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moonlightjinko-kun · 4 years

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My last late submission for @atsukyouweek is for D6!

Characters/Pairing: Nakajima Atsushi & Izumi Kyouka // Atsukyou

Genre: Angst

Rating: Teens and Up

Prompt used: Hero & Villain AU

Word Count: 1.9k+

Summary: They were once on the same side of justice, fighting villains together. The fateful night where they finally crossed paths again, but now they're on the opposing sides of justice and begins one girl's final fight to save the man she loves from his own despair.

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A/N 1: This was angst hell for me when I wrote it and I died after it and wrote a joke of a summary ahahaha A huge thank you to the admin of the week for hosting this marvelous week, with so many fun and exciting prompts! It was very fun to make pieces for the week even though I was late for 4/5 cries, but it was so fun to have a week all to my fave ship! Atsukyou is precious and I love them so muchhhh <3

When their eyes met again under the star dotted night sky, the wind was whipping her hair into her face. His face was shrouded in the shadows of the tree and the air around him was thick with menace. He had thrown the black coat that hung around his shoulders to the side to reveal a set of black shirt and pants under it. Her eyes narrowed at him, at the emptiness in his eyes. She hoped that Yosano had received her message and was on her way, as she faced her enemy, her former partner.

“Naka-“

“Shut up, it’s Shadow Beast now.” He sneered.

She had convinced herself that she would never try to talk sense into him when they met, but she felt her heart breaking at the sight of him. She knew she had to at least try. He readied his stance as she started again, “Please, Naka-“

BAM!

Her head hurt where it hit the ground, but he had leapt back and was now staring from across her, his stance ready to pounce. She felt a warm trickle of blood leaking from a laceration at the back of her head. She winced a little in pain and slowly stood. She shook a little, unsteady on her feet and she glimpsed her opportunity as his stance dropped for a moment. Her body reacted instinctively, adrenaline flooding her system and she flew across the distance, sliding her sword out from her sleeves. The air between their faces was sliced and a lock of his hair - now dyed black, was taken off as she swung her sword in a perfect arc. With the deed done, she hid her sword and leapt back in a graceful arc through the air, landing silently on the ground.

His hand flew up to his hair and a smirk crept onto his face. “I see.”

She narrowed her eyes at him, reading his movements. She knew them by heart from their training together and even after he had fallen into the darkness, she had continued to study him. There was a shift in his right leg and she took a breath to ready herself.

The only way to save him is to stop him.

He leapt towards her and as he landed on the ground where she’d last stood with a loud thud, she was already in the air. She fell towards him, letting gravity take hold, intending to use the momentum of the fall to stun him. A second before she hit him, she saw a glimmer of menace in his eyes. Too much, too late. There was a quick tug on her left leg and then she was flung through the air, crashing to a stop against a tree trunk. Pain exploded in her lower back and a scream escaped her. She looked up as he made his way towards her, a white tail now dangling by his side. She closed her eyes for a moment, silently cursing herself for her stupidity.

“You can’t win. Leave and I’ll spare you.” There was that sneer in his tone again.

She hated it. The Atsushi she love would never speak this way to her. In that moment, she realised the person she was in love with was no longer here, that the man in front of him was a stranger, her enemy. Hatred surged through her, lending her strength. She gritted her teeth and pushed herself up. “Shadow Beast, huh? Bullshit, Nakajima Atsushi!”

Destroy Shadow Beast to bring Nakajima Atsushi back.

―――――

His eyes widened at his name, long uncalled. Waves of complex and indistinguishable emotions had crashed over him the moment their eyes met tonight. He was a mess and he knew it deep down. He stared at the blank expression in her eyes as she moved, each swing and jab with purpose. He dodged and swung clear of each strike, observing her form. Her swordplay was perfect, each move executed in a perfectly timed manner to flow into the next, leaving only a fluid motion of silver. Where there were timed lags to fit his moves before, she had erased them, and she was now moving with an intensity that he had never seen before. Her pace picked up and the blade was lost in a blur of silver, his eyes could no longer track her blade and thin ribbons of blood started to streak across his arms. Her aim shifted up to his face, slicing a shallow cut across his cheek. He lifted his hands to his face, covering it, as she continued to land strikes at his arms. The intensity built to a climax, and suddenly there was a loud whoosh. His hands fell to the ground with a thud, revealing his blood spattered face to her.

He stared at the bloody stump of his wrists, a scream of pain ripping out of him. His legs had turned weak and he fell to the ground, clutching his bloodied wrists. She pushed his face down to the ground and rested the sharp tip of her blade on his neck. He shifted his eyes to meet hers.

“What a shit of a job a hero has.” Her words were clipped with an underlying current of anger. “To think, to think we would end up like this.”

Her face was turned away now, as she spoke again. “I could kill you, you know. But, I don’t think I can ever live with that.” The anger in her voice was already softened by an inexplicable sadness. “Can you… tell me why?”

The rest of her question was left unspoken, but he knew what she wanted to know. The tension in his shoulders started to ease, but he clamped his mouth shut, letting the moment of silence stretch between them.

“You were going easy on me just now, weren’t you?”

He kept his lips sealed.

“Answer me, Nakajima.” She snarled, pressing the tip of her blade deeper.

“No. I didn’t. Kyouka-chan, you’re impressive.” You’ve improved so much.

The pressure from the blade on his neck lifted slightly. He could see tears shining in her eyes. How much tears had I given her?

“You haven’t told me why.” Her voice was shaky, as though she was trying to keep the tears out of her voice.

But the tears brimming in her eyes were tipping him over. He left because he wanted more strength, more power. He wanted to protect her better but he had fallen harder and faster the more he sought after it. Until, too ashamed to face her again, he had decided to leave and to stay out of her way as much as possible, lurking in the shadows and preying on the weak.

But, she had left him with no other choice tonight. The mask of the Shadow Beast was slowly coming loose, and the weakness in him was exposed yet again. His defeat tonight had made it clear, he was still the same pathetic weakling. He had drifted as his new villainous persona for the past three years, living with his emotions suppressed, and that persona with its illusion of power had trapped him in a web of lies. The dam of emotions broke in him, and tears leaked out of his eyes. He had an answer for her now.

“Because I was a coward. Because I was a fool. And I’m sorry Kyouka-chan. I’m so sorry, I was a complete idiot. You’re right, everything, this is all bullshit. I’m really sorry.”

Her facade slipped away, leaving the woman he had left behind staring back at him. The blade in her hand slipped to the ground. He felt her hand on his head move, and he pushed himself up with his regenerated hands to face her properly. He remembered the contours of her face and he reached out for her lips that were forming into a small smile. But he grasped air, his eyes following the drop of her head to his laps.

“Kyou… KYOUKA-CHAN!”

His hands dropped to her head, and he felt the wet and sticky blood there.

“Oh, no no, please, Kyouka-chan!”

Panic set in. His mind was a jumbled mess, and he couldn’t think. His hands darted around her face, unsure of what he had to do. Images from their past blurred with those of the present, dulling his senses to the present.

“Too slow!” She had teased, as her wooden blade struck, drawing an embarrassed chuckle from him. She had taken a few steps back and came at him once more, but he was ready. He had caught her with her hand hovering above his head, before knocking the blade out of her hands. He had pulled her into his embrace and whispered “Predictable.” Her cheeks had turned pink. He had smiled at that, and she had blown an exasperated sigh at him. They had stood there in each other’s embrace as their laughter had rung in the air.

A faint smile tugged at the corners of his mouth as he remembered the bright tinkle in her laughter.

“Promise me you won’t leave me alone here. Hey, Nakajima-san, we’ll get stronger together! This failure, it’s not a problem. Look! I’ll get better and then we can train together and - Nakajima-san? Wait, no, don’t!” A soft thud on the ground stopped him in his tracks and he had turned to see her on the ground, tears streaming down her face.

The intrusion of this memory brought back a wave of regret and remorse. He closed his eyes and took a breath, trying to shut out the rest of the memory.

“ATSUSHI! MOVE!”

The shout had come from behind him. He turned to see Dazai and Yosano running towards him.

“I said, move.” Authority slipped into Yosano’s voice, but he was frozen in shock. Yosano took Kyouka from his arms as Dazai pulled him away, clearing a space for Yosano to work.

Dazai stared at him and gave a long sigh. “You’re hard to find, Atsushi-kun.” Atsushi blinked a few times in confusion, as Dazai continued. “She’s been searching for you all this while. We all have, actually.”

“What? Why?” Atsushi choked out.

“Why, you ask? Maybe it was her persistence? Or maybe you were just a lost soul who didn’t know how to call for help? It doesn’t matter, does it?”

“But, Dazai-san, I’ve done -“ Atsushi stopped, letting the rest of his words trail off.

“We know. There will be consequences, but it probably would work out eventually.” Dazai glanced towards Kyouka. “She sacrificed a lot to try to save you.”

“Kyouka-chan had tried to save me, even after everything I did? Why would she?” A sob entered his voice.

Dazai did not answer, but Atsushi knew what the answer was. He had seen it when their eyes first met tonight. The sadness and love in her eyes were clear enough. Overhead, the cloud had finally drifted to reveal the moon, as it cast a soft light on them.

Yosano clicked her tongue. “Tch, couldn’t the moon have come out a little sooner? The extra light would have been helpful.” Her head jerked up to face them as she called out. “We’re done here, let’s go.”

Atsushi made to stand, but Dazai grabbed his hand. “Not so fast, Atsushi-kun.” There was a glint of silver in Dazai’s hand. Realising what it was, Atsushi held out his hands and watched as Dazai snapped the cuffs around his wrists. Atsushi stood with Dazai’s help, but his eyes were on Kyouka. Dazai crossed over and lifted Kyouka into his arms, cradling her as Yosano came to his side.

“She’ll be fine. Stop worrying.”

“Yosano-sensei, thank you.”

Yosano waved his thanks off and a sigh escaped her. “Just treat her better when we get back.Come on, we need to go.”

Atsushi followed after them, back to where everyone from the agency stood waiting for them.

A/N 2: Thank you for reading this and I hope you enjoyed this piece too! Feedback is always appreciated and I would always love to hear from you <3 This was self-indulgence too AHAHHA angst self-indulgence (as if I don't get enough angst) I live, breathe and spaz atsukyou and this had been a good week of self-indulgence heh

#bungou stray dogs #atsukyouweek2020 #atsukyou #atsushi x kyouka #nakajima atsushi #izumi kyouka #villain atsushi dressed all in black like an edgelord and then he uses his ability #a white tail dangles ahahha #CINFICS 🎀

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just-kessho · 5 years

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Ambrosia: Dazai Happiness Week

[Day 3] Birthday party

AU: None

Warnings: Mentions of suicide (thanks, Dazai) and slight spoilers for those who haven’t finished season 1 and 2 of BSD I guess?

[Day 1] [Day 2] [Here] [Day 4] [Day 5] [Day 6] [Day 7]

It was unlikely for Dazai Osamu to not know things – escape routes and alleyways of Yokohama? Those he has already mapped out with every nook and crannies within his brain. A war against Port Mafia? Yes, he already have at least 84 plans and countless backup plans already stored in his mind.

A birthday party for him?

What?

Sure, Dazai knew of ‘birthday’ and ‘party’ as well as ‘birthday party’ but for that to happen to him, the few people who stared into the swirling abyss only for it to blink back, was completely out of his calculations.

All right, to be fair, his mind was already whirling with countless possibilities when Atsushi, all trembling and stuttering every other word, came up to him only to ask about, and he quote straight from the teen’s mouth, “all the best places for suicide” in all of Yokohama.

But Atsushi didn’t stop there – oh no, he followed up with a very high pitched and very loud (that Dazai had to refrain from covering his ears, though he clearly remembers his eyebrows twitching from that sudden outburst) shout of, “will you show them to me?!” that had ‘suspicious’ labelled all over him.

He was about to ask Atsushi what was wrong – and believe me, if [Name] was involved in anything, then he would drop everything and anything just to sprint to her side – but before a single word could get out of his throat, his blond co-worker screaming about everybody’s schedule being interrupted whenever Dazai’s present, and thus that leads to Dazai… well, basically granting Atushi’s wish by showing the male all the places that he would personally commit suicide.

Though just after the two stepped out of the agency front doors, the brunette turned back to face the brick red building, wondering what on Earth was happening to prevent him from merely being inside it – he figured that much out, for Kunikida, under no circumstances, would ever allow Dazai to step a single feet outside the building when it was working hours. It says something about his own disappearance skills (that he was somewhat proud of), and also more about how it was a poorly disguised way (to someone as perceptive as Dazai, of course) of not wanting a person named ‘Dazai Osamu’ to know about what everyone was planning.

He could rule out a war against Port Mafia, as the truce between the two organisations were still standing, and he could also rule out-

Wait, was [Name] truly in danger? Sure, he knew of the dangerous jobs that she sometimes would take without as much blinking an eye, yet the image of her laying on a hospital bed, where her red liquid of life would make a stark contrast against the pristine white of the sheets, and being strapped to every machine available just to barely keep her alive was not an image that he want – nor want to remember.

[Hair colour] framed her face like an antique piece of artwork, and those [eye colour] were shining with… something met his dull brown ones.

He blinked, and the- his belladonna was gone.

Whether the stunning beauty in that window was an illusion or not, perhaps it was time to focus on entertaining Atsushi with his hand-picked spots for suicide.

Yet two and a half hours into showing the white haired kid the suicide spots with as much enthusiasm as possible so he wouldn’t know Dazai knew the agency (and perhaps along with [Name]’s workplace named with the very original name of ‘The Office’) was planning something.

Though Dazai thought [Name] had a neutral look of looking as if she was absolutely bored of everything, as if she had somehow experienced everything before and was doing them again, like a countless playthrough of a game that mirrored your first one, Atsushi’s face now sort of… resembled that of his girlfriend’s.

… Perhaps the white haired male really had enough listening about “ooh, that branch seemed to support your weight well” and “there’s not many people who would come here, so this is the perfect spot for a clean suicide~” and whatnot.

Honestly, he seemed more like their newest addition in the agency, Izumi Kyouka, when she was waiting personally for him in the shopping district than the sunny boy who always smiled, asking if there was anything he could do to help and putting his life on the line for others.

“Atsushi-kun.” stopping so suddenly, much like them times when Dazai himself slammed on the brakes, at the last minute, when he was driving, so it was no surprise that Atsushi nearly bumped into him. Nearly. “what is with you and the agency today?”

“I… do not get what you mean, Dazai-san?” really, the kid was so bad at lying that Dazai swear he could personally count every sweatdrop that was staring to show on his forehead. “Wh-whatever could you have gotten that from, I won-wonder?”

“… Your whole attitude.”

Really, Dazai might have wanted to re-think his earlier statement, since as soon as that ruthless three worded sentence was uttered, Atsushi looked as if someone had snatched his beloved chazuke and threw it in the bin all right in front of him.

“W-well, it is a special day, so the agency thought that… you should have a break today!”

“… oh shit, is today the anniversary of me and [Name]?”

“No! At least, I don’t think so.” to see Dazai panicking was a sight to behold, but it was slightly sad for the birthday boy not realise what today really is.

“I-is it [Name]’s birthday?”

“… No.”

“Versalius-san’s birthday?”

“… Think again, Dazai-san.”

“The Office’s founding date? The agency’s founding date?”

“Keep thinking, Dazai-san.”

“Was today the day [Name]’s favourite pet died, and so she wants us out of the picture so she can mourn in peace, yet deep down inside, all she really wanted was for me to lend her a shoulder to cry on and have comfort sex?”

“What?! NO!”

Face red and huffing as if he had just sprinted across three hundred meters for the last bowl of chazuke, Atsushi hunched down and mumbled something about Dazai being so sad and oblivious, yet he wondered whether the older man was really just entertaining him.

Yet at the thoughtful look spread across Dazai’s face as he really whacked his brain, Atsushi threw that last thought out of his mind.

Oh wait, Dazai was known for being good actor, so maybe that deduction wasn’t that far off.

Perhaps I should just tell him outright- wait, what were you thinking, Nakajima Atsushi?! [Surname]-san’s trust was specifically put into you! So don’t fail her – and the entire agency – now.

A phone beeped. And at the vibration felt in the pocket, Atsushi immediately scrambled to get it out, nearing dropping the object in his haste. And at the neat kanji and katakana that told him everything was ready, he felt himself relieve a breath that he didn’t know he was holding.

Thank God, because I don’t think I can fool or keep Dazai-san from the truth anymore.

“Dazai-san, I think we should return to the agency because… uh, oh, because Kunikida-san just texted me saying that we need you.”

“Eh-? No, don’t wanna, and here I was having such a good time showing you all my favourite suicide spots-”

“Actually, it was [Surname]-san who needs you, she just didn’t want to… she didn’t want me to tell you that.”

“Then let’s go! That sounds exactly like [Name]-chan~”

I offer you my sincerest apologies, [Surname]-san, but your sacrifice is much needed – just please find it in your heart to forgive me!

“Atsushi-kun, why are you praying to a God now?”

Atsushi didn’t really have a convincing answer for that impossible question. So he stayed silent, praying for Dazai to not work out what they have in store for him.

A thunderous bang resonated throughout the room. Confetti was thrown, and a particular long one got entangled in Dazai’s hair.

Atsushi’s frantic stuttering and sweatdrop now made sense. They were preparing a birthday party for him!

Oh wait, today really was his birthday, wasn’t it?

But he paid neither the confetti nor the sudden realisation that he was a year older any notice.

Oh no, not with his co-works (that were crawling slowly but surely, to the place in his heart where the walls that he carefully put up were defeated – much like what [Name] did) smiling – yes, even Kyouka, and the corners of Kunikida’s mouth twitched upwards – and simultaneously shouting “happy birthday, Dazai!” along with the colourful banners and freshly prepared food that was put out for everyone to enjoy.

… He just hoped Vesalius did not prepare them…

But still, that cake, that magnificent cake that was coated in his favourite flavour – a sure sign that it was [Name] who ordered it, heck, perhaps she even made it herself. Oh wait, it wasn’t covered in crabsticks so that was out of the window.

However, the disappointment that reminded him of a child not getting his way in a toy shop was quickly washed away by a warm feeling as he scanned each happy faces of his co-workers that he couldn’t help but feel his lips spread into a smile-

And then his eyes met hers.

Did time slow down? Probably not, but he really felt it was just him and her in this room. A dazzling smile that he wanted to protect (despite fully knowing she was perhaps even more capable of that than him), a dazzling smile that was not present not even two years prior… a smile that was directed solely at him. He remembers simply expressing his gratitude to the people in front of him, and then making his way towards the [hair colour] haired woman.

Her hands were clasped behind her back, was she trying to look cool by hiding her fiddling fingers? How utterly cute.

(It wasn’t the first time such a thought cropped up in Dazai’s mind, and it for sure wasn’t the last)

“… Happy birthday, Dazai.”

“Really, [Name]-chan, you didn’t have to do all this!”

“But I wanted to, we wanted to. You deserve a break after all… so here.”

A package of blue and red was thrust in his vision of sight. With hands that trembled slightly – huh, why was he trembling anyway? Years of torturing and other jobs in the mafia without batting an eyelash hardened him so. Thus this small, trivial exchange should not… should not make him feel as if he was on top of the world, and wouldn’t mind having this warmth blossoming in his chest longer.

Still, he took it. Gently unwrapping the thing, a burst of blue greeted his eyes.

“It’s a labradorite.” [Name] explained, leading him right under one of the agency’s artificial lights. “it changes colour depending on the light. Normally this gemstone I got you stays a blue-ish colour, but it can become red, yellow, hmm… a blue-green and gold. Ah, see that? It just changed to gold for a moment- and now it’s a sort of blue-green. Oh, it changed back to being solely blue.”

Turning the precious stone so that it shined in all the colours that it can give off, the birthday brunette entertained himself with it – heck, Dazai even managed to get [Name]’s eye colour to stay on for an extended period of time, but it is fickle, one slight shake of his hand and the colour vanished.

“Thank you, [Name]. I’ll take good care of it.” it wasn’t a lie, nor a white-lie that was the result of his silver-tongue that made many people spill out their deepest secrets or flush in a deepest red. No, it was right from his heart – and that was something that made [name]’s smile widen.

Which in turn, made his own widen, for the warmth in his chest, spreading down to his fingertips and toes, made him forget of his past and the demons that plagued his mind – just for today, just for this hour… just as long as [Name]’s genuine smile was there, on her face.

Huh, and he thought it was impossible to fall more in love with her.

The presents he received were more everyday essentials, though there were some books from the Director and Vesalius (with the latter glaring at him for seeing him kiss his lovely niece) that he wanted to flip through.

Still, the gift that made an everlasting impression – almost as much as [Name]’s gemstone – was Naomi and Tanizaki’s.

It was a maid dress.

Not one that showed off everything and hid nothing, not it was one that was historically correct with the skirt down to the floor. It was one that showed off all the right curves of [Na- uh, whoever that would put it on. It was a miniskirt, yes, but it could pass for a school uniform miniskirt, and the collar was also down, though it didn’t show off everything and so left just enough room for imagination…

All in all, Dazai thought he had to give it to Naomi (this had the younger Tanizaki sibling written all over it) for her to pick out this particular and… uh, unique gift.

… And she was smirking slyly all the while he opened it.

Hey, guess he and [Name] would get busy tonight, as he would definitely abuse his ‘birthday boy’ status.

Omake

“[Name]-chan, put it on, pleaseeeeeee!”

“No.”

“Come on, I’m begging you- and I’m the birthday boy here. Also, everybody want to see you in this, after all, who wouldn’t want our poster girl in a cute maid dress?”

“Y-yeah…” I-I’m so sorry, [Surname]-san!

“Oooooh, definitely! It would be a sight to behold.”

“I’m sure it would suit you. I know it would have more impact than the time I dressed up.”

“See, even Kyouka-chan and Naomi-chan said it. So please!”

“……………… Ugh… fine. Give it here then.”

“If you don’t I’ll make my infamous puppy- wait, what?”

“I won’t say it twice.”

“Yes!”

“I’ll get the camera ready!”

“You won’t old man.”

“D-damn… she’s so cruel to me…”

“Come on people, drum roll please! Aaaaaaand here we go!

“No! No drum rolls Naomi. Also……… Kill me. Right now- hey, D-Dazai, why are you picking me up?! And where are we going?”

“Kunikida-kun, don’t look for us for the next three days bye!”

Guess who’s a day late! Happy birthday husbando, the light of my life, my reason for living, the one whom I just reblogged 100+ gifs and photos of…

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