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#8UT THEN I FLIRDEDDDD with my g3333f X3333333 and that was so fun i like like hir. hehehe
cornflowercanine · 2 years
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love is crazy it will literally make you listen to hurricane and molasses the hush sound and if you were to ever get lyrics tattooed on your 8ody itd 8e from either of those songs and it will make you wear a ring and it will make you want to cry that your ring is just a flimsy itty 8itty ru88er 8and in hiser favor8 color and so you pick through all your rings that are supposed to 8e yours and ask pick one. and wear it every single day only taking it off when washing your hair (it snags otherwise) and it will make you wring your own hands and it will make you understand long-term rel8ionships and committed rel8ionships and wanting them in the first place and f33ling 8etter 8c of them and monogamy and only liking one person and not 8eing interested in anyone else and getting angry when other ppl like you like that and snappy when they try to get with you like that and it will make you understand wedding dresses and happily ever after and it will make you walk outside in the sun and take a d33p 8reath and realize holy shit, you're here. you're here in the same world as xr. you made it this far. it's not like everything else didn't exist 8efore you talked 8ut now it's like, oh my god, everything fits now, everything makes sense now. and it has made me write and it has made me make poetry and it has made me want to share it to desper8ly get ppl to understand this thing that has taken over my life (falling in love) AND IT'S MADE THEM WANT TO START WRITING TOO? and. i could go on
#clove rambles#personal#n_n today was a really good day. kinda messy for the first half#8UT THEN I FLIRDEDDDD with my g3333f X3333333 and that was so fun i like like hir. hehehe#and then me and my moirail talked a8t domesticities and h33r fell asl33p and now im insane.#i thought everyone was like lying a8t this whole spending your life with someone shit#i thought they were making it up NOPE nope nope the idea of not 8eing with xr for the fors33a8le future#and then some is a8solutely agonizing soulcrushing infuri8ing and its just not smth i WANT!!!#AND THATS SO NEW TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i know ive talked a8t himer so many times 8efore on here 8ut#i cant overst8 it. my life has 8ecome completely engulfed AND enriched 8y this#it impacts me 8c im so happy with xr it impacts my rel8ionship with myself#it impacts my rel8ionship with others it impacts specific ppl i know with how many stories i have to tell#it impacts how i s33 others it impacts how i s33 the world it impacts how i s33 existing physically#it impacts how i s33 handling yourself mentally and emotionally and poorly vs properly managing rel8ionships#it impacts how i s33 love and what True Love must 8e and what everyones talking a8t#and what ppl are making up and whats real and how come if theyre saying this; 8y definition;#is romantic love; this is the love that makes you wanna kiss someone; that it fits us perfectly up til then?#is love not as universal as we thought? if what em8odies romance to everyone else em8odies platonicism#8eyond friends to us; then; who's wrong? are they wrong for calling it strictly that?#was everyone wrong for splitting love up into sections like this? do we f33l something else?#is this not love in the first place and we're experiencing smth else? IT'S STR8 UP INSANE#8UT PPL WOULD TALK A8T THEIR SPOUSES OR WHATEVER; AND THIS TIME; IT'D SOUND GOOD. I'D UNDERSTAND#AND THAT MADE ME GO WHAT THE FUCK WHAT EVEN IS LOVE THEN#life is really good. im going to sl33p
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