's mind.

Cinderace rested its head against his shoulder, then wrapping an arm around him.

He tried to control his horrible breathing, that was basically just wheezing.

He coughed, then again. And so on.

The wheezing was stopping the sobbing.

At least, Cinderace was there, and that actually helped.

The narrator interrupted him:

”Blastoise is unable to battle,” he said. ”And the win goes to Ash Ketchum and Pikachu!”

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Professor Cerise, Ren and Chrysa, along with Chloe and Yamper.

They were finally at home.

They were bombarding them with tons of questions.

And Ash was happy to answer all of them. While, he wasn't listening.

But the last one caught his attention.

”Who was the final competitor?” asked Ren.

Ash frowned, thinking for a second...

”Oh! His name was Joshua something... And yeah, he was from Vermilion City! Do any of you know of a Joshua? Maybe you do, Chloe? He seemed around our age...”

Ash went back to thinking...

”Walter! His last name was Walter! And he had a Blastoise.” said Ash, smiling.

That seemed to give Chloe a flashback.

”Joshua Walter?” she asked, and Ash nodded, not knowing the seriousness. ”Oh, Goh-”

Nobody except Chloe herself and Goh knew why she went and hugged Goh seconds later.

And they were really confused.

She patted his back, then pulled him in closer.

”Chloe, Goh?” said Professor Cerise, confused at the empathy Chloe seemed to show to Goh. ”Do you know this Joshua Walter boy?”

Chloe nodded, but not answering.

Goh sniffled loudly, which got Ash to join the hug.

They didn't bombard him with questions, Ash just hugged him in silence.

MISSING SAGA FINALE

PART 4: EPILOGUE

Broken Heart (Part 2 Finale part of We Don't Get Happy Endings)

Dean x Reader

Word Count: 2,220

Summary:  Reader thinks back to the days (5 years ago) with Dean before he left her and they were in love.

Warnings:  No smut, Angst (I’m sorry), Some cussing, I think that’s all

Part 1

Still 5 years ago

Reader Pov

I was waiting for Dean at my house.  He told me he had something important to tell me.  Then I heard a knock at the door. "Hey Y/N." "Hey baby", I greeted him and gave him a kiss but he seemed to hold back.  "What's wrong Dean?"  "Look Y/N....you are amazing.  You make me....the happiest person in the world, but I have to get back to work.  I have to get back to my job with Sammy...I can't stay here with you...." he struggled to say.  I could feel the tears threatening to fall from my eyes. "Yeah no Dean, I totally get it.  You have a job to do...It's alright you go... In the end everyone just gives up on me anyways...”  "Y/N stop.  I am not giving up on you" he grabs my chin gently, "I love you."  "You know Dean if you love me, you wouldn't leave me!  I love you and I need you here!  I can't do this without you!  Everyone in my life has left me!  I can't lose you too...." I yelled tears falling now.  "Y/N...I...love you so much... I'm sorry for causing you this pain and getting involved... I can't explain but I have to go...Sammy needs me". Dean mumbled tears falling.  "Goodbye Y/N...”  With that he kissed me on my forehead and left... Tears filled my eyes as I watched him leave and he drove away in his Impala.  That night I felt so worthless, like life hates me.  I lost everyone my parents, friends, and now Dean.  I hated how Dean left me, but I could never hate him.  I loved him.  It hurt me to see him leave.

 Present Day

My mind set back to reality.  I never did really get over him.  He treated me like no one else ever did.  He made me feel loved and special.  As I just finished giving the couples their food the door opened and I went to get them their table.  When I looked up my heart stopped.  I didn't know whether to be happy, sad, or mad, run or cry.  I just froze... "DEAN?!"

 "Y/N...”  "No Dean.  What are you doing here?  If you are trying to win me back you can't, you left me!" "Look Y/N, I'm sorry.  I know I lost that chance long ago.... I'm here on a case....about your parents." he looked guilty.  "What the hell do you want with my parents?  What do know?  Are you just going to tell me I'm crazy like everyone else did!?"  I told him.  No one believed me...So why would he?  "Y/N please tell me.  You are not crazy.  The police said you guys got jumped and your parents died from getting in the way.  But it was more than that right?  Please tell me what you saw." He begged.  "Alright.  But not here.  You and Sam can come to my place at 5, after work."  "Thank you so much....And Y/N I...” "Dean look what happened happened.  It's in the past...” I mumbled.  He gave me a sad look and walked out.  As soon as he did I ran to the bathroom and the tears spilled.  I can’t believe Dean is here.  After all these years now he comes back?  And he’s not even here for me, he’s here for the case... Did he ever care about me?  Or was I just some girl he ran into…  He could have always come back but he never did… And the worse thing is I think I still loved him.  After all these years he was the only one I’ve loved.  So now I’m here in the bathroom crying, from another broken heart….

Dean Pov

I hate how I left her.  I never stopped loving her...  I never stopped caring, but I had to keep her away from the hunter’s life.  I saw the way she looked at me, she was angry and hurt.  Wondering why I ever left her.  I came back because of her parents.  The way they died and how they had a connection to the case we were working.   I probably would have never come back if it weren’t for this case.  I hate what I did to her, I hurt her.  I should have never got involved with her but that was not possible.  I fell for her as soon as I saw her.  Now I won’t be able to fix this mess... I left her with a broken heart...

 Reader Pov

5:00

"Come on in" I told Sam and Dean.  "Sam it's been a while!" "Hey Y/N!  Long time."  I lead them to my living room and we all sat down.  "Would you guys like anything?"  "I'm fine thanks." Sam replied.  Dean on the other hand, "Some pie?"  I just gave him a look.  "Just kidding!"  And we both chuckled.  "Ok so Y/N, what happened that night with your parents?" Sam asked me.  So I told them everything including, their eyes and how they disappeared.  "Did you happen to smell sulfur?" Dean asked.  "Yeah... How did you know?"   He gave Sam a look, "Lucky guess."  After Sam and Dean excused themselves and whispered to each other.  What the hell was going on?  “Hey do you still have your parent’s car?  We just want to take a look at it.”  Dean asked.  “Yeah I do.”  I lead them to my parent’s car a silver 1956 Ford Thunderbird.  I could never throw out my parent’s car.  It was the only thing I had left of them.  Sam and Dean went to the trunk and opened it.  They started feeling the inside then they found a tight sealed compartment.  When they opened it I couldn’t believe what I saw.  It was trunk filled with weapons and signs.  “What the hell is that?!!  Why is this in my parent’s trunk?!”  Dean looked at Sam with a disappointed look.  “Y/N I think you need to sit down...”  As soon as we got back into the house I yelled, “What the hell is happening?  Why would my parents have those stuff?!”  Dean took my hand.  “Y/N, I don’t know how else to tell you this but your parents were hunters...like...us.”   “What the hell do you mean by hunters?”  “We and your parents hunt monsters ok!  Things that go bump in the night, things you wouldn’t dream of...  Demons, ghosts, vampires, and a bunch of other evil crap...”   All I could do was stare.  “Are you guys screwing around?  How is any of this true?!  My parents and you are not hunters…”  “Y/N, I swear I’m not kidding around.  Your parents were hunters and they were killed by demons.  Your parents and a couple of other hunters were exorcising those demons a while ago, and they escaped from hell.  They were determined to get revenge and they wanted to kill everyone who sent them back...including your parents.”  “Oh my god.  I can’t believe this is happening!  How could this happen?  Why didn’t they ever tell me?”  I cried.  Dean took me in his arms,”I’m sorry.  I know this is hard to take in.  We stopped the other two demons.  There is only one left.”  “Wait.  What I don’t understand is why didn’t they kill me?  They could have killed me there and then.  So why didn’t they?”   “That’s what we are trying to figure out.  The other hunters, if they had children the demons never touched them.”  Dean explained.  “For now though we have to stay here and keep you safe.  Who knows what it has in mind.”  “Ok.  Thank you.”  “It’s our job” Dean replied.  I smiled at him.  Dean then took a seat next to me.  “Y/N, I am so sorry for leaving you.  I never meant to hurt you but this life; I wanted to keep you away from it.  I wanted to keep you safe.  Everyone in the end always gets hurt because of me.  I would never forgive myself if you ever got hurt.  That’s the reason I left.  I never stopped loving you...”  I could feel the tears in my eyes and I took his hand, “I understand why you left.  This job is dangerous and you tried to keep me away from it but here I am.  My parents were fricking hunters.  And it wasn’t your decision to choose this or keep this from me.  I loved you, I still do.  I would have understood.  I would have gone anywhere with you. ”  “Y/N you don’t understand.  Too many people have died because of me!  I just can’t watch you die...”  “Dean don’t you get it?  I have nothing in my life...  My parents are dead... Everyone thinks I’m a freak!  I only have you.  If I was able to spend a day, in love with you and I died the next day.  I’d die happy, knowing you loved me.  Dean, I love you.”  “Y/N... I love you too...”  I threw my arms around him and crashed my lips on his.  I missed this.  I missed him.  Being in love with him.  Being happy…  “Hey guys?  I’m going to go uhh...somewhere...” Sam interrupted.  We laughed and nodded  With that he was out the door.  The rest of the day we spent talking to each other, laughing, and getting lost in each other.  “Hey Dean give me a second I’m going to go take out the trash.”   “Yeah sure thing!”  With that I walked out.  As I was taking out the trash I ran into my neighbor Sophia.  “Hey Sophia!  What’s going on?”   “Oh hey!  Nothing much.  So who were those two men who walked into your house?”  “Just Feds asking about a case.”  “What case?” she asked.  Something was weird about her.  We were never that close and she wouldn’t ask me this.  “Sophia why are you asking me about all this?”  She just looked at me and smiled.  

 Dean Pov

What was taking her so long?  I was about to go outside but then she came back in.  “Hey sweetie!”  “Hey...Y/N” She has never called me that ever when we were dating.  What’s up with that?  “Would you like me to bake you some pie?” She asked.  “Yeah sure.” She was never really the cooking type either.  With that she started walking to the kitchen to bake a pie and I followed her.  “So you said how many demons there were?”   “Three, but I and Sam killed the other two.”   “Oh! You did?”  She sounded angry.  Then all of a sudden she spun around with a knife in her hand and charged towards me.  I grabbed her wrists.  “Y/N?!  What the hell are you doing?!”  She then smiled and her eyes flashed black.  “Sorry to disappoint you but I’m not Y/N.  I’m the demon you didn’t kill yet.  We didn’t kill the hunter’s children yet because in 14 years we would come back to possess their children’s body.  Their parents sent us back to hell!  We were going to make sure they suffered!  But now you killed them!  So I’m going to kill you, Sammy, and use this lover of yours as my vessel.  I’m going to make her kill innocent people and I’ll make her suffer!”  “Noo!”  She swung at me again and I tried to grab her but she cut me.  “Come on Dean!  You know you won’t hurt her!”  She tried to cut me again and I grabbed her arm.  I spun her around and held her on the table.  I took out my demon knife.  “I’m going to kill you!  You son of a bitch!”  “Oh?  Let’s see what Y/N here has to think about that!”  The demon closed it eyes.  When they opened they were filled with tears, “Dean?”

 Reader Pov

Dean had held me down on the kitchen table and held a knife to my throat.  I was awake for everything but I couldn’t do anything except watch the demon.  “Dean.  Please you have to kill me!”  “No Y/N!  We will find another way!  I promise!  I’m not going to kill you!  I’m not going to lose you!” He yelled. Tears spilled from my eyes, “Dean, please you have to!  I was awake for everything.  It’s going to make me kill people!  I will never forgive myself.  This is worse than death.  Being trapped in my mind while the demon controls my body.  Please, Dean!”  “No Y/N I can’t kill you!  I did this to you!  I hurt you!  This is my fault.  I’ll fix it I promise!  I love you.”  I reached out and touched his cheek, “Dean I love you, but this is how you can fix it.  You save people Dean, save me.  This isn’t your fault.  The demon is doing this to me because of what my parents did.  Don’t blame yourself.”  “Y/N.  I’m so sorry... I love you.  I always will...”  “It’s alright Dean.  I’ll die happy.  I got to spend a day with you again.  I’ll know you always loved me and that you left because you cared.  You didn’t leave me with a broken heart.  Goodbye Dean.”  Tears running freely from both our eyes now.  “Goodbye...Y/N.”  That was the last thing I heard before I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. Then the pain slowly faded away and all I could see was darkness….