Is it possible to do, like... reverse shadow work?

Where you know you accepted/solved an internal/personal problem in a past life, but you don't know how? Where you already did the work part, and you know you did it Successfully, but can't remember how, and now you want to try to remember it?

I really want to understand how I made peace with my "raven beast" as Li|ith.

I can't say I understand entirely what Ed|a's struggle with hers was. I can't say I EVER understood how her inner mechanisms worked very well... Maybe a power imbalance? Maybe self-hatred? Maybe guilt? Maybe it was as simple as compartmentalizing too hard? I'm not entirely sure.

But I'm even LESS sure about what MINE was. And how I established balance and synergy with mine.

I have a few... inklings. I may have impulsively dealt with things by distracting myself with work, maybe some denial, maybe simply losing myself, maybe throwing myself into solving problems too hard. Maybe I saw MINE as a reflection of guilt; maybe I told myself I deserved to suffer it. Maybe I had to heal an aspect of my relationship with Ed|a to heal a relationship with myself. (But I don't think the curse-beast is entirely A Reflection of Myself; there was Something Else I struggled with that wasn't entirely my own making, just... how I reacted to it?)

I don't even know if Eda helped or if I figured it out myself. I feel like she had told me things, but she wasn't guiding me step-by-step the moment I had the breakthrough. I don't think she COULD have done that. I wasn't exactly the most... self-reflective. Not in an Intentional Personal Growth kind of way, heh. (Angsting, on the other hand......)

...I AM getting inklings that mine was a touch more playful in... whatever balance we found. I think I'm remembering... rolling around? In dirt or snow or something?

Gah, it's just Frustrating, because I know it would have been Momentous. A victory! A triumph! But alas, I can't remember how I won it.