i think i lost the ability to write smut this is tragic

me everytime @b1mbodoll reblogs one of my posts :

i fucking hate oneits annoying ass fandom they only care abt mh n hj when they talk abt them not meeting up with the other x1 members

me after turning what was supposed to be smut with no plot into the most heart shattering piece of angst i've ever written

hi :3

so ig i cant use lovejoy/wilbur song titles for my fics anymore ....

i want to write for fromis sooo bad but also . despite them being my ult gg i dont want to write them 'wrong' ? if that makes sense ? n also just .. idk how to write sapphic/lesbian nsfw n kpop smut tumblr is so overwhelmingly heteronormative so the fromis smut tag scares me

btw i swear last night i had a dream abt minhee but i cant remember anythingggg abt it this is so frustrating 👹👹👹

suddenly started getting random excruciating pain from my boobs so if i dont reply anymore just assume i died

im extremely bored lets talk send asks idk

abt to start engaging in ni-ki smut discourse with the way y'all r pissing me off GET OUT OF THE ENHYPEN SMUT TAG ATP UR FR DOING IT ON PURPOSE BC U KNOW PPL R GOING TO ATTACK U

im abt to start gentle parenting ur asses bc does it rlly cost u that much to at least say please and thank you when leaving requests in my asks

can y'all stop spamming the enhypen smut tag with 'discourse' (dont like this word but ig in lack of a better term i'll use it ..) abt nikis age like isnt putting 'dont write nsfw abt a minor' in whats basically a nsfw tag a little counterproductive (?)

(especially if ur trying to 'defend' urself from ppl who r rightfully mad at u for writing smut abt a minor .. at least be quiet abt it or im going to assume ur just doing it for attention bc u Know most ppl r not ok with it n r going to attack u tf)

omg screaming icb i forgot about woobin’s boobs yes pls his body😫 i’m such a whore for everyone in cravity plsplss

i hope u have fun seeing them!! i bought tickets for p1h recently cuz i’ve always liked their music but i never really followed that closely but they’re performing near me and tix are decent and now i’m so excited to deco my lightstick and put together my outfit hehehe kpop concerts are so much fun and i wish there were more of them near me,,, i also wish i had ppl to go with too though because i saw enha in new jersey last year (i live in canada) so i flew there all by myself to see them😭 and i’m gonna be seeing p1h by myself too :((( ik other ppl are just being more responsible with their money but i’m sad because my friends said they’d want to see p1h and they’re gonna be so close (literally in the same city as one of my friends) and they still don’t wanna go😭

omg i rambled so much. erm. thank you. do u have a bias in onlyoneof yet? and are u a lightstick person(sorry if this is a rly silly question) like are u gonna get their lightstick for the show? i always pretend idc about lightstick but then i’m like i neeeed it i need the little accessory and a little poca holder with my bias in it for the concert like idec if my seats are that good i just need to be the cutest stan there

i think i might’ve had too much caffeine this morning. i hope your day is going well!!<333

- 🧁 anon

the real question is who isnt a whore for cravity tbh

god i wish p1h came to my country 😭 they came to europe already but im trying to save up so the only groups im willing to travel for rn r cravity n maybe tbz since they r only having 2 dates in europe this yr but idk if i can afford paris or london bc they r both crazy expensive cities :( im used to going to concerts on my own too !! like for ooo im going with a friend but usually i just go alone n make friends while queueing lol

yes my bias in ooo is kyubin ! like the second i saw him i was like yep thats him thats my man now im in love with him

n tbh yeah i love lightsticks ! i have cravitys (bought it last yr for kpop lux in madrid but never used it bc it got delivered too late :')) n tbz's (bought it when i was in seoul n it was like ½ the price compared to europe) n i also have the rose's old acrylic lightstick from their 2nd europe tour !! idt i'll buy onlyoneof's tho i'll just bring cravitys since its similar enough n i wont be near the stage anyways lol but i get u bc once u buy one lightstick its a point of no return like now everytime i go to a concert i need something to wave in my hands or i'll go insane 😭😭😭

tbh writers block is killing me rn its not even funny n i feel bad for not answering all the asks that have been rotting in my inbox for like more than a month but at the same time i want to ask for more thoughts bc nothing i already have has helped me with my writers block :(

very important announcement last night i had a dream where minhee was my bf ..

im not questioning my lesbianism over a stupid dream again i promise . atp what happens in my dreams stays in my dreams n has nothing to do with irl jo seongminiz :3 (yes im trying to convince myself)

AND he still had red hair im fr not getting over that ever