God damn life sucks right now.

Those close to me know that recently I went on a date with who I would consider one of my best friends ever. I'm just at a loss and need a good rant right now. Ignore me if I am a dum dum. All's well and good, we have coffee and I head over to her house, and we do what adults do. After I take off from her house, I text her asking if that made us official. She said that no, she doesn't want a relationship, but she just wants to sleep with me. I'm just so fucking upset. I don't blame her not wanting a relationship. But I just. After that we can't just shift back to being friends. That's not how that works. I told her that I couldn't handle being friends with benefits because of my feelings and now I feel selfish because of it. Time to crawl back into my hole and sleep because I gotta work a double in 5 and a half hours.