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#86, Shisui/Tenzo perhaps? 👀

#86- “Don’t be scared, I’m right here.”

Shisui found the air to shudder out a laugh at that, jaw clenched tight and body thrumming with tension. "Picked that up from the Base Kids, hm?"

Tenzo, for all his gentle - if awkward - tone, was a little too tense where he held Shisui's hands in both of his. He ducked his head, long strands of hair spilling over his shoulders, and something close to bashfulness coloured his face. For all he was still unsure about recognising emotion and conveying it intentionally, Tenzo had one of the most honest faces that Shisui had ever seen; his dark eyes told a story, even if Tenzo himself wasn't sure of the words.

They remained standing, frozen in time and thigh deep in the water, for an endless moment.

Shisui, forcibly breathing through the panic at the feel of the current strengthening around him, ignored the shifting stones under his bare feet.

Tenzo, comforting and dependable, seemed just as spooked by Shisui's reaction to the water as Shisui was. He'd promised to help, though, and he that was what he'd been doing.

For a long while, Shisui didn't think that Tenzo was actually going to respond to his teasing about the children they'd rescued from the ROOT facilities, who had latched onto Tenzo like ducklings imprinting on their new 'mama'. There was already talk of making room for Tenzo in a Yamanaka house, something that made Shisui's heart thump oddly.

Then, fingers squeezing Shisui's already white-knuckled grip, Tenzo spoke.

"It wasn't the children, actually..."

Shisui's smile felt a little less strained than before. For a moment, he could focus more on the pink blooming across Tenzo's cheeks than the water. "Inoichi-sensei?''

It sounded like him, sensei was very careful to monitor when Ino-chan helped in the gardens with the Base Kids; As much as Shisui adored her, she really could have a sharp-tongue.

Tenzo's blush actually worsened at that, spreading up to his hairline and mottling under the freckles across his cheeks until he looked more sunburned than anything.

Shisui pulled on their hands a little and felt how Tenzo didn't even sway; he'd agreed to use Mokuton through the riverbed to help Shisui feel more secure in the water. So far, they hadn't managed to get to any depth that would rely on his branches.

With a forcedly even breath, in and out, Shisui shuffled one foot forward and then followed with the other. The space between them shortened by half a foot. The floor, whilst hobbled with stones, didn't disappear out from under him. He didn't sink beneath the surface, water filling his lungs and stifling the heat of his fire-chakra beneath its crushing force-

Tenzo's gaze was a bit wobbily but his hands were as strong as ever. He was built like that, large hands and deceptively broad shoulders, and thick chocolate hair and Shisui just knew he was going to be a different kind of devasting when he was older compared to now.

But he was also steady because he was Tenzo. Not to wax poetic about earth-types but Tenzo really did embody his chakra nature; adaptable, irrepressible, patient, so breathtakingly kind, practical, constant. There were a dozen people Shisui could've asked to help him with getting over his - to them, inexplicable - fear of the Naka river, but Tenzo had been the first to come to mind. This wasn't Inoichi's carefully moderated therapy sessions. This was Shisui putting himself, vulnerable and so weak, into Tenzo's care and trusting him more than his fears could affect him.

Of course Shisui was doing this with Tenzo. How could it ever be anyone else?

Tenzo, so slowly, drew Shisui further into the water, close enough for their hands to pull up against his shoulders and for the water to rise to Shisui's belly button.

"You know, if you heard that line in a parenting book, you may as well tell me now, Tenzo-kun," Shisui laughed, and could almost ignore how his voice shook. "The suspense is-"

Killing me.

Tenzo, even without knowing the cause, didn't miss how Shisui's good humour vanished. His hands flexed, skin dry and warm and made even hotter by the beating sun from overhead.

"It was you."

Shisui- blinked. Blinked again.

"It was-"

Tenzo hummed, low in his throat, and one of his rare, natural smiles curled the very corners of his mouth. It softened his skin - no longer as washed out from never seeing the light of day - around his eyes.

"You, yes. You were very-" a pause, before he carefully chose the word he wanted "-bright. Encouraging. I wasn't weak or stupid, with you. I'm... pleased that I can help you, Shisui-kun."

Shisui's eyebrows raised a degree, incredulous. "Bright."

Tenzo nodded.

Shisui's cheeks dimpled. "You know, that sounds a lot like you."

Tenzo's lashes fluttered a little, like he wanted to blink but couldn't look away. "Me?"

It was Shisui's turn to smile, feeling heat crawling up the back of his neck but too focused on the warmth of Tenzo as he shifted a little closer until they were standing so, so close. "You know... Bright, encouraging. In fact, you could say that you came first."

"...first?" Tenzo's brow crumpled.

"For that line." Shisui leaned in, trailing his nose down Tenzo's and allowing his smile to broaden into a full-blown grin. The water was still scary, he wasn't comfortable, but- he wasn't as fearful.

"I'm not as scared because you're here."

#torship #torship talks #ask #anon #drabble prompts #ask game #drabble #prompt fic game #shisui shipping #shisui #tenzo #shisui x tenzo #mutual pining #requited love #BUT THEY HAVENT CONFESSED YET!!! THEYRE JUST STUPID AND EMOTIONAL #also can we appreciate that I do these fics FROM Shisui's pov because yk that otherwise it would just be an endless shisui thirst 🤣🤣

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cinnaminsvga · 4 years

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In the past I've asked for how your characters would react to their counterparts across your smaus. It's time for the new version: Who would win in a fight if you put your characters against their smau counterparts (so all Y/Ns against each other, all Yoongis against each other and so on)??? You can choose to include/exclude whoever you want and take as long as you want in replying or even choose not to lol

HAJDHAJSD THIS TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER IM SORRY but i do get super excited whenever you send me one of these, so i wanna get this right!! i think i’m only gonna include the last three smaus (tddup, 300mdh, lib) bc i dont think i could even handle imagining what it would be like to have six seokjins... that’s some forbidden knowledge right there 😳

seokjin - jfc where do i even begin... for all my old followers, yall know that i just love writing seokjin as unhinged and chaotic as possible so you can only guess how terrible it would be if three of him were to fight. ok tbh 300mdh!jin would definitely win bc?? hes a fucking spy?? but i could somehow see tddup!jin finding a way to fight back,,, idk he could probs trick zeus!kook to help him by promising him some miku merch or smth,, LMAO and lib!jin is just there,,, smartly avoiding the conflict and streaming it on twitch or smth

yoongi - oh my boy,,, tddup!yoongi is absolutely frying lib!yoongi’s ass for not confessing his feelings HDKWJDKWK as hades, he’s probs gone thru his own fair share of heartbreaks (haha OOP spoiler alert for a prequel series maybe??) and he’d honestly be so so sad for lib!yoongi but also just frustrated?? he’d be frustrated with 300mdh!yoongi too tbh bc that dude has repressed feelings for mr kim seokjin that he still hasnt figured out yet,,, tldr yoongi smites the other two yoongis but then comforts them afterwards inside his cavernous ass ❤️

hoseok - sorry but 300mdh!seok is winning no cap,,, tho OKAY i havent revealed yet why, but he’s actually a pretty harmless guy,,, (ignoring the fact that hes a double spy and HAS killed people in the past... uhhh) but yea he’d just pretend to be a really nice guy and get along well with the other two hoseoks,,, tddup!seok is an idiot and probs wouldnt even notice anything off about him, but lib!seok might have a gut feeling that somethings wrong,,, this is actually a really strange trio and idk how it would turn out exactly,,, definitely some sus things going on,,, lol

namjoon - well, tddup!joon is currently a turtle so you bet your ass that lib!joon is keeping him as a pet LMAOOOO my dude would unknowingly keep tddup!joon until he somehow magically returns to being a human. 300mdh!joon is a bit harder to pin down, since it all depends on whether he’s drunk or not LMAO bc if he was drunk, you’d bet your ass that he’d be a fucking dramatic/emotional mess and would wax poetic about turtle joon and lib!joon would have to comfort him. if he was sober, he’d just be a “regular” guy, or however regular a spy can be. overall, they’d hang out altogether just fine,,, like a couple of nerds,,,

jimin - well, you all know how tddup!jimin is like and that bitch is hornier than all my smau jimins combined. he’s so ferally horny that lib!jimin would probs shit himself, though i’d imagine 300mdh!jimin could maybe handle him a little better.... somewhat. they might even get along after a while, though i have a standing theory that all my smau!jimins hate each other no matter what, like that popular clique of girls you have in high school. they all pretend to be friend with each other, but they would not hesitate to stab a bitch if and when provoked. fun times!

taehyung - in contrast with jimin, i feel like all my taehyungs would have a good time together, no matter what au (okay, maybe except for looh!tae but thats a whole different story lmao). i think tddup!tae would get along super well with 300mdh!tae, mostly bc theyre both incredibly chaotic and have a kinda “go with the flow as long as we’re having fun” vibe. lib!tae is just maybe a little more “calm” than them, but he’s always down to clown. tddup!tae would probs bonk lib!tae on the head tho once he finds out about what he did to lib!oc, but other than that... i think they’d all be good buddies.

jungkook - oh boy where do i even start... i feel like tddup!kook, despite how absolutely stupid he is, he’s still... somewhat morally sound?? i guess?? like he loves his wife a lot (#1 oc simp lets get it) so he’d probs be so angry and frustrated with what lib!kook did. might even hit him with a lightning bolt if we’re being honest. 300mdh!kook would agree and beat the shit out of lib!kook, and then he’d bond with zeus!kook over weeb shit and they’d become the best bros ever. but then zeus!kook will say some,,, weird kinky shit and break the mood so then 300mdh!kook + tddup!oc will have to tie him up so he never speaks again,,, they’d certainly be a very wild trio,,, maybe even worse than the seokjins and that’s saying something!!

oc - OHHH MY GOD like fr but tddup!oc is gonna baby lib!oc so much you have no idea ;-; she’ll see how badly her heart got broken by her version of jungkook and probs offer to kill lib!kook, but sweet lib!oc would protect him even after all she’s been thru,,, i see tddup!oc as being a great older sister figure for lib!oc and tbh i stan!! and uhh... we all know how 300mdh!oc is... she’s also an older sister figure, but demented and insane. okay, so she’s maybe more like your crazy aunt that smokes too much crack but you know what? you cant hate her so shes just kinda there and sometimes she’ll say something super profound and is genuinely a loving person (deep deep down... like you have dig deep lol) but otherwise yea!! all the love for my ocs,,, they’re my babies and i love them so so much :-((((

#textau4 #textau5 #textau6 #AHSJDKJSKDJAS these are always fun i love em #best #runningtospringday #answered

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uwumessenger · 4 years

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Which mystic messenger characters remind you of the obey me characters and why? :)

dude you got this lingering in my head and i havent been able to complete any other requests bc this one just really got me thinkin so HERE WE GO DJDJDJJD

some of the explanations do include spoilers so be careful ! some of the characters in obey me seem to be a combination of multiple characters from mysme so yea. i've completed mystic messenger but i havent finished the obey me main story yet so everything is based on what i know up until lesson 16.

V (Jihyun)/707/Jumin = Lucifer

lucifer mainly reminds me of V bc they both kept a pretty heavy secret from the other characters out of consideration for their health/feelings

and both secrets were related to faking the death of an important person in everyone's life

both of their secrets only came out when it was practically forced out of them, too.

V, like lucifer, is also the leader figure (but not in a diavolo typa way, yenno)

and theyre both such loyal ppl omg V was literally BLINDED and basically traumatized by rika but he stuck w/ her

and lucifer is equally as loyal to diavolo...but i think hes a bit more sane lololol

lucifer is waaaaaaaaaaaaaay more hostile than V. the way he lashes out at MC reminded me of the way seven lowkey lashes out at MC in his route (iykyk </3)

IT H URT

so yea he and seven both need work on their emotional stability so they can express their feelings better...sHeesh

lucifer's work ethic actually reminds me more of jaehee

physically he definitely looks like jumin

bUT HE ALSO goes along with the exchange program similar to how jumin went along with offering MC a spot in the RFA bc of his trust in V.

all of them (minus seven) are also the eldest in the game

707 (Saeyoung)/Yoosung = Mammon

t s u n d e r e s.

both of them have a very bubbly and obnoxious personality, but seven uses it mainly as a cover up. i think mammon is genuinely that way, not using it to cover up a backstory as sad as seven's LMAOMAO

i added yoosung only bc both of them are always getting bullied lolololol

and they're both (for lack of better words) the stupid one of the group

hm i actually think mammon is one of the only characters that didn't really remind me of any mysme character when i started playing obey me

but both he and seven seem to be the in-game MC's "true love" based on the way both of them act and are percieved in both games

i could be wrong tho bc in the april fool's dlc zen broke the fourth wall harder than seven ever did. but then again that's also why i said in-game MC not you-the-player MC hsjdjdjd if that makes any sense !

Zen = Asmo

well this one is pretty obvious

both are obsessed with their looks and are lovey dovey

howeVER it looks like asmo's pretty tech-savvy whereas zen is tech-illiterate dmckjxms (esp in v's route....)

both have a wave of fans who freak out over them as well

theyre physically similar too, i think asmo has the longest hair compared to the others

i think everything else is self explanatory LOL

Yoosung = Levi

another super obvious one

gaMER NATION

they both hole themselves up in their rooms

i think levi might be more emotionally stable than yoosung (common route/casual story yoosung, hes better in his after ending)

also in the ruri-chan event, were those omlettes we collected? it reminded me of yoosung's omurice haha

levi kinda dresses more similar to seven tho

yoosung could also be yandere-ish sh ivers and levi is the avatar of envy so there ya go

i have nothing else everything is self explanatory here too

Jaehee/Yoosung/Jumin = Satan

mainly jaehee and satan resemble one another

both are studious

jaehee's interest in zen's musicals are similar to satan's interest in books and knowledge !

satan also likes dramas so he and jaehee would probably have a fun time watching one of zen's plays

both are also different from the other characters: satan is the only brother who was not previously an angel and jaehee is the only woman in the RFA (minus MC)

hes also similar to yoosung bc yoosung is such a b!tch to V and lucifer resembles V the most (imo)

theyre also the youngest age wise

included jumin bc CATS

satan would absolutely love elizabeth and join jumin in the quest for a universe ran by cats

707(Saeyoung) = Beelzebub

well,

seven and all the honey buddah chips/phd pepper he can consume shares the same energy with beel and all the food in general he can consume

both also are the most similar physically, but beel is probably way bigger than seven :')

i think if seven was in beel's position when lucifer confessed that lillith was turned into a human and lived out the rest of her life, seven would have reacted the exact same to the way beel did

both are amazing brothers, and the way they care for their twin is similar

they also were seperated from their twin and lied to about what happened...my heart hurts :(

at the end of the day theyre both sweethearts who have been through a lot of tough stuff and deserve all the hugs and kisses and snacks in the world uwu

Saeran(Unknown/Ray)/Yoosung = Belphegor

WHEW THE RESEMBLANCE

both saeran and belphegor have been through soooooo much oh goodness

both of them are also hostile to MC at some point in the game, then warm up to MC later

both are also the biggest source of conflict in their respective games (not in a mean way omg they just kinda trigger the chain of events)

i.e unknown leading MC to rika's apartment to "find the owner of the phone"/ray leading MC to mint eye to "test out a game" = belphie meeting MC at the top of the staircase to help break him free

i hope that made sense i dunno

theyre also similar when theyre not hostile to MC

such SWEETHEARTS hawh omg

both are twin brothers who need all the love and ice cream in existence <3

wow yoosung is like...in everyone

the way yoosung reacted to rika actually being alive was pretty similar to the way belphie reacted to hearing about lillith living as a human

#luciferhateclub #vhateclub

ALSO the way belphie hated humans (specifically da bf) after what happened to lillith........yoosung also hated V after what happened to rika omg these children

bonus

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crumpledjournal · 7 years

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5.2.17

so apparently my school does this program where kids can head out into the woods for a weekend every once in a while and just… talk it out i guess. that was this past weekend, Ma (not my mom, a friend) told me to go. my old history teacher had been plugging for the trip for years, but id never actually gone. never thought id be able to explain wanting to go have a feelings jam with a buncha other kids in the woods to my dad. i didnt really until i came back and recapped a little (honoring the agreement i signed before going to not share anyones story from the trip).

on the one hand, i feel so fucking healthy!!! i feel like i have subsisted for the past year off of nothing but avocado smoothies and kale juice and like i have been doing yoga for 85 hours a day and like i finally met a person or two who i can actually speak my mind to and get more than just a “sure dude.” like, good lord does this feel good

i mean, thats what i told Ge and Di and i genuinely believe it. (both Di and i knew basically nobody other than eachother and we were alone in a sea of strangers for the first few hours.)

dont get me wrong, i feel lots better. i got a lot off of my chest. but there was also a lot left unsaid on my part. out of all the people there (about 90) there were two others who shared that they were genderqueer (and there were only like two other people who brought up the topic at all). one of them i had some p bad experiences with in middle school. the other was a student leader and facilitator of the trip, so Re (the leader) didnt really have a lot of time to talk, and in the discussions Re was mostly asking questions and… well, facilitating. plus, gender came up like once. and Re was not there.

but i was! it was nice to talk a little. i was in a meeting with the school principal about installing gender neutral bathrooms at the school a week or two ago and i talked about that with them, and i told them that being genderqueer goes waywaywayway back and lots of other stuff, i guess. but i didnt say anything about my experiences with being genderqueer, really.

and damn did i want to! idk if yall have picked up on this yet (all none of you) but talking to people about my shit is just so healing for me. thats why i have a public journal! like, talking to equals and feeling heard. i could tell my mom or the school therapist (and i do, often) about my shit and its cool, theyre supportive and shit, but since i started this class ive had no time to keep up old friendships that were based around hanging out. like, were still friends i guess, but… playing minigolf over text is just not the same, man.

there was this thing last night where from like, right after dinner until about 3 in the morning, we talked. people had seven minutes that they could use however they wanted in front of the whole group, and it was just their job to listen. and let me tell you, id been crafting my seven minutes for like, three hours before my name came up. the thing is, i planned like twenty minutes of monologue. i talked about a bunch of the family stuff ive got and that was real cathartic. i also got to talk about my struggles with depression, which was a real common topic. but… ive been thinking about the possibility of myself being a trans girl really, really hard over the past couple of months, and i still havent shared that other than with the people whove read this journal.

which is nobody, other than a couple people browsing tags when i talked about moana a little while ago. i havent told that many people i write this, but. i kinda trusted those who i did to read it i guess.

i dunno. i think im most afraid that im not going to have any healthy girl friendships. i see all these women and girls and they have such supportive relationships with eachother. i see it every day. holy shit, if you havent seen the rage and passion with which girls defend their true friends… Hoo Boy.

and im so worried i wont have that! like. i love being agender, and it’s wonderful to have the ability and the knowledge and the acceptance to be an out nonbinary person and not really have so many problems stemming from that in my life. but i have this fear that that ill be in this purgatory of a questioning period for just long enough that when i finally make up my goddamn mind and trust my conviction enough to come out as a trans girl ill have lost the opportunity to have these wonderful, girl-to-girl relationships. as an agender person i feel like so much of an intruder in these female spaces.

Like, Ha (who I met on the trip) was so wonderful and badass, especially considering the amount of shit shes had to go through. jimminy christmas, shes fucking strong. i try not to gender people here but when the topic is gender itself that kind of context feels crucial… but anyways. she came and sat with me when i was eating lunch alone in the corner and brought a couple other girls and. i mean, some of the body language of the others kind of told me they werent super interested in me being there but… it felt… so good. just to be in a female space, just to be included there for the most part, without cis guys around that i would get lumped with.

but then i think i had a panic attack like, near to immediately after that, because i felt like i was making them incredibly uncomfortable by being an intruder in their female space. and when my female friends were having a hard time during the trip (as often happened) i felt like it wasnt my place to comfort them and that as a natal male i would just make them more uncomfortable and they would doubt their friendship with me because so many guys just take advantage of women when they’re at their lowest emotional state and that’s the last thing i want to be seen as and i tried to hug a few women who were having a really hard time over the course of the trip but i just got this churning in my stomach because i might make it worse if i make them think i just want to hug them so i can feel them aginst my stupid fucking body and if i keep writing this sentence then im going to have another panic attack

i dont know what to do. i dont know who to talk to because despite the number of people who said i could come to them this weekend, nobody else talked about gender shit, and those genderqueer people who i do know have just told me to look into my heart and shit, which doesnt help because thats what ive been trying to do. i feel like i cant talk to women because to them ill just be another guy who’s venting because he feels like he can dump all his emotional shit on the closest woman (especially women i just met on the trip, i couldnt ask them to spend however long it takes out of their day to read this when i just met them). i feel like i cant talk to men because if theyre not transphobic to begin with, they either refuse to talk about emotional shit, or can neither relate to feeling like they wont have any healthy girl-to-girl friendships nor realte to being genderqueer. i know im going to send this little essay to somebody soon because i just need to hear at least one other persons thoughts but i dont know who its going to be

and on top of all of that i keep getting these stomach aches at mealtimes and no other time of day and i dont know if it was the confessions from people with eating disorders or something else but my stomach aches and then i dont eat and then it aches because im hungry until the next meal when it aches again and i cant eat and when youre choosing between not eating or eating and feeling like you want to throw up, do you have an eating disorder already? i dont know anything thats going on with my body and im depressed and i feel so ashamed because there were so many people who had stories that felt so much more real than just a pronoun and a stomach ache and they spent their seven minutes with what seemed like no regrets about not having shared things and here i am writing a fucking dissertation pity paper about myself because i feel like it wasnt enough time to talk about my dumb fucking problems even though what i have aint shit and if i fall into the spiral of ands i legitimately will have a worse panic attack and i dont know who i can comfortably ask to do the fucking weightlifting championship level shit that is required to do the emotional heavy lifting and read bullshit im putting on the page without feeling like im inconveniencing them to the nth degree

so i guess thats where im at

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