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#CASPER U HAVE ME FUCKED UP WITH UR NAME IDK HOW TO TAG THIS!!
dulcesiabits · 3 months
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each dream of ours.
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summary: when you make the grim reaper fall in love with you, you better be prepared for the consequences, no matter what happens.
notes: 3.6k words, author's notes, angst and fluff, SPOILERS for every ending of the game including the dlc ending, casper going crazy and pretending you're still alive and living with your corpse in the first section (every other section is tame i promise <3), suggestive jokes + kissing
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i. Untrustworthy
What most people didn’t realize about the human body was that it was surprisingly fragile. Organs ceased to function at a whim. Flesh rotted, and fell off bones. Joints snapped as ligaments failed. 
And you? Well, you were as careless as so many others of your kind, if not more so. Death avoided you easily, so your sense of caution was severely lacking, as if you thought you could live forever. Still, now that you were living with him, it was obvious that you needed to be more careful. What was he to do if you collapsed when he wasn’t around? 
When Casper was out on his job, all he could do was think of you, sitting back at home. What if something happened? Not to mention how lonely you might get, waiting for him.
“Sunshine, you need to be careful,” Casper chided. He kneeled at your feet, taking your hand gently in his. Your flesh was cool, and he slid his hands up to your arms, rubbing them for any semblance of warmth. 
You didn’t respond. Your eyes were closed, lips sealed tightly like you were waiting for someone to kiss you awake. 
It was hard, taking care of you sometimes. When your body was so fragile, so mortal, and he knew just how easy it was for flesh to bruise and blood to spill. You were so prone to getting hurt, and humans could die from just the smallest injuries.
But that was before you had him. Now, Casper would take care of you, and nothing would hurt you again, not when he was here.
His hands trailed to your shoulders, and then up towards your face to cup your cheeks. Over the weeks, your skin had lost its warmth, and now touching you felt like touching a doll.
“Sunshine,” he said again. You didn’t respond, but you always enjoyed your little games, didn’t you? You were always seeking his attention through methods like this, even though you pretended like you didn’t care whether he reacted or not. Well, fine. He could play along for now.
Casper, still kneeling, laid his head down on your lap. Your arms hung at your sides, neither of your hands lifting to slide through his hair, as he wished they would. 
When would you open your eyes again? When would he get to hear the sound of your voice, teasing him? Perhaps this was his punishment. For failing to protect you. For failing to gain your trust. For having to watch your mind shatter into pieces, unable to bear the weight of the connection between the two of you.
The moment it had happened, he had ended the call in which he had been trying to connect with you, rushing straight to your apartment. He barely remembered the journey there, his heart pounding in his throat, or how he got in. All he remembered was the way he had lifted your body in his arms, cradling you close to his chest. No matter how many times he called your name, you never responded. 
It hadn’t taken much work to bring you back to his room, where he could keep watch over you. Now, you were safe and sound, right where he could reach. In the underworld, where nothing ever changed, your body would stay the same. Eternally young, eternally beautiful. Eternally protected, in his arms.
“Sunshine, I have a present for you,” Casper said. He gently took one of your hands, lifting it over his head, and slid a ring along your fourth finger. It was simple gold, and sparkled in the dim light of his room. He entwined your fingers together, kissing the ring where it laid, a simple blessing. It was proof you were his.
In this world, it was just the two of you. From the beginning, that was how it should have been. But it was okay. He knew better now. Casper would never let anything separate the two of you ever again.
ii. Take My Soul
Touching your soul had been like touching something holy. Your soul had been warm and strange and formless, a kaleidoscope of colors that shifted with each breath you took.
When Casper told you your soul was like sunlight, what he wanted to say was that holding your soul felt like holding something sacred. Something luminous that should have burned him just to behold, that swirled around his hands like a prayer.
Your soul was beautiful. You were beautiful. He had never seen someone so beautiful before. It was unfair, so unfair. Maybe you were the sort of person that human poets dreamed about, that men fought wars for, the sort of person everyone craved to hold.
But you weren’t theirs. 
You had promised. You would be his if you lost your bet. And now that you were his, he would not lose you, ever again.
“Sunshine, how are you feeling?” he murmured. “I’m sorry. It must be uncomfortable to stay in my pocket for so long.”
Caper held up your soul– or what remained of your soul, a fragile wisp that still glowed like a firefly, and warmed his cold fingers. He cupped it carefully in his hands, and in its shifting surface, he could see a wavering image of his face, the dark circles under his puffy eyes. 
He pressed you close to his cheek like a kiss. “What, no talking back to me? That’s a first from you. Come on, I know you want to complain. You’re gonna say I smell, even though I tell you, I bathe everyday. Or what? You’re gonna say I work too hard? Well, what can I do? They need me out there. I’m the best reaper in their ranks.”
He closed his eyes, letting the faint warmth emanating from your soul wash over him like you were attempting to heal him by giving him pieces of yourself, even now. But you couldn’t. You already gave too much of yourself away, despite his repeated warnings not to, and now this was all that was left. With the faintest breeze, you would be blown away. You once had enough light to fill an ocean; now, you could only pool in his palms. 
There was not enough of you to be human again. Not enough to reincarnate, to inhabit a body, to retain anything other than a shard of you once were.
“Sunshine…” he whispered. “Sorry for making you worry. I promise I’ll get home soon. It’s not fun for you when I’m out all the time, right? You’re always so needy.”
Casper slowly brought you to his lips, his kiss sending ripples across the surface of your soul. You were foolish, and impatient, and stupid. Why did you give away so much of yourself, so willingly? You should have been more selfish. You should have grabbed a tighter hold of it, so that people like him would never be able to take it. 
But that was fine, because now Casper would protect you forever. You were his, and nothing would part the two of you ever again. Not death. Not heaven. Not hell. He would cling on to you with bloody fingers until the end of the world, because the only place you were meant to be was by his side.
“I love you, Sunshine,” Casper said, your soul flickering like a candle in the breeze.
Tears pooled at the corner of his eyes, a familiar motion to him these days. His coworkers were whispering behind his back about his weeping, saying he had lost his mind, but it no longer mattered what others said. Let them talk.
If you were still here, you would have never have let him cry for so long. You would have teased him, then get flustered when he didn’t snap back, and then kiss all his tears away, one by one, until he forgot why he was so sad in the first place.
His tears fell on the shimmering reflection of your soul. But you didn’t respond. You no longer could.
iii. Sealed with a Kiss
“You need to pay rent.”
“What?”
You stood in front of Casper, hand on your hips, your lips pursed in a faux pout. It had been a few weeks since he had moved in and, as you were learning, you never tired of his reactions. Honestly, if he didn’t want to be teased, he shouldn’t have reacted in such cute ways. “I said you need to pay rent. It’s not fair that you’re living with me, and I’m the only one contributing to the finances around here. It’s unfair, I say. Unfair!”
“Sunshine,” Casper said. He was lounging on your shared bed, Azarael resting in the crook of his arm, as he flipped through one of your books. His legs were crossed, and it was unfair how pretty he looked, with his long hair spilling across the blankets. It sent your mind wandering to places that were probably better not to mention. “Did you forget the part where I was on the run from my old job?”
“Come on, Casper.” The bed creaked as you sat right next to him, snatching the book out of his hands. “Don’t you know there are other ways to make rent?”
“I swear, if this is a set-up to one of your jokes again–”
“It’s not a joke at all,” you interrupted. “I’m taking this very seriously.”
Casper let out an unimpressed sigh. You shifted so he was caged between the shelter of your arms, one on either side of him. His face flushed a familiar pretty pink as you hovered over him.
“What– what are you thinking…?”
“Well…” You wiggled your eyebrows, and Casper snorted. “I was thinking. I won the bet, right? So you’re mine. And there is one asset you have…” You picked up one of his hands, fiddling with the edge of his glove, fingers dancing along his pale wrist.
Casper’s mouth parted, eyelashes shading his cheeks. It was refreshing to see how much your presence affected him. “What… kind…?”
Your fingers slipped under his glove, slowly sliding it off his hand, until you could touch his cool skin, interlacing your fingers together, hands pressed palm to palm.
“You know…” You leaned in closer, voice trickling to a whisper as your lips brushed his ear. “With your body.”
Casper yelped as you kissed the shell of his ear. “Wh-what?”
“I mean… look at you, Casper.” With your other hand, you skated it along his torso. He shuddered, chasing your touch, like a sunflower following the sun. “You have such a nice body… You ought to put it to use…”
“What are you suggesting?”
“Well…” You blew a puff of air into his ear, and he squeaked. Cute. Your voice lowered as you whispered directly in his reddened ear. “You should… help me… clean the fridge.” You leaned back, holding up your hands, spreading out your fingers, an innocent smile on your face.
“What? That was not what you were insinuating. You– you’re doing this on purpose!” he accused. His chest was heaving, his face flushed, and his eyes kept chasing your lips as you grinned.
“What do you mean? All I suggested was a way for you to help me out,” you said. “It’s not my fault if your mind is in the gutter. Wow, what were you thinking I was implying? Honestly, Casper, it’s a problem if you want me so badly you keep taking my words in the wrong w–” You screeched as Casper surged towards you and wrapped his arms around your waist, bringing you back down with him to bed. The two of you bounced on the surface from your sudden landing. Casper snuggled his head into the crook of your shoulder. Was this his idea of revenge? If so, maybe you needed to play more pranks on him.
“You are such the worst roommate ever,” he huffed. You could hear the frown in his voice.
“You love me,” you accused, leaning back into his chest.
“I would not… put it in such a way…”
“Can’t deny it because you can’t lie, huh?”
“...Be quiet.”
He was so cute! It was unfair how cute he was. And no one else would have the privilege to know that. Because Casper was yours, and you never planned to let him go.
iv. Duo
Was it wrong to think your partner looked hot when he was covered in blood?
Because, wow, you could not look away when Casper leaned against the stone alley wall, scythe hung loosely at his side, wiping his hand along his cheek, smearing blood across his gloves.
“Can’t look away, Sunshine? Am I that attractive?” he asked casually, and you stuck your tongue out at him. You had to be careful so that you didn’t inflate his ego to a bigger size than it already was, even if what he said was true.
“I was just thinking about all the blood you’re covered in,” you said. “For the self-proclaimed greatest reaper in our department, you’re awfully messy.”
“We were assigned a tough job,” he said. “Not that you would understand how hard it can be.”
“You’re the one who told me to stay back and handle the small fry,” you protested. “I could easily have done what you did.”
“Sureeee. Give it a couple centuries, Sunshine.”
As much as you hated the smugness in his voice, it was irrefutably true that Casper did have an edge over you when it came to reaping souls. It didn’t help that you only started a few months ago, and that Casper had laughed when you first swung your own scythe and missed your target by a few feet. It took you a few weeks to get a hang of wielding that thing (it was so much heavier than Casper made it seem), but it did make you feel ridiculously cool when you did, so at least you had that going for you.
There’s a heaviness to the way Casper leans against the wall, a weight to his shoulders that wasn’t there before this recent mission. The taint, you realized. Luckily, that was one area where you excelled over Casper.
You walked over to where he stood, not pausing your pace until you were directly in front of him. You cupped your hands around his cheeks, bringing his face to yours. You were probably getting all the blood from his face onto your gloves, but who cared? Again, Casper covered in blood was hot as hell (pun intended).
Your face wavered in the reflection of Casper’s eyes. “Sunshine?” he asked.
You ran a thumb along his bottom lip, and Casper’s breath hitched. There was an easier way to do this, but why would you take the boring and easy route when you could have some fun? Without another word, you brought your lips together. It was only supposed to be a gentle kiss, but Casper’s lips were soft and plump and glacial, and super biteable, and the way he leaned into your touch like he wanted to feel every inch of you, well… It was irresistible. You slipped your tongue into the opening of his mouth provided by his kiss, flicking it teasingly across his own, pulling back before he could react.
“That was… unnecessary…” Casper said, panting. There was a faint blush across his cheeks like a dusting of stars. You grinned as you licked your bottom lip, as if you could still feel his taste.
“Not at all,” you chirped. “I mean, I was just helping you out. Don’t you feel a lot better now? No more taint, right?”
“You don’t need to get rid of the taint through direct skin to skin contact–”
“But it’s more fun that way, right?” You leaned in closer, watching as Casper tensed as your presence, his throat bobbing up and down as he swallowed. “You can’t lie. You like it when I kiss you, right?”
“I…”
“Casper,” you teased. “You know, you’re irresistible when you look like this.”
“Covered in blood? Fresh off a mission? You are ridiculous. And strange. And you have odd taste. Your shamelessness knows no bounds.”
“Hm… You know, I’m not sure the taint is quite gone,” you said, pouting. “Just to be safe, we should kiss again.”
You sealed his lips with yours just as Casper’s lips parted in protest. But he wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you flush against him. How cute. Casper simply couldn’t be honest with his feelings whatsoever. 
But that was okay. He was your partner, your lover, the other half of your soul, quite literally. Where did you begin, and where did he end? It no longer mattered. You were bound in such a way that meant the two of you could never be parted. 
It would just be you, and your adorable little reaper, for the rest of eternity.
v. Our Wedding
“What would you like first? Dinner? Bath? Or maybe… me?”
You batted your eyelashes at Casper, who covered his reddened face with his hands, letting out a deep groan. “By the nine hells, why are you like this?”
You struck a pose, sticking your hip out as you winked. “I was just asking. My cute little husband has worked so hard today, and I wanted to make sure he was well taken care of when he came back.”
“...Just let me in.”
You pouted, but willingly stepped out of the doorway to give Casper entry into your apartment. It had only been a few weeks since your wedding, but the two of you had struck up a nice little routine. You left the apartment for work before Casper did, kissing his forehead as he grumbled sleepily before you headed out. Casper got home after you did, which meant you had an hour or two to prepare little pranks like this for when he got back.
In those few hours in which you waited for him to return home, your mind drifted to him more often than you wanted to admit. How could you tell him that you missed him when he was gone? It would have been embarrassing, and more than that, made Casper insufferable.
“You’re the one who loved me enough to marry me,” you said, closing the door softly as you stepped in after him.
“Which was… perhaps a hasty decision,” he grumbled.
“Well, too bad. I’m yours now. Forever!” You grinned triumphantly, holding up your hand, pointing to your finger on which a golden ring gleamed. The ring was set with two sparkling white stones and a slightly larger red gem. You had always thought this, but… “The colors are sort of cliche, don’t you think?” 
“What do you mean?” Casper protested. “White and red are really good colors. A perfect combination!”
“Well… They’re your colors, aren’t they?” you said coyly. “It’s kinda like you wanted to mark me in some kinda way. Possessive, aren’t we?” 
Casper cleared his throat, unable to meet your probing gaze. “W-well, what is wrong with that? I don’t want anyone to flirt with you. Or try to take you away from me. Or think that you didn’t have anyone waiting for you at home.”
“I doubt anyone is going to flirt with me,” you said. “Do you know how hard it is to meet people in our modern society? With the economy the way it is? No one has the time to flirt with strangers.”
“Well, that’s better for me, then,” he muttered.
“Oooh, you’re jealous,” you said. “You love me so much.”
“Nine hells…”
“You love me to death. You love me so much it’s embarrassing!”
“You’re the one who proposed to me,” Casper accused. “So you have no room to talk.”
“Well, yeah…” You really didn’t have a comeback for that. “I wouldn’t marry someone I didn’t love, you know?”
Casper took a step forward, a smug expression on his face as he advanced. “Oho? So maybe you’re the one who loves me so much it’s embarrassing.”
“Oh, get your own jokes,” you grumbled.
“It’s no joke at all, Sunshine.” He was close. Way too close. Close enough that he took your hand and reverentially brought it to his lips, kissing each finger. His lips lingered on your ring finger, and he kissed it again. “So you can get flustered, too, I see.”
Your ears burned. What sort of face were you making? One that made Casper look at you with a self-satisfied expression, that was for sure. “Hey!”
“Hey, you know what. I changed my mind,” Casper said.
“Changed your mind?” you asked.
Casper looped an arm around your waist, pulling you closer. “What you asked earlier. I changed my mind. I do want something from you, after all.”
Without warning, he kissed you on the lips. Gently, tenderly. Like he was offering prayers to you, each kiss so sweet and thoughtful it made your heart burst. You tangled your fingers in his hair, pulling him closer, angling your head. Casper let out a little moan as you yanked the strands, and your eyebrows raised. Interesting. Very interesting. This was definitely something you were going to use later.
“I love you,” you murmured against his lips.
“I… love you, too,” he breathed.
Maybe in the future, the two of you would annoy each other. You would fight. Get angry. Then, you would make up. Maybe you would cry. But you would have happiness, too. He would make you laugh, and smile, and feel a love so deep you would never be able to love anyone else in that way again. But it didn’t matter. What mattered was here and now. What mattered was that you chose him, and as long as Casper was by your side, you could do anything. Go anywhere. Be anyone.
Luckily, all you wanted to be was to be his.
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heyitsish · 3 years
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Tagged by @recurring-despondency thank yooouu 🥰 sorry, took me a while ✌
💌 - what day is ur bday??
2/2
💌 - what’s ur fav colour??
Gray
💌 - whats ur lucky number??
I don't have any
💌 - do u have any pets??
Yep!! Casper 🐶
💌 - how tall r u??
5' 🙈
💌 - how many pairs of shoes do u own??
I'm not sure. I kinda have a lot, but I usually just wear my one favorite
💌 - favourite song??
One's Semi-Charmed Life by Third Eye Blind 🎶
💌 - favourite movie??
Truman Show + Up are on top of the list
💌 - what would be ur ideal partner??
Someone I'm comfortable with, and who loves me the way I need to be loved (:
💌 - do u want children??
In the future, probably
💌 - have u gotten in trouble w the law??
Nah 😇
💌 - favourite swear word??
Holy shit. Fuck.
💌 - bath or shower??
Shower
💌 - what colour socks r u wearing rn??
Not wearing socks rn
💌 - fav type of music??
Mostly pop punk, but I listen to almost everything
💌 - how many pillows do u sleep with??
2
💌 - what position do u sleep in??
Depends, really
💌 - what u dont like when ur asleep??
Forgetting to wear my mouth guard, sleeping without 1 of my 🐘, when someone's too close to me. I need my space lol
💌 - what do u have for breakfast??
I can’t remember the last time I had one cos 😴😴😴
💌 - have u ever tried archery??
Nope
💌 - fav fruit??
Mangoes
💌 - do u have any scars??
Yep -- I have one on my left knee when I fell off a bike when I was a kid, a few on my right leg from a dog bite
💌 - r u a good liar??
Not really, not even as a joke cos my face betrays me when I do 🙄
💌 - whats ur fav type of girl??
Real
💌 - innie or outtie??
Somewhere in the middle
💌 - left or right handed??
Right
💌 - fav food??
Soup
💌 - r u a messy or a clean person??
I’m an organized mess
💌 - most used phrase??
Wth, wtf, whyyyyyy
💌 - how long does it take for u to get ready??
I give myself an hour, but half of it’s spent lazing around
💌 - do u talk to urself??
Yep
💌 - do u sing to urself??
Yasss
💌 - r u a good singer??
I don't think so 😅
💌 - biggest fear??
Losing a loved one + some stuff
💌 - r u a gossip??
Nope
💌 - do u like long hair or short hair??
Either
💌 - fav school subject??
Philo
💌 - introvert or extrovert??
Introvert
💌 - what makes u nervous??
Everything?
💌 - who was ur first crush??
This guy who was extra kind to me haha
💌 - how many piercings do u have??
The usual one on each ear
💌 - how fast can u run??
I used to be pretty fast, but it's been a while so idk
💌 - what colour is ur hair??
Black
💌 - what colour r ur eyes??
Brown
💌 - what makes u angry??
People (me)
💌 - do u like ur own name??
It’s okay, but I prefer being called by my nickname
💌 - do u want a boy or a girl as a child??
No preference
💌 - what r ur strengths??
Kindness
💌 - what r ur weaknesses??
Anxiety, never running out of excuses
💌 - whats the colour of ur bedspread??
Blue
💌 - colour of ur room??
White
I hope you guys don't mind me tagging you 😬 @highwayman-89 @j05eph @keeyo7 @manderz182 @eckspress @moiz117 @gengarrbangarr @wiggz89
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fen-ha-fuck-you · 7 years
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Tagged by @sat-star-one thank you sweet angel
RULES: you must answer 92 statements and tag 20 people.
THE LAST 1. Drink:Mountain Dew 2. Phone call: my mom 3. Text: amanda (@jesuisleslegumes) and I shit talking a mutual aquaintance (who 100% deserves it) 4. Song you listened to: Trust Each Other from the Game of Thrones season 6 soundtrack 5. Time you cried: Watching a little girl with an amazing voice get four yeses on America’s Got Talent
6. Dated someone twice: nope 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: absolutely 8. Been cheated on: I don’t think so 9. Lost someone special: of course 10. Been depressed: when have I not tbh Gotten drunk and thrown up: never been drunk, never want to be
LIST 3 FAV COLOURS (12-14): royal purple, dark red, dark blue
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: nope lol 16. Fallen out of love: i don’t think i’ve ever been in love 17. Laughed until you cried: probably? 18. Found out someone was talking about you: no? 19. Met someone who changed you: my conflict and revolution in early america professor, professor grayson 20. Found out who your friends are: yep 21. Kisses someone on your Facebook list: lol no
GENERAL 22. How many of your fb friends do you know irl: all of them? 23. Do you have any pets: a pup, he’s a maltese named casper and he’s the sweetest 24. Do you want to change your name: only if i become famous lmao 25. What did you do for your last bday: nothing 26. Time you woke up: late 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: amanda to come visit :’)  29. Last time u saw ur mom: a few hours ago 30. Last time u saw ur best friend: december? i think? 31. What were u listening to rn: Game of Thrones soundtrack 32. Have u ever talked to a person named tom: yes 33. Something that is getting on ur nerves: negativity     34. Most visited website: probably youtube 35- 37: three fav albums!! Love and War — Fleurie, Fever Ray — Fever Ray, Counterflow — Viktoria Modesta 38: Hair colour: dark brown, dyed dark purple 39: Long or short hair: currently long 40. Do u have a crush on someone: maybe? unsure tbh 41. What do u like about ur self: everything, i love myself 42. Piercings: none 43. Blood type: i dunno 44. Nickname: abby is a nickname lol 45. Relationship status: single as fuck 46. Zodiac: taurus 47. Pronouns: she/her or they/them i don’t really care 48. Fav tv show: the 100 and game of thrones 49. Tattoos: i want one 50. Right or left handed: right 51. Surgery: none 52. piercing: none 53. Sport: lol 54. Hobby: video games, reading, gif making, video making 55. Vacation: ?  56. Instrument: none
MORE GENERAL 57. Eating rn:cereal 58. Drinking rn: nothing 59. I’m about to: make gifs 60. I just: talked to my little sister 61. Waiting for: game of thrones lol 62. Want to: die? idk 63. Get married: maybe eventually 64. Career: voice actress for video games and such and/or editor for the entertainment industry
WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: both 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: both? 68. Older or younger: uhhh around the same? 69. i give up man: lol 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms 71. go out or stay at home? a nice mix of both 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: a bit of both
HAVE YOU EVER 74. Kissed a stranger:no 75. Drank hard liquor: vodka was the first thing i ever drank (thanks amanda) 76. Lost glasses/contacts: i don’t have glasses or contacts 77. Turned someone down: yes 78. Sex on the first date: depends on the person 79. Broken someone’s heart: i hope not but probably 80. Had ur heart broken: not in a relationship 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: what the fuck yes 83. Fallen for a friend: yes?
DO YOU BELIEVE IN 84. Yourself: most of the time 85. Miracles: not usually 86. Love at first sight: no 87. Santa Claus: not anymore 88. Kiss on the first date: again, depends 89. Angels: no
OTHER 90. Current bf/gf/so’s name: nope lol 91. Eye Colour: very very blue 92. Fav movie: wonder woman. hard stop.
I’m not tagging anyone, but if you see this and want to do it, do it and tag me
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